somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high

have been feeling quite sick, didnt go to school yesterday. spent the whole day sleeping and doing whatever readings i can (which really wasnt alot) and then today i woke up and felt like shit again but okay i made myself get up and went for two lectures. glad i did cos i saw mail for me!;) boy did that make my day ;)






from my sis! ;) i cant wait till she comes over for christmas! although that will mean me having to finish my applications which doesnt leave me with much time but OH wells. :) shes always been my rock, my huge pillar. i know things have changed, both for you and me, but hey i still love you and im glad your life has been better with all thats happening;) im always on your side, remember that!





from hianchuan;) haha yes big man you really do make pretty presents. i showed jon your pres and he was like 'so pretty which girlfriend of yours gave you that?' ;) but hey its a compliment okay once i saw the handwriting on the envelope i knew it was you ahah. ;) thanks alot yeah, and yup im really glad our friendship has turned out so well. hurry come join me in this grey weather!
listening to the songs now i must say its a pleasant surprise what good songs you have.
'je ne vais pas travaille!'


aand so im feeling gloomy no more ;)

where are you now my love

watching excess baggage video now;) funny how everyone looks different now. its as if we've all grown up so much in just one year in london:) sure i miss all the tiring rehearsals and the fantastic company; and its just great to sit down one lazy sunday night watching the video. thanks kelvin:) i still think we had fantastic music!

went up to cardiff yesterday with fellow victorians. i think i had fun but haha i was with my favourite people and we did our favourite activity- primark shopping!! the primark at cardiff was really organised and neat. and HUGE - they had four storeys of cheap stuff omg. ;) i nearly lost my jacket there which was rather silly. i left it on the rack cos we were trying on clothes in front of the mirror and when i was done i turned around and the coat was gone! joanne was really nice and we went around retracing our steps. well luckily for me i think a staff cleared it so he/she returned it to the customer service counter. phew! but okay we bought alot of nice stuff;) joanne rosh and i bought the same top hee.
the first picture was taken at the cardiff castle which was probably the only touristy thing we did. oh and the pub we went to at cardiff bay for dinner was really pretty- its called terra nova.

i always think its good to get away from london once in a while- away from the busy hustle bustle and mean sullen people here;) or well just an excuse to have one whole day of fun and shopping and bridge and laughter. goooo victorians!

only that i think im sick. freshers flu. it got worse and i came back home with a splitting headache. well the wonderful paul's breakfast i had with rosh the next day made me feel loads better. cant wait to see her again:)

oh haha today i felt bored while waiting for my instant porridge to cook so i googled my name. and, (hahaa) i found this blog which apparently belongs to someone from my pri sch who said i was his first ever crush. ! wonders of the internet. ;)

oui?

today's been quite an exciting day;) our toilet leaked early in the morning, and mind you it was practically raining from the ceiling so we had to call in the contractor and mayling is convinced its dirty sewage water leaking down but luckily for me i wasnt wear my specs so heck it i just went ahead and bathed and used the bathroom; i had an useless family law class (only cos we did an introductory thing again and so im one week ahead for my readings and class is two weeks behind lecture) ; went for my french interview and well i shd be doing level two french this year so please bless me with a smooth french tongue;) ; cheryl's coming over in a while to bake ginger bread man cookies (!!) ; and rosh is on her way now to londonl; and im going cardiff tmr.

and now i found the perfect ring in the universe after hours of senseless internet surfing ;) i got inspired by liyann's ring ;) isnt it the most adorable ring you've ever seen (beams!)

lullaby for a stormy night -vienna teng

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gu1o-Do_0LM

so i effectively slept my wednesday away. ;) i woke up to chicken rice, sweet and sour chicken wings, Friends, and strawberry cheesecake.

i cant wait for a getaway;)

have yourself a merry little christmas

;) yeah okay i know its a little too early but hey singing carols with tan en today made me a feel little christmasy so i decided to share the christmas decorations in my room with everybody















and i really like how the light falls in this picture. but who would have thought that with sunlight like that its still very cold:(
okay im off to books now may complains that im too lazy :D

little child, be not afraid

VIENNA TENG
Lullaby For a Stormy Night
words and music by Vienna Teng

little child, be not afraid.
though rain pounds harshly against the glass
like an unwanted stranger, there is no danger
I am here tonight

little child, be not afraid
though thunder explodes and lightning flash
illuminates your tear-stained face
I am here tonight

and someday you'll know
that nature is so
the same rain that draws you near me
falls on rivers and land
on forests and sand
makes the beautiful world that you'll see
in the morning

little child, be not afraid
though storm clouds mask your beloved moon
and its candlelight beams, still keep pleasant dreams
I am here tonight

little child, be not afraid
though wind makes creatures of our trees
and their branches to hands, they're not real, understand
and I am here tonight

for you know, once even I was a
little child, and I was afraid
but a gentle someone always came
to dry all my tears, trade sweet sleep for fears
and to give a kiss goodnight

well now I am grown
and these years have shown
that rain's a part of how life goes
but it's dark and it's late
so I'll hold you and wait
'til your frightened eyes do close

and I hope that you'll know...

everything's fine in the morning
the rain'll be gone in the morning
but I'll still be here in the morning

**
i always think of genia when i hear this song. ;)

just a few days ago i was telling cheng that things needn't always be awkward around people that you've loved before and is now past. 'open up your heart!' i told him. but i think ill take back my words. it really isnt easy, and sometimes we're just not ready to face each other, in the context of a new relationship. at least i know for sure thats the case for me and kiat. i thought i was ready, i thought i was cool with just being friends, but im not, and im not going to try anymore. because i think its really time i move on, get over him; so i dont hate myself for not being able to be the person i should be in this new relationship, so i dont try to pretend that im happy with the way things are. ;) i might just be happier not having to worry about all these!

well im just really glad i got to spend my last few days with the people i really love ;) going out and shopping and having dimsum and going out and shopping and having macs haha. sorry mummy and daddy that i kinda burnt a hole in my pocket but hey its the mid seasons sale and things were really going for really low prices. got myself a new pair of boots (frm primark though but hey its really pretty and decent( okay i dont know bout the child labour thg okay tan en so ill just pretend i erm dont know :D) ) and lots of other stuff as well. maybe ill start dressing up for sch. these days i just wake up half an hour before sch starts, bathe, check email, pile on ugly clothes and head out in ugly grumpy face. lets hope new pretty clothes will make me happyyy
;)

two weeks of school

and im feeling quite lazy already. ;) well maybe not lazy, but some sort of a perverse rebellion to everything that everyone is doing. conversation btwn me and a friend
me: so are you continuing french this year?
fren: no im busy this year
me: huh with what
fren: apps.
me: what?
fren: applications. to companies.

well he's not the only one and honestly everyone's getting pretty uptight and stressed about applications for internships/vacation schemes/pupilage/whatnots. ive been to two company presentations and that isnt alot, but i think i have a pretty good idea where im headed towards, just that i havent actually got down to doing anything yet. everyone around me seems to have their cv up somehow, and spoken to others about opportunites and how things are going to work out and im just taking it easy. well at least trying to. its not that i dont value my future, i guess this reeks of scholarships applications again and i absolutely hated that feeling. ;) the kind of feeling that everyone is out to bite each other's tails and chew each other's heads out. grr!

on another note, school is really getting along fine. wednesday has kind of turned into a cook out day for me jerald and jon, and jon is really quite a good cook. ;) we had really nice dessert yesterday - vanilla ice cream with honey and raspberries, absolutely delicious! and hello while im at that let me share with the whole world the simple recipe for a good old seafood risotto.(courtesy of jon although haha he doesnt get any royalties)(so cool im like having my own food blog)

you'll need:
risotto
chick stock cube
garlic
seafood (sainsburys 2 for 4pounds

1. well boil the chicken stock. as in. have it in boiling water. (how do you phrase this???)
2. fry garlic and risotto in pot
3. add chicken stock broth as and when in small potions and continue stirring the risotto so that it doesnt stick to the pan/ie burn. add until it gets to the right stickiness desired.
4. add seafood!
5. SERVE.

haha yay!

theres something in your eyes, makes me want to lose myself

feels like home by chantel kreviazuk
my second food- baked pasta! the weather today has been horrible; its been raining really heavily the whole day. so when i got home after my lectures i just felt like i wanna make something today. and since ive been looking at recipes online for baked pasta i decided to try my hand at it although ive already had my leftover fried rice for lunch. and look what turned out :) a delicious pan of baked cheesy pasta enough i reckon to feed 6 people;) but hey we're all hungry people here in london (except for may who eats one spoonful of porridge for lunch) so this should last us for er, two meals? ;)

went for allen & overy presentation after that and well im feeling the motivation to study and do well in my life. i think its really smart that they got our seniors to talk to us because as naeem said, we'll look at them and think 'hey that can be me' and yes i do think that way now so i studied abit when i got home. i dont think im going to turn into those overzealous people but i guess i shouldnt be laidback as well. i do wanna end up somewhere in my life. ;)

then of course i caught the second episode of greys on the all wonderful alluc.org. this episode was about addictions in life and moving on from there. it all sounds very familiar to me and really becoming the central theme in my life right now. not one day goes by where i dont think about what im going to do with my life;) that scene where christina went back to her apartment and all the wedding gifts had been cleared; i think i know how she feels. its that sense of longing and the sense of wanting to move on. it clashes, but somehow you feel both at the same time. its, all just very strange. ;)
and yes izzie still irritates the hell out of me. poor callie HELLO shes the suffering wife. bad george!

Amie, come sit on my wall.

:)Damien Rice concert at London Wembley, the arena.

okay i gotta confess, ive always written him off as a singer whos too sad and erm boring for my liking. but hey the ticket wasnt too expensive so i went with andre to see maybe ill change my opinion about him;)
and man am i a changed woman.

i never knew i could like sad songs so much:) he's very raw so it makes you wanna go up to him, and give him a big bear hug. but yeah listening to his songs for the first time as an audience in a live concert really makes me wonder how this guy managed to write all these songs. has he lived that much?






but my favourite song is still 'amie', and the effects for that song was really dreamy;)











even though he kinda made it awkward (i thought) by bringing in burma's political situation and brought in burmese refugees and brought up the peaceful riot the monks did in the concert itself, ie making the crowd chant the same words the monks did in response to aung san suu kyi's house arrest(personally i felt slightly used) but hey it shows he's bringing awareness. cos i chanted too :D at least now(according to andre) you can tell people you were involved in a political rally!

i can bake!

hahaa okay im gonna write two posts because i think they both deserve an entry on its own.
firstly, not only did i cook dinner for may, i baked for serene's birthday party! happy 21st dear;)

alright so cheryl did most of the stuff but hey i was her main helper okay.plus the ians for errands and washing up :) everyone liked what we did so im really happy















introducing tiramisu and chocolate tart,the latter which i also did for jessica's housewarming :D im so proud of myself

pics of new room!

as promised ;) although i realised it wasnt very clear nor as pretty as i thought they looked on my camera. ;) but i gave adibah a webcam tour of my room ahah that was fun :D






































told you my room is pink. ;) well thats all to my room really, except theres this purple rug so we can sit there and watch tv :) oh and my wonderful kitchen and toilet which i decided against putting up cos well, whos interested in them?? anw just fyi, we forgot to take out the trash yesterday so we have to wait till sunday to take it out again, and flies are raiding our kitchen;(
other than that, staying out has been really fun! and goooood.
OH and i cooked dinner tonight (muaha) AND IT WAS GOOD. may ate everything ;) see it isnt really that hard to cook haha. even though we made crappy carbonara and i burnt my omelette but hey ;) all's well.

sch's starting soon ;(

teeveee;)

haha yup as of last night i got my own tv. thanks to kel and cheryl and mum who came so that i wldnt be home alone with random internet guy who actually came with his 7 month old baby so that was really adorable. haha okay im still too lazy for pictures but i cleared a space infront of the fireplace so i can sit and watch tv from there. anhd so now my desk is directly in front of the big window andnow that its still sunny i get super alot of sunlight directly on my studytable and room but then again i dont really have any use for that yet because (haha) lse hasnt started school yet. it is scary to see the two kingser study so hard though (yes even lulu) and im just like here slacking away and going online and watching prisonbreak. heh.
;)
enjoying life while i can!

i have internet!

:) and my room looks really nice. we've got lotsa of natural light in our house so its bright all day long. and our rooms are pretty spacious and not too cramped so its really gd. im just missing the tv in my room thats all :D
staying out is really quite an experience. furnishing the house has never felt more satisfying. esp when we bought the bathroom racks and all and voila all our toiletries are now neatly stacked up in the bathtub and by the sink.
lulu was quite insulted by this roadsign thing i stuck onto my door cos it said 'be self sufficient- avoid men'. wanted to get that for rai but never got down to giving (haha) besides i love feminist statements like these so i brought it along. but alas it doesnt stick very well (lulu: now you know what its trying to tell you..) so im using it as a coaster instead. but of cos the polka dotted coaster we bought is much prettier but hey i can have more than one mug in my room;)
pictures soon! when my bookshelf arrives and i throw away my bedbase and i vacuum my room. and wipe the windows. and pack my stuff. :D

i need school to start soon so id stop doodling around! i feel like a stay at home nanny with the other two always in sch. ;)

dont need superman, just want you to love me.

with barely a week left in singapore, i wonder whats going to happen when i return to london, and im filled with grippling fear. like what rosh said in her out of the blue call today,"i feel sick thinking about going back to UK".

i guess i still have no idea how it all spiralled down into the situation it has become of now. barely months ago i was one half of a deliriously happy couple despite parents' obvious displeasure. then a few weeks later im a devastated heartbroken chick. i think the need for playing the blame game is over by now, but the sense of what it used to be still haunts me. exactly how do you move on from something you've invested so much time and effort, and most of all, yourself. sadly its not a question, but rather a statement. because we have to do it. move on, i mean. with our lives. rosh has a way of saying it;) 'seems like the world is moving along just like normal but you feel so horrible inside and you know its not the same anymore'

no matter how special a relationship is, breakups are all the same. the same lines used, the same emotions. and that horrible feeling of not being able to agree on the same things. maybe thats exactly why there was the breakup.;)

few days ago i was talking to mr buff chwen, and he was lamenting on the 'lousy' plot for the time traveller's wife. he said the male lead was very selfish, leaving the female lead alone and pining for him long after he was dead, just so she could see him one last time when she was very old. i on the contrary, thought that was the beauty of the story, it being bittersweet. i remember none but one line for my defense of this beautiful book. i said, "singlehood aint that bad if you know you've loved once."
so he asked the million dollar question, whether i was speaking from my own experience.
i guess, i am still trying to figure that out. ;)

this could be the start, of something new ;)

just came back from watching high sch musical at amir's hse. haha i know, rather silly, thats basically all we did for a class gathering (WHICH ALOT OF GUYS SAID THEY"D COME BUT DIDNT yes you you you and you) but it was quite funny cos i knew the lines and obviously knew how to sing along. im such a disney fan woohoo! and of cos tmr im gonna catch high sch musical 2:)

its rather late to say this, but im glad i joined carmina because the few (but still very funny) chorale people were a blast to sing with. everyone shd see yinchuin get high on singing gummy bears its the most hilarious thing ive ever seen. ;) and jianhao and his chinese/indian/xmas renditions of together since/in song. ;) and aiyah all the silly jokes and stupid emma(who owes me a treat cos i can fit into my vj gown lalala). :)
anw since i cant find a way to load pics onto forum here they are:

SPOT THE SENIORS. bet you cant;) oh just say you cant. cmon.


i think this is a rather nice pic;) see yc trying to act cool

im not really counting down the days till i go back- i just want to spend it with people that i love back here in singapore. ;)

ahh 给我一杯忘情水

went ktv for the first time yesterday and i must say the title of mister oldies crooner truly belongs to mister gangwei. :) and the title of mister scary crooner shall go to silly ian cheng! but ahlian 72变 songs and ahpek english songs aside it was fun meeting up with the musical ppl :)
then we headed for supper and the topic of aphrodisiac came up when gerard and i were eating super bloody hams ( i dont want hep a!!) cos dear florrinne didnt know what aphrodisiac means.

let me tell you what is a true blue (haha) aphrodisiac.



FLOORPLAY.
well it shd have been renamed foreplay and i think ppl wouldnt have noticed the name change. :) not that they dont deserve credit for their energetic performances and the fact that they danced the whole show, but wow, truth is i guess(sad fact of the world), sex sells. hot babes in little nighties and half naked guys (there was one scene where they were wearing nothing but a tie-- does anyone remember janice's fren's porno picture??) well they were piping hot. perhaps i dont know how to appreciate dance, like maybe they revolutionised foxtrot or something and i missed it out, but hey all i saw were hot bodies shaking away the whole performances. not that im complaining but a trip to gotham penthouse wld have been cheaper.
i bet raihana is sobbing over her keyboard right now for not comign to watch floorplay :D hee.

cloud moves but the sky doesnt

work is officially ending in one hour and 18 minutes and with chorale ended already i guess ill be having alot of freetime when next week comes. well i feel like i havent properly rested (but okay thats a lie ive idled at home watching tv the whole day many a times before i started work) but it just feels a tad fast that my four month summer holiday is coming to an end and that in three weeks' time ill be whisked away to london, once again, and this time for a very long time.

ive watched quite a bit of movies (and also bought quite a few pairs of shoes, but thats another story altogether) in the last week. 881, bourne, hairspray.

everyone shd go watch 881. i watched it when it first came out and its fabulous how its drawing such a great response so proud of you royston tan! go singapore!

now ive got quite a bit to say about jason bourne. its great to be him because:
1. he has an inbuilt gps system in him. everywhere he goes, he is able to immediately know where to go and how to go and where to turn and all that. even through those little small street alleys which are probably not on the proper gps!
2. he seems to be fluent in alot of languages and unlike me he probably didnt have to spend 170pounds to have french conversational lessons and come out still not really knowing french (although at least i passed my tests)
3. he has endless amount of money, being able to jetset around the world at any time of the day and at his whim
and bourne the movie teaches road safety too. when crashing into a car, always wear a seat belt. you'll come out with minimal scratches while the other guy is sure to die.

hairspray was simply delightful because it has all my favourite actors/actresses in it and i swear the whole cinema, well okay maybe just the girls but thats not the point, swoon everytime zac efron does his little wink :D ahh. maybe its time i changed my man.. but then again a girl needs many different types of man so she can choose better right. anw throughout the whole movie eug and i were so afraid that john travolta and christopher walken would kiss. but of course john travolta only went as far as shaking his booty and he was really hilarious to watch. i loved the dresses in the show. wld love to catch the actual musical someday.
and as queen latifah sings:'cos im BIG blonde and beauuttifull!'

next up: poltergay, marmalade pantry( or toast i just need to have that iced lemon tea and nutella cupcake one more time), high sch musical2 (heh) , ulu islands(nus and ntu), suppers suppers, and lotsa family time. ;)
and meanwhile try to be really truly happy until its time to go back london :)

in song!

and so its over.

after many weekends spent in beloved siglap south cc, the concert's over. im just glad for my friends who came (thanks a bunch!) and i really enjoyed singing the songs. after one year in dusty london i can still sing ;) and i knew all my words so double yay!
although everyone said they couldnt find/recognise me in second row.

so thanks chorale for letting me sing with you guys. i love our sound and the way we dont oversing. its such an oldie thing to do that. i love you laolaos! i really think chorale is one reason why id want to come back. :)
and i think we followed our boss quite well on concert day so triple yay.


thanks to eve for taking pretty shots of us putting on makeup :) but yeah youngling sign is quite funny you should see all the laolaos roll their eyes. well the other pics are pretty blurry sorry i think my camera is pretty lousy.

feeling pretty heartbroken that its all over now. glam bling and fun that comes with chorale :) cos it also means that im going back to london soon.
boundd as oneee in ce le braa tion.

free breakfast

this morning as i was queueing up to get my free breakfast this old uncle cut my queue. right in front of me! and the queue was really long okayy. he simply got out of the lift and jumped queue.
for one i couldnt make out whether he did it purposely or was he simply confused by the snaking long curvy lines of people and didnt know where to queue from. besides he looked really happy and was grinning in that oldman's way.
after he collected his untasty plain beehoon(it was just white beehoon with two strands of carrots in it!!!) he even went up to his friend and said 'BYE BYE!'

wah uncle! next time cannot cut queue okay!

3moredaystoINSONG

feeling rather old fashioned today ;) am wearing my new purchase frm ebay, this skirt which im not really sure if its supposed to be that high waisted but hey im wearing it that way(1. cos its small 2. cos it looks gd that way okay) and yay i feel so proud of all my cheap purchases.

had jap food again for lunch and am having it for dinner later on with my parents. my dad was going on about how soon ill be going back and how little time we have together and i just nodded my head in silence. its very true. my mum complains that the only words i say to her are 'good morning' and 'good night'. that is a little sad. but hey whatever it is i still love them.

its funny but i really want chorale concert to be here sooner than it already is. it felt nice just singing through the difficult scores yesterday; i felt like we were some cult gathering together for i dont know some common purpose or smthg. well at least its a cult that leaves you with a gd feeling, although i still feel silly with my hair.
oh then cheryl got me into a panic attack during lunch when she asked if i can fit into my chorale gown. OMG i havent tried it on yet!!

but nevermind. going threading at little india with eug on sat;) yeah before prac abit crazy and rushed but hey beautiful eyebrows winkwink