dempsey hut

sneeze. sniff. shudder. ;(

went out for great dinner. this small little place tucked away in the green wilderness near botanic gardens. it just rained, so it felt pretty cool there. the food was really quite nice. my chicken chop was great! i just love pepper.. ;) just mask everythg away with pepper. the whipped potato was gd too, until i tasted the cheese in it and i got quite sick of it. just like wad 7-11 did to their fantastic instant whipped potato (bah!).
durin the dinner my mum was askin me to look at these two boys sitting behind me. i was lk 'got boys in my sch ask me look at boys here.' then i concluded hey, boys in my sch arent worth lookin at much too. then i started tellin her bout wad those scums did on fri tt made rai quite angry. Then my wonderful dad went 'eh jiayun, watch me!' and he did the 'look-i-can-touch-the-flame-but-no-pain' thing. n when he was done he had that goofy prideful grin. my mum started laughin and i was lk 'DAD ur no different from those scums!'
Gosh. boyss.

after dinner my mum had a great idea to go bedok to go look for shoes n toiletries for my sv trip. saw the shoe i wanted to buy long ago! had a gd mind to buy both colours :) but both were the last pair and one size bigger so we decided to go look at the other bata stores my mum claimed there was in bedok. when we came back the pink one was gone. GONE. hai. so i bought the white one, n i even had to wash it when i came back. but nvm. im satisfied. :)

go study peeps!

yo vjc.

went for quite a bit of finals yesterday and today :)
the only time ill ever be interested soccer is when vj plays. n i get to watch it live.
at least i got to laugh at that mj boy who was dancing arnd the ball until he fell. HA. ;)
hockey girls played well ;) made me wonder whyyy didnt i go join a sports cca n make my life more interesting, even though i might just be bench warmer.
hockey boys were pretty gd today i thot. put up quite a gd fight, esp in first half. that'll teach mr seet to nt coach them lah. pfft. given their self coach status, im really happy they got this far. ;) well done!

vj cant get far without the girls. :)

hello all my darlings

how am i copin with sch now, u may ask.

wad sch? haha. ;) my principal's pretty bent on giving us half days and day offs, so i dont think ill be gettin much school this wk. but that doesnt stop the A's from coming.

i realised i havent even uploaded sov pics! ahha. champion.

after the horrible terrifyin news that apple doesnt support yellow socks, ive had to think of ways to keep my ipod nice and warm. brought to sch today and voila, got quite a few scratches alr. but its okay. i figured those tissue packs can actually store it quite nicely. ive got a polka dotted one albeit old. ;)

was listenin to adibah's mp3 today and started singing like some drunkard while some of my junior class ppl were in the class. haha. so fun. ;)

post sov

sov was great. sopsies rock. i have the recording on my md if anyone wants to hear.. my mum had quite gd seats :)

i guess i felt relief more than anythg after the concert. i know the girls were pretty upset and they controlled themselves very well on stage ;) the only two times i felt warm n fuzzy on stage was.. haha. teresa teng medley. i realised how much gab actually contributed to the choir, like he wrote the ending and all. how the concert would have been empty if we the musico didnt put in the effort. how the concert was going to end and all our efforts for the past half yr, its just gonna be over, just like that.
n the next was when the seniors came on stage. i realised how great it was that the victorian spirit still lives on, as long as the song isnt forgotten by the new members.
;)

listened to bing's cd yesterday and read all the notes in the box again. my player's always on shuffle and the first song that came on was Taufik's 'I Dream'. was pleasantly surprised and i felt.. hey we really share alot together. throughout the whole cd i felt as if i went on this emotional rollercoaster. a love that will last, hakunamatata :), osjusti, n the song we sang for sdd. ahha. i felt old and weary, and really sadddened by the fact that there is no more reason for me to stay back in sch 3 times a wk until the sun goes down, being crazy with those fantastic girls.
am so thankful for the friendship. maybe im slow in these emotional stuff :) but yeah. now is my turn to cry!
love u all!

apples!

my dad got me an ipod ;) and its free :) whee :) cant wait to get a yellow casing or smthg. yay now i hve a reason to buy more cds. ;) support originals.

come see me look lk taitai. 17th May 2005 :) esplanade 730.

a love that will last

thanks to shawnyy for sendin me the song. hahah. ok jaz dont kill me i just do that to irritate him.

today when we were singin yeru i suddenly thought of the movie 'tha pianist'. i think those who've watched it before would agree with me that is a very powerful film. watching it once is enough for me. i can still rem the germans throwing that old crippled man over the window just like tt. ahh.

what is love.
how do u love someone you dont even know about?
or love someone even though u noe he's hurt you before, and he's a different man now than he was before, durin your 'happy times'.
its okay to cry, but was he there to share ur pain.

im nt that magnanimous. i just hope that my beloved frens would eventually make the decision that makes them happiest. ;)

I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

Say that you love
Say im the one
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama
My tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last

[Chorus]
I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I'll never leave you
So don't even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

So theres little more that i need
I wanna share all the air you breathe
I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

tadaa. my career choices.

after talkin to brandon today, i made a very important decision.

im NEVER, EVER, gonna be a teacher. i swear i could have just vomitted blood on my keyboard. hai. i guess i just dont haf the patience for it.

to be nice ppl, u guys shd all learn manners and how to reply to such negative words.
repeat after this:
"no jy, u rock! its nt u.. it prob was just brandon. really. ur a GREATT person! ur simply fabulous! whee!"

;)
haha. afterwhich i promptly told brandon i no longer wan to fren him., but he still owes me ten ribenas. yumyum.

n irvin dont try to trick me i noe wad velociraptor is. im not a dinosaur!

oh n for napfa. i tried singin sov songs. leo lasted me for two rounds. (two gd rounds) afterwhich i tried chimpara but i gave up coz i didnt noe the words.
after that. i kinda erm, walked. hahaha. but i still passed. so. yeah. phew.no more napfa. nope im nt whining bout pe, dont get me wrong. im just glad i went thru 15 mins of strenuous exercise.

osjusti

heh i have quite a bit of testssss comin up. pretty worrying since i dont think i really know that much yet. anw im still in the 'get choir over first' mood. so. :) heyy come for choir concert!

it really feels great to just get together and sing songs that we sang before. when i sang osjusti, oh man, hm. u just feel so enlightened. haha. the other songs were really just for fun. lk, i dont even noe if im singing my own part or the altos' for karimata. haha. i guess.. im really thankful for my batch. we've went thru alot together and had many great experiences together. let us end our choir erm days(haha) with a great concert!

when singin old songs, most of the time i was just jumpin arnd or tryin to dance abit. ahhaah. silly rayner saw me and tried to point me out to irvin.. but ha, i was fast. ;)

cant believe i still have napfa tmr.

and oh man there shd be a rule about guys whining. u wont believe singaporean guys nowadays. ask them to do smthg and they'll just whine lk girls. okay so maybe THIS is gender equality, not girls matching up to guys but guys matching up to girls. great, whee. go girl power.

syf. ;)

well i cant believe i actually sat around SCH in my gown and did nthg for goodness knows how many hours.

im actually happy that we got wad we wanted. i think it was the best of us already. honestly if u think about it, we always think we can do better but we never did.. and this is already quite gd lah. so ppl, lets rejoice ;)

gives ppl more reason to watch us. ;)
n hey, theres this syf perf concert where the better choirs and bands get to perform. esplanade. july smthg.
if u dont wan to go for two concerts.. just come for one! come for Symphony of voices ;) whee.

anw.
i just wan to be loved for who i am. wilful or nt, i am merely myself. its as simple as that.

breathes.!

i finally got down to listenin the cd irvin burnt for me. hm i keep hearin this puppy yelping sound, heh. im nt crazy. although i swear everytime i close my eyes i go 'senjakala' but hey, its normal isnt it.

i guess this time round i feel better. ive really grown up ;) gracia said i was wavin my hands abit too much today though *wave hands* honestly i dont know wads she talkin about *wavehands*

if ur readin this at ten pm on tues night, u DIE!

love u guys. ;) cmon we can do it.

anger management

sometimes i dont believe myself. i felt so different wad, ten mins ago? oh man the things i really hate about people. maybe im the kind of person u have to know me to understand me but hey, i thot i made myself quite clear. oh man oh man i was really gettin quite pissed just now.
if only u noe its you who made me so pissed.

breathes.

anw. grr. i feel happier knowin tt i have a new quilt tonight. oh n the cover's pretty too, got hearts and all over it. its the summertime, and the weather is fine, u can stretch right up and touch the sky ;)

Coughcought*bloodsplatter

im contributing to the country's economy. what else can u say when one visits the doc three times in a month?

its horrible to sing and cough at the same time. most of the time i dont, i just dont sing and try to breathe properly. funny thg is, i seem to cough alot for sunset. maybe i push harder for the other two songs. hm. but its still pretty embarrassing when u cant even hit the high notes and some squeaky sound comes out. good thg im thick skinned when it comes to such stuff. i just act as if nthg happened. im getting pretty gd at it.

im gettin less than 6 hrs of sleep. i woke up last nite thinkin it was time to wake up alr. and voila, the time was bout 4.30am. whee.

was just telling janice that i was reflecting on my relationships with others. i realised, ive lost quite a few friends. which i felt quite sad upon thinkin about it. it might be true that ive gained some really wonderful friends, but then the loss is there and who's fault shd it be, i really dont know. maybe its just natural that we would all drift apart and one day cease to talk to each other at all because of the different lifestyles that we have. but i dont see hows tt a problem if i can keep in touch with friends whom i dont even see everyday. bah anyway im just writing random thoughts *whispers*imjsuttryingtogetawayfromwork*

yup. ;D

to what extent should vocal trainig be taught?

i miss writing gd gp essays.

There is a general consensus among those musically inclined that some form of guidance should be given to those need help in vocal techniques to save us all from a bad headache. However, the approach taken towards administering this help should be kept in check and only given to those who has the motivation to better their vocal techniques. Therefore, there should not be total reliance; neither should there be no help at all, since it is almost impossible to achieve anything without any form of knowledge on how our vocals work.

Vocal technique is something one can acquire through lessons built upon learning how vocals work and how we can achieve good singing techniques through the work of various factors. It is important that information is to be given so that they can learn how to use those techniques when singing; otherwise they will be ignorant of the various techniques needed for good singing. There are vocal teachers who specialise in this area and are paid a high fee to teach, signifying the importance of correct and good vocal training. Only with the acquired knowledge on vocal techniques can one sing reasonably well. However without the motivation to do better, the student may not learn fully from the lessons; that is to say the student do not continually try to improve his/her singing by diligent practice due to motivation of oneself. Thus a large part of learning is dependent on the student's attitude towards learning. Therefore, there is a limit to the amount of help that can be given.

All these work under the assumption that the students do know their music. This is often not true for all and thus all reasoning to give vocal training do not stand as the student fails to perform the piece even with the best vocal techniques as the music is not complete without the notes. Furthermore students may not be conscious of using what they have learnt when singing and these may lead to inefficiency as time is wasted on reminding them on what is the correct way to sing. When the choir is reminded to give a more classical sound when singing, the effect is almost achieved right away, which goes to show that the choir is capable of producing the right sound. They are therefore guilty of not reminding themselves at all times during singing to sing the right way. Therefore, the factor resulting in their poor vocal technique is due to their own failure to remind themselves constantly to use the right vocal techniques, which they already know of.

However, not everyone is perfect. There are times where we falter and it merely reflects the humanity in us. Gentle reminders may go a long way as people's welfare may differ from their preference. So long as there is a chance that those on the receiving end of the training are eager and sincere to learn, the results will definitely be positive.

Thus it is obvious that vocal training is essential, but only under the assumption that those on the receiving end are motivated and do take the initiative to go one step further than performing well during the lesson so that the lesson learnt can have a deep impact and can be inculcated into their vocal techniques for a long period of time, as long as they keep singing. The right learning attitude plays an important part in this and should form the basis of all when taking on lessons. It is thus very clear that although vocal training is essential, there is a limit to the effects of it as a large part of it is due to personal reasons that others cannot control. Therefore the effects of vocal training can only impact one to a certain extent, the rest is up to himself/herself.

:)
i need my slp.

feeling so much.

hm. i have so many thoughts in my head.

mel gibson is really the perfect man for the movie 'wad women wants'. honestly! i love that scene where he does all the sinatra stuff. swoons. why arent there any of these men around anymore?

and.. cancer cell symposium reminded me of how much more i need to learn before i can be a professional. the scientists giving the talks were really pretty amazing, the way they knew their stuff and all. i felt as if i was taking up space there.. they should have let my space to someone who knew their stuff more than i did. All i could do there was try nt to fall asleep and appreciate what they had done for cancer research for the past decades. and wads amazing was we met the guy who discovered the p53 tumor suppressing gene. he's still alive! and alot of wad we learn about cancer really happened during the past few decades and there are so much new research thats unpublished, so.. i felt pretty honoured to be in near vicinity of such amazing people. although i really did not understand a single word.

i wonder how was the econs test today..
i still have chem spa this wed.. thurs? wed.

im thinking.. i shd try to stay neutral more often. but sometimes u just cant help but get urself involved in making rash decisions which doesnt even go thru ur head for a split second. sometimes ur thinkin u shd just go for it. sometimes u think the decision's nt in you. sometimes u think the whole world is so inflexible and you get this suffocating feeling about how everything is being run. sometimes u get so fed up you just wan to scream into that person's head. sometimes u get so confused u just wan to ask that person outright whats exactly are you thinking of.
and sometimes u just dont wan to think about it anymore.

if i cld tell the world just one thg, it wld be. we're all okay. and nt to worry coz worry is wasteful n useless in times like this. i wont be made useless. i wont idle in despair. i will gather myself around my faith, coz light does darkness most fear. my hands are small i know but they're nt yours they are my own. and i am never broken.

peekapoookaapfft.

HEY concert is on 17th :)

ahh. for all the goodness of spa, im glad its over. i hope out of my three tries i have at least ONE really good one.

went paragon after that, walked arnd and had fun in borders looking at polka dotted stuff. i really lk dots over stripes. and borders have such nice books! im gonna buy a colouring book for the guys in my class to write as autographs. hahaha. ;) NOTE that i didnt call u guys scums.. :) im trying to be nice here!

then i manged to get to tk in half an hours' time (the wonders of singapore transport system) and listened to tkchoir. i tink its funny how after two yrs ppl still see me and still feel.. haha scared? i was talkin to the head prefect before i went choir, and the other prefect was lk.. 'hmm. scared of u.' i walked into the choir room behind steph n rach tan, and shuwei was lk 'wah, stressed.' and for quite some time she was just squattin on the floor looking at me.. weird.

yay ive got tix to go hear them on fri. whee. but now got silicon valley meeting SPOIL MY DAY so now i cant go home i guess. go music fest in teeshirt n shorts lah. oh but may offered to let me go her hse n use up all her perfumes. whee.

Symphony of voices 2005

Vjchoir presents... Symphony of voice 2005! ;)

Venue: Esplanade Concert Hall
Date: 15th May 2005, Tuesday(if im nt wrong)
Time: 730? :)
Ticket prices: $20, $30, $40. tickets are exclusive of sistic ticket charges.

hey frens. go buy tix fast so u get gd n cheap seats k? ;)

Me and mr phlegm

A short story about my life.

Mr. Phlegm has been pretty persistant and sticky, as of short. He started by partnering up with Mr.Sorethroat to get onto me, but now Mr. Sorethroat is gone so he's on his own. Sometimes he tries to disguise himself into Mr. Mucus and tries to make me like him. Although im really attracted to the yellow colour, i think i prefer something more solid. So, im still waiting for Mr. Mucus to solidify.
Ms. Mum gave me a really PAINFUL backrub today, with the ever trustworthy Mr.Vicks. I think its making me feel a little bit better, although Mr. Cold-weather doesnt make me feel any better. I've always had a secret crush on Mr. Rain, but honestly, he came at a bad time today. Furthermore he brought that irritating friend of his, Mr. Cold-wind. Brrr.
Ms. Nose feels like shes going to drop off soon, but i hope she doesnt. It really is such an important part of the face dont you think so.
Ms. Brain thinks its time to sleep.
goodnight :)

the day the dentist took my wisdom away

im in so much pain. aiyo i thot i wont feel so horrible, but i am! the pain is pretty much there all the time...painkillers dont work.

anw ahha my dentist was quite young and handsome ;) too bad the chair couldnt recline so i was in a rather uncomfortable position. can u imagine.. going thru the op sitting up. i was rather nervous hee.

pain pain pain!

im wiser :)

haha birthdays are supposed to make u wiser. well. is droppin ice cream on ur fren's blouse and skirt and droppin ur wallet and everythg arnd u after that considered wise? :)

thanks for all the birthday wishes today! im a happy girl today :)

got a card frm my sis, which made everythg more special:) its really tough spendin a bdae without her.

n of coz frm rach too! haha. it even came with ur graduation pic.. the one i liked! muacks love ya babe. cant wait for u to come back ;)

enjoy the pics on my blog. picsa rocks.

oh n i tink my girlfriends wan me to get hitched soon or smthg. ive got a cleo mag with the bachelors ;) and a book on finding mr right haha. n of coz kinky underwear to go along with it. haha. one button two button, strawberry blonde!
n im definitely gonna use the yellow doormat ;)

haha look at may ;)