gdbye 2004, helloo 2005

sat in front of the tv for most of the day, there were really quite a few gd shows on today. but most imptly i watched quite a bit of news, mostly on the tsunami. its really heartwrenchin to watch the victims talk bout how they lost their whole families, how they tried to save their family members but to no avail.

right now im listenin to corfrinne may's cd in silent consolation to myself with regards to not being able to go listen to her at esplanade. darn ive been plannin it for so long.. bah.

its really amazin how fast this yr has been. suddenly im on the last day of the year that had me thrown in a rollercoaster of emotions. at the end of it all, i find myself holding on dearly to wad i believe in, n further away frm wad i decided that i wld dislike. and yet at the same time i found friends who have invaded my life in a way they never had. i had my share of wild fun, n my sombre moments too. had my fair share of tears, but i definitely laughed the hardest too. i reailse more than ever how blessed i am, n i really am thankful. i also know i must work hard so as nt to let my blessed soul go to waste.
i think of my future more than ever.
ive learnt how to deal with departures, because ppl dont stay with u all the time. but its ok as long as they've had a positive impact in ur life, bcoz tt impact stays on even after they're far away. although i prob would still cry, but ive learnt to look at it in a positive light. i just hope i dont cry too hard when my sis goes off.. hehs. if ur laughin at this hey ur evil.
ive learnt that im nt that invincible after all. im no longer who i used to be, even who i used to be wasnt that great anyway. i haf my fair share of failures n as always, it has humbled me.
i realise ive always had ppl 'lookin after' me all these while, been there for me when im down, help me with stuff, n i thank them for it.
i beileve my friendships have transcended to a level where we've gone beyond caring how she looks, whether she has spinach stuck in between her teeth, whether he jumps on a table n starts doing funny stuff, or whether she hugs a bolster to sleep everynight. i love my friends, i love my darlings, i love my limited scope of guy friends. ;)
i thank my parents for being so protective of me n giving me curfews (heh) n doing everythg to show that they really care.
and my sister for being so mean to me. well, sometimes. ;) i will nv forget that pinch that made that huge blue-black on my arm.

2005 will be a great yr.
to start it off, we shd all go watch 'one fine day'! i tink george clooney looks really gd in it... ;) n forget bout thsoe tutorials, will do it when sch starts.*winks

vjchoir rox.

being in vjchoir is a lifestyle. hey that really sums everythg up man. ;)

had farewell for our seniors. yeah the tealight session was really a very gd idea (whichever batch that came up with this idea) n i can just imagine myself talkin nxt yr. its must be the dark lighting n the candle flame.. makes u feel warm n fuzzy.
n i made a new resolution to frequent choir room more nxt yr. ;)
n now my hand smells of smoke bcoz we kept playin with fire. ;) me n mich had a gd time figurin out wad was the best way to light up the satay stick.

plenty of reflections n reminders going thru my head right now. will try to make the best out of wad we haf for nxt yr. ;)

five wks.

thats how long my leg is gonna be in cast for. bahh i hate crutches. its nt fun at all! u get really tired after a while.. n this funny feeling below ur armpits even when ur nt usin it.. im so gonna get dents in my body below my armpits. argh. my sis tinks its fun.. well. kids will be kids.

im glad my mum is around for me. if i had to do everythg myself today i tink i wld haf just did it really badly or smthg.. yeah i am dependent on others but hey its nt that i refuse to walk around n wait to be served, so it isnt that bad. im just grateful to my mum. n yeah i did tell her that ;)

i just spent three hours doing 16 cards for my choir seniors. im giving up.. no more cards! to tink i wanted to do for almost all the seniors.. maybe tmr morn. my hands are achin. or ill just get chocs heh.

i had macs at east coast after my hopspital trip this morn n i could taste the new rubber when i ate fries. now i'll haf to wash my hands before i eat. darn those rubber handles. rubber tastes awful.

anw my mum reminded me im goin on hols nxt sat. some beach resort at bintan. i'll haf to stay indoors or stay by the pool. aww no bikinis for me, darn. *pouts. haha.

cranberries, baby.

i really like that cd ;D

just had whispers of the earth concert. hahah really didnt noe it really was THAT short, im sorry! haha. but hey the little kids were cute rite? hee. really miss my class ppl, but glad to see them today. ;)

my feet isnt gettin any better, in fact i tink its more purple now. n it actually hurts more, though i can walk better. am i contradictin myself? HM.

its such a blessin to live in singapore, to be far away frm all the disasters. n still be able to go for ice cream buffets n listen to my fav songs, see my fav ppl, sing, live in comfort, wear nice clothes. im blessed.
and i firmly believe that many things that happened durin my lifetime has pointed out my life's directions for me. i really tink i shd be doin smthg for the ppl(eg. be a doc), nt for myself(eg. be a businesswoman). but then again, all young ppl have idealistic dreams, n as much as i like being practical, i am ambitious and wan to be the best i can be. i wan to work in a hospital, then go off to some underdeveloped country and work for a few yrs before comin back.

there. my dreams. ;)
which doesnt (at present) include marriage/love/romance bcoz i have nt figured out how it will all fit in. when i do i'll update u guys.

have yourself a merry little christmas ;)

carolin yesterday was gd, today was better. although i did tink the 15mins sessions at ritz was really crap, but oh well, 15mins is gd. besides, everyone was too busy eating fabulous food to be listenin to us anyway. its okay, i didnt really mind :)
felt like some scrooge receivin all the cards n nt givin out any. just thot that this yr i didnt feel it was appropriate to give any out. ok yeah, scrooge, but i really love my cranberries cd! thankss jiee ;) was really sad to read her letter bout her being with me no matter where she is. she just had to remind me that she's going away really soon n even tho sometimes she acts really 'pfft' i haf to treasure befores she leaves! haha. ;) n its really embarrassin but i found a pres without any name n i cant rem gettin it frm anyone.. this is bad.
thanks thanks to all seniors n frens for cards n all, thanks for all the encouragement n warm wishes, love u guys n treasure all the friendships. really!

for a moment i felt quite sad carollin was over. didnt feel relieved or anythg, just.. wow, its over. feels gd to see all the seniors come bck n sing/listen. really. will do it for many yrs to come ;)

blue feet n pink cookies.

thats the colour of my feet now.

anw my hp is actin funny. supposedly the messages sent are 'error' but actually some of them did get sent. so erm. i normally stop afer three errors but if u dont get the msg stil pls blame samsung.

oh n yesterday mich n gracia came over to my hse to bake cookies. we gave up on the toffee apple idea, simply bcoz we cannt find the fudge that hardens. anw we were all so tired after that we all slept in the cab. we had nice pink icings on the cookies, although we didnt haf time to wait for all to harden so lk mary's was all smudged up heh. but hers was the biggest n had the most icing muaha.
n once again can i emphasize the point that if u get diarrhoea, its betty crockers' fault. okayy?
anw besides the big cookies we had smaller cookies for everyone too, with pink smiley faces on them. offered one to jeremy n he had this stupid expression on his face that he couldnt bite it down. then gracia asked him hows the cookie n he said 'its okay, just that u haf to bite.' qianbian statement #1.

and i truly believe that we shd all enjoy(or at least pretend to, it is a performance after all) carollin however tiring it is. yes lets make it even better with no flops but even if there is just take it as lesson learnt? and i really tink im quite proud of the yr ones n yr zeros (n so far some yr twos) i see carollin everyday, that IS itself dedication to choir n we shd be proud AND thankful for that. n of coz for the fact that bridge now practically binds the whole choir together i tink. tenors sops n altos. poor basses. ;)

dang.

on my dad's com now n everythg's chinese. how cool. i haf a cousin stayin over so he's usin the com room.

ritz today was ok. i felt gd. although i still feel that its high injustice that gowns dont haf pockets to put pitchpipe n bring notes.

the marble steps at raffles are evil. repeat after me 'the steps are evvill'.
yeah i fell down.
bang bang boom.
my butt hurts. ive got two bruises on my hips, n one big bumb on my leg. i feel lk a bruised woman everytime i sit down. all i can think of is that this is a very bad timing.. darn.
oh well im strong.
evil steps.
whinesss.

carollin, baby.

heh ok i'll try to make the next carollin session better k! by xmas day ill be really gd conductin carols, woohoo. ;) sorry to all the seniors who came down n couldnt hear wad song we gonna sing n the note. n ill try to stop dancin arnd so u guys can see me.. which already is quite difficult i tink. hm. someone donate higher heels to me..

after our carollin session at ritz last nite we walked over to raffles. yes, via marina square, citylink, raffles city. yes, in our gowns. yes, in a superfastwalkin speed coz we haf long legs (dont u already know that?).
n yes, we were mad. ahha.

anw im tired. but glad carollin has started which means its goin to be over soon. ill try my best to enjoy it, of coz i really enjoy the company, so i guess that makes it better. n we're so gonnna make toffee apples, stayover or nt, ha!

have yourself, a merry little christmas.

xmas is just around the corner! yeah i dont celebrate xmas, but its gd to know that soon ill stop seein the choir peeps every single day.. ;)

man without a paddle is hilarious. so was ocean's twelve (swoons at george clooney although brad pitt was so hot in the movie u cant really ignore him but oh well GEORGE! :) n heres a subtle indictation that ive spent too much money, yup.

and cip at ps with gracia yesterday was great. besides the part that after we bought lunch there were so many gifts to be wrapped we didnt get to eat until bout 5plus. by then our beehoon n noodles had gone really oily, yucks. but it was fun. i had two disasters, n gracia had to erm, correct them ;) i feel quite bad if teh person's watchin, but hey i wrapped a few nice pres too! n im much better than gracia at promotin stuff heh. n i HATE two ppl bridge i kept losin. bah.

carollin starts tmr, hooray.

hmm.

okay im evil. i ranted at gab, but hey i was being honest. i dont normally get honest with ppl bout how i feel bout choir bcoz obviously i cant. and i always try to get out of tricky situations by givin the excuse that im woman. hey i hated carolin last yr. yet i sang for all five days.
anw im glad gab ranted back at me. ;)

anw anw anw, tmr's gonna be a nice day! hospital attachment, cip with gracia at ps, then carolin with vc at esplanade at nite. ;)

i dont need ur show of attitude

i feel quite bad. me n gracia were supposed to pick mary up frm airport(r u reading this??) but we erm decided a movie wld be good so we ended up watchin national treasures to pass time n when we got to terminal one we only got to see an empty conveyor belt. we tried our luck at the foodcourt upstairs but nah. we had popeye chicken for dinner tho. im so horrible! after tryin so hard to get samuel's number n all i cant even see her. bahh. my mum keeps tellin me how lousy i am but hey, at least i was honest with my mum.. told her i was supposed to be studyin with gracia hee. mary im soo sorry! ;(

anw we had a damn funny train ride. oh gosh i tink the ppl thot we were mad.
lesson no. 1: if u ever marry someone with surname ong, nv name ur son with the initials T.H. because his army nametag will read T.H.ONG. n trust me, ppl cant stop laughin. i was tearing..frm tryin nt to laugh too loud.
ok so i dont haf a lesson no. 2. :)

went back tk choir. i had this idea of persuadin ms lim that hey we still care bout the choir n all, so pls dont drop tk choir after all these years. but when i saw how hard ms lim was tryin n how lousy they really were, i just didnt haf the heart to. on the contrary, i fully understand why ms lim wld wan to drop tkchoir. although she insists she wont. the sound was bad, they cant read their music very well, supposedly the music was given to them bout a month ago already n they still cant get the notes n entries rite. one thg commendable was that they seemed quite bonded. thats gd, really. but none of them were interested in me this laozabo standin up there. i just felt my old domineerin self rise up in me again when i saw how they dealt with everythg, n i really cldnt resist being nosey. im sorry! maybe its the green, *shrugs*
okay so let me complain for a while.
i stepped into tk n i saw the circular lawn. it was so unkempt! the grass was long n u cld see all the weeds. n we, old girls, had to get visitors' pass. WTH. hey im on MY territory n i haf to get passes to walk arnd. honestly, im nt an intruder lah, this was once my plc too, u really didnt haf to treat us lk strangers n trespassers. BAH. yah cool, spend money on renovatin the general office n forget bout the welfare of sch.
ok im done now its time for me to slp.
i keep pesterin gabriel about carollin stuff i tink he's gettin irritated. but hey i cant help it.. i haf to rite? hee ;)
n i still feel bad bout mary. ;(

i am snow white.

for a very long time i sat before my com, thinkin of what i want to write, or rather, how shd i go about talkin bout this.

lets just say im happy i talked to kiat n owen today on my way home. i really am! besides the fact that they were giving me crappy ideas on how to waste time durin carollin (idea no. 1: have carolin/standup comedy. get a crappy emcee to talk bout the songs to fill up long intervals. idea no.2:get a conveyor belt of conductors, n take ur time to change conductor after every song.) i think they just heightened my spirits bout carolin. i dont care if they're bluffing me.. actually i do but hey its the thot that counts!
they tried to bluff me that we were going to watch movie n i nearly stepped up the escalator. okay, i did, then i sorta ran down before it took me up. evil peoplee. n they kept feeding me with lies. after a while i got really confused. pfft.

just wrote an email to rach, just felt lk writin one. miss her. n rosh n nab.

hey okay. ive decided. im going to make toffee apples WITH GRACIA as xmas pres for choir peeps. n if u decide to visit me on xmas day pls let me noe ill make one for u too! i dont care if snow white died of a poisonous apple my toffee apple is gonna be deliciouss yumyum lick lips. get the idea? haha. u better be droolin..
i havent thot of writing xmas cards. usually im quite efficient about this, but this yr i dont haf the urge. im sorry my dearest friends.

popcorn in 12 flavours. sounds gd ;)
ohoh i took neoprints today. my eyes looked big muahah. must be the eyeliner whee eyeliner rox.

th'angel to the virgin said

felt lk i havent been online for ages. but actually mich reminded me that my last entry was just thursday. ;) had two weeks of choir(almost everyday, until late night) it was driving me abit nuts. i need my slp! i still do. i sleep wherever i can. n im nt so addicted to bridge now, after playin with gracia's dirty cards which totally stinks. gracia better provide gloves with her cards for the next game. haha.

had performance with sco n vc for christmas concert today. we were looking at all the vc guys going crazy singin the girls' part for carolin, n gracia was commentin thats how our guys will look lk ten yrs down the road. then i commented i wld much rather they be sittin down playin bridge.. heh. ;)

anw i haf some hair follicle infection n it was achin quite badly yesterday. much better now, but i still cant believe ive got hair follicle infection. sounds too.. funny to be true.

ho ho ho merry christmas n gong xi fa cai!
i need my slp see i told u.

its my LIFE!!!

haha call me silly but i got all excited when i saw sly real life again. he looked so good! haha. okay yes there were taufik's eyelashes as well but hey, sly looks good k! anw my toes r aching, my back is achin, my hair is wet (i had to wash them twice to get all the spray off) n i haf 12 hair clips from jeanyip which they had used to pin my hair. HOWCOOLISTHAT.

i haf sly's autograph oh my mediacorp pass. i haf his badge which they gave out durin the concert. i haf his poster frm lime. im mad.

haha. i didnt even give a shit bout the other idols. nt even when chrissypoo came over n all the girls were lk ' AHH can i get ur autograph?' i was rollin my eyes. heh. hey he's a big flirt! i dont lk big flirts. he'll just come up to u n talk to u. he thinks his charm can rub off me but NOO i wont let that happen.
although my boyfriend shd be able to serenade me with that kind of voice wahaha.

the choir ppl were mobbin the idols n askin them for autographs n pictures since we share the same makeup room n we meet them backstage n all.

am really happy. although they pulled my hair back n give me orange lipstick, its okay. was as good as being in the concert ;)