somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high

have been feeling quite sick, didnt go to school yesterday. spent the whole day sleeping and doing whatever readings i can (which really wasnt alot) and then today i woke up and felt like shit again but okay i made myself get up and went for two lectures. glad i did cos i saw mail for me!;) boy did that make my day ;)






from my sis! ;) i cant wait till she comes over for christmas! although that will mean me having to finish my applications which doesnt leave me with much time but OH wells. :) shes always been my rock, my huge pillar. i know things have changed, both for you and me, but hey i still love you and im glad your life has been better with all thats happening;) im always on your side, remember that!





from hianchuan;) haha yes big man you really do make pretty presents. i showed jon your pres and he was like 'so pretty which girlfriend of yours gave you that?' ;) but hey its a compliment okay once i saw the handwriting on the envelope i knew it was you ahah. ;) thanks alot yeah, and yup im really glad our friendship has turned out so well. hurry come join me in this grey weather!
listening to the songs now i must say its a pleasant surprise what good songs you have.
'je ne vais pas travaille!'


aand so im feeling gloomy no more ;)

where are you now my love

watching excess baggage video now;) funny how everyone looks different now. its as if we've all grown up so much in just one year in london:) sure i miss all the tiring rehearsals and the fantastic company; and its just great to sit down one lazy sunday night watching the video. thanks kelvin:) i still think we had fantastic music!

went up to cardiff yesterday with fellow victorians. i think i had fun but haha i was with my favourite people and we did our favourite activity- primark shopping!! the primark at cardiff was really organised and neat. and HUGE - they had four storeys of cheap stuff omg. ;) i nearly lost my jacket there which was rather silly. i left it on the rack cos we were trying on clothes in front of the mirror and when i was done i turned around and the coat was gone! joanne was really nice and we went around retracing our steps. well luckily for me i think a staff cleared it so he/she returned it to the customer service counter. phew! but okay we bought alot of nice stuff;) joanne rosh and i bought the same top hee.
the first picture was taken at the cardiff castle which was probably the only touristy thing we did. oh and the pub we went to at cardiff bay for dinner was really pretty- its called terra nova.

i always think its good to get away from london once in a while- away from the busy hustle bustle and mean sullen people here;) or well just an excuse to have one whole day of fun and shopping and bridge and laughter. goooo victorians!

only that i think im sick. freshers flu. it got worse and i came back home with a splitting headache. well the wonderful paul's breakfast i had with rosh the next day made me feel loads better. cant wait to see her again:)

oh haha today i felt bored while waiting for my instant porridge to cook so i googled my name. and, (hahaa) i found this blog which apparently belongs to someone from my pri sch who said i was his first ever crush. ! wonders of the internet. ;)

oui?

today's been quite an exciting day;) our toilet leaked early in the morning, and mind you it was practically raining from the ceiling so we had to call in the contractor and mayling is convinced its dirty sewage water leaking down but luckily for me i wasnt wear my specs so heck it i just went ahead and bathed and used the bathroom; i had an useless family law class (only cos we did an introductory thing again and so im one week ahead for my readings and class is two weeks behind lecture) ; went for my french interview and well i shd be doing level two french this year so please bless me with a smooth french tongue;) ; cheryl's coming over in a while to bake ginger bread man cookies (!!) ; and rosh is on her way now to londonl; and im going cardiff tmr.

and now i found the perfect ring in the universe after hours of senseless internet surfing ;) i got inspired by liyann's ring ;) isnt it the most adorable ring you've ever seen (beams!)

lullaby for a stormy night -vienna teng

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gu1o-Do_0LM

so i effectively slept my wednesday away. ;) i woke up to chicken rice, sweet and sour chicken wings, Friends, and strawberry cheesecake.

i cant wait for a getaway;)

have yourself a merry little christmas

;) yeah okay i know its a little too early but hey singing carols with tan en today made me a feel little christmasy so i decided to share the christmas decorations in my room with everybody















and i really like how the light falls in this picture. but who would have thought that with sunlight like that its still very cold:(
okay im off to books now may complains that im too lazy :D

little child, be not afraid

VIENNA TENG
Lullaby For a Stormy Night
words and music by Vienna Teng

little child, be not afraid.
though rain pounds harshly against the glass
like an unwanted stranger, there is no danger
I am here tonight

little child, be not afraid
though thunder explodes and lightning flash
illuminates your tear-stained face
I am here tonight

and someday you'll know
that nature is so
the same rain that draws you near me
falls on rivers and land
on forests and sand
makes the beautiful world that you'll see
in the morning

little child, be not afraid
though storm clouds mask your beloved moon
and its candlelight beams, still keep pleasant dreams
I am here tonight

little child, be not afraid
though wind makes creatures of our trees
and their branches to hands, they're not real, understand
and I am here tonight

for you know, once even I was a
little child, and I was afraid
but a gentle someone always came
to dry all my tears, trade sweet sleep for fears
and to give a kiss goodnight

well now I am grown
and these years have shown
that rain's a part of how life goes
but it's dark and it's late
so I'll hold you and wait
'til your frightened eyes do close

and I hope that you'll know...

everything's fine in the morning
the rain'll be gone in the morning
but I'll still be here in the morning

**
i always think of genia when i hear this song. ;)

just a few days ago i was telling cheng that things needn't always be awkward around people that you've loved before and is now past. 'open up your heart!' i told him. but i think ill take back my words. it really isnt easy, and sometimes we're just not ready to face each other, in the context of a new relationship. at least i know for sure thats the case for me and kiat. i thought i was ready, i thought i was cool with just being friends, but im not, and im not going to try anymore. because i think its really time i move on, get over him; so i dont hate myself for not being able to be the person i should be in this new relationship, so i dont try to pretend that im happy with the way things are. ;) i might just be happier not having to worry about all these!

well im just really glad i got to spend my last few days with the people i really love ;) going out and shopping and having dimsum and going out and shopping and having macs haha. sorry mummy and daddy that i kinda burnt a hole in my pocket but hey its the mid seasons sale and things were really going for really low prices. got myself a new pair of boots (frm primark though but hey its really pretty and decent( okay i dont know bout the child labour thg okay tan en so ill just pretend i erm dont know :D) ) and lots of other stuff as well. maybe ill start dressing up for sch. these days i just wake up half an hour before sch starts, bathe, check email, pile on ugly clothes and head out in ugly grumpy face. lets hope new pretty clothes will make me happyyy
;)

two weeks of school

and im feeling quite lazy already. ;) well maybe not lazy, but some sort of a perverse rebellion to everything that everyone is doing. conversation btwn me and a friend
me: so are you continuing french this year?
fren: no im busy this year
me: huh with what
fren: apps.
me: what?
fren: applications. to companies.

well he's not the only one and honestly everyone's getting pretty uptight and stressed about applications for internships/vacation schemes/pupilage/whatnots. ive been to two company presentations and that isnt alot, but i think i have a pretty good idea where im headed towards, just that i havent actually got down to doing anything yet. everyone around me seems to have their cv up somehow, and spoken to others about opportunites and how things are going to work out and im just taking it easy. well at least trying to. its not that i dont value my future, i guess this reeks of scholarships applications again and i absolutely hated that feeling. ;) the kind of feeling that everyone is out to bite each other's tails and chew each other's heads out. grr!

on another note, school is really getting along fine. wednesday has kind of turned into a cook out day for me jerald and jon, and jon is really quite a good cook. ;) we had really nice dessert yesterday - vanilla ice cream with honey and raspberries, absolutely delicious! and hello while im at that let me share with the whole world the simple recipe for a good old seafood risotto.(courtesy of jon although haha he doesnt get any royalties)(so cool im like having my own food blog)

you'll need:
risotto
chick stock cube
garlic
seafood (sainsburys 2 for 4pounds

1. well boil the chicken stock. as in. have it in boiling water. (how do you phrase this???)
2. fry garlic and risotto in pot
3. add chicken stock broth as and when in small potions and continue stirring the risotto so that it doesnt stick to the pan/ie burn. add until it gets to the right stickiness desired.
4. add seafood!
5. SERVE.

haha yay!

theres something in your eyes, makes me want to lose myself

feels like home by chantel kreviazuk
my second food- baked pasta! the weather today has been horrible; its been raining really heavily the whole day. so when i got home after my lectures i just felt like i wanna make something today. and since ive been looking at recipes online for baked pasta i decided to try my hand at it although ive already had my leftover fried rice for lunch. and look what turned out :) a delicious pan of baked cheesy pasta enough i reckon to feed 6 people;) but hey we're all hungry people here in london (except for may who eats one spoonful of porridge for lunch) so this should last us for er, two meals? ;)

went for allen & overy presentation after that and well im feeling the motivation to study and do well in my life. i think its really smart that they got our seniors to talk to us because as naeem said, we'll look at them and think 'hey that can be me' and yes i do think that way now so i studied abit when i got home. i dont think im going to turn into those overzealous people but i guess i shouldnt be laidback as well. i do wanna end up somewhere in my life. ;)

then of course i caught the second episode of greys on the all wonderful alluc.org. this episode was about addictions in life and moving on from there. it all sounds very familiar to me and really becoming the central theme in my life right now. not one day goes by where i dont think about what im going to do with my life;) that scene where christina went back to her apartment and all the wedding gifts had been cleared; i think i know how she feels. its that sense of longing and the sense of wanting to move on. it clashes, but somehow you feel both at the same time. its, all just very strange. ;)
and yes izzie still irritates the hell out of me. poor callie HELLO shes the suffering wife. bad george!

Amie, come sit on my wall.

:)Damien Rice concert at London Wembley, the arena.

okay i gotta confess, ive always written him off as a singer whos too sad and erm boring for my liking. but hey the ticket wasnt too expensive so i went with andre to see maybe ill change my opinion about him;)
and man am i a changed woman.

i never knew i could like sad songs so much:) he's very raw so it makes you wanna go up to him, and give him a big bear hug. but yeah listening to his songs for the first time as an audience in a live concert really makes me wonder how this guy managed to write all these songs. has he lived that much?






but my favourite song is still 'amie', and the effects for that song was really dreamy;)











even though he kinda made it awkward (i thought) by bringing in burma's political situation and brought in burmese refugees and brought up the peaceful riot the monks did in the concert itself, ie making the crowd chant the same words the monks did in response to aung san suu kyi's house arrest(personally i felt slightly used) but hey it shows he's bringing awareness. cos i chanted too :D at least now(according to andre) you can tell people you were involved in a political rally!

i can bake!

hahaa okay im gonna write two posts because i think they both deserve an entry on its own.
firstly, not only did i cook dinner for may, i baked for serene's birthday party! happy 21st dear;)

alright so cheryl did most of the stuff but hey i was her main helper okay.plus the ians for errands and washing up :) everyone liked what we did so im really happy















introducing tiramisu and chocolate tart,the latter which i also did for jessica's housewarming :D im so proud of myself

pics of new room!

as promised ;) although i realised it wasnt very clear nor as pretty as i thought they looked on my camera. ;) but i gave adibah a webcam tour of my room ahah that was fun :D






































told you my room is pink. ;) well thats all to my room really, except theres this purple rug so we can sit there and watch tv :) oh and my wonderful kitchen and toilet which i decided against putting up cos well, whos interested in them?? anw just fyi, we forgot to take out the trash yesterday so we have to wait till sunday to take it out again, and flies are raiding our kitchen;(
other than that, staying out has been really fun! and goooood.
OH and i cooked dinner tonight (muaha) AND IT WAS GOOD. may ate everything ;) see it isnt really that hard to cook haha. even though we made crappy carbonara and i burnt my omelette but hey ;) all's well.

sch's starting soon ;(

teeveee;)

haha yup as of last night i got my own tv. thanks to kel and cheryl and mum who came so that i wldnt be home alone with random internet guy who actually came with his 7 month old baby so that was really adorable. haha okay im still too lazy for pictures but i cleared a space infront of the fireplace so i can sit and watch tv from there. anhd so now my desk is directly in front of the big window andnow that its still sunny i get super alot of sunlight directly on my studytable and room but then again i dont really have any use for that yet because (haha) lse hasnt started school yet. it is scary to see the two kingser study so hard though (yes even lulu) and im just like here slacking away and going online and watching prisonbreak. heh.
;)
enjoying life while i can!

i have internet!

:) and my room looks really nice. we've got lotsa of natural light in our house so its bright all day long. and our rooms are pretty spacious and not too cramped so its really gd. im just missing the tv in my room thats all :D
staying out is really quite an experience. furnishing the house has never felt more satisfying. esp when we bought the bathroom racks and all and voila all our toiletries are now neatly stacked up in the bathtub and by the sink.
lulu was quite insulted by this roadsign thing i stuck onto my door cos it said 'be self sufficient- avoid men'. wanted to get that for rai but never got down to giving (haha) besides i love feminist statements like these so i brought it along. but alas it doesnt stick very well (lulu: now you know what its trying to tell you..) so im using it as a coaster instead. but of cos the polka dotted coaster we bought is much prettier but hey i can have more than one mug in my room;)
pictures soon! when my bookshelf arrives and i throw away my bedbase and i vacuum my room. and wipe the windows. and pack my stuff. :D

i need school to start soon so id stop doodling around! i feel like a stay at home nanny with the other two always in sch. ;)

dont need superman, just want you to love me.

with barely a week left in singapore, i wonder whats going to happen when i return to london, and im filled with grippling fear. like what rosh said in her out of the blue call today,"i feel sick thinking about going back to UK".

i guess i still have no idea how it all spiralled down into the situation it has become of now. barely months ago i was one half of a deliriously happy couple despite parents' obvious displeasure. then a few weeks later im a devastated heartbroken chick. i think the need for playing the blame game is over by now, but the sense of what it used to be still haunts me. exactly how do you move on from something you've invested so much time and effort, and most of all, yourself. sadly its not a question, but rather a statement. because we have to do it. move on, i mean. with our lives. rosh has a way of saying it;) 'seems like the world is moving along just like normal but you feel so horrible inside and you know its not the same anymore'

no matter how special a relationship is, breakups are all the same. the same lines used, the same emotions. and that horrible feeling of not being able to agree on the same things. maybe thats exactly why there was the breakup.;)

few days ago i was talking to mr buff chwen, and he was lamenting on the 'lousy' plot for the time traveller's wife. he said the male lead was very selfish, leaving the female lead alone and pining for him long after he was dead, just so she could see him one last time when she was very old. i on the contrary, thought that was the beauty of the story, it being bittersweet. i remember none but one line for my defense of this beautiful book. i said, "singlehood aint that bad if you know you've loved once."
so he asked the million dollar question, whether i was speaking from my own experience.
i guess, i am still trying to figure that out. ;)

this could be the start, of something new ;)

just came back from watching high sch musical at amir's hse. haha i know, rather silly, thats basically all we did for a class gathering (WHICH ALOT OF GUYS SAID THEY"D COME BUT DIDNT yes you you you and you) but it was quite funny cos i knew the lines and obviously knew how to sing along. im such a disney fan woohoo! and of cos tmr im gonna catch high sch musical 2:)

its rather late to say this, but im glad i joined carmina because the few (but still very funny) chorale people were a blast to sing with. everyone shd see yinchuin get high on singing gummy bears its the most hilarious thing ive ever seen. ;) and jianhao and his chinese/indian/xmas renditions of together since/in song. ;) and aiyah all the silly jokes and stupid emma(who owes me a treat cos i can fit into my vj gown lalala). :)
anw since i cant find a way to load pics onto forum here they are:

SPOT THE SENIORS. bet you cant;) oh just say you cant. cmon.


i think this is a rather nice pic;) see yc trying to act cool

im not really counting down the days till i go back- i just want to spend it with people that i love back here in singapore. ;)

ahh 给我一杯忘情水

went ktv for the first time yesterday and i must say the title of mister oldies crooner truly belongs to mister gangwei. :) and the title of mister scary crooner shall go to silly ian cheng! but ahlian 72变 songs and ahpek english songs aside it was fun meeting up with the musical ppl :)
then we headed for supper and the topic of aphrodisiac came up when gerard and i were eating super bloody hams ( i dont want hep a!!) cos dear florrinne didnt know what aphrodisiac means.

let me tell you what is a true blue (haha) aphrodisiac.



FLOORPLAY.
well it shd have been renamed foreplay and i think ppl wouldnt have noticed the name change. :) not that they dont deserve credit for their energetic performances and the fact that they danced the whole show, but wow, truth is i guess(sad fact of the world), sex sells. hot babes in little nighties and half naked guys (there was one scene where they were wearing nothing but a tie-- does anyone remember janice's fren's porno picture??) well they were piping hot. perhaps i dont know how to appreciate dance, like maybe they revolutionised foxtrot or something and i missed it out, but hey all i saw were hot bodies shaking away the whole performances. not that im complaining but a trip to gotham penthouse wld have been cheaper.
i bet raihana is sobbing over her keyboard right now for not comign to watch floorplay :D hee.

cloud moves but the sky doesnt

work is officially ending in one hour and 18 minutes and with chorale ended already i guess ill be having alot of freetime when next week comes. well i feel like i havent properly rested (but okay thats a lie ive idled at home watching tv the whole day many a times before i started work) but it just feels a tad fast that my four month summer holiday is coming to an end and that in three weeks' time ill be whisked away to london, once again, and this time for a very long time.

ive watched quite a bit of movies (and also bought quite a few pairs of shoes, but thats another story altogether) in the last week. 881, bourne, hairspray.

everyone shd go watch 881. i watched it when it first came out and its fabulous how its drawing such a great response so proud of you royston tan! go singapore!

now ive got quite a bit to say about jason bourne. its great to be him because:
1. he has an inbuilt gps system in him. everywhere he goes, he is able to immediately know where to go and how to go and where to turn and all that. even through those little small street alleys which are probably not on the proper gps!
2. he seems to be fluent in alot of languages and unlike me he probably didnt have to spend 170pounds to have french conversational lessons and come out still not really knowing french (although at least i passed my tests)
3. he has endless amount of money, being able to jetset around the world at any time of the day and at his whim
and bourne the movie teaches road safety too. when crashing into a car, always wear a seat belt. you'll come out with minimal scratches while the other guy is sure to die.

hairspray was simply delightful because it has all my favourite actors/actresses in it and i swear the whole cinema, well okay maybe just the girls but thats not the point, swoon everytime zac efron does his little wink :D ahh. maybe its time i changed my man.. but then again a girl needs many different types of man so she can choose better right. anw throughout the whole movie eug and i were so afraid that john travolta and christopher walken would kiss. but of course john travolta only went as far as shaking his booty and he was really hilarious to watch. i loved the dresses in the show. wld love to catch the actual musical someday.
and as queen latifah sings:'cos im BIG blonde and beauuttifull!'

next up: poltergay, marmalade pantry( or toast i just need to have that iced lemon tea and nutella cupcake one more time), high sch musical2 (heh) , ulu islands(nus and ntu), suppers suppers, and lotsa family time. ;)
and meanwhile try to be really truly happy until its time to go back london :)

in song!

and so its over.

after many weekends spent in beloved siglap south cc, the concert's over. im just glad for my friends who came (thanks a bunch!) and i really enjoyed singing the songs. after one year in dusty london i can still sing ;) and i knew all my words so double yay!
although everyone said they couldnt find/recognise me in second row.

so thanks chorale for letting me sing with you guys. i love our sound and the way we dont oversing. its such an oldie thing to do that. i love you laolaos! i really think chorale is one reason why id want to come back. :)
and i think we followed our boss quite well on concert day so triple yay.


thanks to eve for taking pretty shots of us putting on makeup :) but yeah youngling sign is quite funny you should see all the laolaos roll their eyes. well the other pics are pretty blurry sorry i think my camera is pretty lousy.

feeling pretty heartbroken that its all over now. glam bling and fun that comes with chorale :) cos it also means that im going back to london soon.
boundd as oneee in ce le braa tion.

free breakfast

this morning as i was queueing up to get my free breakfast this old uncle cut my queue. right in front of me! and the queue was really long okayy. he simply got out of the lift and jumped queue.
for one i couldnt make out whether he did it purposely or was he simply confused by the snaking long curvy lines of people and didnt know where to queue from. besides he looked really happy and was grinning in that oldman's way.
after he collected his untasty plain beehoon(it was just white beehoon with two strands of carrots in it!!!) he even went up to his friend and said 'BYE BYE!'

wah uncle! next time cannot cut queue okay!

3moredaystoINSONG

feeling rather old fashioned today ;) am wearing my new purchase frm ebay, this skirt which im not really sure if its supposed to be that high waisted but hey im wearing it that way(1. cos its small 2. cos it looks gd that way okay) and yay i feel so proud of all my cheap purchases.

had jap food again for lunch and am having it for dinner later on with my parents. my dad was going on about how soon ill be going back and how little time we have together and i just nodded my head in silence. its very true. my mum complains that the only words i say to her are 'good morning' and 'good night'. that is a little sad. but hey whatever it is i still love them.

its funny but i really want chorale concert to be here sooner than it already is. it felt nice just singing through the difficult scores yesterday; i felt like we were some cult gathering together for i dont know some common purpose or smthg. well at least its a cult that leaves you with a gd feeling, although i still feel silly with my hair.
oh then cheryl got me into a panic attack during lunch when she asked if i can fit into my chorale gown. OMG i havent tried it on yet!!

but nevermind. going threading at little india with eug on sat;) yeah before prac abit crazy and rushed but hey beautiful eyebrows winkwink

hair

oh how can i almost forget i cut my own hair (yet again) this morning and i think i cut a hole in my fringe. yippee. lets all play spot the mistake in jy's hair.

yeah right dont you dare!

blow my midweek blues away

this morning as i stepped out of the mrt station i heard this guy singing mandopop in the oh-so-cool way complete with the angmohfied chinese and sleepysmoky eyes and bobbing head. my god i wanted to laugh my head off. he was in earphones, of course.
then celine dion came on my ipod and i couldnt resist humming along.

therefore, deep down inside, we're all the same people. :)

cold cold morning, and im craving for iced milo! too bad the pantry doesnt have milo.

work task for today: memorise songs!

ive also been thinking about what i want to do next year. or okay, next academic year (its really kinda weird how i think september is a new year now) and im thinking either singing or join some club advocating women rights. maybe both. we go girls! i think singing i definitely will do maybe even carolling ;D will be fun to do it in covent garden or brunswick. honestly ill see how it goes.(i think thats becoming my favourite phrase nowadays, which isnt anything to be proud of cos it sounds lk lazyman's talk) if i end up getting a job then i prob wont have time for anything. and cash is king. so it overrules everything. (the irony considering the convo i had with a fren last night, but thats another story STOP STEREOTYPING LAW STUDENTS)

i actually cant wait for chorale prac tonight, then sat, then (WOOHOO) sunday night. :)

which reminds me of smthg funny. my flatmate lulu didnt understand me when i said 'vavavoom'. haha;) that suak.

okay enough wasting the government's money already

victoooo ria victooooria

contrary to my blog, im actually having quite a happening life. i think. :) i had quite a fun packed holiday so far, meeting people, people meeting me. going to lotsa places ive always heard of but had never went to until now. and well discovering that singapore is quite a gd place to hang out if you know where to head down to. working in clarke quay helps.

and so with just days to go before the chorale concert im trying to conserve my energy by getting lotsa sleep ie. bedtime at 9pm to build up stamina for the concert. ( i know its not how you build up stamina but hey i do it my way okay!)

i started surfing ebay and i just got this skirt. its exactly the way i thought it wld be, but erm. its small. so well. DIETING PLANS. and well seriously everyone's (i mean every single one of my fren (frm sec sch/jc/choir/random) been saying how ive put on weight so im pretty immuned to it already(not). it doesnt help when emma and jianhao points at me during prac and asks loudly 'IS JY PREGNANT?'

the class girls finally got to meet up and omg i just miss our group's dynamics so much. we can laugh so hard about nothing at all its so sillyfyingly hilarious. i think ill miss them dearly when i get back.

im just waiting for work to stop so i can start going out LOTS and well meeting all you schooling people!

updates

okay this is super old news, but i think its worthy of a mention on my big blog.

(convo i had with gabriel chow last week)
me: hey gab you slimmed down!
gab: hey yeah, i know. thanks. too bad i cant say the same for you.

yup. apparently theres a limit to how effective amore can be;)

ive been watchign quite a bit of movies lately, although i havent caught potter or transformers, the big blockbusters. dont really intend to. well have been busy going out and spending money. and national day is coming! preview was really gorgeous im glad i got to go. i love the funky bagg. shall bring it to london where no one will know its a ndp bag;)

sometimes i think that 24 hours a day is really not enough to do everything you want in a day. i mean if you start working you'll only be free for lunch or at night. thats really alot of time gone! and seriously man who works hard for all 8hours at work(jiaxun you're not included in this discussion) so why dont companies just require people to come in for say, 5hours a day, make them work really hard, and then let them off for the rest of the day? seriously people. (i shall not delete my computer history so that maybe my colleagues will get to read this. :D)

and ive rediscovered this song that i used to like alot. stars by alison krauss;) thanks genia for breaking the law for me haha.
its truly amazing how i still remember the lyrics after all these years. i remember writing the lyrics and putting it in my file and looking at it everyday. i think i did that with 'fly me to the moon' too.
so i spent sometime reading up on her cds and i wanna get all of them. one day;)

ive also been surfing ebay( i mean, on top of blogging during working hours) and i keep coming across nice dresses and tops but im too chicken to buy any of them. besides they're not dirtcheap considering they're from ebay. so. nah. this fashion still rocks my world.

singing tmr! i like singing.
(sometimes i sing out loud when im working then i stop myself.)
its not on purpose i swear!

cos time, catches everyone

the other day i was imagining myself to be in a temple, and i could almost smell the thick smoky incense. i remember praying for peace of mind, and well, strength and wisdom. then i asked the boss up there to give me a sign. i believe in fate, i remember telling shawn, and his exasperation in telling me that fate doesnt exist and that we control our destiny ;)
but i believe in fate so i did it my way.
and i saw the sign i was waiting for. ;)
i saw him walking towards the escalator. and my heart skipped a beat.

but somehow i cant find the courage or sense to fight for it anymore. because even as friends, my parents still cant accept him. so maybe a break is good. breathing space for all of us.

we'll see what happens. ;)

cos time, catches everyone
and the world goes round the sun
but the memory lives on in my heart
going back to the start
forever,
forever,
forever.
(sandi thom)

-edited;)got the lyrics wrong!

i dont wanna miss a thingg

was on my way home today on the mrt, and at kembangan i was looking out of the window and i saw this dad playing rugby with his two kids. and he obviously wasnt tackling his kids but they looked so ridiculously happy playing by themselves in the huge field, and i couldnt help but smile. and then corrinne may's 'journey' came on my ipod. and i thought, i made a choice.

so this blog is back, and because there are still many beautiful things in life that i want to write about, talk about and just rattle on.

and so work has been quite okay so far, and its really because everyone's so friendly. but i havent had the chance to really talk to any of them over lunch yet, and they JUST extended my working hours ;( and now with amore at night my schedule is quite packed. i kinda like my life this way. i think im still born to be a really hard worker. as much as i like disney channel it really doesnt keep me happy for long. although i still wanna watch 'jump in'. :)

okay so ppl please come book me for lunches and dinners because i'd be working until i almost have to go back. and im at happening clarke quay so theres no excuse not to come!
;)

life.?

this morning on my way to my job interview i was thinking about how i should end this blog because 'it just isnt turning out the way i had wanted it to be'. and then i missed my bus but i made it in time for my interview.

on my way back it was pouring heavily and i saw a man at the back of a truck hiding under an umbrella, which was obviously no match for the pouring rain. and i thought. i am lucky.

so i thought of something i said during my sec sch days when we had to give a presentation from national geog.
'count your blessings.'
and so i did.

1. i was safe and dry in the bus while others were in the rain
2. an ambulance zoomed past me with its loud sirens, and i knew i was lucky to be alive and well.
3. i got a job.
4. my mum got me shoes, and gave me a hug before i slept last night.
5. my pimples are pretty much gone, and im pretty sure im magazine cover material.
6. ill soon have a great bod to go with that pretty face cos my mum signed me up for unlimited amore classes.
7. i got to see my dear sister in australia.
8. i got to see cairns, one of the most beautiful places on earth i reckon.
9. i have too many clothes and shoes for my little body.

so what if i cant see him. life isnt that bad after all, right?
or am i kidding myself.

;)

i knew i had my old photos somewhere- i scanned them in for my musical because they had wanted to use pics of two sisters;) wanted to show kiat me in my much younger days but i cldnt find it at first. then i did (after i finished studying what i set out to study okay so hey was during my free time :D) and well i picked a favourite picture.

look at how happy we looked. ;) and i loved those jellies! its my 3rd birthday.. you can even see my chinese name written on the cake. oh how i used to love those cakes with choc rice on the outside and lotsa cream and colour. im tacky, i know. our house looked so sparse compared to the amount of stuff i have now(which im almost embarrassed to say) but i guess this is the part where you say money really cant buy you happiness. ;)

studying is a pain.

right in the ass, yes. ;) but oh wells studying IS GOOD FOR US and so we believe. in its goodness.

there really isnt much i can say bout studying can i. except for the fact that im trying my bestest;) well thanks to meredith derek and bailey who's been keeping me awake throughout what feels like a studying marathon, that keeps me in shape.

and my cooking has erm, well, not imrpoved, but at least now i get to do some stuff with food. i miss the taste of normal rice. ;) im getting more and more homesick these days i think. i think of my childhood more, and the things i used to do back home. i swear everytime i hear noises outside my door while im sleeping, i think its my parents moving around the house. ;) i guess in that kind of state we think of whats most familiar to us..

and long live chocolate caramel digestives!!

barcelona baby ;)

i just came back from a run, grocery shopping on my way back, laundry, and making porridge now. :) on my way back i spent some time in this little bookshop and i bought a book. no idea what it is but the cover is yellow(haha) and its about detective and apparently has very dry wit. sounds like all the stuff i like!

barcelona was beautiful, and fun. it really reminded me of singapore /malaysia. all the palm trees and sunny weather. spanish guys btw, arent very goodlooking (sorry no offence intended) but *whispers*they look trashy! well. not anyone's fault. im gonna go to france and see if the guys there are indeed better looking. ;) but the company was great, although i realised we never had a group picture cos we were all too afraid to hand over our cameras to any strangers- barcelona is very famous for pickpocketers. well in all four days i spent quite a bit of money, mainly because we ate very well (very nice seafood) and partly because it is THe land of ZARA ;) and mango and pull and bear. and of course we got to go to the beach;) we had a picnic there. it was such a feeling of high when we felt sand in between our toes, although the water was too cold to skinny dip in ;)
oh and i ate 7 scoops of gelato and many many dunkin donuts. yay!
and met lse friends along the way. how small is this world??
and really really had fun just being around friends ;)
me and the girls at park guell. its like some disneyland like place with gingerbread like buildings ;) works of gaudi.
me sonya and zaril on casa battlo. its actually a house! but its built to look like you're under the sea. we had more camwhore pics but they're with sonya haha.


the same place, but only at night. beautiful isnt it. its called house of skeltons and the uneveness on the walls are supposed to resemble corals :)
my feet and cheryl's on barcelona beach, woohoo! too bad it was too cold to sunbathe;(

but fun's over and now its back to studying ;) i confess that i havent been in best form (for studying) and spending lotsa time dong everything else. but hey dont worry ill get down to it. ;) lk today. after my fish porridge ahha i hope it turns out well!

muacks to all you sexy people out there;) all the best for exams!

ps. julian: HEY my room isnt that messy!!try living in a small space and tell me if you can do a better job than me. ;)

im 20!

huge surprise when i got this big green box for my birthday. wondered WHO could have sent such a big green box other than the doofus whom ive reminded not to send anymore flowers? ;) all my friend were wondering too so they all came up to my room to check it out. and man was the box huge ;)

and so i opened it and TADAA it was from my family! huge huge smile on my face ;)
(my friends were actually plastering themselves to the wallso they wont be in thepic. ) thanks thanks ;) great to know that my family cares enough to send me a big bouquet of flowers. doesnt feel THAT great to turn a big 2 (esp when friends lk janice wishes you one year older!) but feels great to know that ppl arnd me care bout this useless date enough to still make the effort to wish me happy birthday and all. i got some wishes frm some really old friends and that made me really happy. and of cos since ive been celebrating the whole weekend AND until yest i havent really been doing much work. well birthday IS a valid excuse to get off work, isnt it? ;) thank you may for the wonderful picnic; thanks all for bearing the cold with me that day!; thanks to ppl who've brought me to opera musical dinners ;) thanks for all the silly ecards, emails and nearly raunchy message from rai :); and the lovely icing cake and greys and the funny happybirthday video from you ;); and my mum and dad for sending me my stuff AND a bag( im sorry if i said some not so nice stuff bout the bag! appreciate the thought really :D) and of cos the mysterious asos bag sender thankyou nevertheless!

so yups! im a happy girl :) muacks to all!
now i just need to get back to studying before my trip to barcelona.. ;)

somewhere over the rainbow

;) just had a wonderful long wkend. may's musical, london games, and victorians day. all went well and ended well. everyone's gushing to me bout may now and and how they want to pinch her cheeks/steal her away and put her in a cupboard/bring her home etc etc. and im like 'hey tts the girl im gonna stay with nxt yr!' ;) so im expecting lotsa ppl begging for invitations to our hse warming..

london games was fun, as usual. although not everyone stayed for the finals which i thot was quite a gd match to watch. we really had fun cheering them on from the sides and of cos im a groupie for one and only one of them ;) once again i was woman of the match until i met the damn zai team and they trashed us (as usual). but it was fun ;)

then we saw a double rainbow :) gosh so pretty. oh and houses over at canada waters are really pretty but its zone 2. ive been bringing them up ever since to may but she doesnt seem to like the idea of staying in zone 2. even though theres a little river that runs through the place and all the houses comes with little doors and gardens and cosy looking bricked houses.

then victorians day! haha. okay im still sorry i screwed up the qns but hey we all had fun didnt we. food was gd, company was gd, and i had fun just watching the videos alone. brought back so many memories. i really really lk the robert yeo part (no idea why cos its all bout dota and i obviously dont support the notion of guys being crazy bout dota) but hey it was funny. and obviousloy the mr seet part too when he cldnt find the ez-link card. and i realised its such a small world cos i met some of my sis' frens/classmate even.
vicctoorrriaaa!

;) and all the while i was kinda sick. so i felt a bit woozy and out of touch sometimes and was always desperately trying to get some sleep whenever im back in my room but of course at such times my neighbour strikes again. if you know what i mean.

;) sch is ending soon! once again lse ends earlier than the rest. i really wonder where all my money is going to... ;)

commitments for the first yr are all over. time to hit the books. bah.
;) london is gettin sunny and it kinda reminds me of sg. with the colonial architecture, everywhere i go i feel like i just stepped into a postcard. really pretty. ;) im gonna hit the parks soon!

okay pretty random post but just so to let everyone know im still alive ;) LOVES!

you realise

you're getting too heavy for your little body to take when

1. your feet ache whenever you wear 3inch heels. i alr knew that in dec so thats alright.
2. your knees get bruises after being goalie for floorball cos well, your knees jsut cant take the weight of your body on them! and REALLY bad bruises. i have no idea why.
3. when bing says you're losing your chin!! ive become so conscious of it okay i keep rubbin my chin nowadays. stupid bing. ;) nah okay i still love you MUACKS.

reading week's started! hail holidays. but first, library fines (AGAIN) cos i just hog the books and refuse to return them. but okay treat fines as my loan;)

bouts of hardworkingness

ive been feeling relatively hardworking these days - with the purchase of my new criminal textbook (hail herring!) i decided to start on my tutorial with much anewed vigour only to find that this week's topic does not interest me at all. in fact its a little confusing with all the different sections of assaults. haha but i did manage through the reading although no notes taken. heh.

i now have potpurri all over my room courtesy of a love from a faraway land;) talk about bringing with it the characteristic of the land it came frm- kiasuism. hahaha okay im so evil THANKS okay now my room smells lovely. and may suggested that i put them in little bowls so yeah now my room really looks nice. i hope my pres reaches you on time;)

i think my life is picking up again - with the end of the production comes the start of many new things - floorball, victorian's day, and of cos shopping tmr with shimmie who hasnt replied my sms. :) but im beginning to find stuff to do with friends that i really care about i guess. last weekend was a gd trip down to covent garden spent with cheryl whom i havent talked to in the longest time because everytime we try to do that in french class the teacher calls upon us to ans qn. French btw is not becoming a reality ahha. i still cant speak it very well! i only rem "jai chaud" (pronounced jay sho)which means i am hot. grins. :)

am trying to read the books off my shelf because there is absolutely no use if they're there just for show. although it does make me look intellectual :) starting with time traveler's wife even though i bought agatha christie from spitalfields market trip with rosh last wkend because i think its a better read anw although agatha christie is still the best dont get me wrong. anw i just got reminded of all the times i wld sneak off to the library in the middle of boring lectures and return with agatha christie in my hand. ;) yes rai? i vaguely rem you as being my partner in crime for lectures missed in our quest for good hygiene after a good workout. haha.

ah i miss girlgroup days. ;)

ho ho ho

i thought i'd just post some pics on my blog from my musical;) well it isnt the proper musical pics but you can prob see the wonderful people i've been working with for the past few months (and intensively the two weeks before our showdate). i really miss their company -- the group dynamics is just great -- but i guess thats just the beauty of it all, that we can get along so well and got to know each other simply by having a gd time dancing our butts off and grinning our lips rotten. all thanks to our lovely choreographers;) although the grinning part was mostly guano (go cheerleaders!) and of cos our big bosses- writer musicguy director produccerrr;)

me and shimmie! yeah okay we had a whole series and this is our erm pretty one. ;)

yeah okay strangely i cant upload any other pics (I TRIED) so yeah. hall internet is realllyyy lousy.

anw ive been sick since i got back from oxford where i was visiting my darling rosh;) okay oxford is pretty and u gotta credit them cos they have primark which is lk the cheapest store EVER but since they're gonna open one in central london, heh heh. well i hope i get well soon. it snt as if my mucus is yellow or anythg i just keep feeling cold and weak tts all. really bad.

so yup im gonna try and hit my books (and maybe my pillows after that) take care friends in singapore. LOVE YOU GUYS;)

and happy 5th mr greedy;) sorry i forgot.

couldnt sleep, and wouldnt sleep.

" ;) the world is beautiful, the world is great. smell the air, hear the waves crashing in; feel the ants run up your legs, and pluck white hairs off me. take silly pictures in silly poses, visit old places, eat good old (cheap) food. listen to fantastic inidian guy sing, drink and get drunk. cycle along ecp, and eat till my stomach bursts. i love doing things together with my friends. cos i love them;) i miss doing things together with my family. i love them all the same. but now theres more: the strange silly way i love you. ;) "


i didnt sleep a wink the whole night. gah. but i did sleep in the afternoon. felt a headache coming along and wldnt have woke up if my googletalk didnt dingdong.

so yes here i am, awake at 4am.

i think my corridor smells of sleep. i think my hall smells of sleep. ;)

now. back to sch. :)

IM DONE

with my last essay of the term. yay thankyou ms little brain for being with me through the whole afternoon. ;) and of cos mr lovely nutella whom i spooned off. and finished off. :)

im just sitting arnd waitin for tmr to come. il update when tmr comes haha. and of cos the day after and the day after and the day after and the day. ;) cant believe its so soon. although the thot of four wheels gets me down a little ITS OKAY ;) ill get round to it.

anw here are some pics!

mambo pics ;)

more--> with my musical people.


haha okay more nonclubbing pics up soon. ;)
anw kevin wants to say hi to all you sexy people. muahah. just cos he refuses to go shopping with me (to celebrate my last essay!) anw im going out later with squish yay haha.

excess baggage the musical

its close to midnight now and i just got back not long ago. musical practice is only getting more fun as we get along cos things are starting to fall into place. we spent the night 'dancing'. ohwell. sorta. ;) im kinda glad my brain and my body function well together as a team.

really excited bout the musical;) im giving up oxford trip tmr for my practice tmr. we're gonna sing together with the band. actually, quite a high proportion of vjc people involved in the production(i just found out justin song is our violinist muaha) so yup. and i just got a new role today: dancing with the male lead as a nurse in the hospital while he's egging his friend to chase after this girl;) haha. i know. kinky.

go check this out;)
ps. i didnt think of the pose myself. !! im supposed to look 'forlorn' haha. but i think i look quite dao and ice queeny. hm. ;)

clubber convert?

;)

to date ive had only three clubbing experience: one in sg, and two here. the first was ookayy, and i left feeling that clubbing was a complete waste of time and i had better things to do. unless of cos im there with my lovely girls and out to have a fun time(and just a fun time only) then yeah its prob a nice way to chill(provided its free entry. then i dont have to spent a single cent cos i dont drink;D)

but my second experience made me rethink my position. yeah okay so i went cos it was a free ticket. even though the party was mild and well, yeah, boring and definitely super lots of weird people lurking around (hello my friends call me clark kent (WHATT)) but i had fun. even though i knew only a handful of people there i danced and let loose and enjoyed myself. and so i thought maybe i will consider going clubbing more often just to have fun and destress. since londoners dont seem to partake in any other social activities. and when its dark there arent many choices to choose from.

so i went to my third party thinking happily that yay im gonna have lotsa fun cos ill be knowing super loads of people there(it was a lse party) and even may's going ;) nad my whole hall was practically down there. and its mambo so stupid moves yay retro yay double triple yays. no idea why; maybe i saw lotsa stuff that made me rethink about the people i thought i knew; or maybe i didnt see enough cute guys(but we saw ONE); or maybe it was because everyone was chatting mayling up :D. nah. the last one was beside the point. but anw. :) may and i left earlier than the rest and im ever so thankful to have her with me in london:) i think we did more silly moves in r&b room than in mambo. we can so do indian dance(bhangra recruit??) and im ever more convinced that clubbing will probably just be a small feature of my life, and that i honestly have better things to do with my time (not all the time) like shopping. seriously. so prob as a last resort or when we absolutely feel like it;)

and so eug will bring me for my fourth clubbing experience, yes? ;) st james! haha.

wow

so i havent updated for a month. okay more than that, since in three wks time i'll be making my way home (!!!) :D well not that ive been doing all my readings religiously, hence the lack of time to blog, but.. well. id rather email and talk to ppl:) although some people *ahem the pink one* simply refuses to pick up my calls.

i stepped on a thumbtack yeterday! it went straight into my heel. nope i didnt scream, i simply yanked the thing out. quite cool. may freaked out and came down with antiseptic wipes and all. but oh well i talked to the nurse today and she gave me an appointment (so nhs is not without compassion) even though they were full and the previous nurse had wanted me to go down tmr. so everythg's well. i wont be getting my lockjaw anytime soon:D but now the arm is aching, and in the nurse' words, it really feels like 'someone punched me in the arm'. ouch.

work on the other hand has just been piling up; or maybe now that im getting the hang of things im more willing/eager/enthusiastic to really read my books and know my stuff. we'll see how that goes;) first i have to tackle my esays.

london is turning yellow;) muaha. autumn is really here, yay. nottingham was really beautiful, and if you just take a moment and willingly allow yourself to freeze to death in the open, the trees are really quite gorgeous;) esp when the yellow leaves fell onto the green grass. it was like stepping into a picture perfect moment. ive deicded to walk around my area tmr for a short while and take some pictures;) was walking to sch today and i realised i had better take some pictures before all the leaves fall off.

(actually im in my library waitin for class to start and im supposed to do my readings for my next class. but aiyah. ;D )

i watched bentan's video and i thot it was fantastic;D ill ask him if i can post on my blog. haha. erm, but it was strange seeing ppl you know act. im sorry adrian lucas and ben when i saw you guys i just burst out laughing. esp when lucas did tt 'i dont give a damn' face HA HA HA. :D but gd video ben. though i dont believe jianhao sounds so gd! and yes lah gabriel nice music. ;)
i liked the last line ;)

and a point for celebration: George Clooney has been named 'Sexist Man Alive'.. AGAIN!. see i have gd taste. yummy yummy hahahah. ;)
girls quick go grab!

law of obligations

lectures finally made sense to me. i think contract law is smthg i can identify with, yay. not public, not criminal, no legal system. CONTRACT. woohoo gd start. yeah baby.

anw here are pics of my hall food although i realised that they arent the usual hall food ive been eating for the past three wks(three wks! its been along time) but anw. u can figure out the portion. :)

breakfast! although this was the first time i saw scrambled eggs. normally we have poached eggs.

first time having rice in this hall and it was okay. mushy but edible. normally i have lasagne or pasta instead of the chicken, and prob potato or chips instead of rice. go figure.:)

so yup. i think im really gonna enjoy studying here in london because of all the opportunities i get here. i love trying new stuff and making new friends(both still ongoing ;D) i walked back hall with this guy frm my class today and he said he actually wanted to go travel singapore and hk during summer so he asked how long wld it take him to finish touring singapore. ahha. i erm, pondered for a while and couldnt' really give him a satisfactory ans. ithink i said smthg lk 3days-1wk. honestly if its just the tourist attractions probably can finish in a day or smthg. but i tried to say oh we've got lotsa shoppin and if you really want to go explore the smaller parts you can spend a long time in singapore. :) and of cos i offered to bring him arnd if he comes over.
it wld really be quite fun if he comes over.

and i think studying here makes me realise how lucky i am and i cant say enough. im loved, loved, loved. although it always makes me feel like crying;)

camden market!

its lk the bugis village of london. i think. just that taiwan street wear is popular in bugis, but goth clothes are popular in camden market;) i didnt bring lotsa cash(lucky thg) but i think i got good buys. the teeshirts were really funny but they were all quite expensive considering they were only teeshirts. im beginning to love london for the fashion you get:) its fun to wear nice clothes. or be more experimental with clothes.

and just bcos im bored here me in black stockings
ahah yay:)

classes starts nxt wk so nxt wk you'll see me all serious and sober :)

under the weather-kt tunstall

i really wanted to wear skirt and stockings today to cheer myself up but the sky is really grey today and its raining. so hm ill see how lah.

anw sch is starting soon and i can already imagine all the amazingly interesting stuff im gonna learn. yes alot of readings and alot of work and effort(i dont think u can fluff ur way through exams cos u really need to know what you're writing?) so yeah.

i hate going to the library. but ive been going quite alot.

coming to london has really been a gd experience. i learn alot, and i realise that i am ever so lucky to have family and frens who love and care about me. maybe i do need to know tt ppl still care, beneath my whatever icequeen exterior. and may has been a gd fren indeed;)

alrights im off to eat some good belgium food soon take care everyone i love u guys;)

lunchtime here

and im eating.. digestives! and milo. and prune. i seriously have alot of fruits here in my drawer. fruit flies love me.


les miserables! the theatre is really pretty too. one day lah shutterfly. ;)


im onto episode 7 heh. everynight we do two episodes in this guy's room. prison break rocks. presenting wentworth miller!(note gorgeous eyes)


but this rocks my world;)

;)

london(2)

okay so now that mum's gone im really alone. not really alone cos i have so many frens here ;) okay not alot but enough to last me lah huh. strange thgs but im clicking so well with king's law ppl but thats only because they're all here in international hall ahha.
am drinking some fruit fusion tea now quite tasty. yum yum.
i think lse is cheating my money bcos my first wk of 'sch' is my opening wk to law, and we do stuff lk watch film and have lectures about study techniques part one and two, then introduction to the library and IT in law. im not gettin my money worth! ok ok i shall not complain lest my workload more than doubles when sch actually starts. but for now. :)

i havent really been doing anything since the start of the day, just woke up really early to catch mayling at breakfast so i could talk to her. honestly i dont feel like ive settled down yet, but at the same time my room looks very lived in already. just lotsa fruit flies arnd cos of all the fruits my mum keeps buying. but i think i shall be coping fine. i think i shall go organise my life right now though. and stop sleeping so much:)

okay pictures

alright so side view of my hall ;) i walk past this plc everyday to get out. er, duh, but yeah.

london eye! and my double chin :)

my messy room;) and bed.

and my study table. :D

and of cos im in love with london's architecture


and more pics of les miserables coming up:D not uploaded yet. till then,frens.

london!

okay frens im sorry i havent been updating but i really tried uploading pictures here and somehow its not working. ANW i figured my internet out myself how cool is tt;) im very proud of that thank you very much. anw the weather is still lovely, although its getting colder i think. my 20kg parcel finally arrived and i gotta admit, i think ive got too many clothes;) but its okay then ill save money on shoppin cos theres a big FCUK outside my sch. and basically ive been walking around. beautiful parks around here, very fat pigeons, and very expensive stuff around here. okay lah shampoo is cheaper here, but tissue paper is ridiculously much more expensive than singapore.
;) london eye is quite beautiful, but i think only cos its THE london eye. big ben is much more captivating, cos it looks gold plated;) and in the sun the reflection on its gold against the brown is simply quite stunning. u really get the whole majestic feel. and im in love with the colonial architecture u get here;) u can take pics of all the building! which makes me feel very touristy ahha. and yup i had great plans today but we couldnt get to where we wanted to cos haha my mum and i arent particularly gifted in the area of deciphering maps.;)

yup so when my internet is better i shall try to upload pics. meanwhile everyone take care, i will, and see u guys for xmas;)

happy birthday

happy birthday mum

and so it goes

that i am finally feeling it;) the everythg that comes with it. huge thank you to frens who turned up at simpang to have prata with me(yes just cos i wanted to have prata), in the middle of an afternoon and im quite sorry it poured in the middle of it and we got abit wet and had to move and some got really wet and lost tryin to find their way. but it was nice meeting up and i do love u guys;) its just that keeping up with the facade was quite difficult and truth is i do feel terrible and it was hard keeping it all up. but after girltalk with phua i do feel much better;D so thankss

and so i wanna see you and you and you, and you, before i go off;)

its official

ive done it twice;) this earmarks the beginning of my taitai lifestyle where ill just get the license for the sake of getting one(prob bcos ive sunk in too much money to get out of it), and ill just wait to get chauffeured around everywhere(only bmws pls).

haha kidding but ill just try until i get it lah! i am mrs incredibles;)

anw, not much time left. hurry book me now before its too late:D

to me you're perfect

i felt very warm at the end of my msia trip today;) i think its the big family syndrome cos there're so many ppl and they all care for each other. its wonderful;) anw there are high and lows from this visit. i now know a relative who claims to suffer from depression, which really came as a rude shock since he's always cheerful and quite a joker. everyone was offering him words of wisdom and encouragement and i really got reminded tt im really very lucky;) ive always felt very blessed for all that i have and i know that i probably now have everything that i can ask for, and i count my lucky stars for tt. so ppl yes count your blessings and you'll be a happier soul:D

and of cos ill be a happier woman if this is mine;) saw it on yenling's msn pic and well it really is a very nice bling

:D womanly indulgence

listen to mummy

my mum had wise words for me yesterday while watching the news: dont get into any bgr lest your boyfriend stabs you with a knife like what the chinaman did to his girlfriend.
to which i retorted: okay then dont get a china boyfriend lah!

wise words indeed.

on a foodier note, xuhao showed me a nice indian restaurant today;) and im going out with edrea later for dinner. everyone wants a piece of me i feel so loved:)

the river runs and the river hides

my house smells really nice now. my mum bought five big stalks of lilies;) really pretty and brightens up the whole house. really should do this more often! doesnt cost much to beautify a house.

i havent touched any of my books im such a lousy reader. i think i had a three hour afternoon siesta today sighh im officially a pig at the rate im eating. my mum cooked alot today, for both lunch and dinner. luckily catered food in uk will be such a turnoff;) i still have hope of not becoming fatty teo.

i hope;)

chasing cars

ive cleared out my cupboard, halfpacked my suitcase, and i listen to my mummy. im a gd girl;)

am super tired now and driving was lk shite but its not suppposed to be! but just went to visit bingybong at nus campus, i alr lk it there cos they have cheap macs! well guess who u'll be seeing more at nus;) anw we all have plans to crash bing's dorm one day (havent told bing yet though:D) and i have plans to crash eug's dorm one day so yay.

lse is having a function at a bar, from 7-9pm. tsktsk they're alr introducing us to drinking, those beerbellies-trotting-drunkards.

had a very nice chat on the phone last nite with eug my no.1 fan(sorry rai i stole ur only member of ur fanclub) and well now im listenin to steph sun's 我不难过 and tt just reminds me of the time in vj when i keep listening to that song over and over again and i nv tire of it. now tt my silly itunes lost all my songs i can only play tt song frm a website. i cant wait to get to eug's itunes.

i borrowed four books and bought one book so im gonna do alot of reading (at least i try) for the next few wks.

im thinking that the nxt few weeks will pass by very quickly and before i even want to ill be whisked off on quantas to a whole new place for a whole new beginning. ive never had the 'i dont wanna leave this plc' kind of mindset, in fact im quite rah-rahing to go;) but its true there are so many things i still wanna do (sleepoverssss) and so many places i still wanna go(sentosa! no zoo hahaha) and so many ppl i wanna meet. lets start with going ladies night;)

deep voice

i woke up this morning and i knew it was gonna be a bad day. but i didnt realise how bad until i said gd morning to my mum and *gasp* i sounded lk skunk!! (only without the body. er. yeah.) and omg so disgusting. but i guess i am much better than skunk cos i didnt need fried chicken wings to hit my bass notes. baah baaaaah baaaaaaah.

and now im down with a slight fever, its just horrible. i can play pleghmball with may, woohoo.

i wanna get well soon!

champion air! *breathes air freshener*

WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS (We Are The Champions) *we are the champions* hahah.

woohoo!

feels great to win musica sacra, really! coming frm a singaporean choir where obviously our culture isnt as strong or deep as the other european countries. furthermore vocally we arent not as oblong faced as them. it is a great feat. im proud of ourselves;) i started crying really badly when i heard tt our marks were beyond 86, but really, didnt expect to be champions.
and so i sang our national anthem for the second time on the olympics stage:)
contemp got gold, which is gd, yay.

hmm the trip has been fun fun fun. i made alot of friends(its just funny how living together makes a difference) and honestly i felt tt there werent any stress on us to perform well, but just to do our best.

and thanks for making me realise the true meaning of singing noman. ;) this is the first time i cried singing it. the only other time i can rem crying lk i did in xiamen was when mary left for usa cos i simply couldnt imagine facing vjchoir without mary as my bitching buddy;( so pls dont think of me as a crybaby! anw i felt really sad cos i cant imagine chorale without the laolaos, and ive long associated chorale with them and them only. sigh one day ill be called laolao too;( but ppl come and go, and tts wad the song is about. so thanks victoria chorale;)

anw nv stay on a floor with all boys. when they pass by ur room they'll press the doorbell, knock on ur door, and run away. worst of all, they stink up ur room! eeeeww. ahha. and its true k our room smelled sour on the day after they played games in our room.

we must have played saboteur at least fifteen times tt night, and polar bear at least twenty times the whole trip.:)

and ill always rem the bitching session outside mingguo's room. man u can really get a six pack with chorale's help

and im the man, and emma's my woman. haha.

and ice cream is heaty, but not fried chicken wings - skunk the hunk.

and i cant beat the queen bitch (damn!) haha.

;) so many stories. but anyway, bottom line is - WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS.

woohoo!

im inimitable, ha. (yup, im lk chanel mascara)

i wanted to go offline alr, but i heard the recording for contemporary and decided to dl stabat's one as well. just to remind myself of how far we've improved in a wk/how we CAN improve in a wk. today's performance was by far, the best run through we've had, but we still have a long way to go baby. its funny how i feel towards chorale, i cant quite put my finger to it. i dont feel attached to it, but all the same i am very affected by it. when we dont do well i feel the frustrations(i know we all want to do well but somewhere its just not happening), but because its chorale i just shut up and listen to what others have got to say(i think age agrees very well with me; as i grow older, my bossiness gets curbed more and more!)and then at dinner i was all thoughtful and quiet. so much so i wasnt hungry at all.
so, just one wk more to flying off and we're all gearing up to go. yay go chorale. me and maylingleemayling will buy the beautifulest small cute sg flags so we can all wave them arnd in xiamen and tell everyone happy national day;D
7th plc huh jimmy;) long oblong faced vowels everyone!

headbutt??

i stayed up the whole night(watched love actually to pass off time) just to see zidane being sent off cos he head butted this stupid italian lk a bull? gosh how silly was tt. and i really thought france wld win cos of the early goal. and they had lotsa chances in the second half and the extra time. argh. Argh. ARGH.

boo. ;(

backstepkick, kick.

haha im super slow but hey everyone shd go sign up for this care to dance thg k? its a volunteer thg which is half lindy hop workshop and the other half u get to teach someone else;) i got to teach cute pri sch kids. my kid was this monkeyish girl called whitney( i had to ask her if she cld sing me a whitney housten song..and she rolled her eyes at me!!) but she was really adorable and i think she had a lot of fun with me;D she kept tryin to show me a dead lizard, and ran off to explore snails and grasshoppers in her sch garden while i think i stood lk one metre away.
anw my grp was fantastically nice. we had three chiobus(AHEM) one tsd girl one rj girl three crazy ri boys one nus mama one nba yaoming one friendly girl and one deep thinker.
and i had my first speed dating experience haha. cos we kept changing partners while learnin the dance and one of our frens commented tt it was alike speed dating. then without missing a beat he turned to his partner and said 'i like to walk, what about you?'aha. ri boysss.

so i came back home tt day with a happy heart and aching legs. i shd be going for more dancing this fri with dearest rai, yay