objects of desire

1. georgie (but only in one fine day)
2. hugh jackman (any form, human or wolf, unshaven or clean)
3. a love as pure and innocent like ponyo (and parents like that too!) ;)

christmas came and went, and i really miss singing. i sang a bit again today at the vc post-xmas party, and i realised that ive gotten more of my voice back. it just felt very nice to be singing out loud. i dream about singing again in a choir, but that'd have to wait till i get back from london i guess.

ive been getting plenty of the singapore sun nowadays, which is a good thing cos it makes me think and wonder alot of things. life in london seems like such a faraway thing, and ive been thinking alot about my future since i got back. its like im trying to picture how my life will be when i come back next july. my new year resolution: to figure out what i want to do with my life. ;)

in the meantime- pray the weather's good in taipei! ;)

"you got me feeling like a child now"

so ive been back for a while now, but it feels like forever;)

ive done the two most important things that i want to do for this trip back, which is: cheryl's birthday party (again, i know;) and nabila's wedding. i wish i could have stayed longer for cheryl's party;)

im really happy for nabila, seeing how shes found happiness and peace. im happy as a friend whos shared many lovely memories together in school, and having seen her go through all those years back in secondary school; then the growing-up years after, where we all became our own persons; yet even when we grew into such different persons, breakfast at east coast park macs still remained our meeting point for updates/catchups/gossiping/interrogations:). at the solemnization ceremony, i kept tearing and had to really stop myself from crying. i think if rosh or rach had been there i would have, since it would feel like at least someone else knows how im feeling, but they werent (im sorry you guys couldnt make it ;( but i know somewhere halfway across the globe, they were feeling the same emotions as i was- wishing our friend will stay happy always, and that her new husband will treat her well (and she the same to him); and that they will forever remain in bliss, and find joy in each other's company.
and may breakfast at ecp macs happen soon;)

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strangely this year i dont feel too christmasy. ive always loved the christmas period, with the festive mood and happy people all around. maybe thats cos i havent been to town (not properly at least, today didnt count!); or that im not really involved in carolling(although we had a brief encounter with njalum today). somehow im more excited about chinese new year. BAK KWA! hee.

ah, i dont think im going to lose any weight this time round. hello LA fitness.

eyes wide open

so, my bags are packed, my hair is all pinned up, and my nose isnt dripping that badly anymore. last night was simply terrible- i couldnt get to sleep until it was well over 6am. i sincerely dont mean to spread germs around on the plane; dont think anyone likes to sit next to a sniffer for 14hours. but oh wells may is stuck with me!

wow. im going home! :)

why beyonce, why?

i just heard it on the radio. why does beyonce wants to be a boy? when she has those curves, the pout, and oh the hair. it disturbs me greatly. why beyonce why!
i hate the song. more than womanizer (which actually grows on you in an imbritneyspearsandimfantastic way)

i really should get back to mini essay;(

oh and, HELLO SISTER-BACK-IN-SG.
3 more days!

all you need is love(r)

apparently now i sound like janice from friends. *a hah ah ha ha*

so i feel like i havent been home for quite sometime now, but its been fun celebrating lover's 21st. ;) watching her get drunk at retrophilia, letting jerald buy me a drink (only to give it to tan later hee), dancing till the very last song, and dying in my heels (which gang wanted to water. "to nurture the flowers!")
then the next day the real surprise came-made her get out of bed and pack, spa at london marriott hotel (very much needed), dinner at assa, and then we went home too early but tan was really nice- surprised lover with her huge ass present (which she simply adored) and all the lovely people who shared, drinks after where thong and junkai were ordering sissy drinks(but everyone was still nursing the drinks from night before).

best moment for me was after we gave her the present and we were waiting around for things to happen. lover had carried the mixer to the kitchen and when i walked into the kitchen she was hugging the mixer ;)

apparently now mr ken is going to usurp my position as a lover, but of course a mixer can only do so much, so i dont feel very threatened.

well to top off everything thats been wonderful, the day lover flew off i met with a new friend for lunch and to discuss logic coursework, and shes just so much fun to be with and im so glad i sat next to her in class that day. and then now im meeting jess for shoppingggg;)
and its sunny in london today.

:)

teeheehee

(i think im in love with the jonas brothers)

i really cant wait ;)

okay so i have a box full of letters and random stuff that i get from all you lovely people (i found my vaio recovery disk!); and i was moving stuff around so i opened it and i got reminded of all the things i had nearly forgotten about ie. i found a diary i kept last year! erm, i had honestly forgotten about it, and it shows cos i only wrote for about ten pages and then the rest of the book is blank. see, i warned you guys about my horrible memory!

so in the stash, and among my diary, i found: eug's cd, ah the lovely cover. you know what they say about people who makes you mix-tapes! (they really are in love with you) and just when i was thinking about whether eug wrote any new songs!; hahaha bock's song hahah;the 21st love puzzle i got from my silly girls :); erm a whole stack of 'new' christmas cards. i have a bad habit of getting too excited and buying all the pretty cards and then running out of people to write for; tons of letters from my dearest mummy ;) ; my sister's musical 'the goodbye girl!'; haha this random note i saw from bing, which she wrote upside down on the envelope and theres this little 'oops' note at the bottom of the envelope haha. now i really miss her. (girl stop playing around in sf!); all the christmas cards we exchanged last year at prelude, and now i really miss the times last year, doing all those stuff; lots of random 'if you think you're hot then this is for you' cards- and how i used to call ian my bff; apparently in my diary i wrote that i have a yellow polka dotted dress. which i dont remember having! major wardrobe clearance when i get backk; a whole new set of colour pencils, coloured paper, and envelopes; and how i was so in love. ;) they were good times.

so im sorting out my life for the next two weeks in my organiser, but all i can think of is the first thing im going do when i touch down ;) its a tie between prata at simpang and meehoonkuey at the old coffee shop!

what have i been up to:

1. procrastinating on my jurisprudence essay, big time. i just cant seem to choose between dworkin or hart. ah the lesser of two evils.
2. painting my nails :D
3. going for free hair treatment and blow dry at trevor sorbie, again. im becoming their resident hair model!
4. going school religiously. i actually sat next to jerald twice cos i go sch so early nowadays
5. GYM'ing. yes, LA fitness has become my gym. well, at least until my free passes run out, which is this friday. im not very good though, i give up after a while but at least i make it through a good whole hour! (albeit with breaks in between). and to be honest some of the machines still scare me ie. the cross trainer/step machine/those things with weights. guess id be sticking to my treadmill.

and i know this is really early, but i already bought my christmas cards :) yes im one of those irritating people who get into the festive mood really early, but hey the cards were adorable and i reallyreallyreally cant wait to see everybody back in singapore ;)

arghh

ah okay so im still trying to work out a system to sync my work folders from my big computer to my small laptop. and idiot me overwrote the notes i wrote on my smalley. argh! so i have like half notes now and im very irritated :(

all in a weekend

SO- i went to Brussels on saturday, ah the wonders of eurostar trains. so voila!, in two hours we were in Belgium. okay, so cher and i arent the best street navigators, and i think the tourist map we were given is rather dubious because the 'shopping street' was as empty as any other street that we were at, but at least we got to eat good food;) the street stalls around the st catherine church was really good: we mistakenly ordered raw oysters instead of raw mussels (shame on us level2 frenchers) but hello hello it was good! damn borough market you cheat our money. then we walked around and got lost and went back for another bowl of soupe poisson, which was just what we needed to warm our bodies.
belgium waffles do live up to their name;) it was chewy! well okay so technically we didnt have the real one but what the heck it was so delicious i didnt care if choc sauce was all over my gloves (and face).
well i got to see the EU side of brussels, the schumann part was quite pretty,and disappointingly there werent any lobbyists.
it snowed quite heavily the whole day, and cher's hands were too cold to hold the umbrella so i had to do it, but i kept poking her eyes/head/cheek/nose, and the umbrella kept collecting snow so it was very heavy to actually hold it high enough for her. damn you all tall people.
there were more english people than locals out on the streets. the locals were surprisingly really nice and friendly whenever we ask for directions (which happened erm quite a few times)
and then of course we went to the supermarket and wiped out the entire shelf of maple syrup waffles. i bought one pack for all my favourite people :D so if you get one you're loved by me. its quite crazy though i have to wait for like 3 weeks till singapore before i give any of them away so i hope i dont actually eat any of them before i go home :)
towards the end we camped at this place called le grande cafe; and we sat there for ages (not realising it was that long- 2.5hours!) but the food was good, we both had beers (hee) and i was quite proud of myself until i looked at the alcoholic content and it said 2.9%. well alright there how did the waitress know i dont drink!

THEN- sunday was shopping spree at bicester village. yes, spree- the word both evil and indulgently satisfying. i will (and shall) never understand the allure of versace/ugly luxury fashion brands. but nonetheless i bought quite a few things and did my christmas shopping. lets just say i cant wait for it to rain in london (so i can use my new brolly)!

headlines

the guardian, "barack obama arrives at the white house for meeting with george bush" but channel NewsAsia had to go with "Obama makes triumphant white house visit"
asians.

in other news, both my favourite people (rosh and cher) are back! got a call from rosh yay and cher showed me her battle scars (and vege soup, very dubious). ;)

jonny was very friendly today at the library, and it just makes me wonder why im so surprised at people's friendliness. maybe ive been conditioned into a city alien, hm.

"rise up"

i hate it when greys makes me cry.
cos its about death and not being able to let go; old people who love each other to the ends of the world, and then the eventual reality where one part of you dies and you have no control over it;
or old pasts that creep up on you when it is least expected and you are put in a situation where you have to look at it in the face (there is not much of a choice); and face it, so you can move on, go on with life.
(although i think people never truly move on. its all a myth to make everyone feel better about themselves. i think people simply make do with what they have, at this very moment)

and theres denny duquette, that strong alpha scent of a man. he has that sad, warm look in his eyes and ah i just cant get enough.
then they crack you up with sloan and everything seems better;)

the emotional becoming of teojiayun begins with greys, and ends with, hopefully, something less fictional. ;)

meanwhile, im lusting again. for that shiny diamond on the dot of oui.

ive come halfway

i watched woman in black last night, and it totally freaked me out. i was clutching my poor little bottle of pringles and my coat close to my chest, huddled up in one small ball hoping that she wont appear again. and yes you will scream too when they build the suspense up like that. even when i was relating the story to cher in dirty martini over all the music i got goosebumps just thinking about the story.
but thank god for the drunkards and good ol dancing after that.

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this tickles me, alot. and the best thing is that i see it everyday on my way back home from school. and hearing jess say 'i installed the mother of all broadband!' was really funny too. ah what do i do without my lovely friends ;)
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id have you say hi to my new asus baby when it comes. i finally bought it cos i saw wanjun's and then i read an article on guardian saying that retail prices here are going to increase by 15% so accommodate the low pound/euro. SO good time to buy before prices go up. besides, bringing my laptop to sch is really a pain. of course now that conversion is so low it was really quite cheap.

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this weekend will be all work and no play, with my lover (no shawn im not going to stop calling her that!) away in bristol to cut trees (i wish her good weather) and tons of work piling up. ah the life of a student.

hello mister president

sometime early this morning i heard may totter out of her room and asked lulu about the results of the us elections. but i was too tired to get out of bed yet.
so the first thing i did when i woke up was to check the news. and there it is- barack obama, the new president of the united states.

the music video that caleb showed me still rings in my head, as does his speech in new hampshire primary after he lost, where 'yes we can' caught on. but since then ive been slightly wary of him winning, simply because of the overly positive reviews about him on the news (and the corresponding disapppointing news on mccain and his incredible palin); and also the zealously enthusiastic responses from (frivilous) young people, whom, i thought, were simply doing it cos it was the popular thing to do.

yet i cannot help but feel excited as i watched his victory speech on bbc; my goosebumps in his first few opening lines '.. tonight is your answer' ; his ease, his cool factor (as Time put it) and his charm; the way he smiles when he thanks michelle; and the very fact that the time has come, where we have come full circle of what martin luthur king has tried to achieve. and having read his biography earlier this year i cannot help but marvel at the way history has played out- all the bloodshed of the civil rights movement, rosa parks, the selma to montogmery march, and the very essence of the spirit of being an american, where everything is possible.

so i'm glad barack obama won. i cannot wait to see what he can do.

although it seems like he has already done so much.

'with three words that will ring from coast to coast, from sea, to shining sea- yes we can'

your gorgeousness.

okay so i spent the whole night before wishing it would rain and googling erm gastonbury pictures ;) we planned the day trip to bath way before but i was pretty tired from all the halloween-ing. we managed to wake up in time though (not before i gave my lover five calls, one of which she hung up on me and she claims she had no recollection of the missed calls and the one hang up) and caught a train down to bath.

so yes thats me, wearing my beloved wellingtons from joules :D (fyi its from the kids section) and i totally love it. ive had varied reactions about it (lulu: WHATS THAT! - to - lover's omg its so adorable!) but of course ive been wanting one for the longest time and it was raining in london the other day (as always) ;) well. whenever it rains i shall thank wellies for my dry feet.

i was really having fun spotting puddles and splashing around in them, although at the first puddle i was probably too enthusiastic and made too big a splash. lover kept running away in disgust with all the splashing about so she wasnt very entertained, but i clearly was ;)

the rolling hills; the numerous 'shaun the sheep'; sally lunn's buns (cinnamon butter and clotted cream, ah heavenly godly food); fudge factory (was licking my fudge while watching quantum of solace); and yes, i watched bond, and i didnt fall asleep this time!; and very friendly people who smiled all the time; and cheeky rascals who when asked for directions to the cinema says 'if you let me go in with you id tell you where!'



such a beautiful place;)

sniffles

i think i kinda like the feeling of being drugged- the paracetemol laced in your breath, drug-filled brain and wooziness all around. and then of course, the afternoon nap that you didnt know you took, but eventually takes up the whole of your day and then you slowly wake up feeling cold (damn the cold feet) and hungry, and you realised its quite dark already; after which you go make yourself some crappy dinner and then you go straight back to bed (not before some guy calls to offer you three issues of marie claire magazine for 1 pound, sigh) cos thats all the energy you have. i dont know how other people do it- blocked nose and muscle aches and all and stilll out there, fighting the cold and going about life as though the cold has no effect on them. i guess i am just weaker than i would love to be; or as jon always say, 'lazy lazy lazy!'

thanks though to my lover for the lemsip and good 'ol trashy fashion mag;) ah she knows me so well.
(lover truimphs all)

may the nasty cough never descend upon me!

happy diwali!

and this is how my diwali day went:

9am: decides not to go for make up medical class. sorry stuart andrews!
11am: michael wilkinson is doing jurisprudence! i really think he's a nice guy but i just dont get him when he lectures. rachel and i debated whether he's lost or gained weight.
12noon: goes for jurisprudence class. i teach my bbc friend another hokkien swear word.
12.01pm: nose works come on and valerie keeps looking over, oops.
12.58pm: my handphone rings in class, and my tutor concludes he's gone over time. ;)
1pm: get my hairdryer back from jessica, finally, but my ears were so blocked i couldnt really hear what she was saying...
1.30pm: i finally make my way over to meet jon to discuss about trial moot. no rooms in the library are available (fully booked til 5pm) sooo we make our way to the new academic building's new cafe.
1.45pm: we realise we cannot find a good argument for one point.
2pm: he makes his way to his class, and while walking he notices my new hair colour! yay
2.10pm: tries to find a free computer in the library, to no avail. make myself comfortable in one of the table facing the wall downstairs.
2.30pm: my ipod dies after singing its last breath on Ingrid Michaelson's Far Away. as soon as i put down my earphone, this old lady beind me says 'oh please go get a handkerchief, the sniffing is so annoying!'
2.31pm: i recover from my shock and apologise.
3.15pm: i stayed at my spot longer than i intended to, and in defiance sniffed loudly before i left. TWICE.
3.17pm: cannot find a free computer. panic, because i have to send an email before lecture.
3.20pm: spotted: two girls abusing the quick access computer policy by hogging the com spots to study. i go over and ask to use the computer. i stand and try to finish using the computer as fast as i can, while half debating whether to tell them to go find their own study spots.
3.30pm: ivan spots me and borrows copy card from me.
3.40pm: still stuck at the com, not going well and i figured i cant finish before lecture starts. sends email promising to attach the full authorities tonight.
3.45pm: hand towel thing in toilet is stuck.
4pm: medical law lecture. didnt have the notes cos i didnt go for class, so i simply sat and listened.
4.02pm: sees the essay questions,panicked a little when i didnt understand two of the questions; then realised i was being silly because we have not done those two yet.
4.25pm: finished my can of coke ;(
4.55pm: jay comes over and tells me how she loves my clothes. weekly ego booster;)
5pm: public international law lecture. spotted: tristan lookalike, again!
5.55pm: my bottle of sparkling water erupted all over me and my books. brilliant.
6.05pm: starts to drizzle a bit when i walk home, we tease judy about her saliva.
6.20pm: meets cheryl for groceries, and as soon as i walk out of my house it starts to pour.
6.21pm: it hailed. ! in oct. !
8pm: we spend way too long in waitrose and i end up with snacks. and also lots of fruits to balance it up.
8.20pm: i have oven baked fish and chips, which cheers me up a little, sigh.
10.13pm: finished dinner, sent email, and my lover is making me jealous.

and now i will go have an early night.

edit:
10.20pm: ITS SNOWING!

barely midterm yet

and im sick, again, but this time im actually going for makeup classes tomorrow, which says alot;) i might have been going out too much, but hey roshni was down for the weekend and i really enjoyed the indian company that one saturday afternoon. honestly ive always had friends from all races and colours but it was my first time spending so much time with a whole group of indian people who kept cracking indian jokes in that really funny indian accent;) ah goodness gracious me!

my ingrid michaelson cd came, finally, and im a happy girl. i want a mr lobster man too!

cheryl's house has turned from a poker house into a gaming house, with the new purchase of a ps3. they bought one game after another, and so this morning i forwarded ian the hmv newsletter which said grandtheft is on discount. and mr hopeless said they didnt want to get too addicted but oh they've been playing the whole morning.
which reminds me- i should go dig out my ds lite ;)

laughs

joke of the day (yest):
shop assistant: hey you look like an american
eddie: !!?

and my (not too fantastic) logic tutor reminds me of wilson from house.

before and after

before and after

okay you cant really see the gradiented cut of my 'after' shot (i tried my very best to photograph that in) but hey. cheryl is a damn good hairstylist (with lotsa patience, i think ma knows what a fussy girl i am with my haircuts) and the best thing is that she did it all with her nail scisscors. yes the tiny scisscors you cut your nails with. i kept asking her if her fingers are cramping and she said no.

so there! im bringing overseas student scrimping habits to a new level.

funny thing is how people dont notice that ive cut my hair though. its quite short now compared to what it was before! tan is the best. asked him whats different about me, and he stared at me for damn long before asking 'erm, something with the hair?'

rushing off to meet eddie now, after going out for three consecutive days (funny thing was i couldnt recall what exactly ive been doing at supper last night to shangjun) but hey its been fun not doing my readings, yet, which i will get to tonight. i will!