jobbie

dont think ive told everyone yet but hey,i found a job. im a secretary at a law firm. quite alot of stuff to do, not that im the secretarial material (think hian yin.. i dont come close to her!) but hey at least im earning some money although the more i count the more i think its peanuts. but ah. at least its some money.
the only thg is that i dont really have corporate clothes to wear. im wearing all my mum's clothes but i really dont have a 24-inch waist. really.


anw. my boss isnt in yet. think she'll check that im online? ;D

21st dec

thanks bra for the lunch. it was nice of u to treat all 11 of us.. although i honestly felt lk i was just there to dig money out frm u ;) the grilled fish was really yummy. filled me up till 11 today. so yup thanks a lot n hope u had a great birthday.

cant wait for 'picnic' tmr. though i strongly suspect ill exercise my persuading powers and make everyone go marina square.

carolin was fun. haha. i never thought marcus wld be fierce. who wld have thot the guy who cldnt get his words right for carolin last yr wld be the one throwing carolin book at ppl for them to learn the words ;) hahaha. and yes hello mr g#. hee.

i think.. because of my hot-headedness im growing numb to all things irritating. so i wont blow up. but i still roll my eyes, im sorry thats more of a reflex action. but yeah.

its amazing how you know someone so well that you actually do still forgive her despite all her imperfections.

And So it Goes

In every heart there is a room, a sanctuary safe and strong.
to heal the wounds from lovers past, until a new one comes along.
I spoke to you in cautious tones; you answered me with no pretense.
And still i feel i said too much.
My silence is my self defense.
And everytime i've held a rose it seems i only felt the thorns.
And so it goes, and so it goes, and so will you soon i suppose.
But if my silence made you leave, then that would be my worst mistake.
So i will share this room with you.
And you can have this heart to break.
And this is why my eyes are closed, it's just as well for all i've seen.
And so it goes, and so it goes, and you're the only one who knows.
So i would choose to be with you.
Thats it the choice were mine to make.
But you can make decisions too.
And you can have this heart to break.
And so it goes, and so it goes, and you're the only one who knows.

my grandmother used to sing to me...:)

ah how wonderful it is to sing with vjchoir again;) it feels gd to well, be part of a carolling grp. spread christmas cheers arnd, festive joys, and many other variations marie and nichole came up with;) martin complained my smile is too fake haha but hey at least i was smiling and i bet ppl were smitten with my smileys:)

it feels funny to think that people actually thank me for coming down to carol. haha. okay so im not part of the choir proper anymore and im lk some outsider or smthg.. ah but at least now im finally a senior (joinin the lao lao club) and im part of the great vjc tradition.
yay;)

lets all lose our voices carolin!

hm.

i think ive been too wrapped up in my own world. true ive been busy these few weeks and the coming days to be, but i still feel bad. in the midst of my busy schedules ive always had little thgs lk tt poppin up, making me realise that its time i take a breather and well, just try to lead a normal life and not to neglect my frens. im so glad im meeting her tmr cos im too tired to even call anyone and have a decent conversation. yes. i need my ten hours of slp so MICHELLE WHERE ARE YOU. hahaaha.

my dec hols are ending. glummmm.

dumbelle;)

landed back in sg last nite after bout one wk in kl. shah alam was fun, im glad i went. i really do miss singing, and i realised that kids can be pretty adorable if not irritatingly pesty ;) but hey if they call me jie-jie and say im pretty, the least i can do is like them right? haha.
met up with my mum on the last day so i didnt go back with eastspring pri, thank goodness(i dont think i can stand another 5 hr bus journey) and i went shoppin! the shoppin centres are HUGE. and i did buy quite a bit of stuff considering i only shopped for one and a half days effectively. ;)

today we had our first session for the cna thg, will tell you all when its more finalised. but i think it shd be fun tryin to film stuff lah ;)

im still tired. i think i shall have to stick to ten hours of sleep everyday.

EVERYBODY SHOULD JUST COME BACK TO SINGAPORE SO I CAN START SPENDING TIME WITH EVERYONE. bah.

i need to meet up with ppl soon. im lk, seeing bing everyday. ahhaha. ;) i think shah alam was our sixth overseas trip together? greece korea germany sv shahalam hm okay wad was the last one. but anyways yes we go a longgg way back. cool huh. and nxt yr we'll have xiamen. ahha.

anw some kuku gave me some funny number for jimmy and that shameless guy who isnt jimmy kept calling me and talkin coyly to me. after two calls i got suspicious and asked my sis to check for his number. lucky im smart.

haha okay. bedtime.

world peace;)

HA im finally online. havent touched the com for a wk cos pacnet was lousy. anyway i have been busy after A's and have had my schedule really packed. im really tired btw but i miss my com so much i couldnt help not touching it. ;)

anw. prom was okayy i guess. i had fun with my friends, and askin for world peace. i honestly thought it was a little scary to see people you know looking half drunk walking down the streets, but what the hell, its not the kind of life i want and wont be the life i want.
we had fun just walking down orchard road taking pics. oh man we must do it again! i love walking arnd at night cos no one's there to push you arnd and you have the whole road to urself. and eating oyster omelette for supper rocks ahah. there werent anyone else on the street and we kept taking photos of nice structures. ;) and singing christmas songs at the top of our lungs and laughing wildly.. ahha.

i actually wrote letters to all the guys in my class and some others whom i thought i shd appreciate their friendship. i mean, after my anti-guy rallies for two years maybe i shd just let them know that i will miss them after they go ns (LALALA). grins. haha.
will see girls for xmas so, so no hurries. anw its really pathetic, cos everyone's going off at one point or another so we wont be able to go out together until lk christmas period.. argh. but gd lah, at least no one(ie ba) will pester us to go waste 30bucks to scare ourselves by doing bungee jumpin.

yippee now i can watch tv in my room!

anw.
the choir concert tonight was really gd. great job juniors, now i feel lk a proud old woman. woohoo.
i miss singing ;) so im prob joinin vc lah. unless my mum reall has violent objections, which she prob wont since she might suggest me using my own money after i start working.

oh and i attended ms yu's church wedding today. i love weddings. everyone's so pretty;) ahah anw it was a lighthearted affair, quite a few jokes arnd. and the brother actually wrote a song for her. bout getting married. i thought it was particularly touching and i think if anyone did that at my wedding i wld just cry buckets. anw i suddenly had the urge to want to get married soon. but no idea to who.
awn then we started our wedding plans alr. if ur thinkin of being may's or mich's prospective partners pls come to me i need to warn you about somethings first before you actually say 'i do'. seriously with the kind of ideas they have (jungle themed wedding.. leaves instead of rose petals.... wedding dinner cum personal concert for 3 hrs...)even if they tone down you might not take it. so out of the kindness of my heart i shall be a kind soul.

right now i just wanna catch up on my sleep. nothing else can come in between me and my first love. night everyone ;)

second last day in simei

i packed all my clothes already;) it filled six big bags and i still have one more drawer to go. woohoo. i think its scary when you try to pack your clothes and it just keeps filling up the bags. ive always thought i never had enough clothes, well, maybe i just need a change of wardrobe hee. my dad claims i have erm, a lot of shoes but haha he also! and my mum too. see its all in the genes.. actually i cant wait to go over to my own room and start putting up my stuff. im really thinkin of gettin plants. yay. i figured fishes are too troublesome and ive never liked terapins. (recalls mich's squirming racing terapin)
i didnt get to finish watching batman or justice league today. ;(
i actually have great plans for my hair *grins* but i shall not tell my mum yet since well, shes so busy and she wont be reading this anytime soon. sooo. hmm. crosses my fingers;)

listenin to love actually soundtrack just brings you into the christmas mood
"all you need is love. love is all you need"

my heart still beats-destiny's child

i had a dream about this song last night, haha. but hey its a really nice song. "because you're half of me my heart still beats"

anw woohoo im gonna cut my hair tmr. its lk, the most exciting thing i've done in months. cut hair! wow.
how (un)interesting my life has been.
and it can only get better ha.

okay friday is coming real soon.

how to study when

1. ur neighbour insists on cookiing delicious smelling fried chicken and some bbq stuff
2. your itunes plays destiny's child's 8 days of christmas(this version rocks destiny's child rocks)
3. you keep thinkin bout having a movie marathon and the movies u'll rent.(love actually(i can watch it a million times over again), willy wonka, the bone collector, mary poppins?, lotr!, legally blond(its time i get exposed to bimbos), ocean's 11(GEORGE! yay). i thot of more. but anw. smiles. i have great plans to be a couch potato.
4. may wakes you up from ur nap and rattles to you about sentosa(hey mich ill stay under the shade too.. ahaha. either that or 3cm thick of sunblock)
5. you want to throw away ur notes n crush ur entryproof (haha) too!
6. i really wanna read books. ha. aiyah dont be so surprised.. :) agatha christie here i come!
7. oh yes windsurfing. which reminds me, i better put on some weight lest the wind blows me away:) kidding. ill just put weights onto my legs.
8. i wanna bake. n blow up my whole kitchen. anw now ive got two ovens, no fear if one blows up...
9. IM HUNGRY. chomps into bio notes again.

its christmas time!

YAY. just listen to all the tele commercials they're all playing jingle bellssss.

*gets into a grumpy mood*

at this rate exams are never gonna end.
rahh.
bites into my bio notes.

cherries anyone?

cos my sis bought home 2kilos og it. i think my mum is afriad that we cant finish them, cos this morning, within two hours that i woke up she asked me thrice whether i want to eat cherries.
why never bring back mango??

anw haha now im a proud owner of a nice big yellow bag! HA. hey its nice k its gd that my sis supports my love for a brighter and chirpier abd happier world. and its bright pink on the inside! woohoo.

anw im just glad that she's back.

one more wk to moving hse (aka end of exams):D

my mum

mum: i make juice for you, you want?
me: okay.
mum: hmm. kiwi? we got kiwi
me: no i dont want.
mum: or strawberry?
me: hmm. dont want also.
mum: okay which one you like, kiwi or strawberry?
me: neither.
mum: okay lah, strawberry then.
me: raises eyebrows.

motherss.

funny things

1. when liren asked about wage theory intermittently (bout four times haha) durin our four hour interval btwn chem n econs paper
2. my number was called out as one of those who sat in the wrong place. okay lah i sat wrongly so my frens sat wrongly too.. but hey its all brandon's fault.
3. when liren hi-5ed me after econs paper after learnin bout the mpc msc. haha he looked so kiddy it was embarrasing.
4. ba sent julian a sms and anyhow typed chinese words in it and julian replied "er this is embarrassing.. but i dont understand." and ba claimed tt it was proper chinese n julian believed her. HA. ac boys n their chinese..
5. when i saw the econs paper today. it was quite funny. ha ha ha.

benefits of exams.

1. you can have food cravings and ask for it and your lovely parents might just oblige.;) mos burgers rock. hee:)
2. if its too hot i can switch on the air con.
3.

okay i ran out of benefits. but hey two isnt too bad is it.

ducky!

haha it quacks! and eats bread. amazing. thanks minyan :) i koped it from her blog. heehee. her penguin was quite adorable too.
alrights econssss.

one wk into the A's.

and im tired. just today i guess. ;) but i feel gd taking papers. its my best lah, n ill take whatever results that i get. anw. i always feel hungry during the paper. lk today during maths, i was so hungry AND sleepy. haha. my stomach was on the verge of making weird noises i think. but somehow i managed to stay really awake for the whole 3 hrs bcos of stats. well done. gives myself a pat on my back.
im so glad vjc's near 7-11. oh i saw a flavour on ben n jerry's and i wanna try. its called 'chubby hubby' so adorable. its peanut better(!) vanilla malt(!!) and erm chocolate. i think. yupp. sounds gd.
oh n today haha jiax saw me frm the other end of the bus stop (after the paper) and she yelled at me "JIAYUN!! THE PAPER WAS SO DIFFICULT!! yaddayaddayadda!!" haha everyone at the bus stop just turned and looked at us. well done jiax:) but i still love u lah. haha. i mean it! ur my one n only jia. haha.
alrights gp.

yayy

im going KL! ;)

hm its quite sad to see my family (okay my parents haha wad a small fam i have) packing up all the stuff in our hse and im unable to help bcos i have A's. i wld love to dig up all my treasures again and try to remember how my childhood was like all over again:) my mum showed me alot of stuff, lk colouring books and all haha. and i nearly forgot bout my treasure box. i have this big red box where i put the stuff tt i treasure inside.. but haha. its mostly paper cuttings :) and one box full of snoopy cards tt my frens n i used to collect back in pri sch.
i guess i am quite sad to leave simei. no more eastpoint n simei mrt. the latter being the only road i know!
but i cant wait to have my own yellow room hee. im shifting my yellow shelf there too( i painted the shelf myself,guess wad its yellow too!) ahha. ill be in my little heaven then.
haha GRACIA AND BING HERE I COMEE. ;)

ps. i dont mean im moving to kl. ahha.

getting lost.

went ngee ann for sats2 today and it was raining by the time i finish. didnt want to get caught in the rain so eug's father offered to fetch, but in the end (idunnowhy) he didnt come. so we walked out in the rain n i just sat in the nearest busstop waiting for my bus number 9. that plc is near my aunt's, i always go there. ANW i was waiting for quite long alr when i realised i've only seen two buses. ha so i checked the board and yeah it was only two buses, no 9. ;) so i had to walk all the way out to take my 38.
i could have walked to eastpoint to meet my mum lah. wld have been faster. haha i think i took bout thirty mins to take a five min ride :)
isnt it amazing, the things i can do. ;)

who could ever love u more- celine dion

woke up this morning to a full stomach. i had maggi last nite at bout 11 i think. cooked one full packet just for myself *beams* was watching anime while eating. its super gross all the characters had extremely larger than life chests it was obscene. now i know why bock likes to watch anime. ha.
anw then i saw some music awards and whitney housten performed! i rem hearing bout her doing drugs and goin into rehab. well. she looked pretty haggard to me and her voice wasnt as big as i thought it wld be. but nevertheless it was still wonderful watching her sing. its amazing how they(singers) all do it.
and the reason why i still like celine dion (other than the fact that her CD was the first my sis bought(if u dont count bsb)) is bout her making the CD miracle after she had a child. its just such a true reflection of what she is as a person how can u not admire someone like that? ;) anw this is just a random thought that passed my mind when my itunes played her song.
i've shifted to my com room to study since the feng shui at my study room isnt gd (according to my parents it makes me sick cos of all the head hmm). and well it is cooler here. and my itunes belt out gd songs. so im not complaining :)
been memorising biology the whole day. i actually like memorising makes me feel smarter *beams again. ahha.
and i think my voice went one octave lower. again. bass 3 here i come.

blue moooonnn. ;)

haha. platters are coming to singapore! isnt it wonderful i really thought they would be bedridden or smthg. such old songs. maybe im nt as young as i think i am.

anw guess wad i was running a temp yesterday. i had two days of rest so now its back to work. woohoo. my nose is still blocked and my throat still feels funny, n oh my phlegm's the most wonderful colour of all, i think u can call it dark olive. ;) haha. oh wells. am alr drinking lots of water and eating watermelons so i hope i get real well soon.

and since shawn can find anyone to go to platters concerts (its in the middle of A's misterr) here's their song to make up for it;)
oh but i just realised it might be a fake grp. ha. oh wells.
BLUEE MOONNN.

when we walked in fields of gold

*sniff* blobber blobber. *wipes*

so yucky rite. but i cant help it.. ;(

horoscopes.

in lifestyle today
aries: you have a romantic week ahead.

well. now i can make love to my books at ease. hubba hubba.

hee. ;)

nat king cole

L- is for the way you look at me
O- is for the only one i see
V- is very very, extraordinary
E- is even more than anyone can .. adore.. (hee)
and LOVE is all that i can give to you
LOVE is more than just a game for two
Two...blahblah take my heart and pls dont break it
LOVE was meant for me and youuuu.
swoons if only nat king cole is still alive. such nice songs.

anw i've been doing biology the whole day. not a very interesting day.

and its raining really heavily now! i was counting in between lightnings and thunders, cant rem who taught me but it tells u how far away from the lightning you are. i really wonder if singapore will ever have a proper monsoon or typhoon season ten years down the road, now with all the seasonal weather changes. i know someone was telling me about singapore being a possible earthquake zone ten years down the road because of all the earth plates shifting. the only thing i thought of was, damn, i think i'd still be alive ten years later! i really dont wanna live thru an earthquake. and sg definitely cant survive an earthquake can we.
how irrelevant i am. right now i shd be talkin bout how ppl can get 50 marks for compos. glances over at chewmarker.

wanted to type in a story frm readers' digest but it was too long. anw its about the doc go read it if u guys have it. readers digest and time mag rocks. newspapers dont they make my fingers black.

alrights study hard my frens.

somebody save the trees

added to my list of fav pastime: printing paper. 78 pages of bio.

and i was just listenin to vjc olympics songs. Hm i miss singing.

and i still love the rainy weather. ;) was walkin with janice today ahha under the shelter that leads to my block and you could feel the spray of rain. so lovely. although all i cld hear was janice's ramblings cos she cldnt get home as the rain was pretty heavy. we ended up watching taiwanese shows while munching on chips. oh n there's this new flavour on pringles. grilled shrimp. i thot i shd be adventurous so i bought it, but it just tastes lk koropok. so cheaty.

sometimes when we get abit tired of studying :) we talk about prom and i still dunno wad to wear. really wan to wear my big skirt but ahah if i look short...

Billy! haha;) 

i think she likes me-billygilman

haha was just listenin to him yesterday. and i was wondering.. where's he now? i mean he was only 11 when he did that first cd and wowed everyone ;) i did think he was adorably cute. and he's got such an incredible voice.
so, i googled his name and hey guess wad! he's all grown up. i think he's 17 this yr (ALREADY) and he had to go on a two year break cause his voice was very damaged. pretty sad, sounds lk what happened to charlotte church too. anyways, he's back! ahah. with a new album and new songs. how come we never heard about him in sg??
haha n he sounds different. ;) damn his voice broke. haha. but oh wells he still sounds lk good old billy:) ahhah.

living my life

haha. so here i am, on this cold dark night, having the whole hse to myself, and sipping my jolly shandy. loovely. haha.
i love jackie chan and his movies, and in this shanghai knight i particularly liked the part where he fought off the bad english ppl at the market;) with the umbrella! and then there was a part where they played 'singin in the rain' music. ah, jackie chan's a legend, may he live forever :)
i dropped by eastpoint in the evening to get pens and snacks before buying my own dinner, and i felt lk a true auntie carrying the big watsons bag :) i bought alottt of snacks. theni thought of prom and that i will only have five days after exams to get ready. so ive decided to 1. wear a baggy flary dress since its all the rage this season for catwalk (dont u guys ever read fashion news??) 2. get a corsette. hahaha.

and the guys strike a pose. 

janice has green eyes! i never noticed..;) 

staking our claim over the balloon 

and heres us again 

gurrl powerrr! 

stars united ;) 

even the balloon says so. 

balloons! 

farewell assembly

one day we'll all go back to shell station and ask for tree houses. ;) i think yongsheng and karthik(i hope i spelt their names correctly) are simply hilarious.
and i will miss vj dearly. ;)

do you believe in fairies?

watched peter pan yesterday. it was so dreadful rushing to the esplanade after our mock gp paper which ended at 545 and the concert was at 7. and the toilet was locked so i couldnt bathe. but that didnt spoil my mood one bit;)
it was really like going to a kids' show cos there must have been a thousand kids inside there. and they were all so chirpy! ahha.
peter pan really flies. oh man it was so cool! throughout the show he was just flying around, dancing, and singing. n he can do tap dance too! amazing little boy. and tinklebell was so adorable. she kept making those little sounds and literally just fleeting around.she was so gd at acting i cant believe they're really only little kids.
i had already read in the news that peter pan would fly into the audience, but honestly u have to see it urself to feel the magic;) ahha at the end he really flew into the audience. you could hear everyone gasping ;) ahha its amazing that the little boy isnt afraid at all. i cant help but blame myslf for being so old or i could have been tinklebell eh;)
hey. i can dream cant i;)

I think, therefore I am.

Today during GP lesson Mr chew had to say goodbye to us. he knows we do love his lessons, but neither of us were expecting him to be so mushy:) ahha 'all the teaching has made me a sissy', i quote. that was about the only funny part ;)
first he went about thanking every single group of us. my class has our own little cliques heh but what came through was really his sincerity and earnestness i guess in making sure that he included everyone.
he was only beginning with the sianghan group and he got choked up alr;) it was really weird seeing him up there, tryin to say goodbye. i couldnt help but think back on the gp lessons we had, several memorable ones, all the madhouse debates and the interesting group work we always had to do. he always had a very fun way of putting his lessons across. of course there were the movies ;) 15, that chicken movie( wads the title.. some heaven smthg?), and whack the dog! ahha. and gattaca.
Listening to him talk, i was almost thankful for being his student for two years. i cant help but think if we mean more to him than he means to us, we being the hallmark of his teaching probably suggests something, but for me i guess theres always smthg about gd teachers that makes me wanna count my blessings. recall mrs ngin ;) ms tng( i really think shes one that makes an impact) and ms yeo ahha. wonderful teachers who've chose to teach. Im glad i had them in my life at one point of time.
i know there was one point of his speech that i really wanted to cry. haha. hm:) however ice queen i am, how could i have not been moved. towards the end when he said he had always felt smthg with our class, 'when souls collide, there's resonance.' smthggg lk tt. haha. i just felt.. tts it, its the end. end of me hanging out with my class, my two years in vj, end of all the laughing and fooling arnd, no more wearing the sch uniform and going to parkway, and i wont even get to see and call the scums scums anymore.
he thanked us girls for always being there to laugh, at. haha grr. also said the girls brought fun laughter peace and joy to the class, and as an afterthought he said to take out the peace, since we were always so noisy. haha.
i left the class reminiscing about the time when we had to do quiet reflections in the new electives hub. haha it turned out to be a badd idea. we just turned wild at the new hub:) we played arnd with the structures, the sliding doors(i rem silly guys puttin their face at the glass circles on the doors.. tt was really funny), the girls were in one room and the guy in the next. and in the end we had to sprawl on the floor and hastily write out reflections.
all along mr chew was sitting quietly in his corner and kinda just letting us be. and in the end he gathered us and read us a poem he wrote about us:) i could still remember how i felt. we were all caught by surprise but we all simply though it was the most wonderful thg to do. its heartwarming to know that he appreciates us;) i think it was frm that one incident where i really thought mr chew was one teacher in his own league. i thot of the word sweet;) but i suspect he might protest.
hm. and so thats how he made my day. again;)

im a zoo tycoon.

im own two tigers, two black rhinos, and two chimpanzees. and all have successfully mated ;) woohoo im such a gd zoo tycoon. haha. yes zoo tycoon is addictive. i thank java for being able to have such wonderful games on ur hp, its really lovely. oh n i own two pets too. one blue poodle and one monkey. i keep wanting to show michelle my monkey but i always forget.

anw haha rachel i met ur mum! i wanted to say hi to her but wasnt sure if she wld recognise me. but i got her to notice me. by droppin my knife really loudly in delifrance and everyone turned to stare at me. its true. then i flashed my biggest smile at rach's mum. ;)
then i met her again at the dressing room n she called my name haha. i still think its funny how those chubby cheeks run in the family ;) so adorable.

i had absolutely no motivation to do my econs hmwk this afternoon. kept tryin to run away by watching this golf movie on channel 5. it had will smith matt damon and charlize theron. pretty cool. i liked the movie ;) haha. then i had to rush my essay even though i was really really hungry.

i may sound evil, but im really glad i live in singapore. away from all the hurricanes, typhoons, and earthquakes. with the recent earthquake between india and pakistan, well. you cant help but be thankful can you.
so lets all count our blessings!
and dont forget to think of those less fortunate.

5000 collegiate words

all for saturday's sat. i just killed ten more trees by printing all those 5000 words. Sorry Mother Earth, i promise i will stop drinking coke and resist the urge to pull out grass so i can compensate for the trees.
tell me im silly to prepare for sats when everyone is preparing for A's.
no. dont tell me.
i wanna go to the beach tmrrrr. im sounding querulous :) and i abominate staying in sch to study, it simply bores me.
alright thats all the vocab ive learnt so far.

VJC students make headlines in TJY NEWS

VJC Students make astounding discovery in Biology lesson

A group of VJC students from the fantastic class of 04S22 (not all since many were absent today) made a fascinating discovery today. The teacher, Mrs Lim, was very impressed by the intellectual ability of the students and even urged them to further their ideas on qualitative research.
It was unusual how this group of students made this discovery. It shows that formal education can still serve its purpose of evoking creativity in students if the students have the right attitude.
During a normal biology lesson, the students were on the subject of fat cells, whereby an inquisitive student, Raihana, asked if there were such things such as fat cells. To the students' surprise there is, and the fat cell is like any other normal cell which has a nucleus.
Which would imply, according to biological theories, that a fat call can also undergo uncontrolled cell division if there is mutation in its tumour suppressing gene or the p53 gene, causing it to cease to produce normal regulatory proteins. This will result in cancer in fat cells.
An observant student, Eugenia, then made an observation that obesity could be due to cancer in the fat cells.
A loud student(haha), Janice, then asked the teacher if it was possible and this aroused the teacher's interest in this subject.
The teacher then urged the students to further their theory on research, and the job is going to Eugenia who is going to further her studies in Biology in renowned universities.

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Anyways. haha. ive decided that im a maths genius in disguise. okay maybe not in disguise since its pretty obvious. ;) i did my 3d trigo in a differnet way today and me n mr koh spent quite a bit of time figuring out why its so different if you look at it frm different angles. nope we didnt have an ans, but she promised she'll tell me on fri. this is the kind of intellectual conversations we shd all have lahh.
and i think i might be late for lnat. nt too sure since they all say its by 15th jan. oh wells i really hope nt. but they sure are taking long to send me my account details.
anw
YES RACHEL I WILL WILLINGLY MARRY YOU muacks. as long as u say im gorgeous, rem? ahaha. no lah i love youuu. n yes maybe i can go visit u in ny (ahem*money*cough*) we can always dream cant we ;)

throws hands up in frustration

once in a while i lose my direction. my focus. i dont know where im going, where im headed to. i only have a hazy sketch of my final destination, that one pale light flickering in the darkness that envelopes me. somehow the deafening silence in the darkness makes it unbearable, there are times i wanna run away and hide under my blanket.
just had a mini row with my mum. well. apparently she still thinks that science is the only lucrative degree to get if ur overseas.
*breathes.
oh wells. shall see how.

welcome to jy world.

econs tuition today, and we were talkin about normative and positive statements. my tutor asked me to give an example of one normative statement. before i could think of smthg gd, nic said 'jy is pretty.'
i dont like him very much. anw the feeling is mutual isnt it BOO.

then my tutor was talkin about scarcity, and how we have unlimited wants but limited resources. and he was saying unless we venture out into space we will always have this problem.
well. ive just got a new idea to take over the world. *bulb lights up*
okay, space.
shall go over to a nice yellow planet and build up my own empire. shall call it the 'jy world' and only allow ppl who say im pretty to come in. if not they can die(together with nic) on the dying planet called earth. no one shall be allowed to do up their hair so my mane will look the prettiest. its a relative thg, this prettiness thing. anw. ill make it that there will be no height requirements for being an air stewardess(or space stewardess). and the whole world shall be a happy place because im the queen.
oh did i mention. yup. ill be the queen. hail me.
when i have more ideas ill blog. meantime. i wanna run away frm sch.

bon jovi- im all about loving you

stayed back in sch today to study and they plugged in my ipod to the speakers. we were pretty slack at first cos we went com lab for me to do my mas stuff but in the end we did do work lah. we had enough of spice girls and backstreet boys to motivate us.
i nearly missed the deadline for sat. why in the world am i taking sats.
im so tired i feel really drained. i whined alot during tuition just now (haha) cos my stuff kept dropping. haha everytime i move smthg will drop. but rai n eug love me so much they always end up picking it up for me. alvin was tryin to glare at me but hey who has bigger eyes huhh glare wad glare.
and oh i ate a really big dinner haha. banana prata and egg prata. i felt pregnant after tt. so bloated it was quite horrible ahha. but quite funny too cos i wasnt the only one who ate alot ;) rai cldnt finish hers too. its the result of tryin to binge. food therapy is the worst.
anw. we really must work hard. i cant emphasize more. lets all do it together.
btw. i like the tree houses in vjc. dont care if ppl think its weird to have tree houses in schs, but i think whatever it is, its really a nice plc to sit and relax. overlooks the field and you can see abit of blue peeking out from the trees(just imagine its the sea and not the sky) and you'll feel chirpier.
anw now friendster has this new thg where u can check who's visited ur profile right. i think its damn weird lah. but i went to check;) i have ppl frm china checkin me out. woohoo. im a china magnet haha.
im kidding.
but ill refrain from checkin it out in the future. i think i rather be in suspense;) anw all i wanna do on friendster is to upload defamatory pics of my frens up on my profile now that u can have up to 25 pics. i have so many pics of gra may mich lookin funny i swear it'll just upp my visitors by a lot;) but its all too big to upload darn. so too bad. after A's then ill go do.
going back malaysia tmr, and i have to bring hmwk. woohoo. i loveeeee sch.

and so sch starts again.

got back some of our papers today. i cant say im a calm and composed person when gettin back papers, but at least im not the kind to get depressed over results. im not scoring, but at least im still doing okay i guess. will continue to work hard to get the results i wan. still it was depressing to see people around you get all down bcos of results. no one likes gettin lousy results, but rather than sulk or get all gloomy, go do smthg about it. looking sad doesnt help does it. but oh wells my bossy image will come another day, right now i think my fren need a shoulder to lean on. which she did for half the bus journey home ;)
anw me and ba were walkin to the toilet and i was in a silly mood so i was singing 'if ur happy n u noe it blahblah' n i made her clap her hands n stamp her feet. hahaha. n there were ppl walkin in our direction i think they thot we were mad. then we went to wave at the security camera hahaha.
coolstuff.

its time to work hard ;)
cheers!

stomp! see what all the noise is about

i had such a nice day ;)
started it off with lords of dogtown. what a nice movie(helloahemdevilsrejects) i chose. haha. i love watchin street rebels. they're really cool. and i thought stacy was the best ahha. he's so cool yet so dork. he even wears a belt ;) theres just smthg about history that makes me feel strangely inquisitive. besides its amazing how they skate. i cant even blade. kudos;)
then we shopped arnd for prom stuff. wasnt anythg much to see, really. but janice n ba did get to try on some nice stuff. well. im difficult. ;( the guys werent too bad they lasted for bout an hour i think. suits arent very interesting to look at i guess. after a while it all looks the same.
then stomp! with shawn ;) ahha. it was realllyyy gd. and they were hilarious ;) the rhythm was so fantastic i really have no idea how they do it cos it seems random to me but its amazing how they can be in sync. and the energy ;) woohoo. im so gonna irritate everyone tmr by hitting on everythg. clapclap snapsnap stampstamp hithit. ;)

banana pizza with cinnamon ice cream

i must have walked city link at least four times today. i actually spent my whole afternoon there can u believe it ;) well we finally bought presents for jiaxun and bing ;) hey jiax i hope u lk ur new shoes and bing! u can smell the same as britney ;) ahhaa. anw we had a really nice dinner where some ppl *ahem*beloved*ahem*bingy had three desserts. its really amazing i tell you. but it was nice. go check out the new bakerzin at raffles city. im definitely going back there for more desserts. then we walked over to esplanade but i had to leave early cos i didnt wan to stay out too late. being the only child *temporary* makes me feel more responsible towards my parents ;) or maybe its me going out everyday till late.

anw ive just realised how evil ppl can be. my tuition teacher heard bout me applyin to mas and he commented tt his female frens who works there are all single and they cant get married. and nic promptly said tt i wont get married anyway.
slap him.

and ah im so lookin forward to watchin movie tmr ;) i havent gone to movies for a lonng time. but i still wanna watch be with me. darn.

and i bought new specs. ;) they make me look more intellectual. but it'll only be ready in two wks' time.

i have a bad feeling sch is reopening soon. ;(

haha i thot amir looked quite nice in this pic. imagine him in a sarong and a knife. ;) 

rai janice eug. ;) by the koi pond. man. they look so kawaii. 

i love the swing. ;) and hello thats janice.  

my poor head. again. ;) 

mrs koh our maths teacher. she's quite cool. and she likes to roll her eyes. of cos not at us nice girls but at those horrible boys. ;) 

my poor head. ;) 

east coast, my love.

may says it very well.
'welcome to freedom' hahaha.

anw. went out to east coast after that. cant believe everyone was so late. eug and i could actually meet up with u guys when our meeting time (at bedok) was one hour after u guys were suppposed to meet. in the end we werent the latest ;) anw it was really hot day and cycling was really eventful. really interesting. u had no idea how afriad i was that eug wld just cycle on and on. u see, she's the fastest, but thats only because she doesnt know how to stop. ;)
then we had janice's bike's lousy gears. and ba puking up her ice kachang kosong onto the nice, green fluffy grass.
and how the guys claimed not to want to leave the girls behind right after ba puked. then they cycled in front and janice's bike acted up and no one was there to save us. except this really young brave man who came up to us and fixed the bike. before the guys could come back ;) guys these days. hais.
then we headed to parkway just in time before the rain came. we even had time to go isetan to look arnd. liren's really cool he knows disney princesses names. and we're going out again on wed! ahah. its quite nice to hear the class guys say they wan to come with us to help us look at prom stuff haha. at that point of time.. i felt. hm. happy. maybe bcos i felt there was no pretense. dota boys are fun, but they normally talk at a different frequency. at least sports i can understand. gaming, kill, clan, ahha. im a noob ;)

anyways. woohoo. exams are over, at least for now. let me bask in beautiful sunshine and believe that life is still worthwhile.
by having retail therapy;)
enjoy life while u can. haha.

lose ur way and i will find you

yay i just killed a lot of trees. okay they have already died by the time their pulp has been made into paper, but hey. i just printed one metre thick stack of papers worth of maths s solutions which i prob will not get to look at since its such a nice weekend holiday party mood.

and i officially declare myself a tech dino. i just cant send email frm my phone. why why why. i cld do it with my old phone. its the same thg rite?? pfft. and thats because i found the cable for my phone to transfer stuff to my com, but i cant find a hole in my cpu that fits the cable.
dont laugh. the stuff is really weird k u gotta screw it in somehow. hm.

shall go spread my yellow ribbons around ahhaha apparently lucas found a very gd use for it! he ties it arnd his guitar n feels gay about it. haha. hahah.

hee. ;)

one hour later: and im still printing. and why are teachers so smart. they make the stuff unprintable so u gotta sit in front of the com to read it. or actually retrieve it. why arent they com dinos lk me.

hello world.

haha okay.
isnt my blog nice. ;)

oh alrights. so i accidentally deleted my html while tryin to be funky and adventurous. but hey ive always loved polka dots. anyway if the links are wrong or if u wan me to add u pls let me know. i kinda got tired after a while. im so sorry if your name is not up there it will be soon!

cheers.

of diamines and all things nitrogen

i never liked nitrogen. ahha my amide lect notes are still empty. anw chem s today was a like a big load off my shoulders. i kept tellin myself not to get out of the hse too early but i actualy forgot. so i got to sch really early and i couldnt wait for it to start.
now tt its over i dont believe i have to go through everything again.

anw i really want to slp right now. just slp it off. but it sounds lk such a boring thing to do (haha) but there really isnt anything interesting on channel five.

come mon, im so gonna eat down the whole lagoon. muaha.

blame it on the weatherman

im fell in love with dawson's creek's cd. haha. and i didnt even watch a single episode of the series. but the songs are nice. it teaches me to blame everythg on the weatherman. which is quite apt nowadays since its hot then cold then hot then cold. then hot.
anw. evil ppl who are already planning for thurs, rem we have sch.
oh this thurs? nah everyone's stayin at home to share my love for chemistry. yups.

haha. cant wait for prelims to be over. although im sorry its in such a state. but oh wells i did study. i feel smarter alr ;)

anyone knows how to get to west coast? we need to see the other side of the world. cant always get cooped up in our little east coast can we. see we're so adventurous, woohoo.
and of cos, haha. bing u better go do ur research and find out whether its a bar or a lounge. either ways me and may are still gonna go in to check it out! i've waited so long for all u girls to turn eighteen k;)
and movies! and moree movies. hahah. marathon woohoo.
im sorry ah mother i gotta have to havoc a bit since i only have TWO DAYS so i better make sure i make gd use of them. ;)

hello world.

i just woke up frm a nap. ;) my eyes are still hurting. i think they lack oxygen. just lk my brain.
anw yesterday i didnt eat lunch. haha i just couldnt stomach anythg.. so basically i didnt eat anythg for the whole day in sch. may reckons tt now ive got an excuse to why i didnt do well for maths ;). my dear eug got onto my car n promptly told my dad that i didnt eat the whole day. ahha tt got my dad talkin quite a bit.. i was lk 'thanks eugeniaaaaa'. ;) but oh wells she loves me. she doesnt want me to beat her in running after ive grown lighter and faster and more featherweight.

anw. guess wad. i have a twin. i actually found out really recently too. its shocking isnt it.
its all ba's sis' fault. haha.

oh n my hp number is one number after one of my guy's fren's gf's number. and so when i recounted that to my dear fren janice she promptly replied that im the next in line.

shocking.
bye.

interest rates.

alright. econs tuition just ended. no idea why im online but i just wanted to let everyone know that im alive. i was actually having a tummyache throughout the whole tuition, funny how my body works. my body system chose to get twisted two days frm exams. but oh wells it keeps me awake. at least now ill stop taking those time consuming thing called afternoon naps ;)
right now i guess everyone's scrambling for last min revisions. im no exception. but hey. remember to breathe ;) life is much more than just mugging. im not saying we really have an option, 4Fs really looks horrible, but... theres a reason to everythg that you do. why do I want good grades. why did i wanted to take bio chem econs maths.
i want to be able to get into whatever faculty i want to. i want to be the one choosing the uni, not they choose me (ha). i dont want two yrs of jc life going to waste just because of me being slack or lazy. theres always my parents to think of. not just face, really, its for all the meals my mum cooked for me and all the times my dad had to wake up earlier just to send me to sch, or to pick me up frm sch, so that i didnt have to squeeze onto buses with stinky guys. i want to show ppl that my brains do work ;) that im capable of much more than just mugging. you learn so much more that way. of course i was never gd at memorising anyway. (thats why my bio is the way it is)(which is nthg to be proud of).
but i really am having problems just coping with doing well so there. but no stress :) my mum can justify for tt. i take it quite easy at home. at most i work it out by exercising. by jogging. on the spot.
cool huh.
i was kidding.
;) nite. im making no sense.
take care my beloved frens! see i can be nice and sweet too :)

buzzword:hows studying

which is really a silly question since we all, being intelligent subjects of singapore education system knows that stuyding is not only enjoyable but its really beneficial to the brain and to mental health. after vigorous stimulation of the brain through rigorous reading and maybe making notes, for the more hardworking ones, your brain functions better not only at making out words but also at inducing sleep.
im only passin time here while bock asks me silly qns bout bio. heh.
alrights nite.

say its me that you adore, for now and ever more. thats all. thats all.

i was about to come online and tell everyone that i went MAS today and it got me thinking even harder about doing well for prelims which isnt a nice thought because ive been takin so many afternoon naps and how i got stuck at the 30th floor with one of their scholars when the venue was changed to 16th floor and how its all gonna be so soon if i gonna apply for provisional scholarship and interview will be nxt month but either ways i dont think ill get shortlisted i think they're looking for 4As during prelims which i obviously wouldnt have if not i wld nt be here and wld be the second youngest kid into nus.

then i plugged on my ipod. and i heard michael buble. ;) 'i can only give you love that last forever.... '
*swoons*
who needs scholarships when uve got michael.

i spent ten hours in sch. ;)

haha. dont ask me why, but rai said she wld be in sch early in the morn and i agreed to meet her. and we meant before 730. so we went cycling in the morn! felt really gd cycling along east coast, reliving everything i had forgotten i love, the cool sea breeze, the lovely coastline, looking at people frm all walks of lives (and dogs too) and of cos haha u get to see army guys running. smirks:D
and we cycled and talked for an hr. ;)
met a lady frm india (we think shes some govt official or smthg she had a badge) who kept calling us 'sisters' and wanted to take pictures with us. what to do we're such lovable girls ;)
anw louser eugenia cldnt wake up early and met us late. then we went classroom hopping. nt that we really wanted to, but ppl kinda chased us out. yes. yr ones still have lessons. although i heard the attendance today was really bad.. oh wells wads new. have you met my classmates? (ans: no, they dont come sch.)

we kept finding things to laugh about while studying. rai really perks up anyone's day when shes in a crappy mood ;) love tt girl! though shes the butt of all our teasing.. she says funny thgs. n its even funnier when she talks to eug cos eug cant catch any of her jokes :) lk:
eug "oh man rai u crack me up!"
rai "haha i know, im a nutcracker!" (implying eug's the nut she cracks.haha.if you dont get it dont worry u have to talk to rai a few times to go to her level of thinking..)
and lots more.

i lk it when it rains. the weather's great, n if ur indoors it makes u feel very cosy. maybe its relative thg,but hey if it makes u feel gd why nt ;) maybe bcos it makes u feel safe. frm all the pouring rain and strong wind. ur safe indoors and u can do whatever you want to do cos ppl wont be knocking at ur door(they'll be hiding indoors too!) anw the best days when i was young were always those spent at home when its raining. u get to do all the nice thgs u dont get to do on normal days. haha. lk erm, art. crafts.
how nice if i dont have to study and i can do art everyday.

gossips.

didnt wan to blog but oh wells. since my life is so interesting might as well spread my joy around huh.

its really interesting how gossips never fail to keep girls in touch all over again. i dont even have to say 'hello how was ur day'. all i have to do is 'hey ## have you heard bout *****!! can you believe it?? " and there we have a conversation that can last us for hours. ;) and boy do we talk bout really deep philosophical stuff. yup. bout meaning of life and all. yes.
ahah.
tts why boys are boring creatures.
;D

quote of yesterday: we shd all name our kids funny names so ppl can laugh and be happy. -ms happy.

we're the spice girls ready to go!

i've listened to spice girls three times. beams:) i can never ever get enough of spice girls. they're an integral part of my early teenhood which i treasure alot. haha. its really wonderful how i know wad the next track will be even before it starts. see, its already in my brain, i cant erase it.
alrights. so i was doing maths and i really needed something to perk me up.
how come nobody seemed to be doing work.

alright back to maths.
anyway. was just talkin about prom today. i realised something about myself. ahha. i dont think im a very interesting person. okay alrights. i Am an interesting person but i dont think i wld love to go mingle in crowds all the time. i think i might just give the after prom party a miss. i didnt even think bout going until my dear fren rai kinda suggested it. i think she really wans to go ahha. silly girl :)
cheers mate.
there is nothing that our great minds cant achieve. eat more fish.

vjc 05.

last day of sch today. well. theoretically. too bad to those who didnt come sch. (which was quite a few of u lot u basketeers) no pics for you. boo.
had my first visitors to clearwater today. everybody admired my yellow room ;)grins. and we all wore yellow shirts today! wad a coincidence. n the packet drinks we had was yellow too. wad a joyful day today was. ;)
alrightss i cant seem to upload pics here. shall try again nxt time. ;)

will i miss vjc? i mean, its definitely been a great time hanging out with my girlfriends;) the amt of jokes we have haha. n of cos we have codes for everythg. high barriers to entry, so we're lk the monopoly. HA. anyway my class was real fun at times, thanks everyone (yes even u scums) for making vjc so enjoyable.
but then as you hate to deny it theres always this thg bout studies that dampens everyone's spirits and really just gets everyone down. amidst all our laughter we're all just, really, trying to get through A's.
but i think ive just found the best way to get through it.
with friends. :)
thank you all!

ohh yes. n i kinda gorged on bk today. of all thgs, bk. im definitely nt a bk-fan but i cant seem to run away frm frens who love bk. but i was having my cravings again. now the herseys sundae pie is still swimming in my stomach. i hope it finds its way to the intestines soon.

sleep.

fly

im never gd at dealing with deaths. esp when its so sudden. knew her as my sis's gd fren, and its amazing how they managed to keep in touch throughout all these yrs. we knew her mum, they knew us too.
its just too sad isnt it.
everytime i want to make a decision bout what to do with my life events lk these pop up and remind me of the fragility of life. n that i can be part of the fight against that. esp cancer.

celine dion's fly.

fly fly little wing
fly beyong imaging
the softest cloud, the whitest dove
upon the wind of heaven's love
past the planets and the stars
leave this lonely world of ours
escape the sorrow and the pain
and fly again.

fly fly precious one
your endless journey has begun
take your gentle happiness
far too beautiful for this
cross over to the other shore
there is peace forevermore
but hold this mem'ry bittersweet
until we meet

fly fly do not tear
dont waste a breath, dont shed a tear
your heart is pure, your soul is free
be on your way, dont wait for me
above the universe you'll climb
on beyond the hands of time
the moon will rise, the sun will set
but i wont forget

fly fly little wing
fly where only angels sing
fly away, the time is right
go now, find the light.

sick.again.

i woke up this morning sounding different. haha. my mum made me go for tcm (traditional chinese medicine). wells ive been going western docs so many times i decided to give it a try. anyway my mum thinks tt doc is really gd.
the doc said my body is weak n i have very low blood pressure. then she asked me if i felt faint.. she asked if ive been dieting. ha. as if i ever wld diet.
anw once my throat gets better n my nose gets unstuffed ill go back to her n see if tcm works. :)
but its rather worrying to hear someone tell u that ur body is weak. oh wells. my dad complains tt i havent been exercising. just bcos i dont join ever join him for golf... ;) oh well, to set the record straight, my brain has been exercising alot. :)

its a bright june afternoon

i think the song did go smthg lk tt. haha.

anyway im in comlab now. living my life as a pathetic friday afternooner stuck in vjc. nope it isnt really funny to come to school and realise to your horror(or well, happiness) that i only have five periods of school today. which meant my first three periods was crap. or rather, i could have slept in. at an age where sleep is SO important (sleep helps you grow taller) i cannot stress more the importance of having enough sleep every day. It not only recharges your brain, it restores your physical strenght to pursue greater academic heights amidst dreary school hours. Sleep also removes eyebags, which is very important if you have sexy beady eyes. yups. ;)

i just saw julian try to answer his hp while his earphones are still on. fantastic.

anyway back to my topic on friday afternoons.
it shd be abolished. and we shall rename it 'jy-day'. in remembrance of my greatness.

julian was just complaining that my blog is lame n i shd write my views on terrorism on it. well okay here it is. terrorism is a scary thg bcos julian is scary.
haha. aiyah i dont tink ill ever aspire to be a famous blogger lk the durian boy. :)

if u didnt love me.

janice was just saying that i have a knack for supporting ppl that dont really win. lk bobice n rubben(but he did win idol HA) n now oh wells kelly. she didnt do very well for superstar but its okay shes still young. haha i dont really watch alot of tv but these kind of tv programmes i watch. maybe its bcos we're all singers, n i really feel very warm knowing that there are so many out there who can actually sing n perform n realise their dreams. yay. the world's a nice plc.

anyway i saw smthg really beautiful today ;) clouds! was on the highway in the morn on my way to sch and right in front of me was this big mass of cloud. imagine looking forward onto the road, and when you look out the cloud almost fills up most of ur vision. the top part of the cloud was shining white, and there was this middle portion that had orange crimson light shining through. i thot it was amazing :) and u could see streaks of lightning in it occasionally. haha. yeah i was staring at it for a longg time.
when i grow old ill move to adibah's strawberry farm n cloud-gaze.

anw my blog title is just a song by corrinne may. pls dont think im out of love. ;)

woohoo.

brought my baby photos to sch this wk. we girls had this agreement to bring lah. okay mine was in my hp cos i cant take them out of the sticky album. n brought one real photo of me in when i was in pri 2. apparently my teeth grew smaller, my ears grew smaller. ;)
n bing thot i was a baby boy. thanks my fren, i love u still ;)

watched project superstar just now. i noe this sounds really dumb, but i felt quite sad for weilian while watching him perform. somehow you just cant admit that he's better than junyang. however u really want to commend him for his efforts. oh wells. weilian shd sing oldies :) he sounded really gd singin rick price. i lk rick price. im an oldies girl. at least i noe im nt the only one, with may arnd :)

anchored in hope

went for social entrepreneurship forum 2005 organised by nus yesterday. other than the fact tt there was this elvin presley hairstyled guy (haha) tt i thot was nt too bad (ahem) it was really quite an interesting forum. i mean i realised there is a parallel of delancey street in singapore! called highpoint halfway house. other than the fact tt the person in charge is a reverend which probably means he preaches, but oh wells i guess ppl can choose whether to listen or nt rite. but it was really interesting to see what kind of social entrepreneurshipy ideas have taken place in signapore. i bought a notebook ;) i think i shall start a notebook collection, i do have enough to start one. anyways. i still cant say for certain wad i really want to be, but i find myself thinking less about medicine n biology n more about economics. woohoo.
but first i need to ace econs.

and i really appreciated the fact tt janice n eug went with me even though haha they were falling asleep during the first part ;) they're great frens! except for the part when we had to meet at 1115 and eug woke up at 1115. shes one champion. haha.

anw today's econs tuition was much much better. ahha i guess we were all quite cautious alr, and really did our work. he still thinks we're slower, but at least we're catching up. i hope. haha. ;)

was trying to convince phua to join airforce so i can meet all his frens? but apparently he's the wrong guy to look for. sooo. anybody out there? just one person will do! haha. hey even alpha-male-phua said it wld be cool to sit together with a pilot on a plane. ahha.
*whispers*i always knew he had oestrogens overload!*

backstreet boys!

have been trying (really hard) to dl this new video of theirs, just want to let you know.but somehow all that comes up is this pantene advert which i can now memorise "longer, thicker, blahblah" i think vh1 is tryin to cheat my feelings what say you.
boo. i wan my bsb.

safe in a crazy world

what can i say, corrinne may was really fantastic. ;) shes one of those ppl who can sing till the cows come home and her voice is still the same old rich, velvety singsong voice. she actually sounds better life for some songs ;)
and the fact that her songs have such beautiful soulwrenching lyrics that ppl can relate to, that just makes her music even more amazing. beams:)
pity i didnt get her autograph today. long story. but hey im going down on fri, apparently shes having some autograph session at the library ;)
really glad i had the chance to hear her sing today. pity how she had to go over to LA, but i guess thats just the price of being arty farty in singapore.

and as long, as you keep this moment shining in the dark. i will be watching over, every beat of your heart :)

according to gra, someday ill find a guy who appreciates me and love me for who i am. haha. *leftclap rightclap leftclap*. ;)

come on and do it

i love spice girls haha. their lyrics are the easiest to memorise.. and they repeat themselves so many times. and it doesnt always have to make sense! :D wonderful chick music. i love it. haha.
just lk how i love my bsb woohoo.

anw happy national day to one n all. i had a great time swimming today. n watching fireworks from my apartment in clearwater. can see a little bit.

i lk this pic. haha. i wan shades.

i think my mum's worried that im nt studying hard enough. which may be true but *shhh* im nt telling her that.

cant wait for corrinne may concert tmr ;) really looking forward to going out. whee. lk some small girl who's been granted an outing huh. cant help it im a small girl at heart i guess. lala.

econs tuition.

haha. i cant stand it when ppl tink im dumb. im a proud person ;) and i do tink he did tink i was dumb. or rather the grp of us. haha. compared to the other grp. oh wells. right. its time to work hard(really) for econs. nt a very difficult thg to do, given the hmwk tt he gives.
wheeeeeee.

fireworks and everythg nice ;)

alfas challenge was quite fun. im glad i made frens there. anw it was gd exposure lah, although i really think theres alot of thgs i can work on if i really wan to go for scholarships. im glad my grp had nice ppl ;) all the reflections just felt lk sv all over again, only that ppl werent exactly willing to talk and after a while we just let the teachers talk. besides the teachers werent exactly great facilitators.. they were kinda secretive. huh.

anyways. ;)
went for rai's book launch! haha. it was really lk a mini ndp at the carnival at marina. the military performance was really quite cool :) although i kept thinkin the tanks wld shoot. as in really shoot. haha. it was so loud, it sounded lk my heartbeat lah. and the fighter planes were really awesome.
ive decided, im gonna have my wedding tea ceremony up in the chinhook. and its gonna carry my wedding car. cool rite. ba wans to arrive to her weddin in a tank (HA).
and the fireworks festival was really beautiful. had four segments to it, the was really quite in synch with the music. i just felt so happy seein the fireworks :) actually i dont tink ive missed a single yr of fireworks, but its just that warm escape-frm-the-world kind of feelin u get everytime u watch it. haha i felt very loved watchin it ;) after which i promptly hugged all the girls n told them i love them! ahah. was nice lah. ;) my fav is still the golden showers.

so yeah. today was quite a happy day ;)

may the mugger bug be with you.

i felt quite hardworking today. really did quite alot of work this afternoon. did get a little restless, but nonetheless was proud of the amt of work i did today. wheewhoo.
cant wait for sunday where i can rest.
i seriously need to go for massage. my body feels.. tired.
to my horror the uk admissions thg is now closed.
i have no idea if that means i cant make anymore changes to the unis i put there.
oh wells.
gonna go support raihana at the carnival at marina tmr ;) she wrote this article which got selected to be published in this book so we're going for some book launch. its quite cool we've got free pink ponchos n noisy rattlers. haha. n newater.
not quite sure wad to expect for tmr. im supposed to go for some alfas challange, and im really feeling weary already.
night ppl ;)

pheww.

yay i just finished with my personal statement. i hope its okay. i even signed off msn so i cld concentrate ;) and when i was thinkin about it in bio rai said i looked scary cos i looked so spaced out. its funny how u spend so much time writing about ur life n urself into one small sheet of paper. and u might not even get through. Hm.
anyways. yay.
haha. im one step closer to uni education. woohoo.

sopsies rock. :)

just read the notes in the file my junior sopsies gave me, n i couldnt stop smiling after reading all those little notes and i thought since i couldnt stop smiling i might as well let the whole world know im smiling. ;) according to siying, its 'a broad smile with 眯眯眼'. :) felt really warm reading them cos some were really pretty personal. its really reassuring to know what they think of me after 7mths of hounding them down for every note n music. but hey they all agree im funny outside choir pracs ;) so tts a gd thg. haha :D
glad to know that ive been useful. ;) now all my hard work seems peanuts.
once a sopsie, always a sopsie. ;)
woohoo.

on cofactors and carbohydrates.

having chem tutorial now hee:) its really quite interesting to see how he teaches. right now we've got tutorial ans printed out for us,for both chem n bio. Hm. trees are dying, save them.!

i feel so cheenafied singing chinese songs. ahha just now me n eug were singing out loud n the indian boys turned arnd to look at us. haha see we make the world more multi racial, we give it diversity. yay.
going for jts later. fish n co. i think our juniors are really nice ppl, yumyum. ahha. i wan sharkie freeze YAY.

met the berkley guys who hosted us in america yesterday. they came our sch for uni presentation. we were so nice we gave them our tshirts. well everytime i attend such talks i feel lost all over again.

and i cant go for macs breakfast tmr. i think howk saboed me. recommended my foot, i didnt even meet him... pfft. arent teachers evil. they could snuff out that i wanted to go for macs breakfast, n had gotten even may to wake up early so we cld all have a happy breakfast. but nooo. no more.

hm having trouble with carbohydrates structures. no food chem for me i guess.

bubblelips.

more ;D

I believe-范逸臣
　　
　　I Believe 当我在你家门口
　　下雨了 你看了也会难过
　　I Believe 你不说话的时候
　　也是一种 其实你在回应我
　　虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂
　　就算牵的不是我的手 我不真的难过
　　不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容
　　有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
　　不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己
　　I Believe 你总会看到我
　　在某个时候 想让你陪伴的是我
　　I Believe 没有回应的时候
　　只不过正好你在电话中
　　I Believe 语音信箱的沉默
　　也是一种 其实你在倾听我
　　虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂
　　就算牵的不是我的手 我真的不难过
　　不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容
　　有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
　　不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己
　　I Believe 你总会看到我
　　在一切之后 留在你身边的是我
　　那延续太久的一时冲动 在你身后的独脚戏
　　聚光灯没亮过 怀疑
　　是自己编造的内容 你从不真的认得我
　　不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容
　　有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
　　不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己
　　I Believe 一定会有结果
　　在很久以后 留在你身边的是我
　　会陪着你的人是我

lots of nice chinese songs ;)

Open your eyes -张惠妹
Open your eyes just say goodbye
我这个夜晚应该哭个痛快 相遇不算太晚
相爱不算太短 现在正好适合离开
Open your eyes just say goodbye
只是不懂为什么还笑得出来 承诺已经不再
叹息无可计算 再不离开眼泪就要泛滥
每一种决定都像肝肠寸断
每一种选择都是心有不甘
过了今晚你要开始学着勇敢不可知的未来
你要自己承担 每一种决定都像肝肠寸断
每一种选择都是心有不甘
诚实并不代表容许背叛
这样的爱 只是错误的示范

i hate sch. boo.

What comes to mind when you hear..

..snow?: frosty the snowman
..rain?: my o level composition where we had to write out fav sounds. i wrote bout rain;)
..tornado?: cloudburst! *plays the big drum
..summer love?: sandy in grease. summer loving, lalalalaaaa.
..Jon?: haha. garfield?
..Mike?: okay this is gettin funny :) toy story haha. mich!
..Shea?: sheena :)
..banana?: hahahah. orange teo:) they wanted to make me banana teo but i decided orange two was my true calling.
..dizzy?: how bout ditzy. jiaxunn
..Laura?: who names their kids such boring names nowadays
..Juan?: er. hm julian. ?
..car?: yellow beetle!~
..white?: weijie\'s bleached vj uni ;)
..peppermint?: sweet.
..New Found Glory?: always and will be yellow.
..placeb! o?: i had to ask bing wad this meant.
..orange juice?: hahah. orange teo!
..candid camera?: i hate that show.
..sister?: er. i have only one.
..brother?: haha i wish i had one
..hate?: school. argh. school. argh.
..school?: RIGHT.
..President?: gogo power rangers.
..football?: nah. floorball u mean. plus helmet-shinguard-kneeguard.
..rap?: yo i tell u wad i wan, wad i really really wan. so tell me wad u wan, wad u really really wan, i wanna iwanna i wanna i wanna i wanna reallly really really wanna zigazag HA.
..pop?: yucks. britney. sometimes i runnnn.
..rock?: yay erm bobice. ;)and i dont wanna miss a thg!
..punk?: me. my blog. cant rem wad it said tho hahah.
..sex?: female.
..death?: pro choice baby.
..baby?: i lk those that dont cry
..duuude?: dudette. im a feminist.
! ..the end?: im only doing this cos i have HALF AN HOUR until some college day rehearsal thg. Boo.

vjchoir ;) with fondest memories

today was my last public performance with vjchoir. i sang my heart out (ahah maybe oversang for lily's last note ;) but yay felt gd to be at esplanade singing my swansong ;)
my time with vjchoir has come to an end. will hold the memories dear!
zhouchu wrote me a letter which comforted me. ;) i rem tellin myself that i wanted to be a nice senior to the juniors and make a difference.. okay other than my mulaohu'ness during sectionals ;) she wrote that she felt really welcomed by me during carollin, which really put me at ease. those who knew me wld know that this is smthg impt to me, that i want to be a nice senior to my juniors ;) so yay! im glad ive at least made one person's life better hahah :) thank you for makin my day!
and to my dearest sopranos. continue reachin even greater n higher notes ;) will always be supporting u guys frm the bottom of my heart. SOPSIES ROCK. ;)
love, jiayun.

im ms-charismatic-smart-strongwilled-pretty-girl. *grins

yesterday was really wonderful. found myself talkin quite a few ppl, just about everythg. feels gd to be honest doesnt it ;) i just blabbered what i thought of(n ppl blabbered to me too), which was easy cos at certain hours of the night somehow ur brain feels more fried. so im glad i talked to everyone ;)
when i got offline i actually felt that the whole thg was pretty magical. just in one night ive made better frens.
im so blessed, i have many nice ppl as frens. ;)
arent u glad my hair took quite long to dry ;)

me n eug were waitin for bus at ccab on fri after choral workshop and we started playing the beetles game. when u spot a beetle u hit the other person until she spots it too. then we decided to extend it to jaguar n cooper too ;) haha. we looked lk two idiots looking out eagerly onto the roads. n the hitting part was pretty violent. ahha. but hey it was fun. the bus was takin quite long to come. anw it was xumao who invented this game in sv, haha. ;)

ive been wondering who's sonyplaystaion. hmm. ;)

just fly away

its not often that i feel so sedated. no torrid of emotions, or red hot flushes, or overwhelming sense of sadness.
just quiet, revelation.
that i have finally come to terms that he's just nt someone i shd be thinkin of, and that what's past is and will be past, its just nt the same anymore. that it was just my imagination at work.
peace, guys.

floorball!

i need a helmet AND a shinguard when i play floorball. i mean it. i got knocked on the head twice n on the shin once. liren's so gd at flickin balls, he can aim it at my forehead. right in the middle. but then again i hit sianghan in his left eye n im very sorry about it! i offered to treat him ribena more than once but he said no. wad a gentleman haha. oh n julian kinda screamed molest. oh wells.
BLACKSS.

oh n today the new zealand exchange guy did the haka. oh man, he's really gd. i guess they're all very proud of their tradition ;) n it did serve its purpose of scaring ppl away. i was sittin in the front n i could see his eyeballs popping out ahha. it was cool. ;)

anw i just promoted my gd fren to guy no. 1 in this exclusive man-club of mine. this i must proclaim. but in no way does this suggest anything outwardly affectionate. i tink he kinda hinted the promotion for a loonngg time. haha.
anw my fren, dont despair. everythg will be fine ;)

weekend

i feel like ive been through so much just in a short span of two days over the weekend. its funny how this wkend seems exceptionally longgg. i feel as if there was so much going on.

anw im currently uploading all the bsb songs onto my itunes. BSB ROCKS. forever n ever. haha. im nv letting them out of my life ever again. hey kevin is still cool, even tho he's married. n old. n now spouts some suspicious facial hair above his lips. ha.

bsb forever! ;)

no more gd food

have been going out with my sis for the two days, including today. well, she's gonna board a plane in bout 3-4 hrs time, n im already feeling sad. ;( no more free shoppin(thats wad big sisters who earn their own money are for :), no more me telling her bout every little thing that happened in sch, in choir, in my life. no more poking (fun) at her fats HEE:)
enjoy the four more mths u have in melbourne until its time to come back again!

loved the weather today, cool and shady. went cycling at ecp, n the whole time i was singing out loud 'save me' by corrinne may ;) saw alot of adorable kids today at ecp, lk one boy who was having difficulty going up a slope, n when he got on again he was singing to himself. haha. ;) kids can be adorable when they're not whiney.

choir was scary today. i would forget that i have to sing for some parts until the part comes. lk cloudburst. or muge. horrible, bah.

hey vjc performin for syf choral presentation on 25th july, anybody wans tix its just 3bucks. ;) esplanade, 730. whee.

madhouse debate!

had a girls vs guys debate during gp today. topic: Teaching a man to fish is the best way to make poverty history.
n argh, the girls lost. hahah. no wonder too, we didnt have a stand :) we were more pro so we chose to be the opposition team. n our smart stand was that the issue here was whether education is the best way n so as long as we refute that, we can make that our stand. haha.
so chew wasnt androgenous.
but its okay guess the guys did put up a gd fight (ha!). thot yj made very smart comments ;) hey smartypants. grow ur hair lah i promise ill stop laughin at it. so u can look lk a true blood jap punk. haha.

read the book 'the lost boy' today. wow its amazing how grippling the book is. i guess its the harsh realities of child abuse and how unloved this boy was by his own biological parents. there was this particular part that i still tink about after i read it, it was when he got a visit frm his father after waiting for a yr,but his dad wasnt exactly warm to him. man. it was so unfeeling of the father. i really felt very sad for him at that part.. nt that i felt any sorrier at any other parts. thats why you need good social workers around.
haha did i ever say this. ;) when i came back frm silicon valley i felt very inclined to be a social entrepreneur. maybe its got to do with the whole 'i lk to see justice' kinda thg, but oh well. i believe in giving back to society. we shd never get too caught up in our own lives n forget those around us. ;)

anw, rach: ahha. hey u'll be among the first to know if i ever have anyone close to a bf :)

Hmm.

its really wonderful how mondays recharge you. you feel like you've got the energy to just do about anythg that u're expected to do. and when its 9 sets of tuts for each sub for 7 wks minus revisions thats alot. little wonder why i felt so hungry during tutorial.
i live on adrenaline.
heh today i sat beside this vj yr one girl on my trip home. was initially listenin to ipod but took it off n asked for her name. n we talked. heh. i hope i didnt scare her off. ;)
talked to an old fren for a while yesterday, really shd do that more often rather than just wait for ppl to click on my name. ;) but then again there are some frens whom i can nt talk to for a long time n then when we do talk, we talk lk we've been talking to each other everyday. sometimes its amazing how we all manage to do all that. or at least me. i seem to have quite a few of that kind of frens.
maybe its just me, i need my freedom.
which is why i fear that i might just get bored of my boyfriend when i get one. wouldnt wan to see him everyday.
i cant get to view the sv pics, which is irritating. why cant the com read the dvd? hm.

moblog.

i checked it out, i still dont understand wads the rationale behind it but its okay i shall help by voting. always a pleasure to see vjc above rj. whee.

went out with my sis today ;) walked around bugis looking for the shades i broke in usa. why oh why did was i so rough with it. singapore is so ulu there arent any nice shades around, boo. haha. the ones there bear the closest resemblances to it has writings lk gucci on it. eeewww.
n pls if u see my sis dont ask her for the neocard with me in it. i can give u a much nicer pic, i have tons of it! i looked funny in that pic. my face looked bigger than my sis', n my nostrils looked flared. boo.

my sis is going back soon, so thats my reason for nt studying over the wkend. its really fast, but its okay she'll be back in four mths. meanwhile, i get to have the whole room to myself again :)yay!
haha okay i dont mean it that way. definitely the hse is livelier with her arnd, and then theres the part bout my parents bringing us to places with gd food. i definitely will miss her, but then again ill be burying my head so deep into books and notes i wont notice her absence until its all over and she'll be back again. ;)
which reminds me that CHRISTMAS is coming real soon (if u think that way)

and ppl, go for corrinne may concert! ;) 10th aug esplanade. as a bonus, u can get to see me there too. isnt that fantastic?

SLEEP

i need that now. ;) although no tv was fun huh ;) now ive got no more secrets to tell.. oh n dunno who snores when she sleeps.. pinkpinkpink. Hm. ;) ahha okay lah mayybeee it was cheam or mayling. just someone sleeping further away frm me.
haha.

ip open hse was fun. i lk talkin to ppl heh. too bad our helium balloons idea didnt work.. u always see in cartoon where the helium balloons will hold smthg up.. actually in reality, it DOESNT work. boo. our sign board was falling after five mins. but we had fun drinkin helium. ;) for once i sounded quite high pitched haha. shiqing couldnt stop laughin at me hee. benjamin must have drank like ten one-day old helium balloons n it didnt work... ahhaha. was hilarious watching him suck in balloons after balloons n still go a deep 'hello'. :)

oh. n i was talkin to this grp of dunmanites and then the girl went 'i lk ur hair. *grp nods in consensus* its very niceblahblah. did u put anythg in ur hair?'
me: ;'oh thank you. *smiles* er no i dont put anythg in my hair. errr, u wan to know more bout the ip programme??'
ha.
i knew i had nice hair. n no gra, dust do not fly when u pat my hair. its nt thhaatt pong.

i wanna growww olldd withh youuuu.

everything in its time

the river runs and the river hides
out to the ocean and under the sky
i promise you, the answer will come
hold on to patience and watch for the sign
everything in its time.

i often feel like i'm two steps behind
somebody must have moved that finish line
there are a thousand reasons
why i shoyld give up
but i'm stubborin in the things i believe

cause maybe theres another plan
one i still cant see
a little surprise, like your love in my life
funny how time changes how we see

n so the song goes ;)
hai.
for all my noble ambitions, i still feel tied down.

itchy.

ive had two new additions to the number of mosquitoebites/marks on my legs since i came home just half an hr ago. my blood is too sweet, slurp.

haha i stayed awake the whole nite! so proud of myself haha. i was really pretty high i think. although the only one who stayed up too was shawn tan n when he left there wasnt anythg else for me to do but to slp too.

mr chew had a shoppin list for us where he wanted us to get rice for curry. so me n janice the grocery-shoppers bought rice. raw. haha. hey it was his instructions rite haha. luckily there was a rice cooker. ;)

n im a heavenly pig. oink. i did try my best to be sly n bring down eugenia, but nah she was too stoned alr ;)

shoppin at chinatown today turned out to be factory outlet scouting at novena square n united square ;) haha we didnt really know where to go for chinatown. hee:)

n im so sorry rach tt im going deaf! she called me n i was lk going 'huhhh??' ahha. its the deprivation of sleep i tell you. i was pretty much yawning when it came to dinner. im so so sorry! i really feel quite bad.. lets meet up soon before i have to start studying again ;)
so, gd night ppl ;) did had fun at the chalet;)

pods with twix

just reached home nt long ago frm suntec. the others went to watch war of the worlds. well. scientology is no gd. uh huh. nt gonna give money to cruise for tt. anw. dragged eug to go shoppin ;) n i bought a pair of jeans! frm ozoc. just lk tt. okay yes i feel quite bad but its a nice blingbling jeans. n i shall nt reveal teh price here, must think of the health of my readers n nt give them a shock. all i can say is, im definitely nt gonna buy anythg much at tmr's flea market shopping!

i thot i wld feel really liberated after the paper, but somehow it just weighs heavier. haha i guess its just me thinkin tt i can do better. ;)

im popping pods! its nice. it even taste lk twix. lovely sister who bought it. anw she was taking forever to finish one box n start on the other one (its MARS!) so im just helping her wad. n helping her spread her fats onto me. see im sooo nice.

oh n i think i poisoned my classmates today with lollipops from disneyland. apparently it tasted really bad. i feel really bad bout tt! ha. im so sorry k, but its all bock's fault. he was the one who wanted mickey lollipops. so u see, disnelyland is a fraud. they sell lousy lollies.

i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world..
all i need is a good disguise
one where nobody can recognise
all i need is a secret weapon
i've goota have faith
zapping monsters into outer space
im goona be a Superhero:)

embrace my fragility, you keep me safe in the crazy world

haha yay im hooked on the new corrinne may cd. my sis bought it for me ;)
and haha. econs papers took sooo long to finish. but im glad it did.
although i cant say im really optimistic bout my results this time round. but oh wells will work hard ;)
at least i didnt do two essay qns hahah. or think i needed to do two. really ah, the two boys behind..

chalet's tmr! i just hope i wont fall asleep ;)

n no im nt watchin war of the worlds unless i really haf to. im nt helpin cruise spread scientology. boo.
haha no lah. aliens just dont appeal to me. rather save up tt money and go do some SERIOUS shopping. u noe how it pains me to see my sis visit the mango sale four times in three days??? there. ive said it. ;p haha but its okay long wkend ahead.

okay back to chemistry bye guys.

acquire new skills

hey u learn smthg new everyday dont u. i learnt how to write my own stories for bio today. which i tink was really quite cool. haha
n why stop at one if uve alr started rite? ;) tmr's econs, perfect for writing ur own stories too. woohoo.
rocking.

sch again! ;)

haha okay. actually its exams in disguise but hey, school is always good to have isnt it. anyway it was good seeing all my girlfriends again, n we really kept laughing throughout the whole morning before the paper started. well then after that it was quite a different story. ;) anyways papers will always be papers. but i had fun writing my essay today. isnt it cool to write an essay u noe is a trick qn? but i was too lazy to change topic. heh. in fact it was quite amazing we all managed to finish our gp papers, considering that we all used to take 3 hrs just to write one essay.

and i saw the choir girls again! lk after so long.. ;) may looked really really excited to hug me, i couldnt have asked for more. HM. so much for my enthusiasm. n i kept calling gracia. haha. until she ran away frm me ;(

oh n smthg quite funny happened in the morn. i was slinging on my sling bag and it kinda overshot my small shoulders and dropped to the floor.
so embarrassing.

cheese omelette

wanted to give myself a treat this morning when i woke up cos no one was gonna fix breakfast or anythg for me. so i cooked maggie mee and tried to make cheese omelette. at the same time. it was only half a packet of maggie mee so i ended up pouring the whole seasoning in and it was quite salty.. hm. msg overload. then i turned the omelette over, the cheese side? yeah. n it got stuck to the pan n i spent quite some time scrubbing it off.
now we all know how to make cheese omelettes without having to do extra work, yes?
other than that it was quite a nice breakfast. although i probably could do with less kitchen time. ;)
i still need practice huh. haha.
the nxt time its breakfast everyone's gettin cheese omelettes from me! HA.

rainy weather n everythg nice

i love rainy weather. in singapore. u can sit n eat chocs n you wont feel bad about it ;) wonderful.
have been snacking since i woke up. heh.
n u noe wad? i tink im still having jetlag. if i go for afternoon naps ill just sleep the whole afternoon through until its time for dinner. its that bad..

taking a break off studying, and reading my 23 emails in my inbox. n the reflections we all handed in for our sv trip and the results.

oh u guys noe wad mr chew's first name is rite? :) try saying it. when we first heard ms lian calling him, we were all momentarily stunned. then we nearly puked. hahah.

okay. im just gonna study all i can. n go for exams. then play at chalet. then im gonna start serious studying. ;) whee. i love my life.

dream. dare. dive.

that was the theme for my silicon valley adventure trip. before we went there we spent alot of time together preparing for the trip, and it was really quite interesting bcos this before this whole trip we're just a bunch of strangers. so it was really cool to have made more frens n known more ppl on this trip. ;)

i really felt quite inspired whenever we visited someplace new. now that im back, i tell ppl i had a great time but i cant really find the words to explain why. i guess its just the change of environment n you get to see how the difference in culture n people contributes to the success of many companies in silicon valley and in USA. theres smthg open n friendly in the american culture that u'll nv find in singapore. maybe its the people here, maybe its the asian culture. maybe its even the govt. but theres definitely this inertia that you experience here in singapore, that smthg that keeps ppl from accelerating towards excellence or to try out new stuff. for one, in silicon valley, failure is a credit. in singpaore ppl are very concerned bout doing things right.

we were constantly hosted by people who are complete strangers to us, and probably there was this feeling of gratitude towards them that made me feel so happy n warm over there. it was really great bcos there we were gettin to visit big companies lk google apple and intel, and gettin to meet the nus overseas students, and this non profit organisatin called Dalencey street(which i felt most inspired by) and the california college of arts (which was apparently one of the ivy leagues of private art schs in SF)

now that im back all i wan is to get over my exams first ;) then ill talk more bout it hahah. or think more bout wad i experienced over there.
oh n i slept in the bed crack for half the nights over there. the other half, i got the whole bed to myself ;)
n the first night we didnt noe how to turn the shower on so poor us had to use use the bathtub's tap to bathe. ;(
i had red eyes on the first two days, n diarrhoea on the second day there.
on the fifth day or so i was alr running low on cash. so didnt get to spend at factory outlets or disneyland boooooo.
haha. ;)
n i got the 'ms floppy disk award'. ahhah. the tchers made sure everyone had an award ;) u see before we go we had to do a presentatin n i saved mine in a floppy disk. turned out my tcher's laptop had no floppy disk drive so we spent quite some time changing coms n all. then at apple the guy was saying how advanced they were n wad foresight they had when they decided nt to include floppy disk drives in their laptops anymore. n some ppl who rem that incident turned to look at me.. so yes, okay. i noe im outdated.


yup okay. four days to study. its okay im tryin to convince myself that common tests are nthg.. :)
chalet!

leavin on a jetplane ;)

alright okay im almost done. just thinking whether to pack extra clothes cos my mum was lk 'bring more bottoms!' n im lk 'no i wanna travel light!'. anw, hey, i have enough tops. dont worry MUM. ;) and this time im bringin the really small suitcase beams:) ha. no more big suitcases to carry! anw i dont have that much money to shop AHEM.

was quite excited until i thot of the fact that i havent packed my notes inside. wheee.

haha ;)

ive been tryin to do maths the whole day. alright. half the day. n note the word 'trying'. hai why is maths so forgettable.

alright. see u guys in ten days ;)

silly boo-boos :)

happy birthday rosh! purposely bought the sketchbook so u can doodle in it. ;)
im rachel's silly boo-boo! ahha. yay. actually she was just gushing over this guy in my sch who is so not cute if you get to know him, so i just went 'but he's such a silly boo-boo!'. so yup. now shes calling me that. oh i dont care. RACHEL! muacks. haha.
the beach has become our gathering plc every yr. and the same spot. and i still need to be reminded how to get there after going there for four years for cross country in tk, and the subsequent gathering after that. man, im really good with directions ;)
was feelin a little ditzy in my skirt, dunno why.
anw haha. every yr theres a guy at our gathering. so nxt yr, is kinda lk, my turn. ahha oh wells. im still waiting for prince charming to drop from the sky! which isnt going to happen so im just waiting. ;)

lunch was interesting. we celebrated mr chew's bdae ;) which was nice and really cheap. haha.

cant wait for sv trip.
;)

grr.

was feeling alot of emotions just now and i thought i shd just let it all out here instead of keep thinking about it.
loving someone doesnt mean you can make use of her and then dump her after uve ruined her. thats in my sense.
the amount of, oh man, hate, that i felt towards you when i heard the news.
its just not right. its unfair. but its not up to me, nt up to anyone, cos it was her life, and it still is, so we cant do anythg about it except to give her support.

So if you're telling me to tell my best friend to go for some guy whom i have a really bad impression of (not bcos of others telling me bad stuff, but bcos of she herself telling me wad a bastard he is), well you cant expect me to not do anything. although i think ive done enough unhelpful stuff. neither can you tell me that nothing i do can make her change her mind bcos love is blind, blah. nor can YOU say that you dont care what your friends think bcos you're not the kind to get swayed by your friends opinions if you really like this guy.

bullshite.

sleepovers

haha im addicted to luxury i think. ;) spa is supposed to relax you.. but i tink it has quite a sedating effect. maybe its just me. ahh i like bubbles. blob blob.

anw i dont tink ive ever felt this bloated before. but yeah, aircon+food+bed dont make a very good combination. i still feel like im nt back yet. but haha, we had fun ;) winkwink nudgenudge.

BIG HUG!

dempsey hut

sneeze. sniff. shudder. ;(

went out for great dinner. this small little place tucked away in the green wilderness near botanic gardens. it just rained, so it felt pretty cool there. the food was really quite nice. my chicken chop was great! i just love pepper.. ;) just mask everythg away with pepper. the whipped potato was gd too, until i tasted the cheese in it and i got quite sick of it. just like wad 7-11 did to their fantastic instant whipped potato (bah!).
durin the dinner my mum was askin me to look at these two boys sitting behind me. i was lk 'got boys in my sch ask me look at boys here.' then i concluded hey, boys in my sch arent worth lookin at much too. then i started tellin her bout wad those scums did on fri tt made rai quite angry. Then my wonderful dad went 'eh jiayun, watch me!' and he did the 'look-i-can-touch-the-flame-but-no-pain' thing. n when he was done he had that goofy prideful grin. my mum started laughin and i was lk 'DAD ur no different from those scums!'
Gosh. boyss.

after dinner my mum had a great idea to go bedok to go look for shoes n toiletries for my sv trip. saw the shoe i wanted to buy long ago! had a gd mind to buy both colours :) but both were the last pair and one size bigger so we decided to go look at the other bata stores my mum claimed there was in bedok. when we came back the pink one was gone. GONE. hai. so i bought the white one, n i even had to wash it when i came back. but nvm. im satisfied. :)

go study peeps!