Friday, December 31, 2004

gdbye 2004, helloo 2005

sat in front of the tv for most of the day, there were really quite a few gd shows on today. but most imptly i watched quite a bit of news, mostly on the tsunami. its really heartwrenchin to watch the victims talk bout how they lost their whole families, how they tried to save their family members but to no avail.

right now im listenin to corfrinne may's cd in silent consolation to myself with regards to not being able to go listen to her at esplanade. darn ive been plannin it for so long.. bah.

its really amazin how fast this yr has been. suddenly im on the last day of the year that had me thrown in a rollercoaster of emotions. at the end of it all, i find myself holding on dearly to wad i believe in, n further away frm wad i decided that i wld dislike. and yet at the same time i found friends who have invaded my life in a way they never had. i had my share of wild fun, n my sombre moments too. had my fair share of tears, but i definitely laughed the hardest too. i reailse more than ever how blessed i am, n i really am thankful. i also know i must work hard so as nt to let my blessed soul go to waste.
i think of my future more than ever.
ive learnt how to deal with departures, because ppl dont stay with u all the time. but its ok as long as they've had a positive impact in ur life, bcoz tt impact stays on even after they're far away. although i prob would still cry, but ive learnt to look at it in a positive light. i just hope i dont cry too hard when my sis goes off.. hehs. if ur laughin at this hey ur evil.
ive learnt that im nt that invincible after all. im no longer who i used to be, even who i used to be wasnt that great anyway. i haf my fair share of failures n as always, it has humbled me.
i realise ive always had ppl 'lookin after' me all these while, been there for me when im down, help me with stuff, n i thank them for it.
i beileve my friendships have transcended to a level where we've gone beyond caring how she looks, whether she has spinach stuck in between her teeth, whether he jumps on a table n starts doing funny stuff, or whether she hugs a bolster to sleep everynight. i love my friends, i love my darlings, i love my limited scope of guy friends. ;)
i thank my parents for being so protective of me n giving me curfews (heh) n doing everythg to show that they really care.
and my sister for being so mean to me. well, sometimes. ;) i will nv forget that pinch that made that huge blue-black on my arm.

2005 will be a great yr.
to start it off, we shd all go watch 'one fine day'! i tink george clooney looks really gd in it... ;) n forget bout thsoe tutorials, will do it when sch starts.*winks

vjchoir rox.

being in vjchoir is a lifestyle. hey that really sums everythg up man. ;)

had farewell for our seniors. yeah the tealight session was really a very gd idea (whichever batch that came up with this idea) n i can just imagine myself talkin nxt yr. its must be the dark lighting n the candle flame.. makes u feel warm n fuzzy.
n i made a new resolution to frequent choir room more nxt yr. ;)
n now my hand smells of smoke bcoz we kept playin with fire. ;) me n mich had a gd time figurin out wad was the best way to light up the satay stick.

plenty of reflections n reminders going thru my head right now. will try to make the best out of wad we haf for nxt yr. ;)

Wednesday, December 29, 2004

five wks.

thats how long my leg is gonna be in cast for. bahh i hate crutches. its nt fun at all! u get really tired after a while.. n this funny feeling below ur armpits even when ur nt usin it.. im so gonna get dents in my body below my armpits. argh. my sis tinks its fun.. well. kids will be kids.

im glad my mum is around for me. if i had to do everythg myself today i tink i wld haf just did it really badly or smthg.. yeah i am dependent on others but hey its nt that i refuse to walk around n wait to be served, so it isnt that bad. im just grateful to my mum. n yeah i did tell her that ;)

i just spent three hours doing 16 cards for my choir seniors. im giving up.. no more cards! to tink i wanted to do for almost all the seniors.. maybe tmr morn. my hands are achin. or ill just get chocs heh.

i had macs at east coast after my hopspital trip this morn n i could taste the new rubber when i ate fries. now i'll haf to wash my hands before i eat. darn those rubber handles. rubber tastes awful.

anw my mum reminded me im goin on hols nxt sat. some beach resort at bintan. i'll haf to stay indoors or stay by the pool. aww no bikinis for me, darn. *pouts. haha.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

cranberries, baby.

i really like that cd ;D

just had whispers of the earth concert. hahah really didnt noe it really was THAT short, im sorry! haha. but hey the little kids were cute rite? hee. really miss my class ppl, but glad to see them today. ;)

my feet isnt gettin any better, in fact i tink its more purple now. n it actually hurts more, though i can walk better. am i contradictin myself? HM.

its such a blessin to live in singapore, to be far away frm all the disasters. n still be able to go for ice cream buffets n listen to my fav songs, see my fav ppl, sing, live in comfort, wear nice clothes. im blessed.
and i firmly believe that many things that happened durin my lifetime has pointed out my life's directions for me. i really tink i shd be doin smthg for the ppl(eg. be a doc), nt for myself(eg. be a businesswoman). but then again, all young ppl have idealistic dreams, n as much as i like being practical, i am ambitious and wan to be the best i can be. i wan to work in a hospital, then go off to some underdeveloped country and work for a few yrs before comin back.

there. my dreams. ;)
which doesnt (at present) include marriage/love/romance bcoz i have nt figured out how it will all fit in. when i do i'll update u guys.

Saturday, December 25, 2004

have yourself a merry little christmas ;)

carolin yesterday was gd, today was better. although i did tink the 15mins sessions at ritz was really crap, but oh well, 15mins is gd. besides, everyone was too busy eating fabulous food to be listenin to us anyway. its okay, i didnt really mind :)
felt like some scrooge receivin all the cards n nt givin out any. just thot that this yr i didnt feel it was appropriate to give any out. ok yeah, scrooge, but i really love my cranberries cd! thankss jiee ;) was really sad to read her letter bout her being with me no matter where she is. she just had to remind me that she's going away really soon n even tho sometimes she acts really 'pfft' i haf to treasure befores she leaves! haha. ;) n its really embarrassin but i found a pres without any name n i cant rem gettin it frm anyone.. this is bad.
thanks thanks to all seniors n frens for cards n all, thanks for all the encouragement n warm wishes, love u guys n treasure all the friendships. really!

for a moment i felt quite sad carollin was over. didnt feel relieved or anythg, just.. wow, its over. feels gd to see all the seniors come bck n sing/listen. really. will do it for many yrs to come ;)

Friday, December 24, 2004

blue feet n pink cookies.

thats the colour of my feet now.

anw my hp is actin funny. supposedly the messages sent are 'error' but actually some of them did get sent. so erm. i normally stop afer three errors but if u dont get the msg stil pls blame samsung.

oh n yesterday mich n gracia came over to my hse to bake cookies. we gave up on the toffee apple idea, simply bcoz we cannt find the fudge that hardens. anw we were all so tired after that we all slept in the cab. we had nice pink icings on the cookies, although we didnt haf time to wait for all to harden so lk mary's was all smudged up heh. but hers was the biggest n had the most icing muaha.
n once again can i emphasize the point that if u get diarrhoea, its betty crockers' fault. okayy?
anw besides the big cookies we had smaller cookies for everyone too, with pink smiley faces on them. offered one to jeremy n he had this stupid expression on his face that he couldnt bite it down. then gracia asked him hows the cookie n he said 'its okay, just that u haf to bite.' qianbian statement #1.

and i truly believe that we shd all enjoy(or at least pretend to, it is a performance after all) carollin however tiring it is. yes lets make it even better with no flops but even if there is just take it as lesson learnt? and i really tink im quite proud of the yr ones n yr zeros (n so far some yr twos) i see carollin everyday, that IS itself dedication to choir n we shd be proud AND thankful for that. n of coz for the fact that bridge now practically binds the whole choir together i tink. tenors sops n altos. poor basses. ;)

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

dang.

on my dad's com now n everythg's chinese. how cool. i haf a cousin stayin over so he's usin the com room.

ritz today was ok. i felt gd. although i still feel that its high injustice that gowns dont haf pockets to put pitchpipe n bring notes.

the marble steps at raffles are evil. repeat after me 'the steps are evvill'.
yeah i fell down.
bang bang boom.
my butt hurts. ive got two bruises on my hips, n one big bumb on my leg. i feel lk a bruised woman everytime i sit down. all i can think of is that this is a very bad timing.. darn.
oh well im strong.
evil steps.
whinesss.

carollin, baby.

heh ok i'll try to make the next carollin session better k! by xmas day ill be really gd conductin carols, woohoo. ;) sorry to all the seniors who came down n couldnt hear wad song we gonna sing n the note. n ill try to stop dancin arnd so u guys can see me.. which already is quite difficult i tink. hm. someone donate higher heels to me..

after our carollin session at ritz last nite we walked over to raffles. yes, via marina square, citylink, raffles city. yes, in our gowns. yes, in a superfastwalkin speed coz we haf long legs (dont u already know that?).
n yes, we were mad. ahha.

anw im tired. but glad carollin has started which means its goin to be over soon. ill try my best to enjoy it, of coz i really enjoy the company, so i guess that makes it better. n we're so gonnna make toffee apples, stayover or nt, ha!

Monday, December 20, 2004

have yourself, a merry little christmas.

xmas is just around the corner! yeah i dont celebrate xmas, but its gd to know that soon ill stop seein the choir peeps every single day.. ;)

man without a paddle is hilarious. so was ocean's twelve (swoons at george clooney although brad pitt was so hot in the movie u cant really ignore him but oh well GEORGE! :) n heres a subtle indictation that ive spent too much money, yup.

and cip at ps with gracia yesterday was great. besides the part that after we bought lunch there were so many gifts to be wrapped we didnt get to eat until bout 5plus. by then our beehoon n noodles had gone really oily, yucks. but it was fun. i had two disasters, n gracia had to erm, correct them ;) i feel quite bad if teh person's watchin, but hey i wrapped a few nice pres too! n im much better than gracia at promotin stuff heh. n i HATE two ppl bridge i kept losin. bah.

carollin starts tmr, hooray.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

hmm.

okay im evil. i ranted at gab, but hey i was being honest. i dont normally get honest with ppl bout how i feel bout choir bcoz obviously i cant. and i always try to get out of tricky situations by givin the excuse that im woman. hey i hated carolin last yr. yet i sang for all five days.
anw im glad gab ranted back at me. ;)

anw anw anw, tmr's gonna be a nice day! hospital attachment, cip with gracia at ps, then carolin with vc at esplanade at nite. ;)

Monday, December 13, 2004

i dont need ur show of attitude

i feel quite bad. me n gracia were supposed to pick mary up frm airport(r u reading this??) but we erm decided a movie wld be good so we ended up watchin national treasures to pass time n when we got to terminal one we only got to see an empty conveyor belt. we tried our luck at the foodcourt upstairs but nah. we had popeye chicken for dinner tho. im so horrible! after tryin so hard to get samuel's number n all i cant even see her. bahh. my mum keeps tellin me how lousy i am but hey, at least i was honest with my mum.. told her i was supposed to be studyin with gracia hee. mary im soo sorry! ;(

anw we had a damn funny train ride. oh gosh i tink the ppl thot we were mad.
lesson no. 1: if u ever marry someone with surname ong, nv name ur son with the initials T.H. because his army nametag will read T.H.ONG. n trust me, ppl cant stop laughin. i was tearing..frm tryin nt to laugh too loud.
ok so i dont haf a lesson no. 2. :)

went back tk choir. i had this idea of persuadin ms lim that hey we still care bout the choir n all, so pls dont drop tk choir after all these years. but when i saw how hard ms lim was tryin n how lousy they really were, i just didnt haf the heart to. on the contrary, i fully understand why ms lim wld wan to drop tkchoir. although she insists she wont. the sound was bad, they cant read their music very well, supposedly the music was given to them bout a month ago already n they still cant get the notes n entries rite. one thg commendable was that they seemed quite bonded. thats gd, really. but none of them were interested in me this laozabo standin up there. i just felt my old domineerin self rise up in me again when i saw how they dealt with everythg, n i really cldnt resist being nosey. im sorry! maybe its the green, *shrugs*
okay so let me complain for a while.
i stepped into tk n i saw the circular lawn. it was so unkempt! the grass was long n u cld see all the weeds. n we, old girls, had to get visitors' pass. WTH. hey im on MY territory n i haf to get passes to walk arnd. honestly, im nt an intruder lah, this was once my plc too, u really didnt haf to treat us lk strangers n trespassers. BAH. yah cool, spend money on renovatin the general office n forget bout the welfare of sch.
ok im done now its time for me to slp.
i keep pesterin gabriel about carollin stuff i tink he's gettin irritated. but hey i cant help it.. i haf to rite? hee ;)
n i still feel bad bout mary. ;(

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

i am snow white.

for a very long time i sat before my com, thinkin of what i want to write, or rather, how shd i go about talkin bout this.

lets just say im happy i talked to kiat n owen today on my way home. i really am! besides the fact that they were giving me crappy ideas on how to waste time durin carollin (idea no. 1: have carolin/standup comedy. get a crappy emcee to talk bout the songs to fill up long intervals. idea no.2:get a conveyor belt of conductors, n take ur time to change conductor after every song.) i think they just heightened my spirits bout carolin. i dont care if they're bluffing me.. actually i do but hey its the thot that counts!
they tried to bluff me that we were going to watch movie n i nearly stepped up the escalator. okay, i did, then i sorta ran down before it took me up. evil peoplee. n they kept feeding me with lies. after a while i got really confused. pfft.

just wrote an email to rach, just felt lk writin one. miss her. n rosh n nab.

hey okay. ive decided. im going to make toffee apples WITH GRACIA as xmas pres for choir peeps. n if u decide to visit me on xmas day pls let me noe ill make one for u too! i dont care if snow white died of a poisonous apple my toffee apple is gonna be deliciouss yumyum lick lips. get the idea? haha. u better be droolin..
i havent thot of writing xmas cards. usually im quite efficient about this, but this yr i dont haf the urge. im sorry my dearest friends.

popcorn in 12 flavours. sounds gd ;)
ohoh i took neoprints today. my eyes looked big muahah. must be the eyeliner whee eyeliner rox.

Sunday, December 05, 2004

th'angel to the virgin said

felt lk i havent been online for ages. but actually mich reminded me that my last entry was just thursday. ;) had two weeks of choir(almost everyday, until late night) it was driving me abit nuts. i need my slp! i still do. i sleep wherever i can. n im nt so addicted to bridge now, after playin with gracia's dirty cards which totally stinks. gracia better provide gloves with her cards for the next game. haha.

had performance with sco n vc for christmas concert today. we were looking at all the vc guys going crazy singin the girls' part for carolin, n gracia was commentin thats how our guys will look lk ten yrs down the road. then i commented i wld much rather they be sittin down playin bridge.. heh. ;)

anw i haf some hair follicle infection n it was achin quite badly yesterday. much better now, but i still cant believe ive got hair follicle infection. sounds too.. funny to be true.

ho ho ho merry christmas n gong xi fa cai!
i need my slp see i told u.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

its my LIFE!!!

haha call me silly but i got all excited when i saw sly real life again. he looked so good! haha. okay yes there were taufik's eyelashes as well but hey, sly looks good k! anw my toes r aching, my back is achin, my hair is wet (i had to wash them twice to get all the spray off) n i haf 12 hair clips from jeanyip which they had used to pin my hair. HOWCOOLISTHAT.

i haf sly's autograph oh my mediacorp pass. i haf his badge which they gave out durin the concert. i haf his poster frm lime. im mad.

haha. i didnt even give a shit bout the other idols. nt even when chrissypoo came over n all the girls were lk ' AHH can i get ur autograph?' i was rollin my eyes. heh. hey he's a big flirt! i dont lk big flirts. he'll just come up to u n talk to u. he thinks his charm can rub off me but NOO i wont let that happen.
although my boyfriend shd be able to serenade me with that kind of voice wahaha.

the choir ppl were mobbin the idols n askin them for autographs n pictures since we share the same makeup room n we meet them backstage n all.

am really happy. although they pulled my hair back n give me orange lipstick, its okay. was as good as being in the concert ;)

Sunday, November 28, 2004

there she goess.

bought two cds today. one for my sis- delovely, n it came with a complimentary poster! how nice. haha. see im so nice i give her XMAS pres AHEM i already told her wad i wan liao. heh heh.
i bought myself sixpence none the richer. i chose it over alicia keys, i dont really know why, but hey, sixpence shd be quite lasting. alicia keys will have more hits ill just wait for her 'the best of alicia keys' heh.
did cip with eug the whole afternoon. bah. n for once i felt intimidated by this girl whom i tink is frm acjc. boo her.

hm okay. this fantastic fren of mine is tellin me he might have cancer. he had been in hospital the past wk n has lost 14kg bcoz he's nt eating anythg, he just keeps throwin up his food. he's just a fren i see online occassionally but we'll have these really nice conversations. i hope he's gonna be alright.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

just no other way

heyho. had one whole day of choir, n it was wonderful. hm right now im feeling that my life can never be better. well im easily contented. thats good isnt it ;)

had tea party, which really turned out better than i expected. u noe, ppl normally dread these thgs just in case no one's sporting but haha, 'hello im mariam frm tkgs *big grin*' heh. well at least the yr zeros had tea. tts gd. n some ppl got all wet even before the party started.
n i had to eat some shite green thg which i highly suspect was wasabe. but tts better than mustard-tobasco-wasabe-tap water, isnt it?
n i ate one n a half bun. darn. its all gracia's fault!
i made the girls who came for my audition sing 'joy to the world'. it was meant as a sabo, as i fondly rem how i sang my sch song last yr. heh well, tts bcoz none of them knew the tune to 'the first nowell'. lousyy.

then i went beach with mich n gracia. in the really hot sun. when i say hot, i mean hot. haha im so sorry mich for fightin with gracia over directions, which ended up wrong, pls go to the beach with me again! ahha. i promise i wont try to gif directions again... :D

then we had carollin at singapore swimming club. met rosh there :) although i didnt get to meet her bcoz she was too busy bowling with ppl *bleah* n refuse to pick up my phone. hurmph its ok. :) haha anw im glad we did so much better for our second performance, who cares if no one was really listening, this woman was cryin out 'bravo!' ahha anyone heard? :) it really meant a lot to pick up after a nt-so-fantastic performance. for once, everyone was serious about carols, which i cldnt haf higher praise for. whee.
n of coz to my fantastic bing who is a sop2-to-be. i was the only poor sop 2, but its ok lah. they cant tell the dif anyway. poor may just gave in to the temptation of singin high notes.
me n eug were having hell of a time with the smoke n balloons, muaha. ;)

my life is really quite nice. im happy n satisfied.

im really silly enough to tink tt bing wont ask me to sing for sdd. me n my silly suspicions. bleah. :) even tho sheena n others kept askin me. bahh. i feel much better now yeahh.

i nearly lost my qantas cards. u noe, the deck that has travelled with me to germany n back? n accompanied many other choir peeps in our germanbridge craze. hai. fond memories. anw i had to walk into a really dark lt ava to switch on the lights, only to find a lt with food, teabags, n lotsa chocs wahaha. n of coz my missin cards. but hey i was brave to conquer my fear of dark. im really scared of the dark. im still scared of cats. which is out of the point.

okay im really tired. tmr got cip at *cringe* funan it mall with eug. if i had known its a slack thg i wld haf chose a hippier plc. but sigh i thot we cld haf slacked at funan it mall :X oh wells.

oh happy day :)
heyy mich skate on monday!

Friday, November 26, 2004

hand in my pocket

by alanis morissette. well one line caught me, which is 'im short but im healthy, yeah'. muaha.

lets see. i tink im turnin into some bridge freak, everytime i get together with the choir peeps i go 'bridge!!' haha. n i forgot how fun it is to play german bridge with adrian, that silly goose who makes everyone bao. anw the guys were so jealous of me winnin german bridge they tried to reverse the winnin process n make u lose bigger. alas, i was still the ultimate winner :) i kept writin stars beside my score muaha. ben kept callin us compulsive gamblers, well i guess he just figured readin a book makes him look more intellectual, that jap beng. pfft.
bridge rox!

haf got tea party tmr. then some carollin session at singapore swimmin club. gonna be out the whole day, n poor me will haf to go home myself bcoz my parents will be at some concert for which my sis is the pianist. ;(

shawn keeps askin me for directions in the east, which is a pretty unfortunate thg for him since im his only eastern fren n i happen to be really bad with directions n takin buses. so i had to keep askin my sis or smthg. but i always reply him late n by the time i reply he's already there. heh. :)

went macRitchie reservoir today while waitin for my sis. ok, i haf absolutely no idea why couples lk to go there. yeah ok, its dark,but its cold! n theres nthg much to look at except trees n still water. one van was parked beside our car n i tink there was a couple makin out inside there..the van was still runnin. but u cldnt see anythg coz tbey blocked the windows. ;)
anw im sure there are more interestin stuff couples do other than make out at ulu dark cold places rite?

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

my best friends weddin

oh george. see all cool ppl are called george! eg. george clooney *swoons ahha. n george in my best friend's wedding.
actually ive never really watched the whole movie in full length, either that or i cant rem. i really felt i could identify with julia roberts' character, which was scary, bcoz i dont wan to be an old hag. oh no. hahaha :)

anw. smthg happened today that prompted me to write this.

10 things i dislike:
1. LIARS. why cant u just freakin tell the truth?
2. pretentious ppl. i tink they're more scary than anythg actually, u nv noe who they are.
3. wishy washiness. just make the decision, quick!
4. flambuoyant ppl. sigh y do they lk to show off so much.. humility is gd.
5. bad breath. yux
6. body odour. yux yux.
7. high tech gadgets. haha. im technophobic. in other words, im a com dino.
8. CATS.
9. guys. (haha)
10. CURFEWS *ahem*MUM*
haha okayy so the last few were quite crap. but hey, im tryin to make up for the numbers..
anw. on a happier note.

10 things i love
1. those i love. ;) all my darlings out there, my family too.
2. yellow. muaha.
3. earrings. heh the other day i counted i haf 20+ pairs.. hee.
4. being a woman. the vanity, the way we talk, feminism.
5. having a good workout. but i really hate runnin unless its with frens or theres nice scenary.
6. i dont wanna miss a thg
7. jump for my love :)
8. ren xing.
9. i really lk my personal space. u cant take tt away frm me!
10. george clooney?? haha. okay. ill setttle for the likes of him then. ;)

cant be bothered to play warcraft. some other day larh. goin for surgery observation tmr. hope it'll be gd.
saw rai in sch today. she showed me hari raya pics n i gave her a quick update on my hols so far. i miss my girlfriends! ;(

Monday, November 22, 2004

before i fall in love

sing idol. here i come.
its so cold at the studio. but it was NOT fun learnin the songs. basically we were all just gettin frozen. towards the end my lips got quite blue.. haha. freaky. :)
but hey i saw sly n taufik. sly walked past me while we were walkin up the stairs; he was walkin down. i didnt see him coz i wasnt looking.. until i looked down n saw his hair. then we were waitin outside when taufik came. he said hi to us. gosh he has such beautiful eyes! but still i cant believe i didnt see sly. boo. haha. no may dont be rude n stick out ur tongue at him! pfft.

finally talked to rosh on the phone, after so long! ;) missed her so. n rach too! n nab.
n i miss being arnd with my class ppl.
at least im still playin bridge ;D but its nt the same! haha. im losing..

so open up mornin light, n say a lil prayer for i. u noe tt if we're to stay alive, then see the peace in every eye.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

mrs incredible

yeshh thanks lucas for sayin i look lk mrs incredible. infact, any girl with my kind of hair looks lk mrs. incredible. but mrs. incredible is indeed, erm, superwoman. anw i thot the credits at the end of the movie was very well done ;) n i love the baby. muaha. it was hilarious.

i need to go shoppin, i want to go shoppin. loaded of coz. its painful to walk past rows of shops with the sign SALE without actually goin inside to haf a look/
and i wan new specs! heh. my now specs has specks (hey rhymes) on the lens. its quite irritatin to look at the world with dots in your vision.
n i saw the christmas lightup already. gosh i must have said the word 'ugly' a thousand times. for the last time, i think its ugly. haha. im sorry, whoever did the designs. wld love to go watch the baskers tho.

going mediacorp tmr for some sing idol thg. :)we're helpin to sing this song which american idol composed to for sing idol, 'i dream'. well basically we'll just be going 'oohhhh ahhhh. i dream. oooh ahhh. i dream.'
:D

Saturday, November 20, 2004

作文

for rach n mary.
没有任何时准备,突然停电我一个人呆在漆漆的房间里,黑暗就象个突如其来的雾气笼罩了我, 使我伸手不见五指. 只听见风扇"哧哧"的声音,也因为停电的关系而节奏越来越慢,渐渐地因为时间的过去而停止了转动.我因为怕暗,很不想离开房间一步,便小心翼翼地走到窗口前把窗口给打开了,好让月光照亮着我房里的黑暗.
啊,今晚的月亮好漂亮,迷人.浅黄色的它悬挂在灰漆的天空.周围也有闪烁的星星;星星的力量似乎扶持着月亮,使月亮显得更明,更美丽.
虽然我的世界顿时被这停电而停止了,但我窗外的世界并没有放慢速度. 路上的车子快速的驾驶仿佛显示了我们新加坡这风驰电掣的生活方式,那"什么都要最好,最快"的怕输心理.我不禁想到了两位因为不想再受新加坡教育制度的压力而离开了本国到外国去读书的好友,心里就浮起了一种酸苦的味道,好难过.
和我一起度过中学最愉快的时光,是静敏.记得她离开的那一天,大家都忍着泪不哭,一直到她的背影消失了我们才真正地领会到她的离开,热泪才夺眶而出.玛丽是我在初级学院合唱团的好友.经过一次的出国比赛经验,我们俩和其他两位朋友已成为知己,有许多在一起快乐和悲伤的记忆.她离开的那一天,我的哭泣声最大,现在想起也有几份难堪,但当时就是无法控制自己的情绪.一想到我们四个人党已成为了历史,心里就很难受.
我就这样在深黑的夜里,望着窗外的明月眷恋着我这两位身在美国的好友.他们现在究竟在做什么?她们脸上的表情是如何呢?她们此时此刻,是快乐的吗?
她们看到的月亮,是否和我看到的一样,是个明月,美丽,而充满着深情和许多回忆的月亮?
但此刻,月亮光滑敞两的表层似乎是因为用了我的泪水来使光滑的.这面月亮,能把我思念她们的笑声与友情传递给她们吗?
若我们所看到的月是一样的月亮,那我们之间的距离不会相差太远吧.不管窗外的车有多吵唦,世界有多残酷,我们还是能因为还有这份友情而坚持的生活下去,因为有了彼此我们能很快乐地在我们自己的小世界里寻找快乐,幸福,而不要对外界有太多的顾虑.
then i ran out of time. haha wad follows was my not-so-successful attempt to link it back to the topic. ;)
yeah i was tinkin whether i shd post this on my blog since its quite embarrassin to show how i wrote so out of point, but honestly im quite proud of this.
rem the day rach had to go bck to newyork n i was stuck in lt5 writing this shite?? yeah. tts where my inspiration came from. ;)

anw today i heard quite a few nice songs on radio. i lovee willian su's 男人不该让女人流泪. :) its such a sweet song. n for a moment u tink, hey y is it so difficult to get a nice guy? bcoz there simply arent enough to go arnd. ill wait. ;)
n paula cole's i dont wanna wait.
i dont wanna wait, for our lives to be over. i want to noe right now what will it be. i dont want to wait for our lives to be over. will it be yes or will it be..sorry?

bridge bridge bridge. :) i cant believe i kept losin today! n we played with no morals hahaha. esp mayling lah tsktsk. but yeah it was fun. we make choir prac look lk some gambling den. woohoo.

Friday, November 19, 2004

the frozen throne.

hahaha. i just played warcraft. spent like thirty mins in reign of chaos tryin to find the prophet, then got bored of buildin camps bcoz i realised im nt playin dota, then died in lk five mins as archer the blue warden. so i stopped playin. hahah.
but hey, im a potential player. whee. ;)
only anw i talked to brandon last nite. he managed to stumble across internest access in thailand! ahha. he was the one who lent me warcraft anw.

tuition was boring.
n its a damn cold night.
i lengthened my msn nic. its a first! its frm 'drops of jupiter' dont ask y i chose such an old song. i just like it.

warcraft warcraft.
bridge bridge bridge! ahah. gracia just called me n i was lk 'lets play bridge tmr!' ahha. its addictive.. n i forgot how to play german bridge!! how could i have right. thats y, i need to play it again *wide grin*

weather's really cold right now. makes u sing funny songs in ur heart. like 'i wanna grow old with youu'.
makes u feel like watchin love actually! i feel it in my fingerss, i feel it in my toess. chrisstmass all around me. c'mon n let it snowww. ;D

oh n i cant believe sly didnt get out. hey dont look at me, i didnt vote! ;)

Thursday, November 18, 2004

chubby bunny!

taufik shd win sing idol. sigh sly was really disappointing.
n hey, guess who'll be there on the first with the idols??? ;D

anw, class chalet was fun. the terrace is quite a nice plc, poolside one.
we waddled in the 0.3m deep pool, n none of us got wet except for one big blok who slipped n fell straight into the pool ahha.
n the girls revisited our childhood fantasties. we played in the ball pit.. u noe those ezone slides n balls? haha. we were having fun climbin up n down n slidin down. until this mother asked me how come my holiday started so soon, wasnt it supposed to be this fri?? i tink she thot we were pri sch kids or smthg... haha. then adibah shouted out 'pasir ris pri rox!' '6B!!' muaha.
oh n we all had one coloured ball each. wide grin.
and i found bridge kakis! haha. we spent the whole nite playin bridge like nobody's business. at first i was on a winnin streak, honestly my cards never looked so good. until brandon kept choosin me as his partner. n i thot guys were supposed to be good at bridge.. haha apparently nt. ;)
oh we walked to the beach. there were alot of stars! gosh i nv saw that many stars in singapore before. the sky was so clear, it was gorgeous. too bad we cldnt lk, lie down on the grass n stargaze. we sat on the road n enjoyed the freezing cold air. until it got too cold for some of them to bear. ;) was nice when it lasted.
i came home n i slept the whole afternoon through.
haha oh n ill nv forget how fun chubby bunny can get. haha. all the white vomit, yucks. six big ones are the record :)

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

想通了就不哭了

went back sat to see my aunt, but ended up not getting to see her.
was over at malaysia the whole weekend till today to attend her funeral. i just hope the two boys will be ok. her eldest son, thinkin tt she was okay, just went back aust for exams so he cant make it down for the funeral at all.
my second aunt n some of my relatives were on this company trip n so they werent informed. my cousin read the newspapers n called us, she was crying. then she came down all the way frm malacca by herself.
read buddhist scriptures for the first time.
the whole funeral was kept very simple.
just felt quite sad when i see my grandma cryin over the coffin. or my aunts.

i am still worried.
gd thg i can still pursue wad i want.
was momentarily lost for a while. i felt lk i didnt noe wad i was doing, where i was goin frm here.
i dunno, its scary when u tink of such stuff, but (i tink), now i know better wad kind of person i wanna be. the kind of life i wanna have.
n im gonna get it.
for now i just wan everyone arnd me to be safe n healthy.

Friday, November 12, 2004

whee.

okayy i tink my pic is gone.. haha.

nab i got ur emaiL! ;) ahha. so nice to hear frm ur old frens. we are all such old ppl. lets go play mahjong!!

brought kids to animal resort today. wah.
they're really adorable. i took the nursery kids, and surprisingly they're quieter than the kidergarten ones. at least they werent poking me at funny places n stuff haha. only this girl ariel who was asking if we haf flowers on our singlets bcoz she has ahha.
n there was this boy who were so afraid of all the chickens runnin arnd he didnt wan to move frm his spot. so i stayed with him n tried talkin to him. we talked bout seasame street, big bird, n cookie monster. ;) n i tried askin him bout winnie the pooh but he doesnt like it ahhaha sorry adibah.
anw they wanted to feed the goat but it was resting at some other place, so the kids lined up at the fence and shouted 'goat!! goatyy!! goat! ' ahah so cute!!
n why are there so many brandons in this world?? haha. this small brandon was sunbathing with his sis's shades. wahaha. brandons..
after today ive decided, hey ill still have kids, but not a busload of them. me n eug cldnt even hear her discman.. n well, we didnt get to bcoz they were all clamouring over it after they saw us with it. n i had to play 'vampire' n the 'wo men shang, wo men xia' game with them. muaha. they were all quite well brought up lah. not alot of spoilt kids. thats gd.

my dearest sis is strong! she went for op for her wisdom tooth. now she's without wisdom.
anw she let me play with her hair. FFinally wads long hair if u dont let ppl play with it?? but i suspect she was still under anaestatic so i better play with it before she loses it.. heh. :)
but yeah, she is strong. :)

yippee goin rosh's hse tmr. ;)

Thursday, November 11, 2004

happy girl.

im proud of my purchases today ;) went shoppin at junction 8 with my parents while waiting for my sis to finish work. hey the shoppin mall is quite funny, u can get lost in it.. haha. i did. ;) anw i had a gd time spending my dad's money, woohoo. ;) finally i haf newer clothes to wear. ahha.

learnin journey tmr. bringing kids to animal farm. i hate lookin at animals. boo. but the kids part shd be quite fun ;)

n i finally got an email frm rach :)

happy diwali!! to roshh. ;)

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

ikea!

drew my own henna today. haha. nt too bad for a first attempt lahh. :)

went ikea today. on the way there some indian guy passed me by n said 'gOod eVeniNg sExy lAdy' oh god i wanted to kill him. hello i was in jeans n tee lah. if i wore a skirt he wld have wad, nosebled?
anw.
ikea have got very nice stuff! haha. n i ate the meatballs there. i thought they tasted quite familiar, only to realise that my mum had bought meatballs from there n ive been eating them for quite some time at home. ;)

haha im so gonna marinate the chicken for our class chalet. n cook.
n i still dont understand why we have to melt the chocolate (for some banana thing) if we can get nutella!?

oh god how can i forget bout ogl interview.
lets just say i didnt know wad i was doing.
n oh, i forgot our sch cheer n how to dance mass dance. ;)
heh. oh well. ;)

Monday, November 08, 2004

paper dosai n onion rawa.

haha went lil india with rosh today. ;) was really lookin forward to goin out with her! n of coz all the buys at lil india
haha i bought quite a bit of stuff. :) am goin to diy my own henna! ahha was searchin for pics online just now, rosh was helpin too. but didnt really find much. i saw the butterfly bing drew for me last time!

hm lets see. we went lil india n first thg we did was buy one dollar coconut. but u cldnt even eat the flesh. then we saw nice earrings! haha. it was green, n it matched wad i was wearin. so i bought it. three bucks wad a steal.. ahha.
i was lookin out for earrings for bing! but didnt see the ones she wanted. well hey there are lots there go check it out ;)
ate at komalas villas.
walked to bugis! haha we were trying to navigate our way around singapore. okay okay, i was just following rosh wherever she went. haha. i cant tell for nuts whether we were walkin in the right direction or not. ;D

muacks i love rosh.
n we bought nur's bdae pres! finally..
:)

Sunday, November 07, 2004

n you can tell everybody, this your song.

ok too bad i cldnt blog on fri.
we had class dinner. i ate until i really wanted to puke, but i didnt eat alot. went off quite early coz i had to go malaysia the nxt morning

only came back a few hours ago. went to visit my aunt.
i didnt noe she was still in a semi coma state. n she was really just skin n bones. you really feel quite helpless around her, because you dont really know what she wants. whenever she shows discomfort, where is she feelin the pain?
but basically she was quite alright.
until we came back. just before we wanted to go into marina sq my dad got a call sayin she passed out blood. so she got admitted into hospital.
u shd see my third aunt's face. she was so sad. she ran out of leave days.. so today was basically her last day to see her unless anythg else happens.
her son was supposed to go bck aust tmr after much hussle over delayin his exam papers n stuff since she was already 'gettin better'. now i really dont noe wad he's goin to do.
hm.

anw i cant hold my liquor. i had some red date chicken over there n it was cooked with some wine or smthg. after eatin it i slept for two hrs straight. my sis cldnt wake me up to go shoppin. ha.

am waitin for rosh's call now. serangoon road. ;)

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

我的爱

haha okayy. i spent lk twenty minutes trying to figure out how to type chinese, n i cant rem how. grr.
很好! 哈哈我知道了。 although i tink it looks quite different from last time but ah, nvm. ;)

anw. pw is officially over. im so throwing confetti into the air.. :)
was good working with my pw mates.
haha alvin is such a blurblok. we paginated the file, n one hr later he comes n say he didnt put in stuff. n unluckily its at the top of the file.. so he had to repaginate everything by himself, coz we werent in sch anymore. poor thg. haha.

oh darn. is alvin still alive?? hahaha. ;)

i thot it was quite funny how sianghan n rai clicked so well. they really looked very funny and silly fighting over who saw the numbers first.
n i helped eug n rai tie french braids! haha. although i tried for 7 times on eug's hair before i got it right. but it did look nice! hey who's nxt?

n oh. do u noe, i haf a fren called roshni, and shes very beautiful. yes interested parties pls divert ur attention to her blog or smthg. ;D hahaha. no lah im serious. so interested parties pls let me know. i can help arrange dates. ;D
haha anw im quite excited about going little india on mon with her! to buy diwali stuff. i lovee goign little india. im gonna wear all my bangles n big earrings. woohoo. compete with all the indians there.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

ole, pw's over.

haha. i spoke too fast for my op ;) and they asked stupid questions which i didnt really know how to ans. but im okay with it. its over! yeah okay, file is almost done too. phew i wont miss pw man. it was a waste of my time. there i've said it! ;)

i rem wanting to add one more person to my 'to-kill' list. cant rem who now.. n why. hmm.
haha amir is still on the top of my list, dont worry.
julian's going to die anyway, so i dont haf to bother myself with tt. ;) ahha actually u see my classmate is doing some short film n he's in it, n he has to die. ha. n apparently my pic is going to be in the film, but for pretty obscure reasons. for the psychopath.. haha. well at least my face is inside! haha.
so that leaves only alvin.. muaha*evil laughter*. he's dying really soon bcoz after we hand in our gpf, there he goes.
haha okay. dont think im gettin morbid, im just ridding the world of its evil people. making the world a better place.. for you and for me and the entire human race.

went vienna boy's choir concert today. haha sat in the same row as eug! ;)
i think the poor boys are sick. a few kept coughing and touchin their nose. one even ran out in the middle of the concert.
first half was quite erm, nt too gd. their sound came out better in the second half.
they (surprisingly) sang the best version of chan mali chan (ever) for encore.
they are pretty overrated but they do have a good sense of music. good technique too but quite messy sometimes. but they charge really high prices, which i dont really think is erm, deserving.

sigh. i was damn angry at a fren just now when alvin told me to be a bit more understanding. sigh yeah maybe i shd. but it still seems quite irresponsible to me. im nt complainin about doing all the work, but why should i make everything so nice for you so that you can go do whatever you want and come late and still get it done the easy way?? not say im damn free and damn enthu about pw. but yeah ok. u need a life. ill try to understand. *breathess.
bahh.

Monday, November 01, 2004

have you ever linked anna kournikova to omega??

tts my opening line for my oral presentation tmr. whee its finally going to be over. OVER.
actually minus the doing of sources, which i dont really give a hoot anymore. hm ok actually i still do hee.
i dont care if i stutter tmr. its going to be OVER.

haha i walked home with a certain alien with big eyes today. been a long time since ive walked home with yj. some smart alec told me 'walk lah, i got umbrella'. well barely halfway across the bridge it started raining, and it got really heavy. we were arguin who's to blame if any of us is to be sick the nxt day. he complained he was drenched, but hey, i wasnt very dry either!
haha i was just thinkin.. i bet alot of girls would die to be in my shoes. :) haha ok, i was wearing slippers. but u get the idea. to me he's just some alien, really. haha.
n maybe i shd add him on my list to kill, he's a pest!

i was rehearsing my script just now. i decided on cue cards, even tho i doubt i can read my own handwriting ;) well. the cards are yellow! couldnt resist..

pw be over pw be over pw be over.
poof!
oh yes n im supposed to mention roshni. :) hello darling

Sunday, October 31, 2004

i keep on falling, in n out.

hm my parents went malaysia today to see my aunt. basically she really isnt doing too well, in semi-coma. my cousin frm aust is flying in tonight just to see her, despite his exams coming soon or smthg.
my dad was telling me how her house was very noisy and all. alot of kids and they were basically treating the place like some chalet. yeah ok, the house does look like some nice resort but hello, cant you have some respect for my aunt?? oh man if i was there i'll just have told them all to keep quiet.
aniwae im tryin to make myself free next week so we can go in anytime the need arises.
not going langkawi anymore. but no loss lah. the beach will always be there.
ive kinda always knew tt she doesnt have much time left, but you know. we never really want to think that it actually is happening.
so yeah that kinda sums up my day.

Saturday, October 30, 2004

walking thermometer.

thats wad my mum is. she's a walking thermometer. my sis was down with a bit of cold, and was feeling slightly feverish. my mum touched her hand and went 'hmm yeah. 37.5degrees.' hahaha.

anw my mum didnt noe it was my diary she found. :) she thot it was empty. heh.

wo zhen de hui jiang hua yu!

cloudburst.

we're gonna sing that for our concert next year! honestly the other day i was just dreaming about singing this song... quite funny how it came true. i let out a huge gasp when nelson said it, ahha quite embarrassing. ;) but oh well. heyy next year our concert is gonna be at esplanade must come and support us k?!
choir with nelson was gd.
carolling will be fine. hm.

i hate the feeling when i feel ive got to beat the odds. i take a deep breath and tell myself i'll get through this. hey i noe i prob can still stick my head up high and look really arrogant and heck-careish, but everytime it happens i really dread dealing with it.
but i still do.
n it didnt turn out too bad. so tts gd.

good thing nelson was nice today. ;)

and as usual we had our laughs today. even with only the three of us it feels quite nice just sitting at the starbucks table. mich was saying it reminded her of germany. haha nah, nthg can beat the cold weather, yummy (and expensive) ice cream, n those musicians whom we didnt tip!

anw my aunt isnt doing too well. she gave everyone a scare when she didnt wake up this morn bcoz she took a sleeping pill last night. anw shes waken since, but really weak. my parents are going in tmr to go see her. i really hope her son gets to see her in time. i hope it wont be too bad.

i hid my diary under my bed. i found it on the bed today after my mum changed the sheets. great.

aniwaee NO gosh im sounding like a grumpy gnome. brr. im sorry maybe its the weather. ;)
maybe its bcoz i havent had dinner. :D

Friday, October 29, 2004

and that laugh, that wrinkles your nose

it touches my foolish heart.. ;)
cold rainy days just make u feel buble'ly, dont you think?

aniwae chinese lessons are finally over.
op second rehearsal today wasnt too bad. haha yes i should try to speak s.l.o.w.e.r. but generally im quite proud of my presentation. ;) our op has got to be the simplest kind around, but we're really not too bad ;) yeahh. vj051 rocks.

oh today after chinese we were sitting in the canteen trying to fill up our ogl forms. ahha i dont think ive laughed so much this wk :D i koped all of alvin's ideas for the ogl form muaha. my idea for the theme: the song tt nv ends.. heehee. alvin's was wad, the place tt binds us all? then i suggested he draw glue, scotch-tape, n tt blockhead really went to draw, although really, he should just pay me money to teach him how to draw proper glue bottles. his drawing looked lk.. (according to sianghan) the other areas (am i correct? hee). nic's theme was warcraft lah, like playing lan isnt enough to satisfy their cravings to be big-time nerds in front of coms.
and all the time we were rackin our brains amir was being EVIL. i was trying to murder him with my penknift but you see, my pen knife is yellow is pretty precious to me. ;)
ohoh. *SHH* i have a secret plan!
this is my list of who to kill. *shh!*
1. Amir. all the stupid jokes bout yellow(U FREAKING RACIST muaha) and wad scrubbing(bah!) go use facial wash n let ur face drop off!!
2. Julian. haha honestly i cant rem y i said i wanted to kill him, but nvm, since i'm nt the only one who wants him dead. apparently adibah would love to do him in too.
3. Alvin phuaa. This guy together with liren is really my 'no. 1' fan. forever saying gd stuff bout me. hey be lucky im keeping you alive until after op! hahaha.
GRR. haha.

hm chris is finally out but somehow i dont feel so happy bout it. i guess leandra does deserve to be out before anyone else there. she just isnt ready for this whole idol thg lah.
oh wells.
;)

Thursday, October 28, 2004

BOO.

at liren's hse doing pw now. heh it just keeps raining nowadays. ;)

hey its scientifically proven, i'm hot. hey mosquitoes only bite those with high body temperature, information courtesy of gracia :) i haf 9 very itchy mosquito bites grrr. so yeah . i'm hot. woohoo.

haha yeah! im first on the rach's list on 'who to email back' beams ahaha.

my sis baked choc cake yesterday. it smells really good! but doesnt taste that good yet.. ahha. i told her it tastes lk dough :X
oh and i must try to bake something again! i'm so going to poison all the choir ppl.. who ask u guys to see me so many times during the hols. hahaha.

i spent the whole of last night printing my sources. just printin it out. bahh. oh and trying to find pics from clip art and autoshapes to add in my slides. i've decided to use those small polka dots pattern as my background! and the colour's gonna be turqoise muaha. ;)

was talkin to yaf in sch just now ;) seet was carrying a purple umbrella, how cool. oh, do u know, yafen really loves me alot haha. :)
janice borrowed a book on manners from our school library haha. well wad do i say she needs it :)
rai wrote a 'card' for her fren on plasticine. DOTS. yes shes my fren, sigh.
hahaha.
and for a moment today she actually forgot my name! its ok, i understand how tt brain of hers work sometimes.. evil grin.

haha ok i shall get off liren's com now. :)
my mum's bringin me to metro later! haha.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

bloody mosquito.

suck my blood. grr. i have five bites, thanks.

sch's internet was down today, so we went nic's hse to do pw. it was not until we were inside his condo then i remembered.. nic has a dog. you know the lassie kind? luckily it was the smaller version. ;) we watched 50 first dates. then we watched baby looney tunes. hey i never knew tweety bird is a male! maybe thats because i've been linking tweety bird and fann wong.
qimin was damn scared of the dog. i was too. i dont like dogs who come up to you and sniff you. aniwae the guys had alot of fun with the dog. or rather, trying to get the dog haha.
the funniest was when nic petted the space nxt to him and called out 'Monty (yeah who names their dog monty??), here!' and the dog just walked away. Muaha.
then after the guys were tryin to get the dog's attention, the dog just came n sat beside me. beams ahha. alvin was tryin to 'dogtalk' the dog into attacking me. he was lk going 'monty! attack jiayun! GROWL! attack!' wahaha alvin is a veeasshole!

oh and nowadays my school is so cold (ok, the weather is cold, so is my sch compound) that the library glass has been having condensation. i've been writing my name on it! haha. the last time janice walked infront of me she kept writing 'jy sux' n we were trying to compete, who could write faster or erase faster. EVIL.
then there was this circle on the glass, and this angmoh teacher put his face at the circle when we walked past. my god we laughed our heads off.
n i used my reverse handwriting and wrote 'LOOK HERE' heh. quite cool eh. ;)

haha i just watched shawn's video on suicide. i was laughin at the F on the paper, it was the same as nic's! anw theirs was more elaborate. n quite nice (i like the part with words haha), considering they had 'my immortal' playin in the background. shawn looks scary with a knife, brr. i was laughing throughout nic's video, it was just so hilarious to me. him gettin the stool, steppin on it, n about to jump off. then jeremy comes up and pulls him away. haha. ;)

ao mock tmr.

i met two old frens today. this girl frm band n nora. haha felt quite gd talkin to them again, i guess it just feels good to see familiar faces.

i could stay awake, in this sweet surrender. every moment spent with you, is a moment i treasureeeeeee.

bloody mosquito.

suck my blood. grr. i have five bites, thanks.

sch's internet was down today, so we went nic's hse to do pw. it was not until we were inside his condo then i remembered.. nic has a dog. you know the lassie kind? luckily it was the smaller version. ;) we watched 50 first dates. then we watched baby looney tunes. hey i never knew tweety bird is a male! maybe thats because i've been linking tweety bird and fann wong.
qimin was damn scared of the dog. i was too. i dont like dogs who come up to you and sniff you. aniwae the guys had alot of fun with the dog. or rather, trying to get the dog haha.
the funniest was when nic petted the space nxt to him and called out 'Monty (yeah who names their dog monty??), here!' and the dog just walked away. Muaha.
then after the guys were tryin to get the dog's attention, the dog just came n sat beside me. beams ahha. alvin was tryin to 'dogtalk' the dog into attacking me. he was lk going 'monty! attack jiayun! GROWL! attack!' wahaha alvin is a veeasshole!

oh and nowadays my school is so cold (ok, the weather is cold, so is my sch compound) that the library glass has been having condensation. i've been writing my name on it! haha. the last time janice walked infront of me she kept writing 'jy sux' n we were trying to compete, who could write faster or erase faster. EVIL.
then there was this circle on the glass, and this angmoh teacher put his face at the circle when we walked past. my god we laughed our heads off.
n i used my reverse handwriting and wrote 'LOOK HERE' heh. quite cool eh. ;)

haha i just watched shawn's video on suicide. i was laughin at the F on the paper, it was the same as nic's! anw theirs was more elaborate. n quite nice (i like the part with words haha), considering they had 'my immortal' playin in the background. shawn looks scary with a knife, brr. i was laughing throughout nic's video, it was just so hilarious to me. him gettin the stool, steppin on it, n about to jump off. then jeremy comes up and pulls him away. haha. ;)

ao mock tmr.

i met two old frens today. this girl frm band n nora. haha felt quite gd talkin to them again, i guess it just feels good to see familiar faces.

i could stay awake, in this sweet surrender. every moment spent with you, is a moment i treasureeeeeee.

bloody mosquito.

suck my blood. grr. i have five bites, thanks.

sch's internet was down today, so we went nic's hse to do pw. it was not until we were inside his condo then i remembered.. nic has a dog. you know the lassie kind? luckily it was the smaller version. ;) we watched 50 first dates. then we watched baby looney tunes. hey i never knew tweety bird is a male! maybe thats because i've been linking tweety bird and fann wong.
qimin was damn scared of the dog. i was too. i dont like dogs who come up to you and sniff you. aniwae the guys had alot of fun with the dog. or rather, trying to get the dog haha.
the funniest was when nic petted the space nxt to him and called out 'Monty (yeah who names their dog monty??), here!' and the dog just walked away. Muaha.
then after the guys were tryin to get the dog's attention, the dog just came n sat beside me. beams ahha. alvin was tryin to 'dogtalk' the dog into attacking me. he was lk going 'monty! attack jiayun! GROWL! attack!' wahaha alvin is a veeasshole!

oh and nowadays my school is so cold (ok, the weather is cold, so is my sch compound) that the library glass has been having condensation. i've been writing my name on it! haha. the last time janice walked infront of me she kept writing 'jy sux' n we were trying to compete, who could write faster or erase faster. EVIL.
then there was this circle on the glass, and this angmoh teacher put his face at the circle when we walked past. my god we laughed our heads off.
n i used my reverse handwriting and wrote 'LOOK HERE' heh. quite cool eh. ;)

haha i just watched shawn's video on suicide. i was laughin at the F on the paper, it was the same as nic's! anw theirs was more elaborate. n quite nice (i like the part with words haha), considering they had 'my immortal' playin in the background. shawn looks scary with a knife, brr. i was laughing throughout nic's video, it was just so hilarious to me. him gettin the stool, steppin on it, n about to jump off. then jeremy comes up and pulls him away. haha. ;)

ao mock tmr.

i met two old frens today. this girl frm band n nora. haha felt quite gd talkin to them again, i guess it just feels good to see familiar faces.

i could stay awake, in this sweet surrender. every moment spent with you, is a moment i treasureeeeeee.

Monday, October 25, 2004

pheww.

i've been online since 4 doing op stuff. and i still havent got a clue as to what im going to say. whee.

Sunday, October 24, 2004

i dont want alot for christmas

why cant christmas come faster.
pw go away faster too.
haix. oh wait. chinese too.
im like some grumbling old maid. boo.

had pw today. heh ok lah pw is pw. how fun can it get. i offered to cook them lunch if they insist ;) liren was trying to disguise as me talkin to nic on msn, afterwhich he got a bit sad bcoz he insisted tt nic was nt talkin to him bcoz it was him, bah. i just proved myself to be liren's greatest fan by erm, suanin him quite a bit bout plastic surgery ahha. alvin was quite comfortable at my hse, perfume n facial wash eh. n the boys were damn vain! we were walkin back frm eastpoint when it started drizzling, then the two vainpots were like 'eh walk faster! later my hair messy again! eh jy ur hse got wax not? gell??' i let them listen to speed, n hey, they are really quite famous ;) i realised qimin likes to wear black. n i showed eug my baby pics! ;) n quite alot of photos of me in my younger days. she insists that i dont look the same when i was young. no doubt, i've grown prettier yes.

i just want you for my own.. more than you would ever knowww. make my wish come truee. all i want for christmassssss. is yoouuuu. YEAH
it is so stuck in my head. hee :)

Saturday, October 23, 2004

all i want for xmas, is YOU.

i dont want alot for christmas
there is just one thing i need
i dont care about the presents
underneath the christmas tree
i just want you for my own
more than you could ever know
make my wish come true
all i want for christmas is you

the second verse looks funny i like the first verse better. anw my brain cant store so much. ;) i still haf jeremiah the bullfrog in there! and lots of chinese su yu, chen yu.

we had gardening today.
then chinese.
then university talk.

i have lots to do. one n a half wks more!

Friday, October 22, 2004

helloo there.

just went for this german acappella five man group. they are really good.. and their tix was going for 5 and 10 bucks. !! it was under subsidy. but still! they were really near perfect. second half was really entertaining, which showed how versatile they can be. ;)
amacord ensemble.

i actually wrote this whole chunk bout a mental checklist of what i want my guy to be. but heh, you dont see it! yeah. i decided it was silly so i deleted it. rai was telling me about it today you see. ;) heh one day when i'm ready n more awake maybe i'll write it down.
for now, i'll not think about it. ;)

Thursday, October 21, 2004

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing..

ahha slyvester sang my fav song! *beams hahaha. ;) shucks chris lee should get out man. he's fat and really fat. he's so gay i cant look at him anymore. GET OUT!

anw. sch today was boring, yet interesting. the girls didnt come to sch, well, at least not in the morn. i was pretty much alone but mich provided the company :) but i guess it was quite fun too coz i got the chance to talk to rach sangita vic n nadia. haha. it was fun hanging out with them. ;) hey who said the girls cant bond huhhh.
and i didnt pon a single period today. i was the fourth in class for the first lesson(gp). u shd have seen me trudgin my feet to chinese class in a lone feat. or me n eug on a private econs session with ueng. ive nv felt so pious in my whole life.
anw, guys have proven themselves to be lousy again today.

we're having a pizza treat tmr. its for the lexus nexus thg. our class tried out this sms dictionary thg. ;) yeah im going to grow fat n chubby n bubbly.
but not like chris michael lee who shd just get out of sing idol.
;)

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

joy to the world, all the boys n girls now.

was feeling horribly horrible last night. came home and had chills. was running a temperature, my face was quite red from all the heat(no joke!) and i felt terribly drowsy and lousy.
so. i didnt go sch today :)

lets see. was supposed to blog yesterday in a desperate bid to complain about the guys in our class. (*&@#*&@^&@^#%!&@)!(#_)(@). yes. 'nuff said. girls rule.


Monday, October 18, 2004

the da vinci code

read it today. ok lah, i like mysteries. agatha christie is my fav author! sort of, considering i dont read much ;) haha. i dont lk books with too many details, which basically doesnt work well for me since in mystery books details probably matters alot. oh well. at least i cld guess who the Teacher was! it was so obvious?? unlike agatha christie.. i never guessed who the bad guy was until she reveals it at the last chapter.
i'm pleasantly surprised by the way dan brown has tried to inteprete religious stuff in a whole new light. it definitely was refreshing, although it reminds me of the smartly dressed angmohs u see in the street who tries to tell you how they found a whole new way to inteprete the bible.
am looking forward to reading angels and demons.

haha. i spent four periods today doing pw. i cldnt even spend time leisurely on the nice soft orange sofas in the library?!?
eug just called me a babe, thats the only reason why im doing this shit called pw. whee.

oh well. sch today was nothing less of a nerve wreck.
and guys should learn to be humble, like the girls!

i still havent watched white chicks. n ive got a date with eug to watch 2046! ;) cool. now we just have to find the time to go. oh n mich's bladin. ;)

Sunday, October 17, 2004

i can sing a rainbow.

my com looks weird. the words were so small it made my eyes smaller. but now its too big. oh well. at least my eyes wont grow any smaller ;)

parents went malaysia n sis went out. home alone today. totally spies rock my sundays.

Saturday, October 16, 2004

labamba.

had open hse today. didnt walk arnd much, was in lt ava most of the time doing auditions. or dancing mass dance. haha who ask choir booth to be so near the driveway. of coz we had to dance ;)
alliterations: michelle moos. mooey michelle. mad michelle. melodramatic mich.
gooey gracia. good gracia. bad bing. booey bing(haha), merry mayling. heh. i learn fast eh? ;)

too tired to be thinking.
yawn.
yunie yawns!! :)

Friday, October 15, 2004

love, love, love.

thats a song frm love actually. rem the scene in the church wedding? it was soo sweet. ;)

my com is down. so im stuck with using the com in my parents room. im being watched. EYES ON ME. its true.

had farewell assembly. hse cap's item was hilarious. so was sham's three 'reminders' ;) he's this indian guy(true blue indian import) who talks with this really thick indian accent. n he's up there singing twinkle twinkle little star, its getting hot in here.. so take off all ur clothes, and shake that thg oh .. ahha. its was damn funny! and he says thgs like 'thank you for ur applause' and he counts '1,2,3,4' before he starts. haha. he's so sincere n honest he's really funny.
then we had watermelon eating competition too.
and ice cream treat. i ate two cones ;)

then we had the pizza hut treat for olympics. haha i ate alot. i tink. yenhan is so jian! we were takin photo and she put her hand innocently on my shoulder.. then when cenwei said '1..2..' she pulled down my spagh. Ahh. haha. luckily i was fast so they didnt catch anythg on camera. EVIL. boo ;) then after tt we took a normal pic n my face was damn red frm all the laughing.
walked arnd parkway tryin to find gracia her pink specs. PINK. gosh. ahha.
btw. ive always been selective about what i blog about.

n im nt dao k! at least nt to my classmates. hi hi hi!

Thursday, October 14, 2004

oh happy day. ;)

games day today was fantastic. ahah. bcoz we won! at first we couldnt find enough ppl to play netball with us girls, so we were expecting to go home early or maybe go out and catch white chicks. but wad an irony, we won! muaha. with the help of erm, some guys though. muaha.
my heroes for today. alvin! haha. although u give me lousy passes(haha), u played really well! we couldnt have won without ur shen moves. Ben ding. wujun. these two guys played with us right frm the start, n they really make a gd team. nice guys ;) nicholas! ahah. our gd gk. he's so tall he gets their ball all the time. n he's quite gd at snatchin their balls. zongyu n keith. they helped in gettin the 13-2 for our last game. n they're really natural sportsmen, they helped win floorball for aquila too. n amir! haha. i heard bout his penalty n saw him in action for floorball. u go girlfriend! ;)
and of course my heroines. Eugenia! she played captain. wah i haf no idea why she joined choir instead of netball. shes quick, smart player. janice! she did well as a gk for the first game. haha she gets the ball n screams at me to look at her hee. adibah! shes so small she makes a gd wa, runing all over the plc. raihana ahha. not too bad, at least she can play! we rock. we really do.

we also played a bit of floorball. against the hockey girls. it was damn fast. oh n i fell down. boo, my poor right knee. its going to be scarred permanently. ha.
me n ba tried playin soccer. it was horrible. we cant kick for nuts. i was goalkeeper although officially there isnt supposed to be any. i got a ball kicked straight at my stomach, n i could feel the air poof out from my lungs. everyone was laughing, n florence came over n hug me to apologise, n joked that its ok, i still got my motherhood. HEH. then i used my hand to stop a ball, n they got another penalty kick. haha. just great eh.

oh n the guys' floorball match was after our netball. we got to watch the whole thg. it was damn exciting to see them win. very fast action, and good passes. quite a few gd dribbling. ahha. 4-0. CAN YOU BEAT THAT. no u cant.

then we treated ourselves to swensons muaha. had a nice cool float. then i tried putting pepper into rai's water, but she did. into mine. brandon nearly drank it, tt kuku. we were just sittin there enjoyin the aircon n laughin at our own jokes haha.
some ppl just cant use a straw properly. haha

hey adibah's room is yellow! her dad has damn gd taste. shes inviting us over for hari raya *woohoo* but i dont get to wear kebaya boo. ahha. cant wait to see her yellow room. whee.

ice cream tmr! n pizza treat for our olymics. haha. all the calories i burnt frm sports is going to be put back! horrible. ;)

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

good morning sunshine, my only sunshine. :)

haha i sang tt to the tune of 'you are my sunshine,my only sunshine.' early in the morning. to yenhan. and i didnt realise it wasnt the lyrics muaha. i guess you just cant say good morning n sing at the same time huh. ;)

ocean park is good. haha ok, thanks nicholas! for bookin the courts n all. we played tennis, table tennis, squash. im buildin muscles yeah! and im quite burnt. my face. its getting red.
i learnt the word 'ball-sense' today. :) janice and eugenia are quite funny to play with, they cant hit straight balls. and janice hit two balls out. one is flowing towards the south china sea now, and the other is sitting snugly between the thorny bushes. ;)
my lijiawei table tennis style didnt work today. haha.
nic was nice enough to come play tennis with us girls. he just flicks the racket and the ball goes far enough. we have to twist and contort our bodies to make the racket move.
i like the 'pok' sound of the tennis ball! ahha. you know, when u hit the ball. and the 'pak' sound when you hit the squash ball real hard and it goes very fast. i like sports where you can hit hard and be violent. YEAH.
then i found a gd enough player(julian) to play squash with. although i must have been slow compared to kenneth, but i didnt care. haha.
it feels gd to be moving again. ive been nothing but lazybones the past few days. i feel healthy! i swear my flabby tummy has gone away mysteriously. hahah. grins.

then me and eug went for choir. oh glorious choir ahha. it feels good singing again. and time passes by really fast during choir practice. and you get to enjoy the great company of the Sopsies! ahah. we wrote on the whiteboard: lesson no.1: Sopranos rule. haha. we are fast in learning carols woohooo we rock. yenhan bao n jolene came back to sit in.
im nt conducting for open hse, which is a yeah for me. ;D i rather be singing anytime.
everythg bout sop 2 carollin n pamugun reminds me of mary. come back quick, im missing u already!

oh and i didnt do well for my end of yr chinese. its ok, ill work hard. ;)

netball tmr. muaha. they better not throw too hard!

haha im listenin to speed now. anyone rems a jap girl band, lk four years ago? they disbanded already. i was quite nuts bout them in p6. yeahhh. i need them. like some therapy to my exhausted body and wandering mind. i think about my results, prague, syf, pw, carolling. haii ok stop it jiayun! ur tryin. its gd enough. as for others. let them take care of themselves.
smiles smiles smiles. im learning from michelle. :) the magic three.

Tuesday, October 12, 2004

motorcycle diaries.

the.movie.was.slow.
haha. the first part at least. but hey, at least im cultured enough to want to watch it. unlike some ppl who thought we were going to watch princess diaries. heh.
i did think the movie was pretty thought-provoking, although i was pretty restless during the movie, kept getting interrupted by my hp n all.
the movie is about this two guys going on this journey, seeking for an adventure. but instead they met many indigeneous people n they felt their injustice. at least the handsome one did. he later became a revoluntionist(communist, to be specific).
for that reason, was being a communist a big mistake? it was just another form of socialism. it was really all about humanity, and givng the rights back to the people who were being trampled on. it was a noble attempt. true, war and people conquering others' lands have been an act of human since creation of human beings, but. i dunno.
for a moment i thought of myself as selfish. i spent my 17 years on earth for the sole purpose of being myself. yes ok at least i am sensible and all, i know i dont owe the whole world, neither do they owe me a living. but somehow when i watch films like tt i feel like i havent done enough. i look at yafen and sometimes think what a great person she is. my haojie mei ;) is very involved in the com stuff.
ah i will grow up one day and get out of this education system. and i will do what i want to do!

anw after the movie we came out and saw the poster for this film called shutter. its some ghost film with pics of funny stuff in it. we spooked ourselves out by looking really closely at the pics n we practically ran down the stairs. we left eug all alone up there! haha. then we tried to convinced ourselves that photoshop is really gd nowadays, and its pretty user friendly, so i guess tt explains the pics. ;)

anw. i have chinese in tmr morn. wonderful. bright n cheery, at 8 am.
but we're playing tennis! finally, yeah! haha. we'll rock ocean park. ;)
hols ending soon.
n i haf a date with my beloved! muaha. she's bent on seeing me fall on my butt in an attempt to rollerblade. ;)

Monday, October 11, 2004

red n black.

haha after all the talk bout not going sentosa on monday, we did. ;) adibah couldnt make it tho, she had plans. which was really quite sad! but its ok. we still haf underwater world n night safari on our list. ;)

the girls wore the same colours! haha it was so embarrassing. when we saw what each other was wearing in the toilet we all made a mental note to tell each other what colours we might be wearing the next time we go out. it happened the last time we went out too! we must be psychic. ;)

anw we had fun there. didnt spend much money for kayaking n all that, just sat around in the waters n talked rubbish. and watched the guys play touch rugby. there was this little offshore thg that we walked to, and a fish bit my foot! it was painful.
and i really cant swim. haha. we were walking deep into the sea when it suddenly got quite deep and i couldnt touch the ground, so i grabbed janice's hand real hard and i scratched her. haha rai was having the same problems too. so janice was lk, our support.. ;) but rai was funny because one moment she was swimming and the nxt moment she was underwater. haha.
oh and i drank lots of seawater. we were trying out synchro swimming (which was a total disaster ahha) and pyramids. rai is a cheerleader u see. haha they were trying to lift me up, which we succeeded on what must have been our tenth try, and still i couldnt fall properly. but it was cool! ahha. yes im going to join cheerleading nxt year, me rai n ba. i always say that in tk too but i only joined in sec 4. ;)

ive got a hunger spell! eating milo n biscuits now. after tinkin the growlin in my stomach will go away. apparently it doesnt wan to go away.

oh darn im supposed to be doing pw. grr.

Sunday, October 10, 2004

jyuniek.

im back. had gd food back in malaysia, brought quite a few thgs back. we really looked lk we were moving hse when we came bck with all the boxes n all. ;) i bought shoes! my first pair of white shoes. even my choir shoes arent white.. oh n i tink it looks quite adorable. my dad didnt even want to look at the white pointy shoes i was tryin on. i wldnt mind having one! reminds me of the one mayling n mary has.. the evil witchy ones. nicee. haha.

oh n im so bored nowadays i use paint. alot. i draw my name n try to put in colours n all. but i cant find any nice colurs to match yellow tho.
oh n i realised. turqoise is not such a bad colour after all. warehouse has this whole range of clothes in turqoise. too bad their clothes dont cover much.

n ive been sleeping alot these day.

oink.

oh n my plans for sentosa seems to be falling apart. ;) we're not going on mon (haha) n tues n wed are now out. soo. lets just go bck sch on thurs n play netball. wowhee. n my baking plans!! arghh.

and i dont wanna tink bout sch. haha oh no m i sounding like one big old granny? grumblegrumble. ;D

Friday, October 08, 2004

blue birds fly

some day i'll wish upon a star
and wake up where the clouds are far behind me
where troubles melts like lemondrops
away above the chimney tops
thats where you'll find me

haha i had supper at ecp. cool. except for the fact tt i had satay sauce on my blouse. or i was too tired to be tinking. shoppin really saps ur energy man. and my mum bought more stuff than me! how horrible.. haha.
oh n i cleared my wardrobe today. it looks much much emptier now. dont complain if u keep seein me in the same old outfit.. ;-D

going bck malaysia tmr to celebrate my grandma's bdae.
nic asked me to bring bck a hot malaysian girl for him. then i replied 'how bout my grandma.' hee ;) ok i shant be too bad to my grandma.

yawn. i need to slp.

Thursday, October 07, 2004

dancing queen!

whee! did u miss me did u miss me did u miss me?? ;) ok quick, say yes! haha.

shoppin was gd. i must admit, my legs are aching now ;) haha thats why we need to go play tennis*Ahem* haha :D

ok back to today. i saw nice earrings! but then again, i have too many earrings. and it wasnt very cheap but its something i've always wanted! the ring with the stud kind. and it was really quite unique.
oh ahha we walked around all the high-class places. taka having sale of $100 items. how cool is that.

mamma mia was damn enjoyable. they had lots of humour injected in it. and ahah they were quite r-rated sometimes but it was fun! the cast was energetic, they had great dance moves, and the singers rock. the mother sang very well.. and my mum wants me to write that she sings even better. HA. it was really funny how they fitted ABBA songs into the whole story line. i liked it alot! it made me laugh. oh and the last part they did ABBA numbers and you get quite high. and everyone stood up to clap along! i wanted to use the word 'dance' but realised it was quite inappropriate since i was the only one who looked like i was shifting my feet until my sis(that un-sporting girl who sat beside me) leaned over and said 'eh u macham singapore workout ah'. wah lau. its ok, i was quite positive even tho i was high, i kept my image. ;)

haha yeah adibah said sylvester did well. woohoo. ;)

plans:
sentosa.
baking :) i WILL let everyone taste. ha.
tennis.
squash.
i wanna rollerblade.. but nt with my sis coz she doesnt noe how to too!

Saturday, October 02, 2004

heh haha.

vj choir's in the newspapers as well! ahha. jamie was the first to msg me bout it this morn ;) see, its a good habit to read newspapers, you get to see many good things. muaha.

notice i said 'vj choir'. am tryin not to be erm what you would call 'egoistic'. apparently the other day the stupid boys in my class were complaining to ba bout why im always saying im chio. hey i dont say it outright k, u guys just have good inferential skills sometimes.. muaha. anyways i dont always say it what.. just the occasional 'call me beautiful' and erm.. responding to calls of 'chiobu!' ahha. oh and i rem in the beginnin of the year i taught mollie how to spell chiobu. its 'j-i-a-y-u-n'. ha. he still rems it!
n he reminded us that we used to say 'jangan tension' too. ;)
';are you mann??'
i thot we had more. but now i cant seem to rem anythg else.
oh wells. ;)
soon, ill be playing tennis! n *groans* interhouse netball. if i cant help it. boo. haha.

Friday, October 01, 2004

television is detrimental to one's critical thinking.

helloo. who says television is detrimental to one's critical thinking? not when i say no! go watch tv. ;) esp the advert for moe teaching seminar. watch out for the part when vj choir comes on.. *grins.

i thot we victorians did quite a gd job promoting vj to tkgs today. was good to see the field of green again, although looking back, i have no idea what possessed me to want to wear green uniform for four years!! sigh ok make that ten. griffiths' uniform was blue green, but hey, i didnt get to choose which pri sch i wanted to go to. :)
aniwae, mr cook is hilarious. he made the girls laugh n laugh. AND laugh. he did quite a good job on remindin the girls tt theres a lot of fun in vj, but work is impt too. n tt it doesnt matter wad l1r5 you came into vj with, wad sch u were frm. u just gotta work hard.
listenin to all the ex tkgians talk. sometimes i wished i had more time to do other stuff. or rather, i've exchanged responsibilities for freedom. no longer in the 'know' of how the sch works. i guess you cant have the best of both worlds. but sometimes i really wished i had enough courage to have stepped out of the 'norm' n go do something more dynamic.
no wait.
then i wldnt haf met my wonderful frens frm choir.
oh well. :) guess i cant be any happier for that reason. :)

Thursday, September 30, 2004

photophosphorylation.

have no idea what im doing here. i guess i just needed some form of self indulgence, although taking two hours off to watch sing idol was enough.
hey honestly i was quite disappointed with today's performances. sigh if u can handle the song then dont sing.

plan for tmr: go back tk to promote vjc. hello vjc is a very nice place to study in and have fun at the same time. woohoo.
i'm supposed to talk about performing arts. haha. oh wells. i guess ill just be brief. dont want people to think im always talking about choir n only choir!
then ill go study at parkway after tt. ;)

i keep thinkin about how fast this whole promos will be over. its scary.

i was on my hp the whole of today. haha my mum had to 'confiscate' my hp to stop me from smsing. but its nt my fault if people choose to sms me! oh well. she returned me the hp barely an hr later. was fun talking about stabbing examiners for blood if ur pen runs out of ink. ;)

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

all krebs n calvin.

doesnt feel like i have gp tmr. haha.

my internet is working VERY slowly today. wanted to read the gp essays online. oh wells.

was reading my social studies n history for some gp inspiration. i realised how much i miss studying for history! ah its really a wonderful subject to study for. all the wonderful leaders who made history glorious. "i have nothing to offer, but blood, tears, and sweat." the brutality of likes of Hitler and Stalin. oh and i realise how my handwriting has changed over the years hahaah.
for all the times i thought econs would make up for my love for writing essays.
i dont know if econs is really what im looking for, although yes i still dream of working in a tall office building and strutting into my workplace in a powersuit. looking out into shenton way through my tinted glass window. the adrenaline rush of working in a team, working within deadlines. not just for making money, i dont think i'll ever have enough money to buy all the clothes i want! ;)
;)

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

i wish.

haha just read mary's new testimonial. wassup with my eyes huh?? haha. i think it looks nice in that pic, Fullstop. haha. it does make it look bigger.. ;)
i miss having someone to bitch about everything to. and to laugh at every single silly thing.
sometimes, i wish that time would stand still.
just for that one moment.
when everything else dont seem to matter
just us having fun
or just a simple glance.
or just a smile. (though i honestly dont smile at people much. unless u're around me all the time.)
just when you thought everything is going to be perfect,
time moves on.
reality draws you back like a.. vacuum cleaner?
you get reminded of things that you dont wish to be reminded of.
the harsh truth
that some people are not what they seem to be.
those sly, manipulative people whom you never seem to know enough
you wonder, what are they really thinking of when they see you.
much worst, do they always have genuine intentions?
i dont care.
or rather, i seem not to care.
my indifference to all that i choose not to see
my 'frosted armour' (?)
my 'eh u want to fight' look.
i am not disillusioned. i have friends whom i know genuinely care about me.
people whom i talk to without any feelings of constraints.
my family, loves me n spoils me.
but i am weary
of this game that i play.
although, i know,
i've already gave up playing it.

there. aha. yes i meant every word i said, but i guess this IS a game everyone plays. not just being double-faced, but more of making me guess what your real intentions are.
haha. im talking in circles.

Monday, September 27, 2004

she bangs.!

i can be such a LE at times.
had spa in the hall today. everyone was sitting down and ready to take the exam when i realised i didnt take out my calculator. haha in my haste to get to my bag to retrieve my calculator i tumbled over the foot of my table and made quite a scene haha. then i couldnt locate my bag because it was some distance further down. haha i must have looked a sight.
so embarrassing.

i got to sit with my darling for CD! skill CD was dumb. enough said.

bio spa tmr. its so tedious the whole thg. Sigh.

BOO.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

total utility.

Sixpence None The Richer
Kiss Me


Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly beside the green green grass
Swing, swing, swing that spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling so kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken treehouse
Swing me up on its hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked down your father's map

Oh kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand strike up the band and makes the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling so kiss me

Friday, September 24, 2004

am thankful.

everyday i come home and think of all the silly jokes we had in sch among us girls n im thankful i haf them to spend time together in sch. haha. honestly i never thought i'd find such good friends in jc. i thought i might just stick to my tk friends or something. ;) i think we've more or less accepted each other as what we are. (yes even rai's flirtin tactics! ;) haha. shes so gonna kill me..)
its quite cool how we became such good frens. we share our dreams. our ambitions. how we would like our life to be ten years down the road. about committments. about guys. about husbands. about me gettin an indian/ang moh husband ;) haha which my mum doesnt really erm, approve of? i think she would rather i have a normal, un-interesting marriage haha. ;) having someone to pass by the hockey table together. so we can get to our locker. strength comes in numbers YES. those terrorists BOO. someone to defend against all racist jokes because our group is multi-racial!

smiles.

was telling them we should have a book. divide into five portions for each of us. then everytime someone says or does something silly or funny we'd write it down. haha no prizes for guessing who's pages will be filled the fastest ;)

Thursday, September 23, 2004

tries to smile.

i find it difficult to smile really brightly at ppl i dont really feel obliged to smile at. maybe u call this dao, but.. i dunno. ;) ok so take it tt im smilin at u now. actually. i dont even haf anyone in mind.. oh wells.

we actually played pepsi-cola for pe today. HA. bcoz stupid class guys didnt wan us to play floorball with them. hey u tink we'll lower ur standard isit? huh? idiots. aniwae we had fun playin our own games k. aniwae, although i strongly protested to playin pepsi-cola, i won the game muahah. ;)

had a headache today. but shall nt let it dampen my spirits or wadsoever, although im quite sure i wasnt lookin my best towards the end of the day.

my dear fren, be strong! dont cry.. even though i cant rem how to write ur chinese name, ill start rememberin it now! haha but it was fun smsin each other in maths lect. ;) btw, i tink i dont owe u any ten cents now.. since two smses cost bout ten cents nowadays. haha.

was really tired after sch today. sorry i sounded so distant in the phone. i noe u hardly ever come to the east anymore! ;) sigh i noe im a bad fren sometimes. sorry sorry.

yafen dragged me to toilet today ahha. we were holdin n swingin our hands, then tanyewhwee saw n said 'hey girls, vj dont encourage such behaviour ah.. ' then he was goin on n on. i tink he thot he was being very funny. ha.

i tink i drive myself nuts sometimes. ahha. sigh.
no i wan to heave a really big sigh.
SIGH.
;)

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

paint the sky with stars.

a little smthg. somewhat frm tv.

looked up into the sky today
n saw a sky painted with stars
suddenly i dont care how many stars there are
or how far from me they are
i just thought,
the stars tonight are indeed beautiful.
its makes me feel so tiny
yet i feel grateful
for such a beautiful creation.
it must have been what people
have been feelin
for thousands
n thousands of years.
suddenly i feel
im not so alone after all.
someone must have known about me
wantin to look up into the sky tonight
n so he painted the sky with stars.
whoever that person is
i thank him.
;)


ahha ok i haf a lousy memory. i cant really rem wad i heard on tv, n i kinda modified it. but yeah. ;)

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

hellos ;)

hello haha. how r all my darlings? ;)

sch today wasnt too gd. pretty borin if u ask me.

met mr tan in the morn bout going bck tk to promote vj. i tink me n jane n quite grateful for the response although i tink we expected more on our part, which is not very possible given the lousy date we have to go bck. its the day after our gp paper. oh wells. thanks to all who r going bck-- thanks for makin the effort to show tt u do wan to gif bck to vj (as wad jane kept sayin *smiles). ;)

went for some filmin for moe. they wanted to film our choir for some advert. we had make-up artistes to do make-up for us! quite cool rite. the guys had to put foundation n lip gloss too muaha. haha it was ok lah. too bad gracia n mich cant join us.
wasnt too happy lah k. but nvm.

maths lect. tutorials. my class size was 12. hA.

maths tuition.
pls do not smoke, im positive its bad for ur health. n pls do not encourage ur frens to smoke. there're no such thg as 'social smokin', just DONT do it at all! wads so sociable bout 'social smokin' aniwae. i dont find it attractive. so my frens, pls dont ever smoke. ur lungs will turn black, n u will DIE.

oh. ;) had a really gd time with rai, janice n eug at gelare today. haha we kept laughin lah. rai was being VERY silly. n we were posin arnd with gelare tissues n all hahah. n rai, pls stop takin un-glam pics of me! its so untrue.. haha. ;) but i just love my girlfriends. muackss. oh yah adibah was missin in action coz she was at home gobblin down tons of vanilla ice cream to soothe her poor tonsils. ;)

alot of thgs i wan to say n shout n sing out loud. but its ok. ok well actually its not. i keep wishin tt i haf more time to do alot other thgs sometimes. im wishin for more personal time. which i actually haf bcoz its study-time ahha, but it doesnt count! oh wells. im just being grumpy.
so when u see me pls smile, so ill smile too. ;)

Sunday, September 19, 2004

"im worth five dollars more."

firstly, happy birthday ma! ;)

anw, tt was wad i told my sis after i gulped down thai express' iced tea which my sis strongly recommended n which i totally didnt like. only after tastin the iced tea did i rem tt this is the same person who likes to drink grapefruit juice n sour plum bubble tea. definitely weird taste buds. (my sis is weird!!)

watched acappella expresss today. they're a jazz acappella grp from moscow. they haf really fantastic vocals. n they're so talented! their song arrangements r really greaat. nt much vocal percussions tho, but since it doesnt really fit into their type of songs i guess it didnt matter. i miss toxic audio's percussionist, woah tt guy was real gd. anw they did a very nice rendition of amazing grace, i thot. i was really enjoyin their harmony tho at some parts they were pretty boring. coz i cldnt understand a word they were singing.. i guess u'll haf to excuse the russians.
hearin them makes me wanna sing all day long. ;) belt out my fav tunes at top volume. wheeee.

stupid cupid, stop pickin on me. ;)

Friday, September 17, 2004

taddaa! puppy power! haha.

haha today was a very eventful day ;D

right. in a nutshell, we caught a guy whom we saw go in a girl's toilet more than once already. ;) this was the third time. but we didnt report it or anythg coz we thot it wld be somewhat blowin it out of proportion.

anw wad happened today was tt we were outside our classroom waitin for our turn with the pw teacher. so the guys were waitin outside n takin boyband pics. they noticed tt the GUY kept going into the toilet. they knew we girls were suspicious of him so they followed him into the toilet. but apparently he wasnt doing anythg, just standin infront of the uriner. he actually went toilet six times lah. ??
then our classguys left after pw ended. amir stayed with us to take pics, but after a while he left too. then the GUY came again. this time he really did go into the girls' toilet. adibah checked n all, n we were quite anxious to erm, confront him but we didnt really haf a plan. so we were just waitin outside the toilet alley when he came out n we kinda panicked. i was tinkin of wad to say n all that when raihana stormed in n shouted at him "stop right there! where do u tink ur going?" then she asked him y he was in the girls' toilet, we saw him twice before, blah blah n he tried to deny lah. he said he was urgent so he just plunged straight into the girl's toilet. rai was brave larhh. ;) ps. she wanted me to write tt hahah.

first u haf to understand tt to get to the girl's toilet u haf to walk past the boy's toilet first. Then u tink bout him going to male's toilet six times before tt, n the seventh time he had to make a 'mistake'.

so we kinda kept him there n asked him qns.
someone called the pe teachers n they RAN in ;D they looked pretty good ahaha.
then they took charge lah.
we gave our statements.
n became heroines ahhaha. :)

im nt too sure how this wld sound if word gets arnd. so erm. just read. dont spread or anythg. i actually feel a bit sorry for the guy, lk how he's gonna still fit into vj after all this. it was quite a big commotion.. ;x

but we felt quite accomplished after the whole thg muahah. ;)

Thursday, September 16, 2004

*thumph* n i fell.

haha i fell down twice today.
fell durin pe. we had soccer. but i didnt fall while playin soccer. i was pickin up the ball. slid on the drain (kinda) n fell on my knees. my beloved knees. i tink i scarred my knee for the fifth time or so. sigh.
then nearly fell down the steps durin chem r. haha alvin had to tell me he saw me fall down lah. didnt even give me face.. boo.

i tink an adorable smile is pretty.. adorable to look at haha.

but no, felicia chin is nt hot.

n my knee is itchy.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

politically correct.

my mum tinks i shd be as correct as i can on my blog. i shd nt portray myself as someone who's vain n talk bout my earrings or is bimbotic or egoistic.

rite.

hey u noe wad? my ambition in life is to work for the government. better still, to work within the network of PAP, they're so cool! i wan to gif my own personal best to the government, which in turn will be beneficial for the country. singapore all the way!

grr.

Monday, September 13, 2004

first day of sch.

when my mum woke me up this morn, i was wonderin why she woke me up in the middle of the nite. heyy it was still dark. y do we haf to wake up so early for education? sigh. haha.

if ur one of those ppl who tinks my class guys r actually quite cool or wad, well. tiink again. they make me feel so pri sch sometimes haha.
mrs lim: alvin! stop playin arnd!
*silence
alvin: mdm brandon kachao me larhh.
oh n then there was julian n his 'his is bigger'(??) comment haha. no we're talkin bout gas syringes here. julian's one looked lk it cld swallow up his conical flask, heh.
n there sums up my bio tut today.

my wonderful sis downloaded les choristes songs. ;) hey soundtrack is available at cine. apparantly u can place an order. haha yeah. GO WATCH IT.

hmm, been singin ren xing for the whole day. its stuck in my head. humdeedumm whooosh.

take care all. ;)

Sunday, September 12, 2004

im a ditz.

my msn was signin in at two messengers so i thot ill be smart n delete the old version. now my msn comes without a pic. hooray. oh wait. its ok now. ;D

watched the choir boys today. hey its a wonderful movie. i love it! its pretty heartwarmin n close to the heart. aha n they sing really well too. oh the solo.. he's really good! haah i kept cryin throughout the movie. i tink its darkness n the feelin of no one watchin u tt made me erm, tear. haha. i hope no one in the cinema noticed. ;D i just felt touched i guess. if its a real life story my god its quite sad how the kids were treated. down with capital punishment! peppinot is really adorable!

then watched cat high pri. complimentary. there werent even tix. hha they had really cute stuff. lk superman on rollerblades. choir did oliver!, tts y i wanted to watch. was ok lah, at least standard is nt too bad. enjoyed myself. audience was spontaneous n wellbehaved i thot. unlike some i went to. speaks volumes of the behaviour of teenagers nowadays doesnt it.

kids r so spoilt nowadays i dont believe it. was on mrt today n there was this kid, bawlin his lungs, larynx, n teeth out. the usual 'i-dont- wannnnnn' kind of whine n cry n howl. oh my. hey my tolerance for kids is already quite high, i mean, if u compare me to mary n gracia, hey i lovee kids! but really, nt when they r spoilt. parents, pls enforce some discipline in ur kids. parents to be, pls do not spoil ur kids n buy them barbie stuff for every full marks they get for spellin (AHEM baa. ha. ) but pls dont enforce curfews. its horrible. ;)

chicken flu go awayy. ive been survivin on no eggs for quite long liao. n eggs r lk my diet. chickens, go eat panadol flu. i recommend.
;)

Saturday, September 11, 2004

任性

喜欢听歌, 感人的歌, 它让我觉得 , 爱是对的
睡不着, 我就醒着, 不用让日子, 被打扰了
寂寞很吵, 我很冷静, 情绪很多, 我很镇定.
因为投入, 所以放弃, 不顾再被痛醒
固执是不是任性的要求, 付出也可能看不结果,终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避, 让感情犯错.
喜欢唱歌, 动人的歌, 它让我获得一点心得
得不到, 我就放掉, 不去碰触到我的需要
承诺算不算任性的要求, 人总是不能太容易感动, 当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要, 你混乱解脱
固执是不是任性的要求, 付出也可能看不到结果, 终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避, 让感情犯错.
喜欢听歌, 感人的歌, 它让我觉得爱是对的.
;)

Friday, September 10, 2004

hahaha.

WHO"S THE PEANUT? *everyone points to rai. ;) heyy shes really the nut lah. haha coz today janice*Ahem. ;) was singing the peanut song frm her leadership camp, then rai said smthg silly, so i asked janice to sing the song again, then pointed to rai as the 'peanut'. ahha. ;) we did tt for the whole evenin, even nic joined in. n its really funny when he does it haha.
oh n im nt going to go near nicholas again coz i always, erm, do smthg to him haha. not on purpose!!

went sch today to (haha) teach janice integration, then realised we were on different frequencies coz i didnt do the qns she wanted me to do. ;)
dawn came today to study in vj! haha. had fun talkin to her n evelynn. eve was being complainy as usual lahh. but wads new :D she still makes me laugh ahha.
saw gracia in sch. when she saw me she looked lk she hasnt seen me(her gd gd fren) in a thousand yrs. either tt or she saw a really beautiful alien. ahha. its DEFINITELY the former lah im just describin her reaction k. haha, anw she asked me wad i was doin in sch. wad else can i be doing in sch?? sigh my fren gracia.

oh i went swimmin near noon with my eldest nephew reuben. ;) i tink im darker now. my face is redder, definitely. tho i dont tink swimmin n me goes together. i just cant swim for nuts. can float, but cannt move forward. heh. oh n hey! haha. i forgot to mention.. i tried the slide! taadaa. there weren't much ppl arnd aniwae. ;) was fun, but i had water up my nose, boo. haha. hee.

i realise i always write in blog in reverse chronological order. ;)