COUNTONME

for the first time in two wks, im havin homecooked food. three cheers for me n my dad pls! ;) haha okay hm. maybe tts a sign for me to go learn cookin or smthg..

heh i still tell gracia i tink i kinda screwed up our duet by goin too fast. BUT otherwise it was quite okay lah. at least ppl still tell me they tink i sounded quite nice muaha.

finally, i can go back to being serious about work. yeah. woo.
now i gotta go memorise scores maybe. stupid victorian day.

oh n scholarship talk today was really wow, inspiring. note the sarcasm. i tink wad may says is true, goin for all these talks just makes me more confused than ever. wad do i really wan as my career? and everytime i think my promos arent too bad, i look at the overall results again and my ego gets quite deflated. i really shd start workin harder man.
first up we shd all get two econs teachers. one for backup when ueng goes away(forever n ever.)
or i shd just stop complainin bout the teachers. afterall my parents paid them to teach me. econs: inefficient usage of resources.
which then implies that theres this total waste of time called tutorials, during which i could be doin smthg more productive.

u see, i do learn smthg durin econs after all. hallelujah.

;)

sarah mclachlan - when she loved me

When Somebody Loves Me Everything Was Beautiful
Every Hour We Spent Together Lives Within My Heart
And When She Was Sad I Was There To Dry Her Tears
And When She Was Happy So Was I
When She Loved Me

Through The Summer And The Fall
We Had Each Other That Was All
Just She And I Together Like It Was Meant To Be

And When She Was Lonely I Was There To Comfort Her
And I Knew That She Loved Me

So The Days Went By I Stayed The Same
But She Began To Drift Away
I Was Left Alone
Still I Waited For The Day
When She'd Say "I Will Always Love You..."

Lonely and forgotten
Never thought she'd look my way
She smiled at me and held me just like she use to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When Somebody Loved Me Everything Was Beautiful
Every Hour We Spent Together Lives Within My Heart
When She Loved... Me...

oh. n jts today was fun. hai, my class simply rocks. ;)

i did it. ;)

haha yup. i got thru my solo. okay yes so i mumbled through my introduction and the whole pt went 'wad??' until janice had to say 'autumn leaves lah damnit' so loudly. ok so the mic was slippin lower and lower as i sang. ok so my leg was trembling (ha i cant control that.. ;D ) and yeah i cracked at a note but nt at my high notes ;) see im in choir for a reason.. ;) and im a sop sl for a reason too! anw i was scared silly before i went in the pt, which was after bio spa. im glad i had ppl there to encourage me, really. i wld have just died if no one cared about me..
So. im more happy that i had frens there for me when i performed, i really love u all! even my scumy class guys came.. i was so shocked to see them seated in the first row (of all places).
so yup. thankful for all my frens ;)

haha

im evil. ;) look at gracia's blog in case ur wondering.

anw she came over my hse to do musicfest. we finally chose a nice enough sing (yeah!) and it doesnt sound too bad.

nxt time gracia eats maggie mee with u, pls look closely at the way she eats her noodles. its damn ugly... she slurps up her noodles and chews it with all the noodles still hangin out of her mouth. i wish i had a camera.. then she eat all my famous amos cookies and we went into an argument on whether its choc chip on cookie or the other way round. coz u cant taste the cookie dough anyway whenever u eat cookies.. so it shd be the dough tts holdin the choc chips together rite.

haha anw it was fun havin her in my hse. and for ur info i havent done any hmwk the whole day :)

sex edu

we nearly bluffed janice n adibah that for small grp discussions we were supposed to tell the class bout sexual positions. they half believed us.. then they were kinda convinced when we really played along. UNTIL mrs lim came n asked us smthg lk 'so what have you discussed?' mann i was wavin my hands at janice not to say anythg and we just laughed lk mad. oh man. ;) im sorry sch is boring u need to spark it up man. hahaha.

sigh happy valentines

sent my sis off today. ppl kept askin me if im sad or nt, and i wld say 'i wont cry lah!' heh. and i didnt cry, although i really wanted to (theres this silly thg called 'jy's pride') but then again im tellin myself she's studyin over there. so.. its nt a bad thg. but i came home and saw her stuff all over the plc (she where got pack her stuff) and she wont be here to use them anymore. no one's gonna be touchin those piano books anymore, no one's gonna be usin tt wooden table in the study room, her clothes drawer will remain the same for a yr before she comes bck.. ohman. i just hope shes okay there. ;)

xin nian kuai le!

i haf choir prac on fourth day of lunar new year. hooray.

had xcountry yest. i was official. eug won a badminton racket. we were all screaming. ;) then we went out shoppin. oh man there were sales everywhere! and we were supposed to meet rai at pp but we were late, but while walkin to busstop we saw the big orchard esprit with the magic words 'up to 70% sale' and ahhaha we detoured and went shoppin and told rai we wld be late. then we told the boys we were makin ezlink card(just lk wad nic did durin class chalet bleahh) heh so we didnt haf to pick the yr ones up. which we did in the end(bloody scums) and went for bbq. ahha we didnt buy enough sausages i guess. played mahjong, i tink ppl help me play more than i play myself. had gd tiles in the beginning, but didnt win anymore after tt. junior class was fun.. ;) no wait correction. it was more fun bluffin them about who their angels are ahha. now they're all confused. hopefully.

the girls n three guys came my hse today to bai nian. heh it was hot and my hse didnt haf much to eat. and me n eug were nearly late for choir prac. i ran into the hall n looked arnd but i didtn see anyone i knew. haha i tink i looked lk a fool starin so hard at them(i THINK its ajchoir pfft) until eug told me its nt our choir. ahha. hey i wasnt late, but i tink tt got me quite high. i told nelson 'xin nian kuai le' and he told me to 'zao1 shen1 gui4 zi3'. nuts.
and mayling is happy. ;) long story.
went tampines after tt. stil cant find my cheena bag, but we bought nice earrings! n spotlight had alot of postxmas stuff.

and heres my wish-shoppin list.
1.CHEENABAG. if i still can find it. stupid giant.
2.sneaker-maryjanes frm bata. 19.90
3.yellow slippers frm novo. 16.50
4.dawson creek cd. i dont wanna wait.. for our lives to be over ;) 6.50 (!!)
5.coyote ugly cd. 12.50 i tink. ive always wanted teh soundtrack.
6.white pointy shoe frm pretty fit. 9.90 (oh man this is the most pek cek one. it was such a steal but they couldnt find the other side. it was nice lah!Grrr)

yup ok i tink tts quite alot alr.
anw my sis is goin off on mon. quite fast huh. it'll just be me n my dad for three wks. dont worry, we'll survive on takeaways.

I believe for every drop of rain that falls a flower grows.

chior bbq was great. i had such a great time there, just doing silly stuff and eating all those marshmallows. its official i dont haf a big mouth! ahhah. ;) my record was four lah hahah. and i really love my choir frens WE ROCK. synchronised swimming was great fun, the boy team SUCKS and i can stil rem rayner on his knees barkin. haha. the thg was, no one even noticed it! and dennis.. oh man. he's a great actor. and dough is not a good thing for hair. really.

then went to my family chalet.

went for this jazz concert today. i went and realise it was actually a tribute concert to this jazz drummer by the name of Edmond Branson Jr. everythg about the concert was really gd. it was really true musical talent on display and i thot it was one of the best concerts ive ever went to, although it wasnt full hse nor was it at esplanade. when they were showin the video for introduction i really wanted to cry. i dont tink its easy to lose someone and then still see him on screen. anyway the music was great entertainment and two hours passed and i didnt even noe it. lets just say i only got to attend half of the concert and didnt get to hear the stars of the concert (claressa and jacinta). bah ok *swears* i shall just shut up because nthg is goin to change teh fact tt i didnt. but if nxt time theres such an opportunity and i haf to pay more than 16bucks to listen, im so gonna flip.

feels good to be walkin again.

i will never walk stairs the same way ever again. my right leg is achin now frm all the walkin, im serious, no exaggeration. but hey im not complaining. anw i cant wait for choir bbq this sat, too bad i have to go off early for my sis' bbq. we will have the chubby bunny showdown before i leave! ;)

we're such bad examples for our junior class. today they wanted to pon lecture and although we did try to persuade them not to they somehow didnt walk into the lt. instead they followed us into some dingy classroom and started playing cards with us. HMmmm. ;)

im brave but im chicken shit

i can walk! muaha. went to the doc's today, waited for two hrs, crutched into the doc's room but walked out holdin them. ;) ppl in the clinic were laughin at me heh. but hey it feels great to be walking again, although im gonna be excused from pe for two months, which to me is really horrible coz i cant stand sittin around doin nthg, but hey im not gonna complain. oh n the bump on my leg is probably not gonna go away, ever. its lk when bone grows again they tend to grow bigger (at least tts wad the doc said).
oh n i went shoppin for my new years' clothes right after that. muaha. my mum was quite impulsive, she was lk 'buy lah buy lah!' so in the end i bought a LONG skirt (rai was bettin that i wld wear some short skirt for new year now tt my leg is fine bleah) n some top. from the same shop. spent quite a bit of money jsut for one set but hey i hope i look fine. i hate wearin long skirts coz i feel so short in them. as if im not short enough.

then i went sch n everyone who saw me asked me to jump.

reyner (i hope i got his name correct, he's my junior in choir n class) said it was the first time he saw me walk. wonderful way of puttin thgs huh.

what it all comes down to, is that everything is gonna be fine fine fine. ive got one hand in my pocket, the other is giving a high five. ;)

im sane but im overwhelmed

im feelin really lazy right now. which explains why i havent been online for soo long.
anw theres this mad mosquito on the loose right now. it's bitten my sis bout 12 times or smthg, me too but nt this bad. darn n i thot i was hot enough. haha.

not going sch tmr, goin to the doc's, although i dont tink he'll give me immunity frm crutches simply bcoz the bump is startin to hurt again.

im so lazy im not even writing to my angels or mortals. okayy i just wrote lk two letters today but hey, it was pretty much overdue.

oh yes n playin bridge with lucas adrian n sue was damn fun. i cant believe i was such a klutz, but i kept puttin down wrong cards, lk wrong trumps or not trumpin the card when im supposed to.
n today's bridge with my class was horrible. i kept havin to wash my cards twice in a row. wad lousy luck. but hey gd brains, i won the games ;) or at least i remmeber winnin.

i think the halter top i wore in bintan is so stretched now i can just give it to my sis lah. haha ;)

anagrams

my most current fascination. which i infected half my class with n all of them were doing it towards teh end of bio lect today MUAHA.

if u think u noe me well enough. try solving these :)
(the best so far) joyous in racket.
o' rosy juice tank
you reckon it, jas?

hahah. erm okay if u tink u noe my classmates well enough u can try these too:
o' nine gauge.
has a star in ohio (sounds so pretty right? unfortunately the person isnt quite.. haha kiddin)
sad boy no brain (this is one of the truest ones so far..)
jane chan gain a jet (hahha i came up with this. i always come up with phrases that has no link.. :(
erm.. cant tink of anymore. oh heres one more. hint: its rosh's
how i had a war in NS. (i thought this was cool!)
i ran and sow wind. (i thought it sounded quite poetic. haha. ok fine im no shakespeare)

aniwae went to the doc today. first thg i did was to take out my cast, but the doc wanted to put me back on cast again n i adamently refused. apparently the fracture line is still there, so it hasnt healed completely. so.. im back on crutches, for another two wks, and i must try nt to walk on my right foot.
well i guess it saves my mum a lot of trouble n money. dont tink ill be wearin really nice clothes for new years. ;)

pfft.

right. so i havent been updating ;)

dad picked me up after choir yesterday n we had tea together. he bought one ice kachang, one dao suan, two curry puffs, one samosa n three fried sweet potato.

had dinner with my dad too, since my mum n sis were out. he bought one chicken chops set, one box of hokkien mee, n carrot cake.

GUYS *rolls eyes*

ARGH gp essay *pui

i really hate writing gp essays on singapore. but i really have no choice because the ones i wan to write is too difficult to n i was gettin confused even thinkin bout what to write.
should medical science always seek to prolong life?
a gd leader must always looks beyond the needs of his/her country.
my brain needs some sort of.. smthg.
in other words i dont tink its workin.YET.
bah.
haha am i whiney or what.

one more bloody month

haha i went for the doc's appointment today n well, i was kinda hopin for a miraculous reply frm him after he sees my xray, smthg more along the lines of 'yes wow, ur healin fast, lets take off ur cast today!!' but nooo, he said 'well, gd, ur bone hasnt shifted. lets keep it on for one more month'. ;(
then i msged eug n told her she has to take care of me for "one more bloody month!!!" n haha, she called me to check if i was alright. of coz i am. ill just pon sch n sit at home n wilt n grow fat. boo.

oh n guess wad. my nephew who just started talkin this wk pointed to the macdonald sign n said 'burger'. we corrected him n said its 'M', nt 'burger' n only after much persuasion did he correct himself. we're undoin mac's influence on our poor little kids of our future generation. thats it man, im boycottin macs! they have enough business anyways.

i just had macs breakfast today. haha ;) ok after today no more macs for me. at least for a mth! haha. which is gonna be really easy for me, ill just nt get my sis to get me lunch frm macs ;)
the diary of a pampered kid.

yr 2. yawn.

wanted to pon the nxt few days but my mum wasnt too comfortable with me doin that. sighh.

anw i had to answer ppl's incessant qns bout my leg. haha cant they see that its in a cast? of coz its nt alright, but i'll live, dont worry.

n its really hell to climb up 3 stories in your crutches. i was so afriad im just goin to fall back n tumble down the stairs. baaddd feelinnn.

i shd just stay home n try to bake something! ;)

gdbye 2004, helloo 2005

sat in front of the tv for most of the day, there were really quite a few gd shows on today. but most imptly i watched quite a bit of news, mostly on the tsunami. its really heartwrenchin to watch the victims talk bout how they lost their whole families, how they tried to save their family members but to no avail.

right now im listenin to corfrinne may's cd in silent consolation to myself with regards to not being able to go listen to her at esplanade. darn ive been plannin it for so long.. bah.

its really amazin how fast this yr has been. suddenly im on the last day of the year that had me thrown in a rollercoaster of emotions. at the end of it all, i find myself holding on dearly to wad i believe in, n further away frm wad i decided that i wld dislike. and yet at the same time i found friends who have invaded my life in a way they never had. i had my share of wild fun, n my sombre moments too. had my fair share of tears, but i definitely laughed the hardest too. i reailse more than ever how blessed i am, n i really am thankful. i also know i must work hard so as nt to let my blessed soul go to waste.
i think of my future more than ever.
ive learnt how to deal with departures, because ppl dont stay with u all the time. but its ok as long as they've had a positive impact in ur life, bcoz tt impact stays on even after they're far away. although i prob would still cry, but ive learnt to look at it in a positive light. i just hope i dont cry too hard when my sis goes off.. hehs. if ur laughin at this hey ur evil.
ive learnt that im nt that invincible after all. im no longer who i used to be, even who i used to be wasnt that great anyway. i haf my fair share of failures n as always, it has humbled me.
i realise ive always had ppl 'lookin after' me all these while, been there for me when im down, help me with stuff, n i thank them for it.
i beileve my friendships have transcended to a level where we've gone beyond caring how she looks, whether she has spinach stuck in between her teeth, whether he jumps on a table n starts doing funny stuff, or whether she hugs a bolster to sleep everynight. i love my friends, i love my darlings, i love my limited scope of guy friends. ;)
i thank my parents for being so protective of me n giving me curfews (heh) n doing everythg to show that they really care.
and my sister for being so mean to me. well, sometimes. ;) i will nv forget that pinch that made that huge blue-black on my arm.

2005 will be a great yr.
to start it off, we shd all go watch 'one fine day'! i tink george clooney looks really gd in it... ;) n forget bout thsoe tutorials, will do it when sch starts.*winks

vjchoir rox.

being in vjchoir is a lifestyle. hey that really sums everythg up man. ;)

had farewell for our seniors. yeah the tealight session was really a very gd idea (whichever batch that came up with this idea) n i can just imagine myself talkin nxt yr. its must be the dark lighting n the candle flame.. makes u feel warm n fuzzy.
n i made a new resolution to frequent choir room more nxt yr. ;)
n now my hand smells of smoke bcoz we kept playin with fire. ;) me n mich had a gd time figurin out wad was the best way to light up the satay stick.

plenty of reflections n reminders going thru my head right now. will try to make the best out of wad we haf for nxt yr. ;)

five wks.

thats how long my leg is gonna be in cast for. bahh i hate crutches. its nt fun at all! u get really tired after a while.. n this funny feeling below ur armpits even when ur nt usin it.. im so gonna get dents in my body below my armpits. argh. my sis tinks its fun.. well. kids will be kids.

im glad my mum is around for me. if i had to do everythg myself today i tink i wld haf just did it really badly or smthg.. yeah i am dependent on others but hey its nt that i refuse to walk around n wait to be served, so it isnt that bad. im just grateful to my mum. n yeah i did tell her that ;)

i just spent three hours doing 16 cards for my choir seniors. im giving up.. no more cards! to tink i wanted to do for almost all the seniors.. maybe tmr morn. my hands are achin. or ill just get chocs heh.

i had macs at east coast after my hopspital trip this morn n i could taste the new rubber when i ate fries. now i'll haf to wash my hands before i eat. darn those rubber handles. rubber tastes awful.

anw my mum reminded me im goin on hols nxt sat. some beach resort at bintan. i'll haf to stay indoors or stay by the pool. aww no bikinis for me, darn. *pouts. haha.

cranberries, baby.

i really like that cd ;D

just had whispers of the earth concert. hahah really didnt noe it really was THAT short, im sorry! haha. but hey the little kids were cute rite? hee. really miss my class ppl, but glad to see them today. ;)

my feet isnt gettin any better, in fact i tink its more purple now. n it actually hurts more, though i can walk better. am i contradictin myself? HM.

its such a blessin to live in singapore, to be far away frm all the disasters. n still be able to go for ice cream buffets n listen to my fav songs, see my fav ppl, sing, live in comfort, wear nice clothes. im blessed.
and i firmly believe that many things that happened durin my lifetime has pointed out my life's directions for me. i really tink i shd be doin smthg for the ppl(eg. be a doc), nt for myself(eg. be a businesswoman). but then again, all young ppl have idealistic dreams, n as much as i like being practical, i am ambitious and wan to be the best i can be. i wan to work in a hospital, then go off to some underdeveloped country and work for a few yrs before comin back.

there. my dreams. ;)
which doesnt (at present) include marriage/love/romance bcoz i have nt figured out how it will all fit in. when i do i'll update u guys.