pods with twix

just reached home nt long ago frm suntec. the others went to watch war of the worlds. well. scientology is no gd. uh huh. nt gonna give money to cruise for tt. anw. dragged eug to go shoppin ;) n i bought a pair of jeans! frm ozoc. just lk tt. okay yes i feel quite bad but its a nice blingbling jeans. n i shall nt reveal teh price here, must think of the health of my readers n nt give them a shock. all i can say is, im definitely nt gonna buy anythg much at tmr's flea market shopping!

i thot i wld feel really liberated after the paper, but somehow it just weighs heavier. haha i guess its just me thinkin tt i can do better. ;)

im popping pods! its nice. it even taste lk twix. lovely sister who bought it. anw she was taking forever to finish one box n start on the other one (its MARS!) so im just helping her wad. n helping her spread her fats onto me. see im sooo nice.

oh n i think i poisoned my classmates today with lollipops from disneyland. apparently it tasted really bad. i feel really bad bout tt! ha. im so sorry k, but its all bock's fault. he was the one who wanted mickey lollipops. so u see, disnelyland is a fraud. they sell lousy lollies.

i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world..
all i need is a good disguise
one where nobody can recognise
all i need is a secret weapon
i've goota have faith
zapping monsters into outer space
im goona be a Superhero:)

embrace my fragility, you keep me safe in the crazy world

haha yay im hooked on the new corrinne may cd. my sis bought it for me ;)
and haha. econs papers took sooo long to finish. but im glad it did.
although i cant say im really optimistic bout my results this time round. but oh wells will work hard ;)
at least i didnt do two essay qns hahah. or think i needed to do two. really ah, the two boys behind..

chalet's tmr! i just hope i wont fall asleep ;)

n no im nt watchin war of the worlds unless i really haf to. im nt helpin cruise spread scientology. boo.
haha no lah. aliens just dont appeal to me. rather save up tt money and go do some SERIOUS shopping. u noe how it pains me to see my sis visit the mango sale four times in three days??? there. ive said it. ;p haha but its okay long wkend ahead.

okay back to chemistry bye guys.

acquire new skills

hey u learn smthg new everyday dont u. i learnt how to write my own stories for bio today. which i tink was really quite cool. haha
n why stop at one if uve alr started rite? ;) tmr's econs, perfect for writing ur own stories too. woohoo.
rocking.

sch again! ;)

haha okay. actually its exams in disguise but hey, school is always good to have isnt it. anyway it was good seeing all my girlfriends again, n we really kept laughing throughout the whole morning before the paper started. well then after that it was quite a different story. ;) anyways papers will always be papers. but i had fun writing my essay today. isnt it cool to write an essay u noe is a trick qn? but i was too lazy to change topic. heh. in fact it was quite amazing we all managed to finish our gp papers, considering that we all used to take 3 hrs just to write one essay.

and i saw the choir girls again! lk after so long.. ;) may looked really really excited to hug me, i couldnt have asked for more. HM. so much for my enthusiasm. n i kept calling gracia. haha. until she ran away frm me ;(

oh n smthg quite funny happened in the morn. i was slinging on my sling bag and it kinda overshot my small shoulders and dropped to the floor.
so embarrassing.

cheese omelette

wanted to give myself a treat this morning when i woke up cos no one was gonna fix breakfast or anythg for me. so i cooked maggie mee and tried to make cheese omelette. at the same time. it was only half a packet of maggie mee so i ended up pouring the whole seasoning in and it was quite salty.. hm. msg overload. then i turned the omelette over, the cheese side? yeah. n it got stuck to the pan n i spent quite some time scrubbing it off.
now we all know how to make cheese omelettes without having to do extra work, yes?
other than that it was quite a nice breakfast. although i probably could do with less kitchen time. ;)
i still need practice huh. haha.
the nxt time its breakfast everyone's gettin cheese omelettes from me! HA.

rainy weather n everythg nice

i love rainy weather. in singapore. u can sit n eat chocs n you wont feel bad about it ;) wonderful.
have been snacking since i woke up. heh.
n u noe wad? i tink im still having jetlag. if i go for afternoon naps ill just sleep the whole afternoon through until its time for dinner. its that bad..

taking a break off studying, and reading my 23 emails in my inbox. n the reflections we all handed in for our sv trip and the results.

oh u guys noe wad mr chew's first name is rite? :) try saying it. when we first heard ms lian calling him, we were all momentarily stunned. then we nearly puked. hahah.

okay. im just gonna study all i can. n go for exams. then play at chalet. then im gonna start serious studying. ;) whee. i love my life.

dream. dare. dive.

that was the theme for my silicon valley adventure trip. before we went there we spent alot of time together preparing for the trip, and it was really quite interesting bcos this before this whole trip we're just a bunch of strangers. so it was really cool to have made more frens n known more ppl on this trip. ;)

i really felt quite inspired whenever we visited someplace new. now that im back, i tell ppl i had a great time but i cant really find the words to explain why. i guess its just the change of environment n you get to see how the difference in culture n people contributes to the success of many companies in silicon valley and in USA. theres smthg open n friendly in the american culture that u'll nv find in singapore. maybe its the people here, maybe its the asian culture. maybe its even the govt. but theres definitely this inertia that you experience here in singapore, that smthg that keeps ppl from accelerating towards excellence or to try out new stuff. for one, in silicon valley, failure is a credit. in singpaore ppl are very concerned bout doing things right.

we were constantly hosted by people who are complete strangers to us, and probably there was this feeling of gratitude towards them that made me feel so happy n warm over there. it was really great bcos there we were gettin to visit big companies lk google apple and intel, and gettin to meet the nus overseas students, and this non profit organisatin called Dalencey street(which i felt most inspired by) and the california college of arts (which was apparently one of the ivy leagues of private art schs in SF)

now that im back all i wan is to get over my exams first ;) then ill talk more bout it hahah. or think more bout wad i experienced over there.
oh n i slept in the bed crack for half the nights over there. the other half, i got the whole bed to myself ;)
n the first night we didnt noe how to turn the shower on so poor us had to use use the bathtub's tap to bathe. ;(
i had red eyes on the first two days, n diarrhoea on the second day there.
on the fifth day or so i was alr running low on cash. so didnt get to spend at factory outlets or disneyland boooooo.
haha. ;)
n i got the 'ms floppy disk award'. ahhah. the tchers made sure everyone had an award ;) u see before we go we had to do a presentatin n i saved mine in a floppy disk. turned out my tcher's laptop had no floppy disk drive so we spent quite some time changing coms n all. then at apple the guy was saying how advanced they were n wad foresight they had when they decided nt to include floppy disk drives in their laptops anymore. n some ppl who rem that incident turned to look at me.. so yes, okay. i noe im outdated.


yup okay. four days to study. its okay im tryin to convince myself that common tests are nthg.. :)
chalet!

leavin on a jetplane ;)

alright okay im almost done. just thinking whether to pack extra clothes cos my mum was lk 'bring more bottoms!' n im lk 'no i wanna travel light!'. anw, hey, i have enough tops. dont worry MUM. ;) and this time im bringin the really small suitcase beams:) ha. no more big suitcases to carry! anw i dont have that much money to shop AHEM.

was quite excited until i thot of the fact that i havent packed my notes inside. wheee.

haha ;)

ive been tryin to do maths the whole day. alright. half the day. n note the word 'trying'. hai why is maths so forgettable.

alright. see u guys in ten days ;)

silly boo-boos :)

happy birthday rosh! purposely bought the sketchbook so u can doodle in it. ;)
im rachel's silly boo-boo! ahha. yay. actually she was just gushing over this guy in my sch who is so not cute if you get to know him, so i just went 'but he's such a silly boo-boo!'. so yup. now shes calling me that. oh i dont care. RACHEL! muacks. haha.
the beach has become our gathering plc every yr. and the same spot. and i still need to be reminded how to get there after going there for four years for cross country in tk, and the subsequent gathering after that. man, im really good with directions ;)
was feelin a little ditzy in my skirt, dunno why.
anw haha. every yr theres a guy at our gathering. so nxt yr, is kinda lk, my turn. ahha oh wells. im still waiting for prince charming to drop from the sky! which isnt going to happen so im just waiting. ;)

lunch was interesting. we celebrated mr chew's bdae ;) which was nice and really cheap. haha.

cant wait for sv trip.
;)

grr.

was feeling alot of emotions just now and i thought i shd just let it all out here instead of keep thinking about it.
loving someone doesnt mean you can make use of her and then dump her after uve ruined her. thats in my sense.
the amount of, oh man, hate, that i felt towards you when i heard the news.
its just not right. its unfair. but its not up to me, nt up to anyone, cos it was her life, and it still is, so we cant do anythg about it except to give her support.

So if you're telling me to tell my best friend to go for some guy whom i have a really bad impression of (not bcos of others telling me bad stuff, but bcos of she herself telling me wad a bastard he is), well you cant expect me to not do anything. although i think ive done enough unhelpful stuff. neither can you tell me that nothing i do can make her change her mind bcos love is blind, blah. nor can YOU say that you dont care what your friends think bcos you're not the kind to get swayed by your friends opinions if you really like this guy.

bullshite.

sleepovers

haha im addicted to luxury i think. ;) spa is supposed to relax you.. but i tink it has quite a sedating effect. maybe its just me. ahh i like bubbles. blob blob.

anw i dont tink ive ever felt this bloated before. but yeah, aircon+food+bed dont make a very good combination. i still feel like im nt back yet. but haha, we had fun ;) winkwink nudgenudge.

BIG HUG!

dempsey hut

sneeze. sniff. shudder. ;(

went out for great dinner. this small little place tucked away in the green wilderness near botanic gardens. it just rained, so it felt pretty cool there. the food was really quite nice. my chicken chop was great! i just love pepper.. ;) just mask everythg away with pepper. the whipped potato was gd too, until i tasted the cheese in it and i got quite sick of it. just like wad 7-11 did to their fantastic instant whipped potato (bah!).
durin the dinner my mum was askin me to look at these two boys sitting behind me. i was lk 'got boys in my sch ask me look at boys here.' then i concluded hey, boys in my sch arent worth lookin at much too. then i started tellin her bout wad those scums did on fri tt made rai quite angry. Then my wonderful dad went 'eh jiayun, watch me!' and he did the 'look-i-can-touch-the-flame-but-no-pain' thing. n when he was done he had that goofy prideful grin. my mum started laughin and i was lk 'DAD ur no different from those scums!'
Gosh. boyss.

after dinner my mum had a great idea to go bedok to go look for shoes n toiletries for my sv trip. saw the shoe i wanted to buy long ago! had a gd mind to buy both colours :) but both were the last pair and one size bigger so we decided to go look at the other bata stores my mum claimed there was in bedok. when we came back the pink one was gone. GONE. hai. so i bought the white one, n i even had to wash it when i came back. but nvm. im satisfied. :)

go study peeps!

yo vjc.

went for quite a bit of finals yesterday and today :)
the only time ill ever be interested soccer is when vj plays. n i get to watch it live.
at least i got to laugh at that mj boy who was dancing arnd the ball until he fell. HA. ;)
hockey girls played well ;) made me wonder whyyy didnt i go join a sports cca n make my life more interesting, even though i might just be bench warmer.
hockey boys were pretty gd today i thot. put up quite a gd fight, esp in first half. that'll teach mr seet to nt coach them lah. pfft. given their self coach status, im really happy they got this far. ;) well done!

vj cant get far without the girls. :)

hello all my darlings

how am i copin with sch now, u may ask.

wad sch? haha. ;) my principal's pretty bent on giving us half days and day offs, so i dont think ill be gettin much school this wk. but that doesnt stop the A's from coming.

i realised i havent even uploaded sov pics! ahha. champion.

after the horrible terrifyin news that apple doesnt support yellow socks, ive had to think of ways to keep my ipod nice and warm. brought to sch today and voila, got quite a few scratches alr. but its okay. i figured those tissue packs can actually store it quite nicely. ive got a polka dotted one albeit old. ;)

was listenin to adibah's mp3 today and started singing like some drunkard while some of my junior class ppl were in the class. haha. so fun. ;)

post sov

sov was great. sopsies rock. i have the recording on my md if anyone wants to hear.. my mum had quite gd seats :)

i guess i felt relief more than anythg after the concert. i know the girls were pretty upset and they controlled themselves very well on stage ;) the only two times i felt warm n fuzzy on stage was.. haha. teresa teng medley. i realised how much gab actually contributed to the choir, like he wrote the ending and all. how the concert would have been empty if we the musico didnt put in the effort. how the concert was going to end and all our efforts for the past half yr, its just gonna be over, just like that.
n the next was when the seniors came on stage. i realised how great it was that the victorian spirit still lives on, as long as the song isnt forgotten by the new members.
;)

listened to bing's cd yesterday and read all the notes in the box again. my player's always on shuffle and the first song that came on was Taufik's 'I Dream'. was pleasantly surprised and i felt.. hey we really share alot together. throughout the whole cd i felt as if i went on this emotional rollercoaster. a love that will last, hakunamatata :), osjusti, n the song we sang for sdd. ahha. i felt old and weary, and really sadddened by the fact that there is no more reason for me to stay back in sch 3 times a wk until the sun goes down, being crazy with those fantastic girls.
am so thankful for the friendship. maybe im slow in these emotional stuff :) but yeah. now is my turn to cry!
love u all!

apples!

my dad got me an ipod ;) and its free :) whee :) cant wait to get a yellow casing or smthg. yay now i hve a reason to buy more cds. ;) support originals.

come see me look lk taitai. 17th May 2005 :) esplanade 730.

a love that will last

thanks to shawnyy for sendin me the song. hahah. ok jaz dont kill me i just do that to irritate him.

today when we were singin yeru i suddenly thought of the movie 'tha pianist'. i think those who've watched it before would agree with me that is a very powerful film. watching it once is enough for me. i can still rem the germans throwing that old crippled man over the window just like tt. ahh.

what is love.
how do u love someone you dont even know about?
or love someone even though u noe he's hurt you before, and he's a different man now than he was before, durin your 'happy times'.
its okay to cry, but was he there to share ur pain.

im nt that magnanimous. i just hope that my beloved frens would eventually make the decision that makes them happiest. ;)

I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

Say that you love
Say im the one
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama
My tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last

[Chorus]
I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I'll never leave you
So don't even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

So theres little more that i need
I wanna share all the air you breathe
I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

tadaa. my career choices.

after talkin to brandon today, i made a very important decision.

im NEVER, EVER, gonna be a teacher. i swear i could have just vomitted blood on my keyboard. hai. i guess i just dont haf the patience for it.

to be nice ppl, u guys shd all learn manners and how to reply to such negative words.
repeat after this:
"no jy, u rock! its nt u.. it prob was just brandon. really. ur a GREATT person! ur simply fabulous! whee!"

;)
haha. afterwhich i promptly told brandon i no longer wan to fren him., but he still owes me ten ribenas. yumyum.

n irvin dont try to trick me i noe wad velociraptor is. im not a dinosaur!

oh n for napfa. i tried singin sov songs. leo lasted me for two rounds. (two gd rounds) afterwhich i tried chimpara but i gave up coz i didnt noe the words.
after that. i kinda erm, walked. hahaha. but i still passed. so. yeah. phew.no more napfa. nope im nt whining bout pe, dont get me wrong. im just glad i went thru 15 mins of strenuous exercise.

osjusti

heh i have quite a bit of testssss comin up. pretty worrying since i dont think i really know that much yet. anw im still in the 'get choir over first' mood. so. :) heyy come for choir concert!

it really feels great to just get together and sing songs that we sang before. when i sang osjusti, oh man, hm. u just feel so enlightened. haha. the other songs were really just for fun. lk, i dont even noe if im singing my own part or the altos' for karimata. haha. i guess.. im really thankful for my batch. we've went thru alot together and had many great experiences together. let us end our choir erm days(haha) with a great concert!

when singin old songs, most of the time i was just jumpin arnd or tryin to dance abit. ahhaah. silly rayner saw me and tried to point me out to irvin.. but ha, i was fast. ;)

cant believe i still have napfa tmr.

and oh man there shd be a rule about guys whining. u wont believe singaporean guys nowadays. ask them to do smthg and they'll just whine lk girls. okay so maybe THIS is gender equality, not girls matching up to guys but guys matching up to girls. great, whee. go girl power.

syf. ;)

well i cant believe i actually sat around SCH in my gown and did nthg for goodness knows how many hours.

im actually happy that we got wad we wanted. i think it was the best of us already. honestly if u think about it, we always think we can do better but we never did.. and this is already quite gd lah. so ppl, lets rejoice ;)

gives ppl more reason to watch us. ;)
n hey, theres this syf perf concert where the better choirs and bands get to perform. esplanade. july smthg.
if u dont wan to go for two concerts.. just come for one! come for Symphony of voices ;) whee.

anw.
i just wan to be loved for who i am. wilful or nt, i am merely myself. its as simple as that.