"rise up"

i hate it when greys makes me cry.
cos its about death and not being able to let go; old people who love each other to the ends of the world, and then the eventual reality where one part of you dies and you have no control over it;
or old pasts that creep up on you when it is least expected and you are put in a situation where you have to look at it in the face (there is not much of a choice); and face it, so you can move on, go on with life.
(although i think people never truly move on. its all a myth to make everyone feel better about themselves. i think people simply make do with what they have, at this very moment)

and theres denny duquette, that strong alpha scent of a man. he has that sad, warm look in his eyes and ah i just cant get enough.
then they crack you up with sloan and everything seems better;)

the emotional becoming of teojiayun begins with greys, and ends with, hopefully, something less fictional. ;)

meanwhile, im lusting again. for that shiny diamond on the dot of oui.