safe in a crazy world

what can i say, corrinne may was really fantastic. ;) shes one of those ppl who can sing till the cows come home and her voice is still the same old rich, velvety singsong voice. she actually sounds better life for some songs ;)
and the fact that her songs have such beautiful soulwrenching lyrics that ppl can relate to, that just makes her music even more amazing. beams:)
pity i didnt get her autograph today. long story. but hey im going down on fri, apparently shes having some autograph session at the library ;)
really glad i had the chance to hear her sing today. pity how she had to go over to LA, but i guess thats just the price of being arty farty in singapore.

and as long, as you keep this moment shining in the dark. i will be watching over, every beat of your heart :)

according to gra, someday ill find a guy who appreciates me and love me for who i am. haha. *leftclap rightclap leftclap*. ;)

come on and do it

i love spice girls haha. their lyrics are the easiest to memorise.. and they repeat themselves so many times. and it doesnt always have to make sense! :D wonderful chick music. i love it. haha.
just lk how i love my bsb woohoo.

anw happy national day to one n all. i had a great time swimming today. n watching fireworks from my apartment in clearwater. can see a little bit.

i lk this pic. haha. i wan shades.

i think my mum's worried that im nt studying hard enough. which may be true but *shhh* im nt telling her that.

cant wait for corrinne may concert tmr ;) really looking forward to going out. whee. lk some small girl who's been granted an outing huh. cant help it im a small girl at heart i guess. lala.

econs tuition.

haha. i cant stand it when ppl tink im dumb. im a proud person ;) and i do tink he did tink i was dumb. or rather the grp of us. haha. compared to the other grp. oh wells. right. its time to work hard(really) for econs. nt a very difficult thg to do, given the hmwk tt he gives.
wheeeeeee.

fireworks and everythg nice ;)

alfas challenge was quite fun. im glad i made frens there. anw it was gd exposure lah, although i really think theres alot of thgs i can work on if i really wan to go for scholarships. im glad my grp had nice ppl ;) all the reflections just felt lk sv all over again, only that ppl werent exactly willing to talk and after a while we just let the teachers talk. besides the teachers werent exactly great facilitators.. they were kinda secretive. huh.

anyways. ;)
went for rai's book launch! haha. it was really lk a mini ndp at the carnival at marina. the military performance was really quite cool :) although i kept thinkin the tanks wld shoot. as in really shoot. haha. it was so loud, it sounded lk my heartbeat lah. and the fighter planes were really awesome.
ive decided, im gonna have my wedding tea ceremony up in the chinhook. and its gonna carry my wedding car. cool rite. ba wans to arrive to her weddin in a tank (HA).
and the fireworks festival was really beautiful. had four segments to it, the was really quite in synch with the music. i just felt so happy seein the fireworks :) actually i dont tink ive missed a single yr of fireworks, but its just that warm escape-frm-the-world kind of feelin u get everytime u watch it. haha i felt very loved watchin it ;) after which i promptly hugged all the girls n told them i love them! ahah. was nice lah. ;) my fav is still the golden showers.

so yeah. today was quite a happy day ;)

may the mugger bug be with you.

i felt quite hardworking today. really did quite alot of work this afternoon. did get a little restless, but nonetheless was proud of the amt of work i did today. wheewhoo.
cant wait for sunday where i can rest.
i seriously need to go for massage. my body feels.. tired.
to my horror the uk admissions thg is now closed.
i have no idea if that means i cant make anymore changes to the unis i put there.
oh wells.
gonna go support raihana at the carnival at marina tmr ;) she wrote this article which got selected to be published in this book so we're going for some book launch. its quite cool we've got free pink ponchos n noisy rattlers. haha. n newater.
not quite sure wad to expect for tmr. im supposed to go for some alfas challange, and im really feeling weary already.
night ppl ;)

pheww.

yay i just finished with my personal statement. i hope its okay. i even signed off msn so i cld concentrate ;) and when i was thinkin about it in bio rai said i looked scary cos i looked so spaced out. its funny how u spend so much time writing about ur life n urself into one small sheet of paper. and u might not even get through. Hm.
anyways. yay.
haha. im one step closer to uni education. woohoo.

sopsies rock. :)

just read the notes in the file my junior sopsies gave me, n i couldnt stop smiling after reading all those little notes and i thought since i couldnt stop smiling i might as well let the whole world know im smiling. ;) according to siying, its 'a broad smile with 眯眯眼'. :) felt really warm reading them cos some were really pretty personal. its really reassuring to know what they think of me after 7mths of hounding them down for every note n music. but hey they all agree im funny outside choir pracs ;) so tts a gd thg. haha :D
glad to know that ive been useful. ;) now all my hard work seems peanuts.
once a sopsie, always a sopsie. ;)
woohoo.

on cofactors and carbohydrates.

having chem tutorial now hee:) its really quite interesting to see how he teaches. right now we've got tutorial ans printed out for us,for both chem n bio. Hm. trees are dying, save them.!

i feel so cheenafied singing chinese songs. ahha just now me n eug were singing out loud n the indian boys turned arnd to look at us. haha see we make the world more multi racial, we give it diversity. yay.
going for jts later. fish n co. i think our juniors are really nice ppl, yumyum. ahha. i wan sharkie freeze YAY.

met the berkley guys who hosted us in america yesterday. they came our sch for uni presentation. we were so nice we gave them our tshirts. well everytime i attend such talks i feel lost all over again.

and i cant go for macs breakfast tmr. i think howk saboed me. recommended my foot, i didnt even meet him... pfft. arent teachers evil. they could snuff out that i wanted to go for macs breakfast, n had gotten even may to wake up early so we cld all have a happy breakfast. but nooo. no more.

hm having trouble with carbohydrates structures. no food chem for me i guess.

bubblelips.

more ;D

I believe-范逸臣
　　
　　I Believe 当我在你家门口
　　下雨了 你看了也会难过
　　I Believe 你不说话的时候
　　也是一种 其实你在回应我
　　虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂
　　就算牵的不是我的手 我不真的难过
　　不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容
　　有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
　　不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己
　　I Believe 你总会看到我
　　在某个时候 想让你陪伴的是我
　　I Believe 没有回应的时候
　　只不过正好你在电话中
　　I Believe 语音信箱的沉默
　　也是一种 其实你在倾听我
　　虽然不曾说 相信你正在懂
　　就算牵的不是我的手 我真的不难过
　　不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容
　　有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
　　不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己
　　I Believe 你总会看到我
　　在一切之后 留在你身边的是我
　　那延续太久的一时冲动 在你身后的独脚戏
　　聚光灯没亮过 怀疑
　　是自己编造的内容 你从不真的认得我
　　不知道在高兴什么 你的笑容
　　有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
　　不知道在妄想什么 只告诉自己
　　I Believe 一定会有结果
　　在很久以后 留在你身边的是我
　　会陪着你的人是我

lots of nice chinese songs ;)

Open your eyes -张惠妹
Open your eyes just say goodbye
我这个夜晚应该哭个痛快 相遇不算太晚
相爱不算太短 现在正好适合离开
Open your eyes just say goodbye
只是不懂为什么还笑得出来 承诺已经不再
叹息无可计算 再不离开眼泪就要泛滥
每一种决定都像肝肠寸断
每一种选择都是心有不甘
过了今晚你要开始学着勇敢不可知的未来
你要自己承担 每一种决定都像肝肠寸断
每一种选择都是心有不甘
诚实并不代表容许背叛
这样的爱 只是错误的示范

i hate sch. boo.

What comes to mind when you hear..

..snow?: frosty the snowman
..rain?: my o level composition where we had to write out fav sounds. i wrote bout rain;)
..tornado?: cloudburst! *plays the big drum
..summer love?: sandy in grease. summer loving, lalalalaaaa.
..Jon?: haha. garfield?
..Mike?: okay this is gettin funny :) toy story haha. mich!
..Shea?: sheena :)
..banana?: hahahah. orange teo:) they wanted to make me banana teo but i decided orange two was my true calling.
..dizzy?: how bout ditzy. jiaxunn
..Laura?: who names their kids such boring names nowadays
..Juan?: er. hm julian. ?
..car?: yellow beetle!~
..white?: weijie\'s bleached vj uni ;)
..peppermint?: sweet.
..New Found Glory?: always and will be yellow.
..placeb! o?: i had to ask bing wad this meant.
..orange juice?: hahah. orange teo!
..candid camera?: i hate that show.
..sister?: er. i have only one.
..brother?: haha i wish i had one
..hate?: school. argh. school. argh.
..school?: RIGHT.
..President?: gogo power rangers.
..football?: nah. floorball u mean. plus helmet-shinguard-kneeguard.
..rap?: yo i tell u wad i wan, wad i really really wan. so tell me wad u wan, wad u really really wan, i wanna iwanna i wanna i wanna i wanna reallly really really wanna zigazag HA.
..pop?: yucks. britney. sometimes i runnnn.
..rock?: yay erm bobice. ;)and i dont wanna miss a thg!
..punk?: me. my blog. cant rem wad it said tho hahah.
..sex?: female.
..death?: pro choice baby.
..baby?: i lk those that dont cry
..duuude?: dudette. im a feminist.
! ..the end?: im only doing this cos i have HALF AN HOUR until some college day rehearsal thg. Boo.

vjchoir ;) with fondest memories

today was my last public performance with vjchoir. i sang my heart out (ahah maybe oversang for lily's last note ;) but yay felt gd to be at esplanade singing my swansong ;)
my time with vjchoir has come to an end. will hold the memories dear!
zhouchu wrote me a letter which comforted me. ;) i rem tellin myself that i wanted to be a nice senior to the juniors and make a difference.. okay other than my mulaohu'ness during sectionals ;) she wrote that she felt really welcomed by me during carollin, which really put me at ease. those who knew me wld know that this is smthg impt to me, that i want to be a nice senior to my juniors ;) so yay! im glad ive at least made one person's life better hahah :) thank you for makin my day!
and to my dearest sopranos. continue reachin even greater n higher notes ;) will always be supporting u guys frm the bottom of my heart. SOPSIES ROCK. ;)
love, jiayun.

im ms-charismatic-smart-strongwilled-pretty-girl. *grins

yesterday was really wonderful. found myself talkin quite a few ppl, just about everythg. feels gd to be honest doesnt it ;) i just blabbered what i thought of(n ppl blabbered to me too), which was easy cos at certain hours of the night somehow ur brain feels more fried. so im glad i talked to everyone ;)
when i got offline i actually felt that the whole thg was pretty magical. just in one night ive made better frens.
im so blessed, i have many nice ppl as frens. ;)
arent u glad my hair took quite long to dry ;)

me n eug were waitin for bus at ccab on fri after choral workshop and we started playing the beetles game. when u spot a beetle u hit the other person until she spots it too. then we decided to extend it to jaguar n cooper too ;) haha. we looked lk two idiots looking out eagerly onto the roads. n the hitting part was pretty violent. ahha. but hey it was fun. the bus was takin quite long to come. anw it was xumao who invented this game in sv, haha. ;)

ive been wondering who's sonyplaystaion. hmm. ;)

just fly away

its not often that i feel so sedated. no torrid of emotions, or red hot flushes, or overwhelming sense of sadness.
just quiet, revelation.
that i have finally come to terms that he's just nt someone i shd be thinkin of, and that what's past is and will be past, its just nt the same anymore. that it was just my imagination at work.
peace, guys.

floorball!

i need a helmet AND a shinguard when i play floorball. i mean it. i got knocked on the head twice n on the shin once. liren's so gd at flickin balls, he can aim it at my forehead. right in the middle. but then again i hit sianghan in his left eye n im very sorry about it! i offered to treat him ribena more than once but he said no. wad a gentleman haha. oh n julian kinda screamed molest. oh wells.
BLACKSS.

oh n today the new zealand exchange guy did the haka. oh man, he's really gd. i guess they're all very proud of their tradition ;) n it did serve its purpose of scaring ppl away. i was sittin in the front n i could see his eyeballs popping out ahha. it was cool. ;)

anw i just promoted my gd fren to guy no. 1 in this exclusive man-club of mine. this i must proclaim. but in no way does this suggest anything outwardly affectionate. i tink he kinda hinted the promotion for a loonngg time. haha.
anw my fren, dont despair. everythg will be fine ;)

weekend

i feel like ive been through so much just in a short span of two days over the weekend. its funny how this wkend seems exceptionally longgg. i feel as if there was so much going on.

anw im currently uploading all the bsb songs onto my itunes. BSB ROCKS. forever n ever. haha. im nv letting them out of my life ever again. hey kevin is still cool, even tho he's married. n old. n now spouts some suspicious facial hair above his lips. ha.

bsb forever! ;)

no more gd food

have been going out with my sis for the two days, including today. well, she's gonna board a plane in bout 3-4 hrs time, n im already feeling sad. ;( no more free shoppin(thats wad big sisters who earn their own money are for :), no more me telling her bout every little thing that happened in sch, in choir, in my life. no more poking (fun) at her fats HEE:)
enjoy the four more mths u have in melbourne until its time to come back again!

loved the weather today, cool and shady. went cycling at ecp, n the whole time i was singing out loud 'save me' by corrinne may ;) saw alot of adorable kids today at ecp, lk one boy who was having difficulty going up a slope, n when he got on again he was singing to himself. haha. ;) kids can be adorable when they're not whiney.

choir was scary today. i would forget that i have to sing for some parts until the part comes. lk cloudburst. or muge. horrible, bah.

hey vjc performin for syf choral presentation on 25th july, anybody wans tix its just 3bucks. ;) esplanade, 730. whee.

madhouse debate!

had a girls vs guys debate during gp today. topic: Teaching a man to fish is the best way to make poverty history.
n argh, the girls lost. hahah. no wonder too, we didnt have a stand :) we were more pro so we chose to be the opposition team. n our smart stand was that the issue here was whether education is the best way n so as long as we refute that, we can make that our stand. haha.
so chew wasnt androgenous.
but its okay guess the guys did put up a gd fight (ha!). thot yj made very smart comments ;) hey smartypants. grow ur hair lah i promise ill stop laughin at it. so u can look lk a true blood jap punk. haha.

read the book 'the lost boy' today. wow its amazing how grippling the book is. i guess its the harsh realities of child abuse and how unloved this boy was by his own biological parents. there was this particular part that i still tink about after i read it, it was when he got a visit frm his father after waiting for a yr,but his dad wasnt exactly warm to him. man. it was so unfeeling of the father. i really felt very sad for him at that part.. nt that i felt any sorrier at any other parts. thats why you need good social workers around.
haha did i ever say this. ;) when i came back frm silicon valley i felt very inclined to be a social entrepreneur. maybe its got to do with the whole 'i lk to see justice' kinda thg, but oh well. i believe in giving back to society. we shd never get too caught up in our own lives n forget those around us. ;)

anw, rach: ahha. hey u'll be among the first to know if i ever have anyone close to a bf :)

Hmm.

its really wonderful how mondays recharge you. you feel like you've got the energy to just do about anythg that u're expected to do. and when its 9 sets of tuts for each sub for 7 wks minus revisions thats alot. little wonder why i felt so hungry during tutorial.
i live on adrenaline.
heh today i sat beside this vj yr one girl on my trip home. was initially listenin to ipod but took it off n asked for her name. n we talked. heh. i hope i didnt scare her off. ;)
talked to an old fren for a while yesterday, really shd do that more often rather than just wait for ppl to click on my name. ;) but then again there are some frens whom i can nt talk to for a long time n then when we do talk, we talk lk we've been talking to each other everyday. sometimes its amazing how we all manage to do all that. or at least me. i seem to have quite a few of that kind of frens.
maybe its just me, i need my freedom.
which is why i fear that i might just get bored of my boyfriend when i get one. wouldnt wan to see him everyday.
i cant get to view the sv pics, which is irritating. why cant the com read the dvd? hm.

moblog.

i checked it out, i still dont understand wads the rationale behind it but its okay i shall help by voting. always a pleasure to see vjc above rj. whee.

went out with my sis today ;) walked around bugis looking for the shades i broke in usa. why oh why did was i so rough with it. singapore is so ulu there arent any nice shades around, boo. haha. the ones there bear the closest resemblances to it has writings lk gucci on it. eeewww.
n pls if u see my sis dont ask her for the neocard with me in it. i can give u a much nicer pic, i have tons of it! i looked funny in that pic. my face looked bigger than my sis', n my nostrils looked flared. boo.

my sis is going back soon, so thats my reason for nt studying over the wkend. its really fast, but its okay she'll be back in four mths. meanwhile, i get to have the whole room to myself again :)yay!
haha okay i dont mean it that way. definitely the hse is livelier with her arnd, and then theres the part bout my parents bringing us to places with gd food. i definitely will miss her, but then again ill be burying my head so deep into books and notes i wont notice her absence until its all over and she'll be back again. ;)
which reminds me that CHRISTMAS is coming real soon (if u think that way)

and ppl, go for corrinne may concert! ;) 10th aug esplanade. as a bonus, u can get to see me there too. isnt that fantastic?

SLEEP

i need that now. ;) although no tv was fun huh ;) now ive got no more secrets to tell.. oh n dunno who snores when she sleeps.. pinkpinkpink. Hm. ;) ahha okay lah mayybeee it was cheam or mayling. just someone sleeping further away frm me.
haha.

ip open hse was fun. i lk talkin to ppl heh. too bad our helium balloons idea didnt work.. u always see in cartoon where the helium balloons will hold smthg up.. actually in reality, it DOESNT work. boo. our sign board was falling after five mins. but we had fun drinkin helium. ;) for once i sounded quite high pitched haha. shiqing couldnt stop laughin at me hee. benjamin must have drank like ten one-day old helium balloons n it didnt work... ahhaha. was hilarious watching him suck in balloons after balloons n still go a deep 'hello'. :)

oh. n i was talkin to this grp of dunmanites and then the girl went 'i lk ur hair. *grp nods in consensus* its very niceblahblah. did u put anythg in ur hair?'
me: ;'oh thank you. *smiles* er no i dont put anythg in my hair. errr, u wan to know more bout the ip programme??'
ha.
i knew i had nice hair. n no gra, dust do not fly when u pat my hair. its nt thhaatt pong.

i wanna growww olldd withh youuuu.

everything in its time

the river runs and the river hides
out to the ocean and under the sky
i promise you, the answer will come
hold on to patience and watch for the sign
everything in its time.

i often feel like i'm two steps behind
somebody must have moved that finish line
there are a thousand reasons
why i shoyld give up
but i'm stubborin in the things i believe

cause maybe theres another plan
one i still cant see
a little surprise, like your love in my life
funny how time changes how we see

n so the song goes ;)
hai.
for all my noble ambitions, i still feel tied down.

itchy.

ive had two new additions to the number of mosquitoebites/marks on my legs since i came home just half an hr ago. my blood is too sweet, slurp.

haha i stayed awake the whole nite! so proud of myself haha. i was really pretty high i think. although the only one who stayed up too was shawn tan n when he left there wasnt anythg else for me to do but to slp too.

mr chew had a shoppin list for us where he wanted us to get rice for curry. so me n janice the grocery-shoppers bought rice. raw. haha. hey it was his instructions rite haha. luckily there was a rice cooker. ;)

n im a heavenly pig. oink. i did try my best to be sly n bring down eugenia, but nah she was too stoned alr ;)

shoppin at chinatown today turned out to be factory outlet scouting at novena square n united square ;) haha we didnt really know where to go for chinatown. hee:)

n im so sorry rach tt im going deaf! she called me n i was lk going 'huhhh??' ahha. its the deprivation of sleep i tell you. i was pretty much yawning when it came to dinner. im so so sorry! i really feel quite bad.. lets meet up soon before i have to start studying again ;)
so, gd night ppl ;) did had fun at the chalet;)

pods with twix

just reached home nt long ago frm suntec. the others went to watch war of the worlds. well. scientology is no gd. uh huh. nt gonna give money to cruise for tt. anw. dragged eug to go shoppin ;) n i bought a pair of jeans! frm ozoc. just lk tt. okay yes i feel quite bad but its a nice blingbling jeans. n i shall nt reveal teh price here, must think of the health of my readers n nt give them a shock. all i can say is, im definitely nt gonna buy anythg much at tmr's flea market shopping!

i thot i wld feel really liberated after the paper, but somehow it just weighs heavier. haha i guess its just me thinkin tt i can do better. ;)

im popping pods! its nice. it even taste lk twix. lovely sister who bought it. anw she was taking forever to finish one box n start on the other one (its MARS!) so im just helping her wad. n helping her spread her fats onto me. see im sooo nice.

oh n i think i poisoned my classmates today with lollipops from disneyland. apparently it tasted really bad. i feel really bad bout tt! ha. im so sorry k, but its all bock's fault. he was the one who wanted mickey lollipops. so u see, disnelyland is a fraud. they sell lousy lollies.

i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world..
all i need is a good disguise
one where nobody can recognise
all i need is a secret weapon
i've goota have faith
zapping monsters into outer space
im goona be a Superhero:)

embrace my fragility, you keep me safe in the crazy world

haha yay im hooked on the new corrinne may cd. my sis bought it for me ;)
and haha. econs papers took sooo long to finish. but im glad it did.
although i cant say im really optimistic bout my results this time round. but oh wells will work hard ;)
at least i didnt do two essay qns hahah. or think i needed to do two. really ah, the two boys behind..

chalet's tmr! i just hope i wont fall asleep ;)

n no im nt watchin war of the worlds unless i really haf to. im nt helpin cruise spread scientology. boo.
haha no lah. aliens just dont appeal to me. rather save up tt money and go do some SERIOUS shopping. u noe how it pains me to see my sis visit the mango sale four times in three days??? there. ive said it. ;p haha but its okay long wkend ahead.

okay back to chemistry bye guys.

acquire new skills

hey u learn smthg new everyday dont u. i learnt how to write my own stories for bio today. which i tink was really quite cool. haha
n why stop at one if uve alr started rite? ;) tmr's econs, perfect for writing ur own stories too. woohoo.
rocking.

sch again! ;)

haha okay. actually its exams in disguise but hey, school is always good to have isnt it. anyway it was good seeing all my girlfriends again, n we really kept laughing throughout the whole morning before the paper started. well then after that it was quite a different story. ;) anyways papers will always be papers. but i had fun writing my essay today. isnt it cool to write an essay u noe is a trick qn? but i was too lazy to change topic. heh. in fact it was quite amazing we all managed to finish our gp papers, considering that we all used to take 3 hrs just to write one essay.

and i saw the choir girls again! lk after so long.. ;) may looked really really excited to hug me, i couldnt have asked for more. HM. so much for my enthusiasm. n i kept calling gracia. haha. until she ran away frm me ;(

oh n smthg quite funny happened in the morn. i was slinging on my sling bag and it kinda overshot my small shoulders and dropped to the floor.
so embarrassing.

cheese omelette

wanted to give myself a treat this morning when i woke up cos no one was gonna fix breakfast or anythg for me. so i cooked maggie mee and tried to make cheese omelette. at the same time. it was only half a packet of maggie mee so i ended up pouring the whole seasoning in and it was quite salty.. hm. msg overload. then i turned the omelette over, the cheese side? yeah. n it got stuck to the pan n i spent quite some time scrubbing it off.
now we all know how to make cheese omelettes without having to do extra work, yes?
other than that it was quite a nice breakfast. although i probably could do with less kitchen time. ;)
i still need practice huh. haha.
the nxt time its breakfast everyone's gettin cheese omelettes from me! HA.

rainy weather n everythg nice

i love rainy weather. in singapore. u can sit n eat chocs n you wont feel bad about it ;) wonderful.
have been snacking since i woke up. heh.
n u noe wad? i tink im still having jetlag. if i go for afternoon naps ill just sleep the whole afternoon through until its time for dinner. its that bad..

taking a break off studying, and reading my 23 emails in my inbox. n the reflections we all handed in for our sv trip and the results.

oh u guys noe wad mr chew's first name is rite? :) try saying it. when we first heard ms lian calling him, we were all momentarily stunned. then we nearly puked. hahah.

okay. im just gonna study all i can. n go for exams. then play at chalet. then im gonna start serious studying. ;) whee. i love my life.

dream. dare. dive.

that was the theme for my silicon valley adventure trip. before we went there we spent alot of time together preparing for the trip, and it was really quite interesting bcos this before this whole trip we're just a bunch of strangers. so it was really cool to have made more frens n known more ppl on this trip. ;)

i really felt quite inspired whenever we visited someplace new. now that im back, i tell ppl i had a great time but i cant really find the words to explain why. i guess its just the change of environment n you get to see how the difference in culture n people contributes to the success of many companies in silicon valley and in USA. theres smthg open n friendly in the american culture that u'll nv find in singapore. maybe its the people here, maybe its the asian culture. maybe its even the govt. but theres definitely this inertia that you experience here in singapore, that smthg that keeps ppl from accelerating towards excellence or to try out new stuff. for one, in silicon valley, failure is a credit. in singpaore ppl are very concerned bout doing things right.

we were constantly hosted by people who are complete strangers to us, and probably there was this feeling of gratitude towards them that made me feel so happy n warm over there. it was really great bcos there we were gettin to visit big companies lk google apple and intel, and gettin to meet the nus overseas students, and this non profit organisatin called Dalencey street(which i felt most inspired by) and the california college of arts (which was apparently one of the ivy leagues of private art schs in SF)

now that im back all i wan is to get over my exams first ;) then ill talk more bout it hahah. or think more bout wad i experienced over there.
oh n i slept in the bed crack for half the nights over there. the other half, i got the whole bed to myself ;)
n the first night we didnt noe how to turn the shower on so poor us had to use use the bathtub's tap to bathe. ;(
i had red eyes on the first two days, n diarrhoea on the second day there.
on the fifth day or so i was alr running low on cash. so didnt get to spend at factory outlets or disneyland boooooo.
haha. ;)
n i got the 'ms floppy disk award'. ahhah. the tchers made sure everyone had an award ;) u see before we go we had to do a presentatin n i saved mine in a floppy disk. turned out my tcher's laptop had no floppy disk drive so we spent quite some time changing coms n all. then at apple the guy was saying how advanced they were n wad foresight they had when they decided nt to include floppy disk drives in their laptops anymore. n some ppl who rem that incident turned to look at me.. so yes, okay. i noe im outdated.


yup okay. four days to study. its okay im tryin to convince myself that common tests are nthg.. :)
chalet!

leavin on a jetplane ;)

alright okay im almost done. just thinking whether to pack extra clothes cos my mum was lk 'bring more bottoms!' n im lk 'no i wanna travel light!'. anw, hey, i have enough tops. dont worry MUM. ;) and this time im bringin the really small suitcase beams:) ha. no more big suitcases to carry! anw i dont have that much money to shop AHEM.

was quite excited until i thot of the fact that i havent packed my notes inside. wheee.

haha ;)

ive been tryin to do maths the whole day. alright. half the day. n note the word 'trying'. hai why is maths so forgettable.

alright. see u guys in ten days ;)

silly boo-boos :)

happy birthday rosh! purposely bought the sketchbook so u can doodle in it. ;)
im rachel's silly boo-boo! ahha. yay. actually she was just gushing over this guy in my sch who is so not cute if you get to know him, so i just went 'but he's such a silly boo-boo!'. so yup. now shes calling me that. oh i dont care. RACHEL! muacks. haha.
the beach has become our gathering plc every yr. and the same spot. and i still need to be reminded how to get there after going there for four years for cross country in tk, and the subsequent gathering after that. man, im really good with directions ;)
was feelin a little ditzy in my skirt, dunno why.
anw haha. every yr theres a guy at our gathering. so nxt yr, is kinda lk, my turn. ahha oh wells. im still waiting for prince charming to drop from the sky! which isnt going to happen so im just waiting. ;)

lunch was interesting. we celebrated mr chew's bdae ;) which was nice and really cheap. haha.

cant wait for sv trip.
;)

grr.

was feeling alot of emotions just now and i thought i shd just let it all out here instead of keep thinking about it.
loving someone doesnt mean you can make use of her and then dump her after uve ruined her. thats in my sense.
the amount of, oh man, hate, that i felt towards you when i heard the news.
its just not right. its unfair. but its not up to me, nt up to anyone, cos it was her life, and it still is, so we cant do anythg about it except to give her support.

So if you're telling me to tell my best friend to go for some guy whom i have a really bad impression of (not bcos of others telling me bad stuff, but bcos of she herself telling me wad a bastard he is), well you cant expect me to not do anything. although i think ive done enough unhelpful stuff. neither can you tell me that nothing i do can make her change her mind bcos love is blind, blah. nor can YOU say that you dont care what your friends think bcos you're not the kind to get swayed by your friends opinions if you really like this guy.

bullshite.

sleepovers

haha im addicted to luxury i think. ;) spa is supposed to relax you.. but i tink it has quite a sedating effect. maybe its just me. ahh i like bubbles. blob blob.

anw i dont tink ive ever felt this bloated before. but yeah, aircon+food+bed dont make a very good combination. i still feel like im nt back yet. but haha, we had fun ;) winkwink nudgenudge.

BIG HUG!

dempsey hut

sneeze. sniff. shudder. ;(

went out for great dinner. this small little place tucked away in the green wilderness near botanic gardens. it just rained, so it felt pretty cool there. the food was really quite nice. my chicken chop was great! i just love pepper.. ;) just mask everythg away with pepper. the whipped potato was gd too, until i tasted the cheese in it and i got quite sick of it. just like wad 7-11 did to their fantastic instant whipped potato (bah!).
durin the dinner my mum was askin me to look at these two boys sitting behind me. i was lk 'got boys in my sch ask me look at boys here.' then i concluded hey, boys in my sch arent worth lookin at much too. then i started tellin her bout wad those scums did on fri tt made rai quite angry. Then my wonderful dad went 'eh jiayun, watch me!' and he did the 'look-i-can-touch-the-flame-but-no-pain' thing. n when he was done he had that goofy prideful grin. my mum started laughin and i was lk 'DAD ur no different from those scums!'
Gosh. boyss.

after dinner my mum had a great idea to go bedok to go look for shoes n toiletries for my sv trip. saw the shoe i wanted to buy long ago! had a gd mind to buy both colours :) but both were the last pair and one size bigger so we decided to go look at the other bata stores my mum claimed there was in bedok. when we came back the pink one was gone. GONE. hai. so i bought the white one, n i even had to wash it when i came back. but nvm. im satisfied. :)

go study peeps!

yo vjc.

went for quite a bit of finals yesterday and today :)
the only time ill ever be interested soccer is when vj plays. n i get to watch it live.
at least i got to laugh at that mj boy who was dancing arnd the ball until he fell. HA. ;)
hockey girls played well ;) made me wonder whyyy didnt i go join a sports cca n make my life more interesting, even though i might just be bench warmer.
hockey boys were pretty gd today i thot. put up quite a gd fight, esp in first half. that'll teach mr seet to nt coach them lah. pfft. given their self coach status, im really happy they got this far. ;) well done!

vj cant get far without the girls. :)

hello all my darlings

how am i copin with sch now, u may ask.

wad sch? haha. ;) my principal's pretty bent on giving us half days and day offs, so i dont think ill be gettin much school this wk. but that doesnt stop the A's from coming.

i realised i havent even uploaded sov pics! ahha. champion.

after the horrible terrifyin news that apple doesnt support yellow socks, ive had to think of ways to keep my ipod nice and warm. brought to sch today and voila, got quite a few scratches alr. but its okay. i figured those tissue packs can actually store it quite nicely. ive got a polka dotted one albeit old. ;)

was listenin to adibah's mp3 today and started singing like some drunkard while some of my junior class ppl were in the class. haha. so fun. ;)

post sov

sov was great. sopsies rock. i have the recording on my md if anyone wants to hear.. my mum had quite gd seats :)

i guess i felt relief more than anythg after the concert. i know the girls were pretty upset and they controlled themselves very well on stage ;) the only two times i felt warm n fuzzy on stage was.. haha. teresa teng medley. i realised how much gab actually contributed to the choir, like he wrote the ending and all. how the concert would have been empty if we the musico didnt put in the effort. how the concert was going to end and all our efforts for the past half yr, its just gonna be over, just like that.
n the next was when the seniors came on stage. i realised how great it was that the victorian spirit still lives on, as long as the song isnt forgotten by the new members.
;)

listened to bing's cd yesterday and read all the notes in the box again. my player's always on shuffle and the first song that came on was Taufik's 'I Dream'. was pleasantly surprised and i felt.. hey we really share alot together. throughout the whole cd i felt as if i went on this emotional rollercoaster. a love that will last, hakunamatata :), osjusti, n the song we sang for sdd. ahha. i felt old and weary, and really sadddened by the fact that there is no more reason for me to stay back in sch 3 times a wk until the sun goes down, being crazy with those fantastic girls.
am so thankful for the friendship. maybe im slow in these emotional stuff :) but yeah. now is my turn to cry!
love u all!

apples!

my dad got me an ipod ;) and its free :) whee :) cant wait to get a yellow casing or smthg. yay now i hve a reason to buy more cds. ;) support originals.

come see me look lk taitai. 17th May 2005 :) esplanade 730.

a love that will last

thanks to shawnyy for sendin me the song. hahah. ok jaz dont kill me i just do that to irritate him.

today when we were singin yeru i suddenly thought of the movie 'tha pianist'. i think those who've watched it before would agree with me that is a very powerful film. watching it once is enough for me. i can still rem the germans throwing that old crippled man over the window just like tt. ahh.

what is love.
how do u love someone you dont even know about?
or love someone even though u noe he's hurt you before, and he's a different man now than he was before, durin your 'happy times'.
its okay to cry, but was he there to share ur pain.

im nt that magnanimous. i just hope that my beloved frens would eventually make the decision that makes them happiest. ;)

I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last

Say that you love
Say im the one
Don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
I don't do drama
My tears don't fall fast
I want a love that will last

[Chorus]
I don't want a just a memory
Gives me forever
Don't even think about saying good-bye
Cuz i want just one love to be enough
And remain in my heart till i die

So call me romantic
Oh i guess that must be so
Theres something more that you oughta know
I'll never leave you
So don't even ask
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love that will last
I want a love that will last

So theres little more that i need
I wanna share all the air you breathe
I'm not the kinda girl to complicate the past
I want a love that will last

Forever
I want a love the love that last
Always
I just want a love that will last
Want a love that will last

tadaa. my career choices.

after talkin to brandon today, i made a very important decision.

im NEVER, EVER, gonna be a teacher. i swear i could have just vomitted blood on my keyboard. hai. i guess i just dont haf the patience for it.

to be nice ppl, u guys shd all learn manners and how to reply to such negative words.
repeat after this:
"no jy, u rock! its nt u.. it prob was just brandon. really. ur a GREATT person! ur simply fabulous! whee!"

;)
haha. afterwhich i promptly told brandon i no longer wan to fren him., but he still owes me ten ribenas. yumyum.

n irvin dont try to trick me i noe wad velociraptor is. im not a dinosaur!

oh n for napfa. i tried singin sov songs. leo lasted me for two rounds. (two gd rounds) afterwhich i tried chimpara but i gave up coz i didnt noe the words.
after that. i kinda erm, walked. hahaha. but i still passed. so. yeah. phew.no more napfa. nope im nt whining bout pe, dont get me wrong. im just glad i went thru 15 mins of strenuous exercise.

osjusti

heh i have quite a bit of testssss comin up. pretty worrying since i dont think i really know that much yet. anw im still in the 'get choir over first' mood. so. :) heyy come for choir concert!

it really feels great to just get together and sing songs that we sang before. when i sang osjusti, oh man, hm. u just feel so enlightened. haha. the other songs were really just for fun. lk, i dont even noe if im singing my own part or the altos' for karimata. haha. i guess.. im really thankful for my batch. we've went thru alot together and had many great experiences together. let us end our choir erm days(haha) with a great concert!

when singin old songs, most of the time i was just jumpin arnd or tryin to dance abit. ahhaah. silly rayner saw me and tried to point me out to irvin.. but ha, i was fast. ;)

cant believe i still have napfa tmr.

and oh man there shd be a rule about guys whining. u wont believe singaporean guys nowadays. ask them to do smthg and they'll just whine lk girls. okay so maybe THIS is gender equality, not girls matching up to guys but guys matching up to girls. great, whee. go girl power.

syf. ;)

well i cant believe i actually sat around SCH in my gown and did nthg for goodness knows how many hours.

im actually happy that we got wad we wanted. i think it was the best of us already. honestly if u think about it, we always think we can do better but we never did.. and this is already quite gd lah. so ppl, lets rejoice ;)

gives ppl more reason to watch us. ;)
n hey, theres this syf perf concert where the better choirs and bands get to perform. esplanade. july smthg.
if u dont wan to go for two concerts.. just come for one! come for Symphony of voices ;) whee.

anw.
i just wan to be loved for who i am. wilful or nt, i am merely myself. its as simple as that.

breathes.!

i finally got down to listenin the cd irvin burnt for me. hm i keep hearin this puppy yelping sound, heh. im nt crazy. although i swear everytime i close my eyes i go 'senjakala' but hey, its normal isnt it.

i guess this time round i feel better. ive really grown up ;) gracia said i was wavin my hands abit too much today though *wave hands* honestly i dont know wads she talkin about *wavehands*

if ur readin this at ten pm on tues night, u DIE!

love u guys. ;) cmon we can do it.

anger management

sometimes i dont believe myself. i felt so different wad, ten mins ago? oh man the things i really hate about people. maybe im the kind of person u have to know me to understand me but hey, i thot i made myself quite clear. oh man oh man i was really gettin quite pissed just now.
if only u noe its you who made me so pissed.

breathes.

anw. grr. i feel happier knowin tt i have a new quilt tonight. oh n the cover's pretty too, got hearts and all over it. its the summertime, and the weather is fine, u can stretch right up and touch the sky ;)

Coughcought*bloodsplatter

im contributing to the country's economy. what else can u say when one visits the doc three times in a month?

its horrible to sing and cough at the same time. most of the time i dont, i just dont sing and try to breathe properly. funny thg is, i seem to cough alot for sunset. maybe i push harder for the other two songs. hm. but its still pretty embarrassing when u cant even hit the high notes and some squeaky sound comes out. good thg im thick skinned when it comes to such stuff. i just act as if nthg happened. im getting pretty gd at it.

im gettin less than 6 hrs of sleep. i woke up last nite thinkin it was time to wake up alr. and voila, the time was bout 4.30am. whee.

was just telling janice that i was reflecting on my relationships with others. i realised, ive lost quite a few friends. which i felt quite sad upon thinkin about it. it might be true that ive gained some really wonderful friends, but then the loss is there and who's fault shd it be, i really dont know. maybe its just natural that we would all drift apart and one day cease to talk to each other at all because of the different lifestyles that we have. but i dont see hows tt a problem if i can keep in touch with friends whom i dont even see everyday. bah anyway im just writing random thoughts *whispers*imjsuttryingtogetawayfromwork*

yup. ;D

to what extent should vocal trainig be taught?

i miss writing gd gp essays.

There is a general consensus among those musically inclined that some form of guidance should be given to those need help in vocal techniques to save us all from a bad headache. However, the approach taken towards administering this help should be kept in check and only given to those who has the motivation to better their vocal techniques. Therefore, there should not be total reliance; neither should there be no help at all, since it is almost impossible to achieve anything without any form of knowledge on how our vocals work.

Vocal technique is something one can acquire through lessons built upon learning how vocals work and how we can achieve good singing techniques through the work of various factors. It is important that information is to be given so that they can learn how to use those techniques when singing; otherwise they will be ignorant of the various techniques needed for good singing. There are vocal teachers who specialise in this area and are paid a high fee to teach, signifying the importance of correct and good vocal training. Only with the acquired knowledge on vocal techniques can one sing reasonably well. However without the motivation to do better, the student may not learn fully from the lessons; that is to say the student do not continually try to improve his/her singing by diligent practice due to motivation of oneself. Thus a large part of learning is dependent on the student's attitude towards learning. Therefore, there is a limit to the amount of help that can be given.

All these work under the assumption that the students do know their music. This is often not true for all and thus all reasoning to give vocal training do not stand as the student fails to perform the piece even with the best vocal techniques as the music is not complete without the notes. Furthermore students may not be conscious of using what they have learnt when singing and these may lead to inefficiency as time is wasted on reminding them on what is the correct way to sing. When the choir is reminded to give a more classical sound when singing, the effect is almost achieved right away, which goes to show that the choir is capable of producing the right sound. They are therefore guilty of not reminding themselves at all times during singing to sing the right way. Therefore, the factor resulting in their poor vocal technique is due to their own failure to remind themselves constantly to use the right vocal techniques, which they already know of.

However, not everyone is perfect. There are times where we falter and it merely reflects the humanity in us. Gentle reminders may go a long way as people's welfare may differ from their preference. So long as there is a chance that those on the receiving end of the training are eager and sincere to learn, the results will definitely be positive.

Thus it is obvious that vocal training is essential, but only under the assumption that those on the receiving end are motivated and do take the initiative to go one step further than performing well during the lesson so that the lesson learnt can have a deep impact and can be inculcated into their vocal techniques for a long period of time, as long as they keep singing. The right learning attitude plays an important part in this and should form the basis of all when taking on lessons. It is thus very clear that although vocal training is essential, there is a limit to the effects of it as a large part of it is due to personal reasons that others cannot control. Therefore the effects of vocal training can only impact one to a certain extent, the rest is up to himself/herself.

:)
i need my slp.

feeling so much.

hm. i have so many thoughts in my head.

mel gibson is really the perfect man for the movie 'wad women wants'. honestly! i love that scene where he does all the sinatra stuff. swoons. why arent there any of these men around anymore?

and.. cancer cell symposium reminded me of how much more i need to learn before i can be a professional. the scientists giving the talks were really pretty amazing, the way they knew their stuff and all. i felt as if i was taking up space there.. they should have let my space to someone who knew their stuff more than i did. All i could do there was try nt to fall asleep and appreciate what they had done for cancer research for the past decades. and wads amazing was we met the guy who discovered the p53 tumor suppressing gene. he's still alive! and alot of wad we learn about cancer really happened during the past few decades and there are so much new research thats unpublished, so.. i felt pretty honoured to be in near vicinity of such amazing people. although i really did not understand a single word.

i wonder how was the econs test today..
i still have chem spa this wed.. thurs? wed.

im thinking.. i shd try to stay neutral more often. but sometimes u just cant help but get urself involved in making rash decisions which doesnt even go thru ur head for a split second. sometimes ur thinkin u shd just go for it. sometimes u think the decision's nt in you. sometimes u think the whole world is so inflexible and you get this suffocating feeling about how everything is being run. sometimes u get so fed up you just wan to scream into that person's head. sometimes u get so confused u just wan to ask that person outright whats exactly are you thinking of.
and sometimes u just dont wan to think about it anymore.

if i cld tell the world just one thg, it wld be. we're all okay. and nt to worry coz worry is wasteful n useless in times like this. i wont be made useless. i wont idle in despair. i will gather myself around my faith, coz light does darkness most fear. my hands are small i know but they're nt yours they are my own. and i am never broken.

peekapoookaapfft.

HEY concert is on 17th :)

ahh. for all the goodness of spa, im glad its over. i hope out of my three tries i have at least ONE really good one.

went paragon after that, walked arnd and had fun in borders looking at polka dotted stuff. i really lk dots over stripes. and borders have such nice books! im gonna buy a colouring book for the guys in my class to write as autographs. hahaha. ;) NOTE that i didnt call u guys scums.. :) im trying to be nice here!

then i manged to get to tk in half an hours' time (the wonders of singapore transport system) and listened to tkchoir. i tink its funny how after two yrs ppl still see me and still feel.. haha scared? i was talkin to the head prefect before i went choir, and the other prefect was lk.. 'hmm. scared of u.' i walked into the choir room behind steph n rach tan, and shuwei was lk 'wah, stressed.' and for quite some time she was just squattin on the floor looking at me.. weird.

yay ive got tix to go hear them on fri. whee. but now got silicon valley meeting SPOIL MY DAY so now i cant go home i guess. go music fest in teeshirt n shorts lah. oh but may offered to let me go her hse n use up all her perfumes. whee.

Symphony of voices 2005

Vjchoir presents... Symphony of voice 2005! ;)

Venue: Esplanade Concert Hall
Date: 15th May 2005, Tuesday(if im nt wrong)
Time: 730? :)
Ticket prices: $20, $30, $40. tickets are exclusive of sistic ticket charges.

hey frens. go buy tix fast so u get gd n cheap seats k? ;)

Me and mr phlegm

A short story about my life.

Mr. Phlegm has been pretty persistant and sticky, as of short. He started by partnering up with Mr.Sorethroat to get onto me, but now Mr. Sorethroat is gone so he's on his own. Sometimes he tries to disguise himself into Mr. Mucus and tries to make me like him. Although im really attracted to the yellow colour, i think i prefer something more solid. So, im still waiting for Mr. Mucus to solidify.
Ms. Mum gave me a really PAINFUL backrub today, with the ever trustworthy Mr.Vicks. I think its making me feel a little bit better, although Mr. Cold-weather doesnt make me feel any better. I've always had a secret crush on Mr. Rain, but honestly, he came at a bad time today. Furthermore he brought that irritating friend of his, Mr. Cold-wind. Brrr.
Ms. Nose feels like shes going to drop off soon, but i hope she doesnt. It really is such an important part of the face dont you think so.
Ms. Brain thinks its time to sleep.
goodnight :)

the day the dentist took my wisdom away

im in so much pain. aiyo i thot i wont feel so horrible, but i am! the pain is pretty much there all the time...painkillers dont work.

anw ahha my dentist was quite young and handsome ;) too bad the chair couldnt recline so i was in a rather uncomfortable position. can u imagine.. going thru the op sitting up. i was rather nervous hee.

pain pain pain!

im wiser :)

haha birthdays are supposed to make u wiser. well. is droppin ice cream on ur fren's blouse and skirt and droppin ur wallet and everythg arnd u after that considered wise? :)

thanks for all the birthday wishes today! im a happy girl today :)

got a card frm my sis, which made everythg more special:) its really tough spendin a bdae without her.

n of coz frm rach too! haha. it even came with ur graduation pic.. the one i liked! muacks love ya babe. cant wait for u to come back ;)

enjoy the pics on my blog. picsa rocks.

oh n i tink my girlfriends wan me to get hitched soon or smthg. ive got a cleo mag with the bachelors ;) and a book on finding mr right haha. n of coz kinky underwear to go along with it. haha. one button two button, strawberry blonde!
n im definitely gonna use the yellow doormat ;)

haha look at may ;) 

ooh shades :) 

no grp cheer

choir camp rocks. ;)

amazing race was really quite well organised. except for the part where our grp's clue got blown into the singapore river, but theres nthg we can do bout wind so.. :) i cant believe how gd the guys in my grp are with buses around town, its really quite amazing. how they ever knew all the routes and where to go. i really must learn frm them. basically i just followed them around. ;) and oh we got the best grp :) yeah yeah yeah.

night walk was gd. although i chickened out and didnt wear my blindfold hee. but i completed the walk and i tink its just as gd lahh.

im glad the whole choir room key incident turned out okay. ;) honestly i was quite scared for gracia.. but then again, im glad this whole thg happened. im really glad how helpful ppl are, and how we jsut kept tryin and never gave up. HEY u can never ever get this in games or man-made situations, so.. ;) i love choir. i really do. its these incidents that u will look back in life n laugh about it. although it really wasnt a funny affair. oh and *blinkblink* i tink i am repressin too much anger in me nowadays. esp towards incompetent teachers. blinkblink stareatboobs.

and the stupid wet game in the mornin was hilarious lah. stooopid gracia had to go sabotage my grp and steal our fantastic idea lah! although haha i tink our plastic bag got holes tts why the water kept comin out.. ahha. well if gracia hadnt provoked me we wouldnt have gotten so wet. bah. :)

im glad we had two hours extra and i got the chance to work with the yr ones without gettin them to come down for extra practice. honestly, they sounded gd. but maybe as wad calvin said, we have the potential but we're nt using it. i really tink so too. if u sing in the same way u wld during warm ups, i dont see how u can sound so different.. SO i was quite pleased with the sops. i really am now much more confident that we can achieve wad we wan to bcoz i know they have the pontential for it.
lets go sopsies. :)

oh and horny night. girls will never ever win it lah. guys just look so hilarious with big boobs, esp with they dance arnd with them. basses shd learn frm them n stop havin long balloons muaha. SOPS ROCK altho haha we cant act to save our lives. but it was really bad bcoz no one laughed. at all! oh man. oh well. :)

choir rocks. whee ;)

in the still of the night

choir camp tmr. cant wait. ;) im dont care im gonna wear shades!! ahah.

got my first bdae pres today, must say the present is really smthg ive been eyeing. so yupp. :)

im supposed to be doing techniques of genetic manipulation.

ur my butterfly, sugar, baby.

choir this morn was, in short, short.
im proud of my sop yr twos, am really grateful for them being who they are and being in my section.
but i wasnt very nice to the sop twos today. i tink they really deserved my treatment, bcoz im basically very disapointed. but i really hope they'll improve, ill make sure of that!

went nus open hse.
bing asked the med person straight in the face bout rjc n hcjc ppl havin a higher chance of gettin in. i totally applaud her attitude man.. ;) well after that i was tinknin alot. i cant imagine myself in an environment where im basically gonna be the odd one out, bcoz i but its really cheap to study med in singapore..

anw i just talked to rosh on the phone. u noe, i really never expected her to be doing all these.. my darling is really growin up ;) at one point of time when she was talkin i was feelin so warm that i felt this funny feeling at my throat. i noe we'll all one day have our own lives, and i trust that ill be her darling, always. :)

ur my butterfly, sugar, baby.

choir this morn was, in short, short.
im proud of my sop yr twos, am really grateful for them being who they are and being in my section.
but i wasnt very nice to the sop twos today. i tink they really deserved my treatment, bcoz im basically very disapointed. but i really hope they'll improve, ill make sure of that!

went nus open hse.
bing asked the med person straight in the face bout rjc n hcjc ppl havin a higher chance of gettin in. i totally applaud her attitude man.. ;) well after that i was tinknin alot. i cant imagine myself in an environment where im basically gonna be the odd one out, bcoz i but its really cheap to study med in singapore..

anw i just talked to rosh on the phone. u noe, i really never expected her to be doing all these.. my darling is really growin up ;) at one point of time when she was talkin i was feelin so warm that i felt this funny feeling at my throat. i noe we'll all one day have our own lives, and i trust that ill be her darling, always. :)

ur my butterfly, sugar, baby.

choir this morn was, in short, short.
im proud of my sop yr twos, am really grateful for them being who they are and being in my section.
but i wasnt very nice to the sop twos today. i tink they really deserved my treatment, bcoz im basically very disapointed. but i really hope they'll improve, ill make sure of that!

went nus open hse.
bing asked the med person straight in the face bout rjc n hcjc ppl havin a higher chance of gettin in. i totally applaud her attitude man.. ;) well after that i was tinknin alot. i cant imagine myself in an environment where im basically gonna be the odd one out, bcoz i but its really cheap to study med in singapore..

anw i just talked to rosh on the phone. u noe, i really never expected her to be doing all these.. my darling is really growin up ;) at one point of time when she was talkin i was feelin so warm that i felt this funny feeling at my throat. i noe we'll all one day have our own lives, and i trust that ill be her darling, always. :)

ur my butterfly, sugar, baby.

choir this morn was, in short, short.
im proud of my sop yr twos, am really grateful for them being who they are and being in my section.
but i wasnt very nice to the sop twos today. i tink they really deserved my treatment, bcoz im basically very disapointed. but i really hope they'll improve, ill make sure of that!

went nus open hse.
bing asked the med person straight in the face bout rjc n hcjc ppl havin a higher chance of gettin in. i totally applaud her attitude man.. ;) well after that i was tinknin alot. i cant imagine myself in an environment where im basically gonna be the odd one out, bcoz i but its really cheap to study med in singapore..

anw i just talked to rosh on the phone. u noe, i really never expected her to be doing all these.. my darling is really growin up ;) at one point of time when she was talkin i was feelin so warm that i felt this funny feeling at my throat. i noe we'll all one day have our own lives, and i trust that ill be her darling, always. :)

ur my butterfly, sugar, baby.

choir this morn was, in short, short.
im proud of my sop yr twos, am really grateful for them being who they are and being in my section.
but i wasnt very nice to the sop twos today. i tink they really deserved my treatment, bcoz im basically very disapointed. but i really hope they'll improve, ill make sure of that!

went nus open hse.
bing asked the med person straight in the face bout rjc n hcjc ppl havin a higher chance of gettin in. i totally applaud her attitude man.. ;) well after that i was tinknin alot. i cant imagine myself in an environment where im basically gonna be the odd one out, bcoz i but its really cheap to study med in singapore..

anw i just talked to rosh on the phone. u noe, i really never expected her to be doing all these.. my darling is really growin up ;) at one point of time when she was talkin i was feelin so warm that i felt this funny feeling at my throat. i noe we'll all one day have our own lives, and i trust that ill be her darling, always. :)

hai,

i cant believe it. im 18 and i still lose my pencil case. LIFESNOTFAIR. hurmph. today i was lookin for it and i cldnt find it but i didnt tink anythg was amiss. i really should get this chain that will chain all of my stuff to me. *pouts.

truth, beauty, freedom, and above all.. LOVE;)

yeah went marina south for picnic. the wind was very strong so it actually felt very nice sittin there under the shelter and eating japanese rice. went with my parents and my aunt uncle and a cousin. i want to grow old like tt. its really a very nice plc. big spaces with some bit of sea, but u can see the tall towers of the city so u dont feel very out of place.. haha. im a big city kid.

was having bouts of miss-my-sister symptoms today, but got over it quite fast. hope she fine.. ;)

hey hey

i thot no one reads my blog anymore! than today i checked it and saw all the comments. ;) MARYYY haha love ya ;)

i just had macs breakfast, and ive been sleepin really early the past two nights. wheewoo im goin to grow white and chubby yeah!

tmr better be a halfday man. ive already planned what to do tmr.. ahem MICH. ;) but dont forget we'll be havin choir k..

march hols starts nxt wk! oh man its so fast. hmm choir camp, syf, silicon valley. A's. felt it yet anyone?

victorian's day.

hai wad a joke. victorian's day my foot. not that im anti victoria, but really the whole affair was quite sad and pathetic. there wasnt anybody in sch! i mean, nt even our present victorians. we sang to a cold and not very filled pt. whee how exciting.

anw OHMAN bing called me someone crazy bout nymphs. HEY i checked it out IM NT. dont make me sound weird..

oh and the last two days i was kinda stuck with may. n i found out rather interesting stuff about her. (i tink she has a crush on me, hmmm) well basically she's been stalkin me, frm career fair to the uk forum, and even today too. and she wrote the same words for vocab as me! isnt she scary.. ;)

haha anw today we dragged gracia to town. literally. we just took her wallet and bag and ran off. then she got on the bus and suggested that we played the guessin number game. guess wad she guessed it all correct! so we kept hitting her in the bus.. ahah. her success rate was 8 out of 10. shes really good...

then i had dinner with my nephews. okayy the eldest refused to eat coz it was chinese food. he just sat there with his arms crossed and sulked. i kept askin him to try the food and after a while i just gave up. stupid spoilt kid. but anyway he ate roti prata later (???) then they came my hse and played everythg. frm badminton to masak masak ahha. they are so monstrously adorable.

OH and i got a1 for chinese. YEAH. ;) see i not only haf a cheena face, im cheena too!

rain oh rain.

the weather forecast said it wld rain today. yeah, when i reached home it did. so i was lookin lk an idiot tuggin a big grey sweater arnd sch today. boo.

choir room is airconed.
FINALLY. it pains to see the whole stretch of rooms gettin airconditioned except our poor little choir room. no more ;D

n UENG just proved my pt today. we were supposed to write essay in class today. FOR WAD? when he hasnt even started markin the last essay we handed in donkey years ago. i noe coz i asked him. he had the cheek to tell me havent started markin lah. arghhhhh.

i tink ppl who are irritatingly thick skinned and free loafers are highly annoying creatures to me. we shd all be doin smthg useful, nt living off others lk its smthg so natural to do. yup.

haha mich passed the complainin bug to me ;D

COUNTONME

for the first time in two wks, im havin homecooked food. three cheers for me n my dad pls! ;) haha okay hm. maybe tts a sign for me to go learn cookin or smthg..

heh i still tell gracia i tink i kinda screwed up our duet by goin too fast. BUT otherwise it was quite okay lah. at least ppl still tell me they tink i sounded quite nice muaha.

finally, i can go back to being serious about work. yeah. woo.
now i gotta go memorise scores maybe. stupid victorian day.

oh n scholarship talk today was really wow, inspiring. note the sarcasm. i tink wad may says is true, goin for all these talks just makes me more confused than ever. wad do i really wan as my career? and everytime i think my promos arent too bad, i look at the overall results again and my ego gets quite deflated. i really shd start workin harder man.
first up we shd all get two econs teachers. one for backup when ueng goes away(forever n ever.)
or i shd just stop complainin bout the teachers. afterall my parents paid them to teach me. econs: inefficient usage of resources.
which then implies that theres this total waste of time called tutorials, during which i could be doin smthg more productive.

u see, i do learn smthg durin econs after all. hallelujah.

;)

sarah mclachlan - when she loved me

When Somebody Loves Me Everything Was Beautiful
Every Hour We Spent Together Lives Within My Heart
And When She Was Sad I Was There To Dry Her Tears
And When She Was Happy So Was I
When She Loved Me

Through The Summer And The Fall
We Had Each Other That Was All
Just She And I Together Like It Was Meant To Be

And When She Was Lonely I Was There To Comfort Her
And I Knew That She Loved Me

So The Days Went By I Stayed The Same
But She Began To Drift Away
I Was Left Alone
Still I Waited For The Day
When She'd Say "I Will Always Love You..."

Lonely and forgotten
Never thought she'd look my way
She smiled at me and held me just like she use to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When Somebody Loved Me Everything Was Beautiful
Every Hour We Spent Together Lives Within My Heart
When She Loved... Me...

oh. n jts today was fun. hai, my class simply rocks. ;)

i did it. ;)

haha yup. i got thru my solo. okay yes so i mumbled through my introduction and the whole pt went 'wad??' until janice had to say 'autumn leaves lah damnit' so loudly. ok so the mic was slippin lower and lower as i sang. ok so my leg was trembling (ha i cant control that.. ;D ) and yeah i cracked at a note but nt at my high notes ;) see im in choir for a reason.. ;) and im a sop sl for a reason too! anw i was scared silly before i went in the pt, which was after bio spa. im glad i had ppl there to encourage me, really. i wld have just died if no one cared about me..
So. im more happy that i had frens there for me when i performed, i really love u all! even my scumy class guys came.. i was so shocked to see them seated in the first row (of all places).
so yup. thankful for all my frens ;)

haha

im evil. ;) look at gracia's blog in case ur wondering.

anw she came over my hse to do musicfest. we finally chose a nice enough sing (yeah!) and it doesnt sound too bad.

nxt time gracia eats maggie mee with u, pls look closely at the way she eats her noodles. its damn ugly... she slurps up her noodles and chews it with all the noodles still hangin out of her mouth. i wish i had a camera.. then she eat all my famous amos cookies and we went into an argument on whether its choc chip on cookie or the other way round. coz u cant taste the cookie dough anyway whenever u eat cookies.. so it shd be the dough tts holdin the choc chips together rite.

haha anw it was fun havin her in my hse. and for ur info i havent done any hmwk the whole day :)

sex edu

we nearly bluffed janice n adibah that for small grp discussions we were supposed to tell the class bout sexual positions. they half believed us.. then they were kinda convinced when we really played along. UNTIL mrs lim came n asked us smthg lk 'so what have you discussed?' mann i was wavin my hands at janice not to say anythg and we just laughed lk mad. oh man. ;) im sorry sch is boring u need to spark it up man. hahaha.

sigh happy valentines

sent my sis off today. ppl kept askin me if im sad or nt, and i wld say 'i wont cry lah!' heh. and i didnt cry, although i really wanted to (theres this silly thg called 'jy's pride') but then again im tellin myself she's studyin over there. so.. its nt a bad thg. but i came home and saw her stuff all over the plc (she where got pack her stuff) and she wont be here to use them anymore. no one's gonna be touchin those piano books anymore, no one's gonna be usin tt wooden table in the study room, her clothes drawer will remain the same for a yr before she comes bck.. ohman. i just hope shes okay there. ;)

xin nian kuai le!

i haf choir prac on fourth day of lunar new year. hooray.

had xcountry yest. i was official. eug won a badminton racket. we were all screaming. ;) then we went out shoppin. oh man there were sales everywhere! and we were supposed to meet rai at pp but we were late, but while walkin to busstop we saw the big orchard esprit with the magic words 'up to 70% sale' and ahhaha we detoured and went shoppin and told rai we wld be late. then we told the boys we were makin ezlink card(just lk wad nic did durin class chalet bleahh) heh so we didnt haf to pick the yr ones up. which we did in the end(bloody scums) and went for bbq. ahha we didnt buy enough sausages i guess. played mahjong, i tink ppl help me play more than i play myself. had gd tiles in the beginning, but didnt win anymore after tt. junior class was fun.. ;) no wait correction. it was more fun bluffin them about who their angels are ahha. now they're all confused. hopefully.

the girls n three guys came my hse today to bai nian. heh it was hot and my hse didnt haf much to eat. and me n eug were nearly late for choir prac. i ran into the hall n looked arnd but i didtn see anyone i knew. haha i tink i looked lk a fool starin so hard at them(i THINK its ajchoir pfft) until eug told me its nt our choir. ahha. hey i wasnt late, but i tink tt got me quite high. i told nelson 'xin nian kuai le' and he told me to 'zao1 shen1 gui4 zi3'. nuts.
and mayling is happy. ;) long story.
went tampines after tt. stil cant find my cheena bag, but we bought nice earrings! n spotlight had alot of postxmas stuff.

and heres my wish-shoppin list.
1.CHEENABAG. if i still can find it. stupid giant.
2.sneaker-maryjanes frm bata. 19.90
3.yellow slippers frm novo. 16.50
4.dawson creek cd. i dont wanna wait.. for our lives to be over ;) 6.50 (!!)
5.coyote ugly cd. 12.50 i tink. ive always wanted teh soundtrack.
6.white pointy shoe frm pretty fit. 9.90 (oh man this is the most pek cek one. it was such a steal but they couldnt find the other side. it was nice lah!Grrr)

yup ok i tink tts quite alot alr.
anw my sis is goin off on mon. quite fast huh. it'll just be me n my dad for three wks. dont worry, we'll survive on takeaways.

I believe for every drop of rain that falls a flower grows.

chior bbq was great. i had such a great time there, just doing silly stuff and eating all those marshmallows. its official i dont haf a big mouth! ahhah. ;) my record was four lah hahah. and i really love my choir frens WE ROCK. synchronised swimming was great fun, the boy team SUCKS and i can stil rem rayner on his knees barkin. haha. the thg was, no one even noticed it! and dennis.. oh man. he's a great actor. and dough is not a good thing for hair. really.

then went to my family chalet.

went for this jazz concert today. i went and realise it was actually a tribute concert to this jazz drummer by the name of Edmond Branson Jr. everythg about the concert was really gd. it was really true musical talent on display and i thot it was one of the best concerts ive ever went to, although it wasnt full hse nor was it at esplanade. when they were showin the video for introduction i really wanted to cry. i dont tink its easy to lose someone and then still see him on screen. anyway the music was great entertainment and two hours passed and i didnt even noe it. lets just say i only got to attend half of the concert and didnt get to hear the stars of the concert (claressa and jacinta). bah ok *swears* i shall just shut up because nthg is goin to change teh fact tt i didnt. but if nxt time theres such an opportunity and i haf to pay more than 16bucks to listen, im so gonna flip.

feels good to be walkin again.

i will never walk stairs the same way ever again. my right leg is achin now frm all the walkin, im serious, no exaggeration. but hey im not complaining. anw i cant wait for choir bbq this sat, too bad i have to go off early for my sis' bbq. we will have the chubby bunny showdown before i leave! ;)

we're such bad examples for our junior class. today they wanted to pon lecture and although we did try to persuade them not to they somehow didnt walk into the lt. instead they followed us into some dingy classroom and started playing cards with us. HMmmm. ;)

im brave but im chicken shit

i can walk! muaha. went to the doc's today, waited for two hrs, crutched into the doc's room but walked out holdin them. ;) ppl in the clinic were laughin at me heh. but hey it feels great to be walking again, although im gonna be excused from pe for two months, which to me is really horrible coz i cant stand sittin around doin nthg, but hey im not gonna complain. oh n the bump on my leg is probably not gonna go away, ever. its lk when bone grows again they tend to grow bigger (at least tts wad the doc said).
oh n i went shoppin for my new years' clothes right after that. muaha. my mum was quite impulsive, she was lk 'buy lah buy lah!' so in the end i bought a LONG skirt (rai was bettin that i wld wear some short skirt for new year now tt my leg is fine bleah) n some top. from the same shop. spent quite a bit of money jsut for one set but hey i hope i look fine. i hate wearin long skirts coz i feel so short in them. as if im not short enough.

then i went sch n everyone who saw me asked me to jump.

reyner (i hope i got his name correct, he's my junior in choir n class) said it was the first time he saw me walk. wonderful way of puttin thgs huh.

what it all comes down to, is that everything is gonna be fine fine fine. ive got one hand in my pocket, the other is giving a high five. ;)

im sane but im overwhelmed

im feelin really lazy right now. which explains why i havent been online for soo long.
anw theres this mad mosquito on the loose right now. it's bitten my sis bout 12 times or smthg, me too but nt this bad. darn n i thot i was hot enough. haha.

not going sch tmr, goin to the doc's, although i dont tink he'll give me immunity frm crutches simply bcoz the bump is startin to hurt again.

im so lazy im not even writing to my angels or mortals. okayy i just wrote lk two letters today but hey, it was pretty much overdue.

oh yes n playin bridge with lucas adrian n sue was damn fun. i cant believe i was such a klutz, but i kept puttin down wrong cards, lk wrong trumps or not trumpin the card when im supposed to.
n today's bridge with my class was horrible. i kept havin to wash my cards twice in a row. wad lousy luck. but hey gd brains, i won the games ;) or at least i remmeber winnin.

i think the halter top i wore in bintan is so stretched now i can just give it to my sis lah. haha ;)

anagrams

my most current fascination. which i infected half my class with n all of them were doing it towards teh end of bio lect today MUAHA.

if u think u noe me well enough. try solving these :)
(the best so far) joyous in racket.
o' rosy juice tank
you reckon it, jas?

hahah. erm okay if u tink u noe my classmates well enough u can try these too:
o' nine gauge.
has a star in ohio (sounds so pretty right? unfortunately the person isnt quite.. haha kiddin)
sad boy no brain (this is one of the truest ones so far..)
jane chan gain a jet (hahha i came up with this. i always come up with phrases that has no link.. :(
erm.. cant tink of anymore. oh heres one more. hint: its rosh's
how i had a war in NS. (i thought this was cool!)
i ran and sow wind. (i thought it sounded quite poetic. haha. ok fine im no shakespeare)

aniwae went to the doc today. first thg i did was to take out my cast, but the doc wanted to put me back on cast again n i adamently refused. apparently the fracture line is still there, so it hasnt healed completely. so.. im back on crutches, for another two wks, and i must try nt to walk on my right foot.
well i guess it saves my mum a lot of trouble n money. dont tink ill be wearin really nice clothes for new years. ;)

pfft.

right. so i havent been updating ;)

dad picked me up after choir yesterday n we had tea together. he bought one ice kachang, one dao suan, two curry puffs, one samosa n three fried sweet potato.

had dinner with my dad too, since my mum n sis were out. he bought one chicken chops set, one box of hokkien mee, n carrot cake.

GUYS *rolls eyes*

ARGH gp essay *pui

i really hate writing gp essays on singapore. but i really have no choice because the ones i wan to write is too difficult to n i was gettin confused even thinkin bout what to write.
should medical science always seek to prolong life?
a gd leader must always looks beyond the needs of his/her country.
my brain needs some sort of.. smthg.
in other words i dont tink its workin.YET.
bah.
haha am i whiney or what.

one more bloody month

haha i went for the doc's appointment today n well, i was kinda hopin for a miraculous reply frm him after he sees my xray, smthg more along the lines of 'yes wow, ur healin fast, lets take off ur cast today!!' but nooo, he said 'well, gd, ur bone hasnt shifted. lets keep it on for one more month'. ;(
then i msged eug n told her she has to take care of me for "one more bloody month!!!" n haha, she called me to check if i was alright. of coz i am. ill just pon sch n sit at home n wilt n grow fat. boo.

oh n guess wad. my nephew who just started talkin this wk pointed to the macdonald sign n said 'burger'. we corrected him n said its 'M', nt 'burger' n only after much persuasion did he correct himself. we're undoin mac's influence on our poor little kids of our future generation. thats it man, im boycottin macs! they have enough business anyways.

i just had macs breakfast today. haha ;) ok after today no more macs for me. at least for a mth! haha. which is gonna be really easy for me, ill just nt get my sis to get me lunch frm macs ;)
the diary of a pampered kid.

yr 2. yawn.

wanted to pon the nxt few days but my mum wasnt too comfortable with me doin that. sighh.

anw i had to answer ppl's incessant qns bout my leg. haha cant they see that its in a cast? of coz its nt alright, but i'll live, dont worry.

n its really hell to climb up 3 stories in your crutches. i was so afriad im just goin to fall back n tumble down the stairs. baaddd feelinnn.

i shd just stay home n try to bake something! ;)

gdbye 2004, helloo 2005

sat in front of the tv for most of the day, there were really quite a few gd shows on today. but most imptly i watched quite a bit of news, mostly on the tsunami. its really heartwrenchin to watch the victims talk bout how they lost their whole families, how they tried to save their family members but to no avail.

right now im listenin to corfrinne may's cd in silent consolation to myself with regards to not being able to go listen to her at esplanade. darn ive been plannin it for so long.. bah.

its really amazin how fast this yr has been. suddenly im on the last day of the year that had me thrown in a rollercoaster of emotions. at the end of it all, i find myself holding on dearly to wad i believe in, n further away frm wad i decided that i wld dislike. and yet at the same time i found friends who have invaded my life in a way they never had. i had my share of wild fun, n my sombre moments too. had my fair share of tears, but i definitely laughed the hardest too. i reailse more than ever how blessed i am, n i really am thankful. i also know i must work hard so as nt to let my blessed soul go to waste.
i think of my future more than ever.
ive learnt how to deal with departures, because ppl dont stay with u all the time. but its ok as long as they've had a positive impact in ur life, bcoz tt impact stays on even after they're far away. although i prob would still cry, but ive learnt to look at it in a positive light. i just hope i dont cry too hard when my sis goes off.. hehs. if ur laughin at this hey ur evil.
ive learnt that im nt that invincible after all. im no longer who i used to be, even who i used to be wasnt that great anyway. i haf my fair share of failures n as always, it has humbled me.
i realise ive always had ppl 'lookin after' me all these while, been there for me when im down, help me with stuff, n i thank them for it.
i beileve my friendships have transcended to a level where we've gone beyond caring how she looks, whether she has spinach stuck in between her teeth, whether he jumps on a table n starts doing funny stuff, or whether she hugs a bolster to sleep everynight. i love my friends, i love my darlings, i love my limited scope of guy friends. ;)
i thank my parents for being so protective of me n giving me curfews (heh) n doing everythg to show that they really care.
and my sister for being so mean to me. well, sometimes. ;) i will nv forget that pinch that made that huge blue-black on my arm.

2005 will be a great yr.
to start it off, we shd all go watch 'one fine day'! i tink george clooney looks really gd in it... ;) n forget bout thsoe tutorials, will do it when sch starts.*winks

vjchoir rox.

being in vjchoir is a lifestyle. hey that really sums everythg up man. ;)

had farewell for our seniors. yeah the tealight session was really a very gd idea (whichever batch that came up with this idea) n i can just imagine myself talkin nxt yr. its must be the dark lighting n the candle flame.. makes u feel warm n fuzzy.
n i made a new resolution to frequent choir room more nxt yr. ;)
n now my hand smells of smoke bcoz we kept playin with fire. ;) me n mich had a gd time figurin out wad was the best way to light up the satay stick.

plenty of reflections n reminders going thru my head right now. will try to make the best out of wad we haf for nxt yr. ;)

five wks.

thats how long my leg is gonna be in cast for. bahh i hate crutches. its nt fun at all! u get really tired after a while.. n this funny feeling below ur armpits even when ur nt usin it.. im so gonna get dents in my body below my armpits. argh. my sis tinks its fun.. well. kids will be kids.

im glad my mum is around for me. if i had to do everythg myself today i tink i wld haf just did it really badly or smthg.. yeah i am dependent on others but hey its nt that i refuse to walk around n wait to be served, so it isnt that bad. im just grateful to my mum. n yeah i did tell her that ;)

i just spent three hours doing 16 cards for my choir seniors. im giving up.. no more cards! to tink i wanted to do for almost all the seniors.. maybe tmr morn. my hands are achin. or ill just get chocs heh.

i had macs at east coast after my hopspital trip this morn n i could taste the new rubber when i ate fries. now i'll haf to wash my hands before i eat. darn those rubber handles. rubber tastes awful.

anw my mum reminded me im goin on hols nxt sat. some beach resort at bintan. i'll haf to stay indoors or stay by the pool. aww no bikinis for me, darn. *pouts. haha.

cranberries, baby.

i really like that cd ;D

just had whispers of the earth concert. hahah really didnt noe it really was THAT short, im sorry! haha. but hey the little kids were cute rite? hee. really miss my class ppl, but glad to see them today. ;)

my feet isnt gettin any better, in fact i tink its more purple now. n it actually hurts more, though i can walk better. am i contradictin myself? HM.

its such a blessin to live in singapore, to be far away frm all the disasters. n still be able to go for ice cream buffets n listen to my fav songs, see my fav ppl, sing, live in comfort, wear nice clothes. im blessed.
and i firmly believe that many things that happened durin my lifetime has pointed out my life's directions for me. i really tink i shd be doin smthg for the ppl(eg. be a doc), nt for myself(eg. be a businesswoman). but then again, all young ppl have idealistic dreams, n as much as i like being practical, i am ambitious and wan to be the best i can be. i wan to work in a hospital, then go off to some underdeveloped country and work for a few yrs before comin back.

there. my dreams. ;)
which doesnt (at present) include marriage/love/romance bcoz i have nt figured out how it will all fit in. when i do i'll update u guys.

have yourself a merry little christmas ;)

carolin yesterday was gd, today was better. although i did tink the 15mins sessions at ritz was really crap, but oh well, 15mins is gd. besides, everyone was too busy eating fabulous food to be listenin to us anyway. its okay, i didnt really mind :)
felt like some scrooge receivin all the cards n nt givin out any. just thot that this yr i didnt feel it was appropriate to give any out. ok yeah, scrooge, but i really love my cranberries cd! thankss jiee ;) was really sad to read her letter bout her being with me no matter where she is. she just had to remind me that she's going away really soon n even tho sometimes she acts really 'pfft' i haf to treasure befores she leaves! haha. ;) n its really embarrassin but i found a pres without any name n i cant rem gettin it frm anyone.. this is bad.
thanks thanks to all seniors n frens for cards n all, thanks for all the encouragement n warm wishes, love u guys n treasure all the friendships. really!

for a moment i felt quite sad carollin was over. didnt feel relieved or anythg, just.. wow, its over. feels gd to see all the seniors come bck n sing/listen. really. will do it for many yrs to come ;)

blue feet n pink cookies.

thats the colour of my feet now.

anw my hp is actin funny. supposedly the messages sent are 'error' but actually some of them did get sent. so erm. i normally stop afer three errors but if u dont get the msg stil pls blame samsung.

oh n yesterday mich n gracia came over to my hse to bake cookies. we gave up on the toffee apple idea, simply bcoz we cannt find the fudge that hardens. anw we were all so tired after that we all slept in the cab. we had nice pink icings on the cookies, although we didnt haf time to wait for all to harden so lk mary's was all smudged up heh. but hers was the biggest n had the most icing muaha.
n once again can i emphasize the point that if u get diarrhoea, its betty crockers' fault. okayy?
anw besides the big cookies we had smaller cookies for everyone too, with pink smiley faces on them. offered one to jeremy n he had this stupid expression on his face that he couldnt bite it down. then gracia asked him hows the cookie n he said 'its okay, just that u haf to bite.' qianbian statement #1.

and i truly believe that we shd all enjoy(or at least pretend to, it is a performance after all) carollin however tiring it is. yes lets make it even better with no flops but even if there is just take it as lesson learnt? and i really tink im quite proud of the yr ones n yr zeros (n so far some yr twos) i see carollin everyday, that IS itself dedication to choir n we shd be proud AND thankful for that. n of coz for the fact that bridge now practically binds the whole choir together i tink. tenors sops n altos. poor basses. ;)

dang.

on my dad's com now n everythg's chinese. how cool. i haf a cousin stayin over so he's usin the com room.

ritz today was ok. i felt gd. although i still feel that its high injustice that gowns dont haf pockets to put pitchpipe n bring notes.

the marble steps at raffles are evil. repeat after me 'the steps are evvill'.
yeah i fell down.
bang bang boom.
my butt hurts. ive got two bruises on my hips, n one big bumb on my leg. i feel lk a bruised woman everytime i sit down. all i can think of is that this is a very bad timing.. darn.
oh well im strong.
evil steps.
whinesss.

carollin, baby.

heh ok i'll try to make the next carollin session better k! by xmas day ill be really gd conductin carols, woohoo. ;) sorry to all the seniors who came down n couldnt hear wad song we gonna sing n the note. n ill try to stop dancin arnd so u guys can see me.. which already is quite difficult i tink. hm. someone donate higher heels to me..

after our carollin session at ritz last nite we walked over to raffles. yes, via marina square, citylink, raffles city. yes, in our gowns. yes, in a superfastwalkin speed coz we haf long legs (dont u already know that?).
n yes, we were mad. ahha.

anw im tired. but glad carollin has started which means its goin to be over soon. ill try my best to enjoy it, of coz i really enjoy the company, so i guess that makes it better. n we're so gonnna make toffee apples, stayover or nt, ha!

have yourself, a merry little christmas.

xmas is just around the corner! yeah i dont celebrate xmas, but its gd to know that soon ill stop seein the choir peeps every single day.. ;)

man without a paddle is hilarious. so was ocean's twelve (swoons at george clooney although brad pitt was so hot in the movie u cant really ignore him but oh well GEORGE! :) n heres a subtle indictation that ive spent too much money, yup.

and cip at ps with gracia yesterday was great. besides the part that after we bought lunch there were so many gifts to be wrapped we didnt get to eat until bout 5plus. by then our beehoon n noodles had gone really oily, yucks. but it was fun. i had two disasters, n gracia had to erm, correct them ;) i feel quite bad if teh person's watchin, but hey i wrapped a few nice pres too! n im much better than gracia at promotin stuff heh. n i HATE two ppl bridge i kept losin. bah.

carollin starts tmr, hooray.

hmm.

okay im evil. i ranted at gab, but hey i was being honest. i dont normally get honest with ppl bout how i feel bout choir bcoz obviously i cant. and i always try to get out of tricky situations by givin the excuse that im woman. hey i hated carolin last yr. yet i sang for all five days.
anw im glad gab ranted back at me. ;)

anw anw anw, tmr's gonna be a nice day! hospital attachment, cip with gracia at ps, then carolin with vc at esplanade at nite. ;)

i dont need ur show of attitude

i feel quite bad. me n gracia were supposed to pick mary up frm airport(r u reading this??) but we erm decided a movie wld be good so we ended up watchin national treasures to pass time n when we got to terminal one we only got to see an empty conveyor belt. we tried our luck at the foodcourt upstairs but nah. we had popeye chicken for dinner tho. im so horrible! after tryin so hard to get samuel's number n all i cant even see her. bahh. my mum keeps tellin me how lousy i am but hey, at least i was honest with my mum.. told her i was supposed to be studyin with gracia hee. mary im soo sorry! ;(

anw we had a damn funny train ride. oh gosh i tink the ppl thot we were mad.
lesson no. 1: if u ever marry someone with surname ong, nv name ur son with the initials T.H. because his army nametag will read T.H.ONG. n trust me, ppl cant stop laughin. i was tearing..frm tryin nt to laugh too loud.
ok so i dont haf a lesson no. 2. :)

went back tk choir. i had this idea of persuadin ms lim that hey we still care bout the choir n all, so pls dont drop tk choir after all these years. but when i saw how hard ms lim was tryin n how lousy they really were, i just didnt haf the heart to. on the contrary, i fully understand why ms lim wld wan to drop tkchoir. although she insists she wont. the sound was bad, they cant read their music very well, supposedly the music was given to them bout a month ago already n they still cant get the notes n entries rite. one thg commendable was that they seemed quite bonded. thats gd, really. but none of them were interested in me this laozabo standin up there. i just felt my old domineerin self rise up in me again when i saw how they dealt with everythg, n i really cldnt resist being nosey. im sorry! maybe its the green, *shrugs*
okay so let me complain for a while.
i stepped into tk n i saw the circular lawn. it was so unkempt! the grass was long n u cld see all the weeds. n we, old girls, had to get visitors' pass. WTH. hey im on MY territory n i haf to get passes to walk arnd. honestly, im nt an intruder lah, this was once my plc too, u really didnt haf to treat us lk strangers n trespassers. BAH. yah cool, spend money on renovatin the general office n forget bout the welfare of sch.
ok im done now its time for me to slp.
i keep pesterin gabriel about carollin stuff i tink he's gettin irritated. but hey i cant help it.. i haf to rite? hee ;)
n i still feel bad bout mary. ;(

i am snow white.

for a very long time i sat before my com, thinkin of what i want to write, or rather, how shd i go about talkin bout this.

lets just say im happy i talked to kiat n owen today on my way home. i really am! besides the fact that they were giving me crappy ideas on how to waste time durin carollin (idea no. 1: have carolin/standup comedy. get a crappy emcee to talk bout the songs to fill up long intervals. idea no.2:get a conveyor belt of conductors, n take ur time to change conductor after every song.) i think they just heightened my spirits bout carolin. i dont care if they're bluffing me.. actually i do but hey its the thot that counts!
they tried to bluff me that we were going to watch movie n i nearly stepped up the escalator. okay, i did, then i sorta ran down before it took me up. evil peoplee. n they kept feeding me with lies. after a while i got really confused. pfft.

just wrote an email to rach, just felt lk writin one. miss her. n rosh n nab.

hey okay. ive decided. im going to make toffee apples WITH GRACIA as xmas pres for choir peeps. n if u decide to visit me on xmas day pls let me noe ill make one for u too! i dont care if snow white died of a poisonous apple my toffee apple is gonna be deliciouss yumyum lick lips. get the idea? haha. u better be droolin..
i havent thot of writing xmas cards. usually im quite efficient about this, but this yr i dont haf the urge. im sorry my dearest friends.

popcorn in 12 flavours. sounds gd ;)
ohoh i took neoprints today. my eyes looked big muahah. must be the eyeliner whee eyeliner rox.

th'angel to the virgin said

felt lk i havent been online for ages. but actually mich reminded me that my last entry was just thursday. ;) had two weeks of choir(almost everyday, until late night) it was driving me abit nuts. i need my slp! i still do. i sleep wherever i can. n im nt so addicted to bridge now, after playin with gracia's dirty cards which totally stinks. gracia better provide gloves with her cards for the next game. haha.

had performance with sco n vc for christmas concert today. we were looking at all the vc guys going crazy singin the girls' part for carolin, n gracia was commentin thats how our guys will look lk ten yrs down the road. then i commented i wld much rather they be sittin down playin bridge.. heh. ;)

anw i haf some hair follicle infection n it was achin quite badly yesterday. much better now, but i still cant believe ive got hair follicle infection. sounds too.. funny to be true.

ho ho ho merry christmas n gong xi fa cai!
i need my slp see i told u.

its my LIFE!!!

haha call me silly but i got all excited when i saw sly real life again. he looked so good! haha. okay yes there were taufik's eyelashes as well but hey, sly looks good k! anw my toes r aching, my back is achin, my hair is wet (i had to wash them twice to get all the spray off) n i haf 12 hair clips from jeanyip which they had used to pin my hair. HOWCOOLISTHAT.

i haf sly's autograph oh my mediacorp pass. i haf his badge which they gave out durin the concert. i haf his poster frm lime. im mad.

haha. i didnt even give a shit bout the other idols. nt even when chrissypoo came over n all the girls were lk ' AHH can i get ur autograph?' i was rollin my eyes. heh. hey he's a big flirt! i dont lk big flirts. he'll just come up to u n talk to u. he thinks his charm can rub off me but NOO i wont let that happen.
although my boyfriend shd be able to serenade me with that kind of voice wahaha.

the choir ppl were mobbin the idols n askin them for autographs n pictures since we share the same makeup room n we meet them backstage n all.

am really happy. although they pulled my hair back n give me orange lipstick, its okay. was as good as being in the concert ;)