leavin on a jet plane.

have experienced much over the span of the last three days.

rach's party was fun. i realised how much i missed my tk frens! other than the regulars i see in vj, theres may anu NABB ;) duck. had fun in the water (was a poolside party, n first victim to be dunked was rosh. i was supposed to be may's partner in crime but ended up being far away frm the action. ahha) but some hao jiemei of mine suggested to the rest that i shd be dunked too. so yeah. i got wet. had fun in the pool tryin to do synchronised swimmin with rach rosh n may. we failed. haha. then rosh n may came up with this silly cultish 'joinin of hands ceremony'.. ??? we were really nuts to do all the thgs we did tt day. ahha but felt gd to haf fun among the girls again, nt tt i havent been doin tt in vjc. heh.

went malaysia early morn on national day. visited my aunt who had relapse of cancer. u noe, i dont tink im that strong after all. when i saw her, i really got a shock. she was thin n bony, wad a vast difference from what i saw durin cny, when she was just gettin better. her thin legs stuck out beneath the thin blanket, n the area around her mouth was near black, though my dad said it was already better compared to last wk when he saw her. when she saw me n my sis she told us how her tongue n back of her mouth were gettin sores n she was in terrible pain, then she remembered how my grandfather for one period of time (near his death i suppose) kept wantin to eat ice kachang n ice creams.. he must have been in such pain too. then she started tearin, n i couldnt really control myself too.
i kept lookin at her n tinkin, well its nt too bad already. her husband really loves her n tries all means in search of the 'perfect' medicine for her even though the doctors are givin up on her.
everyone says i look lk her in her younger days. i cant help but think, will the same thg happen to me?
will i be surrounded by those i love n those who love me when that time comes? will i have a partner who will stick with me through health n illness. love me even when i look the most horrible.
but she still has two young children who are barely old enough to take care of themselves sometimes. her eldest son is far away in aust, unable to accompany her as much as he wans to.
;(

on a lighter note, came back in time to go marina south to watch fireworks. i go there almost every year without fail. never see anyone near my age, only those a decade younger or two decades older. thot the heart shaped fireworks were unique, but my fav is still the golden showers thg. the first time i saw it i felt as if it was showerin upon me.. it felt so magnificant :) have been tryin to recapture that feelin, but i gues its pretty impossible unless one day i manage to grab a tix to ndp.

watched the return with my mum today. its her second time watchin it. she was my hot date for the day ;) its an okay film. i mean, ive liked other films much better. i guess the bottom line is just to treasure what u have with u at present. well if u wanna know, the story is bout this dad who comes bck to the family twelve years later, n takes the two boys out on a fishin trip which became a 'business' trip for him n he has to travel to a deserted island to get smthg. the younger boy is defiant n one last situation triggers the father n he hits them, then the little boy runs off n the father runs after him, n the eldest runs after the father.. then the father dies while tryin to get the younger son back. yeah. they rowed the father's body back, then they lost the father's body coz the boat sank while they were tryin to load some stuff into a car. ah sigh. then it ends abruptly. i guess that's y some ppl dont lk the film. it leaves u with a thousand n one question marks.

how many of us can actually, amidst our already tight schedules, still find time to coach lil kids without acceptin a single cent. im glad i noe such a person. ;)