there she goess.

bought two cds today. one for my sis- delovely, n it came with a complimentary poster! how nice. haha. see im so nice i give her XMAS pres AHEM i already told her wad i wan liao. heh heh.
i bought myself sixpence none the richer. i chose it over alicia keys, i dont really know why, but hey, sixpence shd be quite lasting. alicia keys will have more hits ill just wait for her 'the best of alicia keys' heh.
did cip with eug the whole afternoon. bah. n for once i felt intimidated by this girl whom i tink is frm acjc. boo her.

hm okay. this fantastic fren of mine is tellin me he might have cancer. he had been in hospital the past wk n has lost 14kg bcoz he's nt eating anythg, he just keeps throwin up his food. he's just a fren i see online occassionally but we'll have these really nice conversations. i hope he's gonna be alright.

just no other way

heyho. had one whole day of choir, n it was wonderful. hm right now im feeling that my life can never be better. well im easily contented. thats good isnt it ;)

had tea party, which really turned out better than i expected. u noe, ppl normally dread these thgs just in case no one's sporting but haha, 'hello im mariam frm tkgs *big grin*' heh. well at least the yr zeros had tea. tts gd. n some ppl got all wet even before the party started.
n i had to eat some shite green thg which i highly suspect was wasabe. but tts better than mustard-tobasco-wasabe-tap water, isnt it?
n i ate one n a half bun. darn. its all gracia's fault!
i made the girls who came for my audition sing 'joy to the world'. it was meant as a sabo, as i fondly rem how i sang my sch song last yr. heh well, tts bcoz none of them knew the tune to 'the first nowell'. lousyy.

then i went beach with mich n gracia. in the really hot sun. when i say hot, i mean hot. haha im so sorry mich for fightin with gracia over directions, which ended up wrong, pls go to the beach with me again! ahha. i promise i wont try to gif directions again... :D

then we had carollin at singapore swimming club. met rosh there :) although i didnt get to meet her bcoz she was too busy bowling with ppl *bleah* n refuse to pick up my phone. hurmph its ok. :) haha anw im glad we did so much better for our second performance, who cares if no one was really listening, this woman was cryin out 'bravo!' ahha anyone heard? :) it really meant a lot to pick up after a nt-so-fantastic performance. for once, everyone was serious about carols, which i cldnt haf higher praise for. whee.
n of coz to my fantastic bing who is a sop2-to-be. i was the only poor sop 2, but its ok lah. they cant tell the dif anyway. poor may just gave in to the temptation of singin high notes.
me n eug were having hell of a time with the smoke n balloons, muaha. ;)

my life is really quite nice. im happy n satisfied.

im really silly enough to tink tt bing wont ask me to sing for sdd. me n my silly suspicions. bleah. :) even tho sheena n others kept askin me. bahh. i feel much better now yeahh.

i nearly lost my qantas cards. u noe, the deck that has travelled with me to germany n back? n accompanied many other choir peeps in our germanbridge craze. hai. fond memories. anw i had to walk into a really dark lt ava to switch on the lights, only to find a lt with food, teabags, n lotsa chocs wahaha. n of coz my missin cards. but hey i was brave to conquer my fear of dark. im really scared of the dark. im still scared of cats. which is out of the point.

okay im really tired. tmr got cip at *cringe* funan it mall with eug. if i had known its a slack thg i wld haf chose a hippier plc. but sigh i thot we cld haf slacked at funan it mall :X oh wells.

oh happy day :)
heyy mich skate on monday!

hand in my pocket

by alanis morissette. well one line caught me, which is 'im short but im healthy, yeah'. muaha.

lets see. i tink im turnin into some bridge freak, everytime i get together with the choir peeps i go 'bridge!!' haha. n i forgot how fun it is to play german bridge with adrian, that silly goose who makes everyone bao. anw the guys were so jealous of me winnin german bridge they tried to reverse the winnin process n make u lose bigger. alas, i was still the ultimate winner :) i kept writin stars beside my score muaha. ben kept callin us compulsive gamblers, well i guess he just figured readin a book makes him look more intellectual, that jap beng. pfft.
bridge rox!

haf got tea party tmr. then some carollin session at singapore swimmin club. gonna be out the whole day, n poor me will haf to go home myself bcoz my parents will be at some concert for which my sis is the pianist. ;(

shawn keeps askin me for directions in the east, which is a pretty unfortunate thg for him since im his only eastern fren n i happen to be really bad with directions n takin buses. so i had to keep askin my sis or smthg. but i always reply him late n by the time i reply he's already there. heh. :)

went macRitchie reservoir today while waitin for my sis. ok, i haf absolutely no idea why couples lk to go there. yeah ok, its dark,but its cold! n theres nthg much to look at except trees n still water. one van was parked beside our car n i tink there was a couple makin out inside there..the van was still runnin. but u cldnt see anythg coz tbey blocked the windows. ;)
anw im sure there are more interestin stuff couples do other than make out at ulu dark cold places rite?

my best friends weddin

oh george. see all cool ppl are called george! eg. george clooney *swoons ahha. n george in my best friend's wedding.
actually ive never really watched the whole movie in full length, either that or i cant rem. i really felt i could identify with julia roberts' character, which was scary, bcoz i dont wan to be an old hag. oh no. hahaha :)

anw. smthg happened today that prompted me to write this.

10 things i dislike:
1. LIARS. why cant u just freakin tell the truth?
2. pretentious ppl. i tink they're more scary than anythg actually, u nv noe who they are.
3. wishy washiness. just make the decision, quick!
4. flambuoyant ppl. sigh y do they lk to show off so much.. humility is gd.
5. bad breath. yux
6. body odour. yux yux.
7. high tech gadgets. haha. im technophobic. in other words, im a com dino.
8. CATS.
9. guys. (haha)
10. CURFEWS *ahem*MUM*
haha okayy so the last few were quite crap. but hey, im tryin to make up for the numbers..
anw. on a happier note.

10 things i love
1. those i love. ;) all my darlings out there, my family too.
2. yellow. muaha.
3. earrings. heh the other day i counted i haf 20+ pairs.. hee.
4. being a woman. the vanity, the way we talk, feminism.
5. having a good workout. but i really hate runnin unless its with frens or theres nice scenary.
6. i dont wanna miss a thg
7. jump for my love :)
8. ren xing.
9. i really lk my personal space. u cant take tt away frm me!
10. george clooney?? haha. okay. ill setttle for the likes of him then. ;)

cant be bothered to play warcraft. some other day larh. goin for surgery observation tmr. hope it'll be gd.
saw rai in sch today. she showed me hari raya pics n i gave her a quick update on my hols so far. i miss my girlfriends! ;(

before i fall in love

sing idol. here i come.
its so cold at the studio. but it was NOT fun learnin the songs. basically we were all just gettin frozen. towards the end my lips got quite blue.. haha. freaky. :)
but hey i saw sly n taufik. sly walked past me while we were walkin up the stairs; he was walkin down. i didnt see him coz i wasnt looking.. until i looked down n saw his hair. then we were waitin outside when taufik came. he said hi to us. gosh he has such beautiful eyes! but still i cant believe i didnt see sly. boo. haha. no may dont be rude n stick out ur tongue at him! pfft.

finally talked to rosh on the phone, after so long! ;) missed her so. n rach too! n nab.
n i miss being arnd with my class ppl.
at least im still playin bridge ;D but its nt the same! haha. im losing..

so open up mornin light, n say a lil prayer for i. u noe tt if we're to stay alive, then see the peace in every eye.

mrs incredible

yeshh thanks lucas for sayin i look lk mrs incredible. infact, any girl with my kind of hair looks lk mrs. incredible. but mrs. incredible is indeed, erm, superwoman. anw i thot the credits at the end of the movie was very well done ;) n i love the baby. muaha. it was hilarious.

i need to go shoppin, i want to go shoppin. loaded of coz. its painful to walk past rows of shops with the sign SALE without actually goin inside to haf a look/
and i wan new specs! heh. my now specs has specks (hey rhymes) on the lens. its quite irritatin to look at the world with dots in your vision.
n i saw the christmas lightup already. gosh i must have said the word 'ugly' a thousand times. for the last time, i think its ugly. haha. im sorry, whoever did the designs. wld love to go watch the baskers tho.

going mediacorp tmr for some sing idol thg. :)we're helpin to sing this song which american idol composed to for sing idol, 'i dream'. well basically we'll just be going 'oohhhh ahhhh. i dream. oooh ahhh. i dream.'
:D

作文

for rach n mary.
没有任何时准备,突然停电我一个人呆在漆漆的房间里,黑暗就象个突如其来的雾气笼罩了我, 使我伸手不见五指. 只听见风扇"哧哧"的声音,也因为停电的关系而节奏越来越慢,渐渐地因为时间的过去而停止了转动.我因为怕暗,很不想离开房间一步,便小心翼翼地走到窗口前把窗口给打开了,好让月光照亮着我房里的黑暗.
啊,今晚的月亮好漂亮,迷人.浅黄色的它悬挂在灰漆的天空.周围也有闪烁的星星;星星的力量似乎扶持着月亮,使月亮显得更明,更美丽.
虽然我的世界顿时被这停电而停止了,但我窗外的世界并没有放慢速度. 路上的车子快速的驾驶仿佛显示了我们新加坡这风驰电掣的生活方式,那"什么都要最好,最快"的怕输心理.我不禁想到了两位因为不想再受新加坡教育制度的压力而离开了本国到外国去读书的好友,心里就浮起了一种酸苦的味道,好难过.
和我一起度过中学最愉快的时光,是静敏.记得她离开的那一天,大家都忍着泪不哭,一直到她的背影消失了我们才真正地领会到她的离开,热泪才夺眶而出.玛丽是我在初级学院合唱团的好友.经过一次的出国比赛经验,我们俩和其他两位朋友已成为知己,有许多在一起快乐和悲伤的记忆.她离开的那一天,我的哭泣声最大,现在想起也有几份难堪,但当时就是无法控制自己的情绪.一想到我们四个人党已成为了历史,心里就很难受.
我就这样在深黑的夜里,望着窗外的明月眷恋着我这两位身在美国的好友.他们现在究竟在做什么?她们脸上的表情是如何呢?她们此时此刻,是快乐的吗?
她们看到的月亮,是否和我看到的一样,是个明月,美丽,而充满着深情和许多回忆的月亮?
但此刻,月亮光滑敞两的表层似乎是因为用了我的泪水来使光滑的.这面月亮,能把我思念她们的笑声与友情传递给她们吗?
若我们所看到的月是一样的月亮,那我们之间的距离不会相差太远吧.不管窗外的车有多吵唦,世界有多残酷,我们还是能因为还有这份友情而坚持的生活下去,因为有了彼此我们能很快乐地在我们自己的小世界里寻找快乐,幸福,而不要对外界有太多的顾虑.
then i ran out of time. haha wad follows was my not-so-successful attempt to link it back to the topic. ;)
yeah i was tinkin whether i shd post this on my blog since its quite embarrassin to show how i wrote so out of point, but honestly im quite proud of this.
rem the day rach had to go bck to newyork n i was stuck in lt5 writing this shite?? yeah. tts where my inspiration came from. ;)

anw today i heard quite a few nice songs on radio. i lovee willian su's 男人不该让女人流泪. :) its such a sweet song. n for a moment u tink, hey y is it so difficult to get a nice guy? bcoz there simply arent enough to go arnd. ill wait. ;)
n paula cole's i dont wanna wait.
i dont wanna wait, for our lives to be over. i want to noe right now what will it be. i dont want to wait for our lives to be over. will it be yes or will it be..sorry?

bridge bridge bridge. :) i cant believe i kept losin today! n we played with no morals hahaha. esp mayling lah tsktsk. but yeah it was fun. we make choir prac look lk some gambling den. woohoo.

the frozen throne.

hahaha. i just played warcraft. spent like thirty mins in reign of chaos tryin to find the prophet, then got bored of buildin camps bcoz i realised im nt playin dota, then died in lk five mins as archer the blue warden. so i stopped playin. hahah.
but hey, im a potential player. whee. ;)
only anw i talked to brandon last nite. he managed to stumble across internest access in thailand! ahha. he was the one who lent me warcraft anw.

tuition was boring.
n its a damn cold night.
i lengthened my msn nic. its a first! its frm 'drops of jupiter' dont ask y i chose such an old song. i just like it.

warcraft warcraft.
bridge bridge bridge! ahah. gracia just called me n i was lk 'lets play bridge tmr!' ahha. its addictive.. n i forgot how to play german bridge!! how could i have right. thats y, i need to play it again *wide grin*

weather's really cold right now. makes u sing funny songs in ur heart. like 'i wanna grow old with youu'.
makes u feel like watchin love actually! i feel it in my fingerss, i feel it in my toess. chrisstmass all around me. c'mon n let it snowww. ;D

oh n i cant believe sly didnt get out. hey dont look at me, i didnt vote! ;)

chubby bunny!

taufik shd win sing idol. sigh sly was really disappointing.
n hey, guess who'll be there on the first with the idols??? ;D

anw, class chalet was fun. the terrace is quite a nice plc, poolside one.
we waddled in the 0.3m deep pool, n none of us got wet except for one big blok who slipped n fell straight into the pool ahha.
n the girls revisited our childhood fantasties. we played in the ball pit.. u noe those ezone slides n balls? haha. we were having fun climbin up n down n slidin down. until this mother asked me how come my holiday started so soon, wasnt it supposed to be this fri?? i tink she thot we were pri sch kids or smthg... haha. then adibah shouted out 'pasir ris pri rox!' '6B!!' muaha.
oh n we all had one coloured ball each. wide grin.
and i found bridge kakis! haha. we spent the whole nite playin bridge like nobody's business. at first i was on a winnin streak, honestly my cards never looked so good. until brandon kept choosin me as his partner. n i thot guys were supposed to be good at bridge.. haha apparently nt. ;)
oh we walked to the beach. there were alot of stars! gosh i nv saw that many stars in singapore before. the sky was so clear, it was gorgeous. too bad we cldnt lk, lie down on the grass n stargaze. we sat on the road n enjoyed the freezing cold air. until it got too cold for some of them to bear. ;) was nice when it lasted.
i came home n i slept the whole afternoon through.
haha oh n ill nv forget how fun chubby bunny can get. haha. all the white vomit, yucks. six big ones are the record :)

想通了就不哭了

went back sat to see my aunt, but ended up not getting to see her.
was over at malaysia the whole weekend till today to attend her funeral. i just hope the two boys will be ok. her eldest son, thinkin tt she was okay, just went back aust for exams so he cant make it down for the funeral at all.
my second aunt n some of my relatives were on this company trip n so they werent informed. my cousin read the newspapers n called us, she was crying. then she came down all the way frm malacca by herself.
read buddhist scriptures for the first time.
the whole funeral was kept very simple.
just felt quite sad when i see my grandma cryin over the coffin. or my aunts.

i am still worried.
gd thg i can still pursue wad i want.
was momentarily lost for a while. i felt lk i didnt noe wad i was doing, where i was goin frm here.
i dunno, its scary when u tink of such stuff, but (i tink), now i know better wad kind of person i wanna be. the kind of life i wanna have.
n im gonna get it.
for now i just wan everyone arnd me to be safe n healthy.

whee.

okayy i tink my pic is gone.. haha.

nab i got ur emaiL! ;) ahha. so nice to hear frm ur old frens. we are all such old ppl. lets go play mahjong!!

brought kids to animal resort today. wah.
they're really adorable. i took the nursery kids, and surprisingly they're quieter than the kidergarten ones. at least they werent poking me at funny places n stuff haha. only this girl ariel who was asking if we haf flowers on our singlets bcoz she has ahha.
n there was this boy who were so afraid of all the chickens runnin arnd he didnt wan to move frm his spot. so i stayed with him n tried talkin to him. we talked bout seasame street, big bird, n cookie monster. ;) n i tried askin him bout winnie the pooh but he doesnt like it ahhaha sorry adibah.
anw they wanted to feed the goat but it was resting at some other place, so the kids lined up at the fence and shouted 'goat!! goatyy!! goat! ' ahah so cute!!
n why are there so many brandons in this world?? haha. this small brandon was sunbathing with his sis's shades. wahaha. brandons..
after today ive decided, hey ill still have kids, but not a busload of them. me n eug cldnt even hear her discman.. n well, we didnt get to bcoz they were all clamouring over it after they saw us with it. n i had to play 'vampire' n the 'wo men shang, wo men xia' game with them. muaha. they were all quite well brought up lah. not alot of spoilt kids. thats gd.

my dearest sis is strong! she went for op for her wisdom tooth. now she's without wisdom.
anw she let me play with her hair. FFinally wads long hair if u dont let ppl play with it?? but i suspect she was still under anaestatic so i better play with it before she loses it.. heh. :)
but yeah, she is strong. :)

yippee goin rosh's hse tmr. ;)

happy girl.

im proud of my purchases today ;) went shoppin at junction 8 with my parents while waiting for my sis to finish work. hey the shoppin mall is quite funny, u can get lost in it.. haha. i did. ;) anw i had a gd time spending my dad's money, woohoo. ;) finally i haf newer clothes to wear. ahha.

learnin journey tmr. bringing kids to animal farm. i hate lookin at animals. boo. but the kids part shd be quite fun ;)

n i finally got an email frm rach :)

happy diwali!! to roshh. ;)

ikea!

drew my own henna today. haha. nt too bad for a first attempt lahh. :)

went ikea today. on the way there some indian guy passed me by n said 'gOod eVeniNg sExy lAdy' oh god i wanted to kill him. hello i was in jeans n tee lah. if i wore a skirt he wld have wad, nosebled?
anw.
ikea have got very nice stuff! haha. n i ate the meatballs there. i thought they tasted quite familiar, only to realise that my mum had bought meatballs from there n ive been eating them for quite some time at home. ;)

haha im so gonna marinate the chicken for our class chalet. n cook.
n i still dont understand why we have to melt the chocolate (for some banana thing) if we can get nutella!?

oh god how can i forget bout ogl interview.
lets just say i didnt know wad i was doing.
n oh, i forgot our sch cheer n how to dance mass dance. ;)
heh. oh well. ;)

paper dosai n onion rawa.

haha went lil india with rosh today. ;) was really lookin forward to goin out with her! n of coz all the buys at lil india
haha i bought quite a bit of stuff. :) am goin to diy my own henna! ahha was searchin for pics online just now, rosh was helpin too. but didnt really find much. i saw the butterfly bing drew for me last time!

hm lets see. we went lil india n first thg we did was buy one dollar coconut. but u cldnt even eat the flesh. then we saw nice earrings! haha. it was green, n it matched wad i was wearin. so i bought it. three bucks wad a steal.. ahha.
i was lookin out for earrings for bing! but didnt see the ones she wanted. well hey there are lots there go check it out ;)
ate at komalas villas.
walked to bugis! haha we were trying to navigate our way around singapore. okay okay, i was just following rosh wherever she went. haha. i cant tell for nuts whether we were walkin in the right direction or not. ;D

muacks i love rosh.
n we bought nur's bdae pres! finally..
:)

n you can tell everybody, this your song.

ok too bad i cldnt blog on fri.
we had class dinner. i ate until i really wanted to puke, but i didnt eat alot. went off quite early coz i had to go malaysia the nxt morning

only came back a few hours ago. went to visit my aunt.
i didnt noe she was still in a semi coma state. n she was really just skin n bones. you really feel quite helpless around her, because you dont really know what she wants. whenever she shows discomfort, where is she feelin the pain?
but basically she was quite alright.
until we came back. just before we wanted to go into marina sq my dad got a call sayin she passed out blood. so she got admitted into hospital.
u shd see my third aunt's face. she was so sad. she ran out of leave days.. so today was basically her last day to see her unless anythg else happens.
her son was supposed to go bck aust tmr after much hussle over delayin his exam papers n stuff since she was already 'gettin better'. now i really dont noe wad he's goin to do.
hm.

anw i cant hold my liquor. i had some red date chicken over there n it was cooked with some wine or smthg. after eatin it i slept for two hrs straight. my sis cldnt wake me up to go shoppin. ha.

am waitin for rosh's call now. serangoon road. ;)

我的爱

haha okayy. i spent lk twenty minutes trying to figure out how to type chinese, n i cant rem how. grr.
很好！　哈哈我知道了。　although i tink it looks quite different from last time but ah, nvm. ;)

anw. pw is officially over. im so throwing confetti into the air.. :)
was good working with my pw mates.
haha alvin is such a blurblok. we paginated the file, n one hr later he comes n say he didnt put in stuff. n unluckily its at the top of the file.. so he had to repaginate everything by himself, coz we werent in sch anymore. poor thg. haha.

oh darn. is alvin still alive?? hahaha. ;)

i thot it was quite funny how sianghan n rai clicked so well. they really looked very funny and silly fighting over who saw the numbers first.
n i helped eug n rai tie french braids! haha. although i tried for 7 times on eug's hair before i got it right. but it did look nice! hey who's nxt?

n oh. do u noe, i haf a fren called roshni, and shes very beautiful. yes interested parties pls divert ur attention to her blog or smthg. ;D hahaha. no lah im serious. so interested parties pls let me know. i can help arrange dates. ;D
haha anw im quite excited about going little india on mon with her! to buy diwali stuff. i lovee goign little india. im gonna wear all my bangles n big earrings. woohoo. compete with all the indians there.

ole, pw's over.

haha. i spoke too fast for my op ;) and they asked stupid questions which i didnt really know how to ans. but im okay with it. its over! yeah okay, file is almost done too. phew i wont miss pw man. it was a waste of my time. there i've said it! ;)

i rem wanting to add one more person to my 'to-kill' list. cant rem who now.. n why. hmm.
haha amir is still on the top of my list, dont worry.
julian's going to die anyway, so i dont haf to bother myself with tt. ;) ahha actually u see my classmate is doing some short film n he's in it, n he has to die. ha. n apparently my pic is going to be in the film, but for pretty obscure reasons. for the psychopath.. haha. well at least my face is inside! haha.
so that leaves only alvin.. muaha*evil laughter*. he's dying really soon bcoz after we hand in our gpf, there he goes.
haha okay. dont think im gettin morbid, im just ridding the world of its evil people. making the world a better place.. for you and for me and the entire human race.

went vienna boy's choir concert today. haha sat in the same row as eug! ;)
i think the poor boys are sick. a few kept coughing and touchin their nose. one even ran out in the middle of the concert.
first half was quite erm, nt too gd. their sound came out better in the second half.
they (surprisingly) sang the best version of chan mali chan (ever) for encore.
they are pretty overrated but they do have a good sense of music. good technique too but quite messy sometimes. but they charge really high prices, which i dont really think is erm, deserving.

sigh. i was damn angry at a fren just now when alvin told me to be a bit more understanding. sigh yeah maybe i shd. but it still seems quite irresponsible to me. im nt complainin about doing all the work, but why should i make everything so nice for you so that you can go do whatever you want and come late and still get it done the easy way?? not say im damn free and damn enthu about pw. but yeah ok. u need a life. ill try to understand. *breathess.
bahh.

have you ever linked anna kournikova to omega??

tts my opening line for my oral presentation tmr. whee its finally going to be over. OVER.
actually minus the doing of sources, which i dont really give a hoot anymore. hm ok actually i still do hee.
i dont care if i stutter tmr. its going to be OVER.

haha i walked home with a certain alien with big eyes today. been a long time since ive walked home with yj. some smart alec told me 'walk lah, i got umbrella'. well barely halfway across the bridge it started raining, and it got really heavy. we were arguin who's to blame if any of us is to be sick the nxt day. he complained he was drenched, but hey, i wasnt very dry either!
haha i was just thinkin.. i bet alot of girls would die to be in my shoes. :) haha ok, i was wearing slippers. but u get the idea. to me he's just some alien, really. haha.
n maybe i shd add him on my list to kill, he's a pest!

i was rehearsing my script just now. i decided on cue cards, even tho i doubt i can read my own handwriting ;) well. the cards are yellow! couldnt resist..

pw be over pw be over pw be over.
poof!
oh yes n im supposed to mention roshni. :) hello darling